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Chapter Eleven: Disappointment

I knocked on the door and stood back to wait patiently for Edward to answer. When nothing happened after a few minutes, I knocked again.

With each passing minute of silence I became more and more depressed, until finally Emmett stormed passed me.

"That's it. I'm breaking down the door," Emmett said, and when he angled his shoulder towards the door I knew he was serious.

Emmett barely had to touch his shoulder to the door before it fell down, causing a loud thud to echo down the hallway. I knew before we even walked through the door that Edward was gone. I didn't feel the usual pull that I feel whenever I was around Edward, so I knew he wasn't there; yet I walked forward anyway.

I walked forward because part of me still hoped that he would be there, or at the very least that he had left a clue as to where he might have gone. After walking though the dingy rooms of the apartment, my suspicions were confirmed; Edward was not here. I felt a massive wave of emptiness and disappointment flow through me, causing me to fall to the floor.

"Bella, are you okay?" Alice asked, her voice laced with concern.

"I was sure he would be here," I mumbled, more to myself than anyone else.

"We all thought so, Bella," Jasper said, and I could feel the calm he was throwing at me. I didn't even try to fight it; instead, I welcomed it.

"He must have a made a split second decision to leave, because I didn't see anything," Alice said, and I could tell she was starting to blame herself.

"Alice, this isn't your fault," I said, while finally looking up to meet her eyes. "Please don't blame yourself."

"But Bella, if I had seen something, we could have caught him," Alice said.

"You said it yourself Alice, he made a split second decision," I said. "There would have been nothing for you to see."

"She's right, Alice," Jasper added.

"I suppose," Alice said, but I could tell she still blamed herself.

"So, what do we do now?" I asked, realizing we had no idea where to go from here.

"Well, first you are going to get some sleep, because I know you haven't had much lately," Jasper said while staring at me. I knew that the bags under my eyes made it clear that I was exhausted and needed rest.

"Fine," I agreed while grabbing my duffle bag that I had dropped by the door and heading for the bathroom.

"What are you doing?" Alice asked, looking at me strangely.

"Changing - so I can go to sleep," I said, not quite understanding what the problem was.

"You don't think we are staying here, do you?" Alice asked, eyeing the place like it was the most disgusting thing she had ever seen.

"Oh, Alice, please?" I begged on the verge of tears. "I am tired and stressed to my breaking point. Don't make me move again tonight."

"Fine," Alice said, and I could tell she saw that I was going to lose it soon. "But we are going to hunt while you sleep so I don't have to stay in this place."

"Fine, whatever," I said over my shoulder as I walked to the bathroom.

Once I was in the bathroom, I moved as fast as humanly possible so I wouldn't have to stay in there any longer than necessary. After I brushed my teeth, changed my clothes, and ran a brush through my hair, I made my way back to the living room. Everyone had already gone hunting, so I threw my duffle bag next to the couch and flopped down.

As I looked around the room I tried to imagine Edward staying here, but I just couldn't. The ceiling had yellow water stains all over it, the carpet was dusty, the walls had cracks in them, and I could hear mice running around behind them. The only furniture in the room was the very couch I was lying on, which had cracks that were held together by duct tape. There was, however, one appealing thing about the couch; it still had a little bit of Edward's scent on it, which told me that he had in fact been here.

I was a little cold, but I didn't know how long the blanket on the back of the couch had been there, so I curled into a ball and fell asleep.

I dreamt of Edward that night. We were lying in our meadow, looking up at the stars. He had his arms around me, and he would smile at me and kiss me when I would look over at him. Our only other focus was looking at the stars shining bright in the ebony sky. It was a dream I never wanted to wake up from, and also a dream I knew I wanted to make come true.

I eventually did wake the next morning, with my desire to find Edward refueled.

I was surprised to see Alice, Jasper, and Emmett staring at me when I woke up from my beautiful dream.

"What?" I asked, and I could feel the blush on my cheeks from the attention.

"You were talking," Emmett said with a smirk, and I felt my blush heat up even more.

"What did I say?" I asked, even though I wasn't sure I wanted to know the answer.

"Well, you said Edward's name a lot," Jasper said. "And you said that you loved him quite a few times."

"I think it was sweet," Alice said as I started to remember the parts of my dream when I told Edward I loved him.

"Anyway, we brought you breakfast," Alice said after a minute.

I gratefully took the donut and bottle of juice she offered me, because I was actually pretty hungry.

"Thanks," I said after I finished my food.

"No problem," they all said at the same time, which creeped me out a little bit.

"We were thinking about going back to Esme and Carlisle's," Jasper said, testing my emotions carefully.

"No," I said. "I am not giving up on Edward. I want to keep going."

"Are you sure, Bella?" Alice asked. "We don't know long it might take."

"I am sure," I said with certainty.

"Then we are not giving up, either," Emmet stated.

"Are you sure?" I asked.

"We are sure," Alice said.

"Don't worry, Bella, we will find Edward," Jasper said, and for the first time in a while I actually believed it.

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