The title is kinda stupidly nerdy. Na (sodium) and Chlorine (Cl) are perfect for each other in terms of ionic bonding so of course that equates how Edward and Bella already are.
Once again this chapter was inspired by a song that is the opposite of the tone of the chapter but it's Track Number One on the Bella CD. It's called Pop Rocks by Fight Fair & rocks my indie emo world. : ) Since this was on a CD that made me realize "Hey, I'm a douche cause this amazing chiquito is right in front of me and I completely love Alexander Berns", I dedicate this chappie to my long lost love, Alex. I miss ya kid more than my stoicism will allow me and this song still makes me feel exactly like I did summer before last. Te amo. Anyway, the song is perfect for Edward's cheesiness. If you guys are curious about the whole play list, I'll post it on my profile.
Everyone bow down and worship my new, shiny, British beta: I Am Karma. She knows who Eddie Izzard is and became my hero. She's like Optimus Prime, no doubt. I hope she will forgive me for sending this out into the world without her checking it first. From now on she will. : )
On with the show.
January 2010:
Waking up that morning I was beyond nervous. My hands were shaking from the moment I rolled out of bed until I jumped into Emmett's giant white Jeep. He looked over at me.
"Listen, bro, it's gonna be fine with your chica," he glanced at me with me staring dejectedly into my lap, "Umm, hey, let's listen to this CD you brought." He seemed happy about it and even though I only wanted one other person listening to that CD, if it made this ride less awkward why the hell not?
The "Oh yeah" part of the track went by and turned into a heavy 80s sort of beat as my face turned scarlet.
Emmett just stared at me as he drove down the driveway. The silence was incredibly strange until the lyrics started playing and Emmett started belting out the lyrics.
Hey there girl yeah you know who you areYou walked into my life and then you stole my heartI think it's those eyes that keep killing us guysAnd for your sinister smile the b-b-boys go wildBaby it's those things you do, That make me think I'm falling for you, yeah!
He paused the song after my mouth dropped to the floor of the Jeep. He gave me an appraising look and shrugged his shoulders. "Hey, you're not the only one in the world allowed to like Fight Fair." I shrugged my own shoulders and started singing along with Emmett as he played the song again.
Hey there girl you got me going againDon't bother with the other boys I'm better than themJust tell me what I need to doBaby I'd do anything for youI'll hold you close and I'll never ever let you goI'll text you all night long and even write you a songWhen you've had a bad day I'll leave a note on your carJust to tell you that you look like a moviestarYou're my Audrey Hepburn and I'm your James DeanSo tell me will I get you girl by the end of the scene?But all I know is that girl you got me going againAnd I think you like me too (lets not pretend! )
A red BMW convertible full of blonde girls drove by us laughing and I would have blushed like my nerdy self but I realized the joke was on them since having the top down was going to get them all pneumonia.
Baby it's those things you do, That make me think I'm falling for youHey there girl you got me going againDon't bother with the other boys I'm better than themJust tell me what I need to doBaby I'd do anything for youI'll call you late at night, to help you fall asleepThen call you in the morning, so we can talk about our dreamsI'll call you late at night, to help you fall asleepThen call you in the morning, so we can talk about our dreamsHey there girl you got me going againDon't bother with the other boys I'm better than themJust tell me what I need to doBaby I'd do anything for you
Emmett and I listened to that CD on repeat all the way to Seattle. I could barely breathe when he pulled into the parking lot of that Starbucks. He clapped his giant meaty paw on my shoulder for reassurance. I scoped out the store from the comfort of my seat and there, at the table we were at last time, was Bella looking beleaguered and beat down with her angry friend Alice who had dark brown spiky hair. Uh oh, not ending well here for me.
"I'm here for you, Edward. I know I don't say this often but I love you man and whatever she says in there does not change that." For some reason this made me give Emmett a large "man hug". He wiped tears out of his eyes.
"Get out of here, you lump. I won't move an inch." I left the car and went straight to Bella's table with her CD.
She gave me a weak smile while Alice glared at me. I put the CD on the wall and pushed towards Bella. She said thanks and put it in her purse. She reached for my hand and I noticed hers was sweaty and cold.
"Edward, I asked you to come here today because I had something to tell you." I figured since I was probably going to lose her I might as well tell her the truth about my age.
"Um, I have something important to tell you too." We sat there in silence, waiting for the other to speak first when Alice suddenly squawked, "Loser boy, why don't you go first." I felt really shitty because that must be my nickname from Bella so I just looked down from everyone and into my safe place, my lap.
Bella elbowed Alice in the ribs which caused Alice to squeal. "Edward, why don't you go first?"
"Umm", I started looking into my lap. Alice started laughing hysterically.
"Bella, you slept with this freaking douche bag, he can't even get a real sentence out of his mouth!" I blushed and directed my eyes at the floor, wishing I could disappear into it. Bella was apparently blushing too.
"Go on, Edward, ignore Bitchzilla here."
"Well, Bella, the thing is….I'm actually sixteen." I stupidly decided to look at Bella now and she had paled considerably and looked like she was going to throw up again.
Alice looked at Bella like she was waiting for her to blow up, no instead she started hyperventilating.
"FUCK!!! This makes everything so much worse, Alice!!", she said with her attention focused on Alice like I wasn't even there. Remember the "sex talk" with my parents, yeah, right now I wanted to die a lot more. "I fucked a little kid, Alice! He probably still has Power Rangers sheets and has his mom critique all of his clothes!"
I actually at this point was so humiliated that it pissed me off that I let people treat me like such shit so I stormed away from the table.
"Edward!", Bella shouted as she got up from the table after me, "come back!" That set me off so I turned around as we got outside and acted the least gentleman-like I ever would in my whole life.
"No, why don't you just fuck off? I get the point that I'm some sort of amusement for everyone and I should probably just go kill myself because no one likes the emo nerd genius kid. OK, I get it. You didn't have to call me here just to make me feel more like shit than I usually do and you certainly could have just let Alice do the breaking up for you online. So why don't you get back in there with your friend and have fun living your normal lives and LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!!" I jumped into Emmett's Jeep and he sped out of there silently.
I sat there fuming and stewing in my anger until Hoquiam when I realized how shitty she had let me feel in there and I started bawling my eyes out. Emmett wrapped his arms around me and tried to calm me down.
"Ed, she's not worth it, she's not worth it. I heard everything and the shit she just let be said about you is bullshit. You're better than that, Edward. You're gonna have a future and she's just gonna be bogged down by some jock's babies." I finally got my cries down to a quieter level and Emmett started driving again.
When we got home, I just ran upstairs and laid down on my bed. Emmett followed me and started rubbing my back. Mom tried coming in my room but Emmett explained that I was having "girl trouble". I scoffed. This was not just girl trouble. I felt completely worthless.
I lost track of time after that but I remember one day me and Emmett and Rose were just sitting in my room. They were watching TV and I sat in the corner catatonic when my cellphone went off.
Emmett answered it angrily. "Leave. My. Brother. Alone….", he paused to let her speak and the rest of the conversation that was like a car wreck to me went something like this:
"No, he doesn't want to talk to you….Why? WHY? Cause he hasn't said anything since last week! That's why! No, He. Does. Not. Want. To. Talk. To. You. Or. Your. Bitch. Friend."
Emmett looked over at me but my expression didn't change. I finally decided to go get some food for myself the next day which made them both smile when the doorbell rang. My mom and dad were in the living room, snuggling so I guessed the company might be for them and I decided to be nice and let them in.
Well, that was Edward Fuck Up number 20 for the year because on the other side of the door was Isabella Swan. Her Toyota truck was parked on the curb packed full of stuff and her puffy eyes made it look like she had been crying for a long time, not that I felt that bad about it.
"What the hell do you want?", I snarled at her.
"Please, Edward, just let me explain, can I come in?", she asked in such a desperate way that even my hardened heart had to allow her entrance into the house.
He leaned against the wall in the foyer as she stood there staring at the ground. I thought that she must feel exactly like I did that day and I would have taunted her like she taunted me but I actually had a heart.
"Edward, I'm sorry about the other day--", she started before I cut her off.
"SAVE IT!" I didn't care if my parents could hear or not. I didn't want her pointless apologies.
"Edward, I just came here to say I'm pregnant." Silence rang throughout the entire house. The TV didn't make any noise. Emmett and Rosalie didn't giggle. Silence. I slumped down to the floor. I didn't even ask the asshole question of "is it mine?" because I already knew in my heart it was mine. I was enough of a genius to do the math.
"What do you want to do now?", I asked from my perch on the ground. She sat down next to me.
"I-I-I don't really know what I can do. I had to report this to my scholarship committee and I lost the scholarship so I had to leave campus. The day I called your phone and got your brother, I was here in Forks and my own dad wouldn't let me stay with him. He-he called me a whore. I don't know what to do."
She started full out sobbing and I started wiping the tears away from under her eyes.
"And I'm so sorry for that day at Starbucks, I really am. I know it's no excuse but I was just so stressed out about telling you and Alice was just being so goddamn protective of me. She led me back to our dorm because I was crying so hard.", she reached out for my face with her trembling fingertips and I let her fingers roam my face, "Then I started listening to your CD and I realized I was such a bitch. You didn't answer my calls or texts so I looked up your address in Forks so here I am. You don't have to do anything with me if you don't want to but I thought you should just know."
She stopped talking and focused on crying. "Hey pretty lady, now that I know the whole story, I can understand everything. I'm sorry for all the hell I put you through. Sure, I'm still a little pissed off at you and I really don't want to be around you right now but you're having my kid. I can't just let you sleep in your truck, Isabella." She threw herself onto my lap and I was willing myself to not become a complete pervert in this situation.
"You should make her get a paternity test, Edward." I turned around to see my older brother sitting on the stairs with fury in his eyes and his fists balled up.
"I agree", my father interjected, "the girl can stay here until then but if that's not your kid, she's leaving." My mother on the other hand was crying behind my father's shoulder.
"Eddie baby, how could you do something so stupid? What about your future?"
I scowled. "Mom, it's her future that's really gonna be fucked up and Bella, if it doesn't bother you too much when you're big enough, are you willing to get an amniocentesis to prove that's my baby?" She nodded.
"I'll do anything." I grabbed her bags and led her into the guest room opposite mine and then marched into my room. Sure, I was willing to let her live with us but I wasn't gonna be friendly for a while. I was still selfishly hurt.
I fell asleep and was awoken suddenly when it was dark by loud music in my room.
"Emmett, what the fuck?", I looked at my atom clock, "It's five in the morning." When I looked at the source of the sound it was actually Isabella with a boom box. I looked at her sleepily and then she started singing.
Hey there boy you got me going againDon't bother with the other girls I'm better than themJust tell me what I need to doBaby I'd do anything for youI'll hold you close and I'll never ever let you goI'll text you all night long and even write you a songWhen you've had a bad day I'll leave a note on your carJust to tell you that you look like a moviestar
I'm your Audrey Hepburn and you're my James DeanSo tell me will I get you boy by the end of the scene?But all I know is that boy you got me going againAnd I think you like me too (lets not pretend! )
Baby it's those things you do, That make me think I'm falling for youHey there boy you got me going againDon't bother with the other girls I'm better than themJust tell me what I need to doBaby I'd do anything for you
When the song ended, she just stood with tears in her eyes. This was her apology. I patted my bed and she climbed in, just a pair of shorts and a long shirt on her. I snuggled into her and we both fell asleep. We both knew I forgave her and we didn't need any words for that. We were both wrong but the important thing was we were wrong together and we forgave each other. And together, we'd find our way through this mess.
I warned you this is my typical story…
