This chapter is dedicated to Music ADD. You understood the double meaning of the last chapter, which just made my day.

Another boring day in the coal mine.

I was sitting next to the activation box of Edward's and mine. Today we were expanding the tunnel for the boss man. Smaller than I, Edward was the tunnel rat. With our explosive devise, I had sent him down into a promising hole.

We could smell the difference in the minerals, and we could assure anyone who asked that there were diamonds that direction. The first few times our co-workers doubted us, but after we proved to be right, they stopped arguing.

Edward said that the boss man had said that 'those boys have an instinct for this job'.

We had instincts, but not the same kind he was thinking of. No sixth sense or whatever, just vampire scent glands.

I grew increasingly bored with just sitting here. I poked my head into the hole and mentally asked, Edward, what's taking you so long down there?

I heard a growl, the sound of him scuffling around, and then an irritated snarl. He was practically radiating embarrassment and annoyance.

"I'm stuck," Edward answered me stonily. He poked his head out of the hole, frowning at me. "I guess I was too big for this, after all."

I grinned. That's okay. I can just blow you out. It'll only take a few hours to find you and put you back together.

Edward's golden eyes flashed and he snarled, "Jasper, don't be an idiot and help me."

Where was little Alice when you needed her?

Edward snorted, his way of agreeing with me.

I glanced over my shoulder to make sure nobody was close enough to see us. When the coast was clear, I rammed my shoulder into the top of the entrance hole. My hard body impacting with the brittle material shattered it and it crumbled, raining down on top of Edward.

He spat, shoving the debris away from him I was able to fit in the hole now, and I crawled over to him. He had stupidly wedged himself the wrong direction, and if he crushed the explosive device he would set it off while he was practically right on top of it.

I rolled my eyes. Good going.

He stuck his tongue out at me and I chuckled. Grasping some of the rock encasing him, I yanked back sharply, and tossed the large stone over my shoulder. He jumped up beside me and we returned to the activation box.

I grinned and slammed the little lever down. A half of a second later, a cloud of smoke and ash billowed all around us.

People wondered why miners got lung cancer! Edward laughed.

I flinched when a sharp wave of desperation and panic struck me from behind. I wasn't sure how I knew, but somehow I just knew, that it came from Alice. After this long- each of my family member's emotions had a special tinge to them that I could pick up on.

Edward was alerted by my thoughts and turned his head towards the opening of the mine. I felt confusion.

He reported, "She's asking for you- demanding for you actually. The boss won't let her into the mine. It's about Bella."

I didn't need to hear any more than that. Bella plus a desperate Alice equaled nothing good.

With speed maybe a little too fast for most humans, I turned and darted towards the opening of the mine. I ignored the actual miners as they watched me curiously.

Alice saw me and shouted, "Jasper!" She tried to run over to me.

The boss grabbed her elbow hard and shouted angrily in Russian.

Alice was forced to freeze. She had to keep up the human façade. There was no way a tiny woman like her, if we were human, would have been able to break free of our boss. He was bigger than Emmett.

I skidded over to them. I couldn't understand the things they were yelling at each other. I didn't know Russian. I could understand the fury coming from Alice, and the threat buried under my boss's words.

Nobody threatened my favorite sister. I grabbed his wrist and bent his hand backwards so far it was close to breaking. He wailed, and Alice had to stomp on my foot to make me let go.

Edward joined us, brushing soot off of his shirt as he growled something to our boss.

Alice grabbed my hand and we started running again. As soon as we were far enough away, she yanked me into our full speed.

I demanded, "Alice, what's going on? What's happening?"

She was afraid. I could feel it.

She took a deep breath and explained in a rush, "I had a vision of Bella jumping off of a cliff. I think she was crying, and as soon as she hit the water I lost contact of her. I think she might have broken her neck or something!"

My heart did not beat. It was totally impossible for my heart to break. I knew that, but I still felt it shattering. Falling down into little scattered pieces and set on fire by what I just heard.

Bella, my Bella- the sole reason I had to exist- was going to kill herself?

I actually stumbled in my run. Alice stopped me from falling.

She shook her head, "We don't have time for you to freak out, Jasper. It was very blurry, which hopefully means it hasn't happened yet. I got us tickets for the first flight to Seattle. We're leaving as soon as you and Edward change clothes."

I had no problem traveling covered in coalmine soot and what not, but I knew Alice would never allow it. She always made sure we looked presentable, even in the worst of situations.

I demanded, "Why can't you just call Charlie and ask where she is? Did you look for Silas? Is he dead, too?"

Oh, God! If they were both gone!!

I couldn't even think about how horrible that would be. What would I have left? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. My entire life would be completely over if Bella and Silas were dead.

I would have to leave. I would have to find a way to die. Would I be able to beg- to go to Italy and ask Aro if he would do it for me? To show him that I had nothing left; that the best part of me was gone, so I was gone as well?

Would I have to return to Mexico and search for Maria? She wouldn't let anyone kill me, but it would be easy enough to die with her. I could win her trust back with one little smile, and she'd be putty in my hands.

She would ask me to fight beside her again, and I would agree. When the battle finally came around, all I had to do was wait. Just let the newborn do to me what I had done to so many others.

If that plan were not an option, I would have Peter do it. I knew he would never want to, but he would set me on fire if it were what I needed him to do. If it was the only way I could be with them again…

"Jasper, calm down!" Edward's voice ordered me from close behind. He was running faster than I knew he even could to catch us with how far ahead we had gotten.

He skidded in between us and frowned at me. "Stop planning how many ways you have to off yourself, it's upsetting to listen to. Bella is alive."

His words were firm, confident, but I felt the waver in his heart. He knew as well as I did that Alice saw what she saw, and it was a possibility the worst was going to be what we found when we returned to Forks.

Alice jumped into our house through the open window and dictated, "Edward, take a shower. Jasper, wash your face. Our flight leaves in one hour, so be quick about it."

I dared to ask, "What time will we be in Seattle, Alice?"

Her eyes went blank for a second before she confirmed, "We will land in Barrow, Alaska late tonight. We could run from there, but the plane will be faster. We should be in Seattle early tomorrow morning."

Tomorrow morning. I could last that long, right? It had already been so long. What were another sixteen or so hours?

That was exactly what they were.

Sixteen long, terribly, agonizing hours of not knowing.

Sixteen hours of anxiety and fear.

The longest sixteen hours I would probably ever suffer through for as long as I may live.

Today I will recommend When Life Gives You Lemons written by Daddy's Little Cannibal. It's fifteen chapters of wonderfulment, of the lemon variety. And, it actually had a plot! :D