Disclaimer: Sadly I have no rights to Twilight. All these lovely creatures belong to Mrs. Meyer.

Rating: M

Summary: AH AU OOC Bella finally gives up on waiting for Jacob to notice her. Edward for once decides to attend a party. What will they do when their paths cross that night?

Chapter 04: I'm sorry

Bella's pov

The second the door slammed I realized what I had said and that I had done it in front of Edward. Sweet, wonderful, caring Edward. The first boy I had ever kissed. I practically told him that he meant nothing to me.

"Edward!" I yelled as I threw myself after him, but before I reached the front door of the building I heard his car take off.

"Shit, shit, shit!" I yelled into the empty stairwell.

I ran my hands through my hair, pulling at it in frustration. The kisses we shared did mean something, they meant a lot. And I had made it sound like it was nothing.

I slowly walked back up the stairs, tears running down my cheeks. When I came back to our floor, the girls were waiting for me in the doorway.

"Bella, I know I shouldn't have said what I did to Jacob and I'm so sorry," Rosalie whispered with red rimmed eyes.

"I know. I'm sorry for yelling at you. I know you would never do that on purpose."

I let them lead me back to the living room and guide me to the sofa. The sat down on either side of me and watched me cry.

"Bella, honey. Are you okay?"

"No, I'm not. I can't believe I said that in front of him. He must really hate me now."

Rosalie stroked my hair. "He's a nice guy, Bells. He might dress like a nerd but he really is a great guy."

I looked up at her and gauged her expression. She was always telling me never to settle for someone less than perfect, I never expected her to consider Edward good enough.

"Why was he here?" Alice asked over my head.

"When I realized what I'd said, I felt so incredibly guilty that I started crying. Emmett and Jacob were just gaping at me, but Edward knelt down beside me and let my cry on his shoulder for a while. He offered to take me home and be here when I explained. He thinks very highly of you, Bell."

I took a shaky breath. "Not any more," I whispered.

"It'll work out. Find him tomorrow and apologize. Explain things to him. I think he'll be reasonable," Rose said quietly. "You know, Emmett actually told me I could still stay the night, like nothing happened. To think I almost slept with him! Ugh. What was I thinking?"

Alice snickered. "What did you tell him?"

"I told him I'd rather have Edward take me home. I hope they will leave him alone when he gets back. I don't want to cause problems for him, he's too sweet for that," Rosalie responded.

I sat between them quietly, thinking about the night. One thing was clear to me. I needed to make amends with Edward, no matter what.

"Did you guys see how cute he was?" Alice suddenly asked.

I rolled my eyes at her. "Of course I saw. I was sitting very close to him for part of the night."

Rosalie giggled. "You know if he would lose the glasses and wear something other that oversized tees and baggy jeans, he would be a total hunk."

I slapped her arm. "Don't you dare do that to him. He's perfect the way he is."

"You're just worried that you'll get some competition," Alice quipped.

"Alice! Aren't you happy with Jasper?"

"I wasn't talking about me! I was talking about the other girls in college. He would have to beat them off with a stick."

"Shut up! I'm frustrated enough without speaking about Edward's gorgeous features and sex-hair!"

Rosalie started laughing loudly and soon Alice and I joined in. After a little while the laughter died down and I was suddenly back to my solemn mood about the Edward debacle.

"Bella?" Alice asked quietly.

"Hm?"

"If you had to chose now between another kiss from Edward and a date with Jacob, what would you pick?"

"I honestly don't know. I still have feelings for Jake. I can't just ignore them and hope they go away. I really like Edward, though, but I doubt that after tonight he would be inclined to kiss me again."

Edward's pov

When I returned to the house I was immediately attacked by Jacob. He punched my face, sending me flying against the front door. I was livid with this asshole and without thinking I punched his gut with all my strength. He doubled over with a groan and I yanked his face up by his hair.

"Don't you even fucking punch me again," I spat.

"Or you'll do what?" He attempted to sounds sarcastic but his slightly breathless state made his attempt pitiful.

"You'll never father children," I hissed before pushing past him.

When I got to the living room I was stopped by Emmett.

"Thanks for taking care of Rosie, Edward. And next time Jacob tries to punch you, I'll be there to stop him."

I heard Jacob snort behind me. I didn't acknowledge him, but instead nodded my thanks at Emmett before heading for the stairs.

"Hey, Cullen!" Jacob yelled.

"What?!"

"I think I'll see what little Bella Swan would be willing to do to get with me."

I growled and lunged for him. Before I reached him, Emmett had me locked in a strong grip.

"Cool it, Edward. That fuck isn't worth it," he growled.

I took a couple of deep breaths to calm myself. "Jacob, I suggest you start looking for a new room. I want you out of my house as soon as possible."

His eyes narrowed. "You're going to be sorry you crossed me, Cullen."

"Sure, sure. Just get the hell out."

Without looking back I stomped up to my room. I punched the wall several times to get rid of my last bit of anger.

I was staring at the ceiling trying to get rid of the memories of kissing Bella, but it was no use. Just as I was about to go downstairs to drown my sorrows, I heard someone running up the stairs. My bedroom door flew open and Emmett busted in. "Edward, phone," he said breathlessly.

He threw me his cell and I quirked an eyebrow at him. "Don't ask, just answer," he muttered before heading out of my room.

I put the phone to my ear. "Hello?"

"Edward, thank god," I heard Bella breathe.

"Bella?"

"Yes. Edward, I really need to talk to you."

"Is everything all right?"

"If you are willing to talk to me it is."

"I guess. Do you want to talk on the phone?"

"No, I want to see you. Is that alright?"

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. "Yes. Will you come here or do I need to come to you?"

"Meet me in the gazebo?"

My eyes snapped open. "Are you already there?"

"Yes," she whispered.

I snapped the phone shut and bolted down the stairs and out the back door. She was standing in the middle of the gazebo with our carton of ice cream and two spoons. I was beside her in a heart beat, looking down at her watering eyes.

"Edward, I'm so sorry for what I said. I ran after you, but you were already gone. I talked to the girls and Alice asked what I would do if I had the choice between kissing you again or dating Jacob. At first I wasn't sure, but when I was alone in my bedroom a few minutes later all I could think of was you. I'm so sorry for making it sound like our kiss meant nothing to me, because it meant a lot. You were the first guy I ever kissed and I want to see if you and I can work. I know I'm a mess and I have issues concerning Jacob, but I can't stop thinking about you."

During her entire rant I was drinking in her face, like I hadn't seen it in years and I could see the conflicting emotions swimming in them.

"Bella, why did you decide to come here?"

"About ten minutes ago I got a call from Jacob."

I folded my arms across my chest. I didn't know if I wanted to hear what she was about to tell me.

"He asked me on a date."

I swallowed hard. "What did you tell him?"

"Well, I was really surprised that I really didn't want to. So I told him no."

"Excuse me? Did I hear you correctly?"

"You did. I wanted to hear those words for years, but when he asked me, all I could think was that I wished it was you who asked me."

I blinked once and then yanked her into my arms, pressing my lips to hers immediately.

Bella's pov

As soon as his lips crashed onto mine, I knew this was what I wanted. I sighed and opened my mouth to allow his tongue to caress mine. The kiss was urgent and heated at first but slowed down to something more gentle. His hands were fisted in my hair in mine in his. I shuddered when he trailed one hand down my back and pressed me into his body.

I could feel his muscles through the thin fabric of my dress and I was shocked that under that baggy t-shirt was an obviously well cared for body. I shivered involuntarily at this realisation.

He pulled back to look at me, his eyes worried. "Are you cold?"

"No. Just impressed."

He smirked. "Impressed how?"

I trailed a hand over his clothed chest and felt the ripples of his pecs and abs. "Impressed with you. You are so gorgeous yet you claim that nobody takes note of you."

He laughed, throwing his head back and the sound made my heart soar.

"You realize I cold say the same about you. You are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. How is it that nobody has snatched you up yet?"

I frowned. "According to Rose I owe that to your roommate."

His face turned into a grimace. "Yeah, I was there. He won't be my roommate for much longer though."

"Why?" I asked cautiously.

"We got into a fight when I got home."

I pulled him with me to sit on one of the benches. "Tell me what happened."

He sighed and ran his hands through is hair. "When I got home earlier, Jacob punched me in the face. I retaliated and told him that if her ever touched me again I would make sure he'd never father children. I wanted to let it go after that, but he tried to provoke me. I almost kicked his ass, but Emmett held me back."

He shook his head and breathed heavily. "I'm sorry, Bella. I have a problem with my temper."

"Don't be sorry. I don't know what he said, but I can't imagine that you'd want to punch his lights out over nothing."

He took his glasses off and pinched the bridge of his nose. I bit my lip, not entirely sure what to say next.

"Bella?"

"Yes?"

"Where do we go from here?"

"I'm not sure. Why don't we just see what comes naturally?"

He looked up at me, his emerald eyes conflicted. I bit my lip again and waited for him to say something. He didn't. We just sat there looking at each other in silence. The longer I stared at him, the more lost I got in his eyes.

Somewhere during our staring session, the mood changed. The tension between us became almost palpable and our breathing got heavier. His eyes darkened and they flickered from my eyes to my lips and back repeatedly. I licked my lips and leaned in slightly. He reached up a hand and cupped the back of my head to pull me in.

"CULLEN! Keep your hands to yourself!" I suddenly heard Jacob shouting from the house.

Edward jerked back and I turned to glare at Jacob. He was now walking briskly towards us with a livid expression on his face. I felt Edward tense beside me and I heard him growl lowly. I placed my hand on his forearm and squeezed gently.

"Let me handle this," I whispered in his ear.

Edward looked at me in shock, but he nodded nonetheless.

"Cullen, step away from Isabella," Jacob seethed.

I stood up slowly and moved towards Jacob. "Shut up," I said quietly.

"Excuse me?"

"You heard me. Shut up."

"Aw, come on baby. You don't want that geek, you want me. So he should keep his hands to himself."

I almost choked on my own saliva as he said that and the accompanying revelation that I was no longer interested in Jacob. Looking at this ugly side of his character erased every single ounce of infatuation I held for him.

Edward must've noticed my shocked expression, because he took my hand and squeezed gently.

I looked over my shoulder at him and winked. He smiled brightly at me and sat back.

"You know, what Jacob? I really, really…..want to go upstairs with Edward right now, so get out of our way and maybe find a different place to sleep tonight. We don't want to keep you up."

Jacob looked like I had punched him in the gut and I felt oddly satisfied. I turned back to Edward, winked again and took his hands. "You coming, baby?"

He caught on to my idea and pulled me flush against him. "I will be," he said with a wicked grin and I had to fight extremely hard to not start snorting in laughter.

Edward's pov

To say I was shocked with Bella's course of action, was an understatement. I went along with it, because I figured she knew what she was doing. We sprinted to the house and I pulled her up to my room.

When we closed the door behind us, we both started howling in laughter. I clutched my sides when they began hurting and tried to steady my breathing. I noticed Bella was quiet all of a sudden and I looked up to see her locking the door.

"You know," she said quietly. "I was only partly joking."

My jaw dropped and my mind reeled. This was not what I expected. I gulped and shook my head to get out of the stupor she just put me in.

I looked at her and behind her bold mask, I noticed the insecurity and vulnerability that shone in her eyes. I took a step closer and gently encircled her in my arms. I kissed the top of her head and felt her relax into my arms.

"Bella, I want to know what you are thinking right now."

"I want you," she whispered.

"I want you too, but we just met, so don't you think we should take it easy?"

She looked up at me from under her lashes and I knew instantly that I would anything she asked of me in that moment.

"You're right. It's just… I just realized that I don't really know who Jacob is anymore and the guy down there was no longer worth crushing on. I didn't feel anything for him. And then I look at you and the whole world just kind of disappears. I only see you."

I sucked in a deep breath. "I guess that's another thing we have in common."

I lowered my head and kissed her gently. She slid her hands into my hair and kissed me back slowly. We stayed like that for an immeasurable moment before she pulled back.

"I'll take you home," I whispered.

"Will I see you again?" she asked uncertainly.

"Are you kidding? Of course you'll see me again. You can't get rid of me that easily."

She smiled and pecked me on the lips again. This girl was definitely yanking me out of my comfort zone, but she made me feel incredibly comfortable doing it.

A/N: Reviews are not as good as making out with Edward, but it'll make me happy nonetheless. So what do you guys think?