Chapter 4

You make me crazy.

Me:Welcome to chapter four.

Hinata:Um, why did you bring me here?

Me:Why so you could do the disclaimer of course!!!!

Hinata:I know , but why did you bring me to Astrea Hill?

Me:Because Tamao needed a friend, and your like her mini me.

Hinata:Okay. Alex-chan does not own Strawberry Panic! okay?

Me: That was good.

Hinata: Thank you.

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"Tamao-chan....Tamao-chan......TAMAO-CHAN" Someone yelled right into Tamao's ears.

"Shit, why the hell did you do that for Hikari? Tamao angrily asked the fair blonde sitting right next to her.

"NANI? What makes you think I did it?" Hikar asked innocently scared at what Tamao would do since she hadn't been acting like Tamao.

"Well, lets see, because your the only one sitting next to me. Besides my new roommate...whats your name, I kinda forgot. Sorry." Tamao embarrassingly admitted to the little fourth year siitng next to her. What a good impression, forgetting your roommate's name the first day you meet.

"Its all ri-right. Hello everyone. My name is Hinata Namikaze. Nice to meet you." Hinata tried to introduce herself but the only one who listened was Hikari. The rest were to busy arguing about who yelled into Tamao's eyes.

"Hi Hinata-kun, where did you come from? Uh oh." Hikari was trying to be nice but accidently caught Amane handing Yaya ten dollars.

"Uh, Amane-chan, why did you just give Yaya ten dollars?"Hikari already had an idea why.

"Because we mad a bet that Yaya could sneak up onto Tamao while she was wide awake and yell in her ear without getting caught." Amane had to try really hard to keep from bursting out laughing and to whisper, but Tamao had heard her.

'So Yaya had yelled in my ear? well lets see how she likes it'. Tamao thought to herself as she snuck up on Yaya and poked her in the sides. What she did next even had the ever non-changing attitude Amane rolling on the floor grabbing her sides in laughter.

The lunch that day had been soup, and with Yaya being Yaya and with her sitting in front of Nagisa, well lets just say the soup was on Nagisa. The only one who wasn't laughing was Tamao who stared horror stricken at what she had just did to her once best friend.

"Oh...Nagisa-chan.. I'm soo sorry." Tamao tried to apologize to her and in doing so she caught herself going back to way things were before with her using chan instead of san, but it was to late.

Nagisa on the other hand was to busy running to her dorm room to notice.

When she got there she found her new roommate getting unpacked.

"OH!!!Nagisa-senpai, what happened?" Sakura Kouziki, her new roommate exclaimed as she saw her new senpai run into the bathroom.

"Nagisa-senpai, are you okay?" All Sakura heard was a girl crying her eyes out.

Meanwhile back at lunch everyone had calmed down.

"Hey Tamao-chan, that was a pretty sweet trick you played on Yaya." Tsubomi commented which in turn got her a slap to the back of the head.

"HEY!!! Baka, what the hell was that for?" Tsubomi asked as she rubbed her sore spot.

"That was for laughing at me when I nearly wet myself, and it was payback for this morning when you slapped me in Nagisa's ro...." Yaya quickly caught herself but it was to late, everyone had heard her say something about Nagisa.

"Yaya, Tsubomi, is there something your not telling us about?" Hikari threatened, and with Amane backing her up, she was really threatening.

"N-nooo." Yaya said while Tsubomi had found out that the tiles in the cafeteria really were quite interesting.

"Yaya, I'm usualy not one to pry, but what happened with Nagisa. She is our friend, and we deserve to know." Hikari threatened.

Slowly, oh so very slowly, the seconds ticked by until finally Tsubomi shouted "Alright!!! We'll tell you, but you have to promise not to tell anyone."

"Gee thank you soo much for helping me." Yaya couldn't really blame her. She had known that the secret was eating her alive and that she was going to tell someone. She was just happy that it was her friends, not those Spican bitches Kaname Kenjo and Momomi Kiyashiki.

When Tsubomi had finished explaining everything to them. you could have heard a pin drop.

"Wait so..What?" Hinata asked, but everyone ignored her, all there attention was focused on Tamao to see how she would react. Tamao looked petrified, the only way you could tell she was alive was the rapid rise and fall of her chest.

"Tamao-chan, are you okay?" Yaya asked afraid that her friend had suffered a heart attack.

"Yes. Yes I am perfectly fine. Now if you all will excuse me, I'm going to be late for World History, and Hinata, I'll answer your questions later." and with that Tamao stood up stiffly like a robot and left the lunch room.

"Uh, doesn't lunch end in another fifteen minutes?" Hinata asked.

"Wha... oh, yeah Hinata-kun, it does." Hikari answered and with that everyone went back to eating, the happy joyful mood a mere memory compared to the mood now.

"Now class today we are learning the quadratic for....." Was all Tamao planed to pay attention to. She was to busy thinking about what Tsubomi had said.

'Nagisa might love me? But I cut off our relationship so she and Shizuma can be happy together. What if she will only be happy with me and she just realizes it now.'These were the thoughts that swirled around her mind for the rest of the day, and amazingly she didn't have a single accident. She didn't run into one door.

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"Uhh, Tamao-senpai, did you hear me?" Hinata asked once again snapping Tamao out of her thoughts.

"I'm sorry Hinata-chan, what did you ask?" Tamao said groggily still thinking about Nagisa.

"I-I asked wh-what bed would you mind me taking." Hinata nervously asked. Her senpai did not look right, even though she had known her for less than a day she could tell that Tamao didn't normally act like this.

"Oh, well you can take the bed on the left, is that alright?" Tamao said offering her a smile, though not her true smile since that had been stolen along with her heart.

"Hai senpai." Hinata said as she started to unpack her belongings.

"Hinata-chan, I notice you don't have a lot of things here." Tamao said trying to start up a conversation since she couldn't stand awkward situations.

"Hai, my family is small and sort of lower middle class, so I took the necessities." Hinata answered happy to be having a friendly conversation with someone new.

"Oh so I guess teddy bears fall into that category." Tamao teasingly said holding up a teddy bear with a pink bow tie with an emerald in the middle. She was also happy to be having a friendly conversation so much that she was actually trying to be interested in it by teasing.

"St-stop it." Hinata said as she snatched it away and held it like it was the most valuable thing she had ever held.

Tamao saw something that nearly made her mask crack. When Hinata has snatched her bear away she saw a glimmer of something so familiar to her. She saw a glimmer of fear like if that teddy bear was hurt her heart would brake. Tamao had seen that in her own eyes every time she was afraid something that Nagisa had given her was lost.

"Uhh, not to be nosy Hinata, but would you mind telling me where you got that bear?" Tamao asked.

"Su-sure. One of my friends gave it to me." Hinata didn't know if she was in trouble or not.

"Was you and your friend close?" Tamao was beginning to get excited for some reason.

"I-I guess you could say that. We knew each other since we were kids and we played together everyday. She would always protect me from bullies and comfort me from anything that scared me. She was also the prettiest and smartest girl ever and she has a girlfriend who is also........smart." Tamao noticed that when she described her friend she got a glazed over look in her eyes but at the same.

"Aww, I see." Tamao said as she realised why she had felt such a connection to the girl. They both loved someone they couldn't have and would rather see hapy than sad.

"Tamao-senpai, did you say something?" Hinata asked as she had finished packing.

"No Hinata- chan. Why don't we go to bed. Its been a long day, what with you coming her and me becoming the new bloody student council assistant."Tamao said the last part to herself so that Hinata wouldn't think that she was a problem because it was her job to help the new students ut.

"Hai Tamao-senpai." Hinata gave one last yawn and she was out before her head even touched the pillow.

"Tch, how can someone go to sleep that fast?" Tamao sighed as she let the facade she put on for friends fall and as she felt her eyelids begin to feel heavy.

"I still can't belive I spilled soup all over my lovely Nagisa-chan. I hope she forgives me." and with that Tamao lost the completely useless battle against fatigue.

Tamao was sitting on a beautiful beach with a beautiful sunset in which it looked as if the sea was swallowing the sun.

"Man, this is my new happy place." Tamao calmly sighed as she lay her head on a pile of sand as soft as a cloud. "Wish I could sketch as good as Chikaru-sama because this sunset would make a awesome picture." Tamao sleeply said.

Smile.
Knowing it's the only thing left to do.

Tamao sat bolt up right."Who said that?" she thought she had heard someone speaking. Guessing it was her mind playing tricks on her she lay back down.

Laugh.
Knowing that your mask fools others.

Now Tamao was standing up and looking around herself wildly. "Whoever just said that show your face" She screamed out to no one.

Kindness.
Knowing that it makes others not to suspect your sadness.

Now the voice sounded closer, and yet so familiar at the same time.

Despair.
Knowing that you're alone to face the unbearable pain by yourself.

With that said Tamao spun around to face the intruder in her happy place and saw...............Tamao.

"Wh-who the hell are you?" Tamao asked as she began to back away from her bizarre look alike.

"Hehehe, that hurts. How can you not know you?" Anti-Tamao asked in a voice that chilled Tamao's very core and her laugh made all the happiness in the world die.

"Yo-you can't be me. I-I'm me." Tamao stuttered trying to back away but was strangely held in place by the other Tamao's very presence.

"Oh I can't? Well let me elaborate on what I mean. I am your true self. I'm the one who made you decide to go scare Yaya because I knew the soup would land on Nagisa. I'm the one who shows her feelings instead of hiding them like some coward. I'M the one who would make Nagisa's life a living hell in return for her making ours one." Anti-Tamao said as she stepped ever closer to the petrified Tamao.

"What? I would never do those sort of things to my Nagisa-chan." Tamao weakly tried to defend herself and in a instant Anti-Tamao was there gripping her shoulders so hard as to make it hurt.

"YOU FOOL!!!!! When had Nagisa EVER been yours? She belonged to that slut Shizuma since day one!!!!" Anti-Tamao screeched at Tamao as the temperature dropped ten degrees, her words driving the all ready deep stakes in heart deeper.

"No, thats not true...."Tamao could feel those cursed tears threatening to over take her as her happy place turned into one of darkness and despair.

"Actually, I have to thank Shizuma. If it wasn't for her stealing Nagisa away and you suppressing your feeling I would have never been born." Tamao shivered at the sheer anger and malevolence radiating from Anti-Tamao.

"But I don't suppress my feelings." Tamao could tell she was losing the battle.

"Yes you do. It seems someone is trying to wake you up" Anti-Tamao said as she began to fade away. "If you ever show me an opening, I will take over and destroy, no, decimate bith you and Nagisa, got it?" and with that she left Tamao alone in the dark world that was once her happy place.

"No......no.... I will never let that happen......no." Tamao curled up in a ball as she and everthing around her began to fade away.

"Tamao-senpai, please wake up." Tamao could vaguely hear someone calling her name urgently.

'Wha....Hinata-chan?" Tamao asked as she came out of the stupor sleep had put her in.

"Hai, are you okay Tamao-senpai?" Hinata looked really worried.

"Yes, why would I be?" Tamao asked as she blinked sleep out of her eyes.

"Well because Senpai was crying in her sleep." Hinata said.

"Oh, Its nothing Hinata-chan. Just go to sleep." She had been crying? That explained the wet pillow.

"Okay, if Senpai is sure she is okay." Hinata called as she let out another yawn and fell asleep.

Tamao checked the clock to see that it was four-twenty in the morning.

"Ugghh, four more hours till I can think for a whole day with no Nagisa popping up unexpectedly, not that I don't like it, but today is the day she will be visiting that slut Shizuma's house." Tamao was happy to get a chance to think uninterrupted by Nagisa, its just that she wished it wasn't because she was with Shizuma.

Tamao didn't get anymore sleep after that.

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Me: Well thats it for chapter four. Sorry for some mistakes its just that its nearly four-thirty in the morning and I'm tired.

Tamao: Whats with the dream scene?

Me: Well, you've been suppressing your feelings, you have to have some consequences. Be happy I didn't give you a tumor.

Tamao: Yea, I guess so Alex-chan.........Alex-chan?

Me:*snoring* I don't wanna ride the bread to school mommy.

Tamao:It looks like shes asleep. Please review if you want more or if you want her to wake up. Want to know the deal with the new rommies? REVIEW!!!