Chapter 5

Never Meant To Belong

(authors note: I'm putting this preveiw up to show you what I hace so far and to let you know that I will try to continue this story, also I now it might be a bit weird of me using Naruto characters, but I chose them for a good reason. I'm not ACTUALLY doing a crossover, just some of the characters, no ninja stuff, all Strawberry Panic! The Characters are more minor and help lead up to the big confrontation of Tamao and Nagisa, other than that they are there for support. )

'Why don't I play I spy to help relive the bordom' Nagisa sadly thought to herself as she was staring out her window at the vastly moving landscape. Today was the first day Nagisa was getting that she would be able to visit Shizuma since the summer and she was greatly relived, albeit bored.

'Okay. I spy with my little eye a never ending forest.' Nagisa sighed. She had known exactly what she was doing when she agreed to play I spy......by herself.

'I can't wait tell I get to Tokyo, maybe being around Shizuma well help relive my boredom....... among other things.' Nagisa embarrassedly thought to herself. Staying at Astrea Hill all alone had built up some...... frustration in Nagisa and she hoped Shizuma would be able to help relive some of it.

'Stop. I need to stop right now or I will end up like Yaya-chan.' Nagisa smiled as she thought of her rather unusual friend.

A Nagisa continued her inner ramblings she failed to notice that they had arrived at the Tokyo station.

".....iss? Miss we have arrived at our last stop" said a young looking stewardess as she shock Nagisa out of her day dreams

"Hmm? OH!! Gomen, I was.....never mind." Nagisa said as she had a light blush coloring her cheeks thinking about her last thought that was R-rated.

Quickly Nagisa gathered her things as she made her way from her seat. Once outside she was assaulted by all the sights and sounds that was Tokyo Station. So overwhelming were they that she felt a panic attack coming one. Just as she was about to start hyperventilating she felt a soft yet firm hand grab hers and pull her through the crowd. Her savior continued to hold her hands as they raced through the station and even well past it till they reached a park.

"A...arigato, I don't know how to thank you Mr OR Miss for saving me back th...MPHH!!" Was all Nagisa got to say until she felt a couple of soft lips cover her own. The feeling was so great that Nagisa felt as if she could just melt right into the passion that it was as she slowly closed her eyes. All to soon the moment was over physically, but mentally it would forever be burned into her mind. As she slowly opened her eyes to see who its was that had kissed her she saw nothing.

Nagisa, feeling slightly disheartened and greatly turned on looked around dejectedly because she couldn't see the face of her savior and of the one who had delivered such a kiss, decided to file it away for another day as she set off to find Shizuma to talk to about this newest development and maybe relieve some of the..."frustratio" that such a kiss had brought, silently thanking Kami that she had thought to get directions to Shizuma's new apartment, never noticing the two burning azure eyes that watched from a safe distance away, swimming with a torrent of unknown emotions.

~Tamaos POV~

I just stood there, silently watching my red-haired tenshi walk away from me to the arms of that.....that silver-haired two legged bitch who would most likely end up breaking Nagisa's heart. NO matter how much I wished I could tell her my true feelings I knew it would most likely end up destroying our happiness. Hers because she would never be with the one she "loved" and mine because the one I love would never be happy.

Silently I put my back against a nearby tree to think about how exactly it was that I had come to end up in Tokyo with no previous intention(AN:Okay before you guys throw a hissy fit Tamao may have cut off her ties with Nagisa she still loves her with her whole being and she may have been a bit *ahem* "obsessive", she draws the lone at stalking ).

#flashback#

I was walking along the halls of the Strawberry dorms on the way to my dorm that I now shared with Hinata, a girl whom I soon came to see as a little sister and she saw me as a big sister. We were alike in many ways, one of the most obvious being that we both loved one of our "best friends." Sadly, or thankfully, thats where that stopped. While I had resigned myself to living alone to endure a life of loneliness she had taken a bold step and had told her "Sakura-chan" how much she loved her. Expecting for her to turn her down she was greatly surprised when she felt a pair of lips cover her own. Once she got over her shock she looked back into the eyes of her beloved who simple laughed and said "Took you long enough. I thought I was going to have to keep pretending to like the duck ass-haired teme Sasuke" Though I may not know who this "Sasuke" person was I laughed imagining why the hell would anyone go around with a duck ass hairdo.

Anyways, as I was writing down a bit of my poetry my cell-phone rang. Though the were against school policy I still kept one around in case of emergencies. Many of my friends were surprised when I told them that I had it, well except Yaya who simply cried anime style while saying she was so proud of her "little Tamao" and how she had finally quit being such a goody goody, which promptly earned a sweatdrop from everyone present a smack on the head from a angry Tsubomi. I told them that I no longer cared about school rules since if I got kicked out the better, which promptly soured the mood. Back to issue at hand, I looked at the number and saw that it was my mom, who never, I repeat NEVER calls unless it was an emergcy.

"Ohayo kaa-san, is everything alright?" I asked as I quickly flipped open the phone.

"N-no Tamao, everything is n-n-not alright." I heard my mom cry.

"Kaa-san, what is going on?" My heart started to beat a little faster afraid of what the answer would be.

"Tamao, its your b-br-bro-brother. He got h-hit by a c-car and they say he is going to..." She had stopped at the end of her statement, but I could already guess what was going to happen.

"Kaa-san, what is going to happen to Jookiejo?" My voice was trembling, praying to Kami and what ever gods might be up there that she wasn't going to say what I think she was.

"He is going to d-d-d-die" My mom broke down at the end of her statement as I could hear her crying as I too slowly started to crack.

#flashback end#

She then told me that they had taken him to the Tokyo Hospital, and that they wanted to see me the first chance I got.

I was just expecting to get off the train and head over to the hospital. Imagine my surprise when I saw Nagisa standing in the middle of a crowd looking like she might faint at any moment. Against my better judgement I waded through the crowd and dragged Nagisa away. Not watching where I was going I soon stopped at a local park.

"A...arigato, I don't know how to thank you Mr or Miss for saving me back th...MPHH!!" as soon as she had started to speak the sound of her voice so close and the heat that was radiating off of her soon broke down my emotionless facade and before I knew it I was kissing her.

I had expected her to recoil and slap me when she saw that it was me, but she did the exact opposite: she leaned into the kiss as she must have subconsciously started to deepen it. I could already feel my body heat up and fearing what might happen next I cut it off and ran like a bat out of hades. As soon as I reached a safe distance I turned around to see her looking around with a air of confusion and was that..........longing? Mentally I slapped myself saying there was no way she would ever love me as much as that silver-haired bitch wannabe, that or I was just under to much stress from hearing about my brothers accident. Sighing once again I turned around and headed off to Tokyo Hospital mentally berating myself for kissing her when I had vowed to cut off all ties with her and her I am kissing her like I didn't do a damn thing to save both of our hearts. I shook my head as I swear I could hear Alt (AN: I am going to start calling her this since its a pain to write Alternate Tamao) cackling like one of those oh so stereotypical cartoon villains. I beat she was the one who messed with my emotions and made me do that.

~Normal POV~

Nagsia was looking up in astonishment at the building she as standing in front of. No way was this place the place that Shizuma had called, and I quote "A small rather plain apartment building".

THIS WAS A FREAKING 5-STARRED HOTEL THAT MADE THE MONTAGE BEVERLY HILLS HOTEL (AN: I don't own but if I did I would buy Strawberry panic, kill off Shizuma and have Tamao and Nagisa together) LOOK LIKE A MOTEL SIX!!!

Looking around she noticed that some of the people walking around her were staring at her, Nagisa snapped out of her daze and ran into the lobby where she was once again astounded by the elegance of the hotel. She walked up to the reception desk and noticed a strange little man with a tin mustache and a suit was working there who looked like the mascot for Monopoly.

"Why helloooo~" Mr. Monopoly asked with a creepy snake-like smile with a....... feminine accent

"Ano, could you tell me where Shizuma Hanazono's room is?" Nagisa asked nervously. This little man was SERIOUSLY starting to creep her out.

"......."

"......."

"Oops... sorry about that ma'am I seemed to have zoned out. Let me check~" He said as he turned to a elegant computer.

'Geez, they spare no expenses here do they?' Nagisa sweat dropped as she watched them carry a gold plated tree past her

"AH!!! Shizuma Hanazono is in Room 215 on the fifth floor~" Mr. Monopoly happily announced as he turned back to her.

"G-gomen nasai" and with that Nagisa beat a hasty retreat to save her sanity.

~Time skip~

Nagisa nervously raised her shaking hand to knock on Shizuma's door, but at the last second, she lowered it back down...... for the fifth time since she left the library.

'Come on Nagisa, you can do it. Its just Shizuma, from school, who you love and....." And with that Nagisa's mind started to wonder through some of her more.*ahem* X-rated memories and fantasies. She was startled when she heard someone clear their voice and handed her a tissue.

"Its nice to see you to koishii, but you got a little blood coming out of your nose" chuckled the vile seductress.

"EH!!!! Gomen Shizuma-chan" Nagisa hastily grabbed the tissue as her blush started to develop several never heard of before shades of red as she noticed how interesting beige carpeting is.

"Its okay Nagisa. I've been waiting for you for a while now, please come in so I can.....'welcome' you here properly" When Nagisa heard this she promptly looked up studding the carpet she saw that all Shizuma had on was a bath-robe opened at the top a bit (AN: OH GAWD THE IMAGES!!!)

She promptly kidnapped Nagisa from the hallway not to been seen for a couple of hours.

~Meanwhile with Tamao~

Tamao had just walked into the hospital lobby when she was promptly tackle hugged by her purple-haired crying baby sister Anko.

"Shhh, its all right. Onee-chan here" Tamao gently cooed to the sobbing nine-year old.

"O-o-onee-sama......0-onii-chan is...is" Anko struggled to get out with what she had to say while Tamao started to sweat a bit more.

"Whats wrong with Onii-san Anko?"

"He has gotten worst!!" Anko managed to say. Tamao paled as she slowly let go of Anko. When she let go she ran to the room where her brother was located.

"Jookiejo-nii-san!!!" Tamao cried out as she ran into her brother's room. What she saw made her pale, which really shouldn't have been possible as she was as white as a sheet. There, her strong brother, Mr. "Indestructible", the one who had been the pillar of strength for their family when their father died, was hooked up to all sorts of medical equipment.

"Hey..*cough* gaki. What is up?" He smiled weakly at his attempt to lighten the tense mood. He was laying down, his Navy blue hair was flat instead of its usual springy-ness his once vibrant oceanic blue eyes now a dull shade, but worst of all was his skin. No longer was he a tan young man of Twenty, now he was a pale young man of Twenty whose life might very well end soon.

"Whats*cough* wrong? Cat got your tongue?"

"Brother...." Tamao slowly walked forward on shaky legs. When she got there she slowly took his cold hand in hers as she collapsed in a seat by his bed, Anko on her right.

"What? I got something on my face? Or is it in my teeth this time" He innocently asked as he contorted his face into many different expression which got a shaky laugh from Tamao and Anko.

"Baka-onii-san. Can't you be serious for one minute?"

"And what? Be *cough* normal? No *cough, cough* thank you" Jookiejo seemed to pale even further with every raspy breath he took.

"Onii-sama...." Anko whispered through the tears that continued to flow freely down her cheeks....

"Aww....come here my little fire cracker and give me a hug.*cough**cough*" Jookiejo weakly called over to Anko.

All little Anko could do was fling herself upon her dying brother and cry.

"There there otouto...its alright.." Jookiejo weakly tried to soothe his crying baby sister.

"No its NOT!!! Onii-sama is dying!!!" Anko wailed as freash tears sprung anew in her bright honey colored eyes.

"Shu*cough*sh now..... I might be going away*hack* but you always have your nee-chan. But always remember your me and to try and be oyur own person like your nee-chan " His condition was worsening by the minute.

"I....I will onii-sama." Anko said with conviction and fire burning in her eyes.

"Tamao-chan, come here for a second..."

Tamao hesitantly walked over to her brother and took ahold of his hand."Yes nii-sama?"

"I....I want you to know that your a wonderful poet and that if dad was here he would think so to and that to keep being my little puppy and always remember that your special." Jookiejo said using the nickname he came up with when her saw Tamao dressed up as a puppy on Halloween when she was five.

"I...I*sniffle* I will brother..."Tamao managed a small smile through her tears.

"Go*cough*od......I see a *hack* light...." Jookiejo asked with confusion in his eyes.

"Onii-sama"

"Big brother"

" Hey...its...its Dad!!!*COUGH COUGH COUGH* Hey I can see Dad!! He's.....he's telling me to follow him..."The light was slowly fading away from Jookiejo's once bright sea blue eyes.

"Go...go with him J. I'll stay here to watch Anko." Tamao managed to rasp out between sobs.

"O....ok. Hey Da......." And with that the pillar of strength that Tamao had grasped on to stay strong crumbled and the dam broke letting all the bottled up emotions come crashing foward in the form of tears as Tamao collasped into a pile of sobs with her sister.

"JOOOOKKKKIIIIEEEJJJOOOO!!!!!!!!" Her anguished cry was heard throughout the hospital as it plucked at the heartstrings of all who heard it and broke the heart of the doctors who knew what it was and what it meant.

Me: Soooooo? How was it for a preview? This is all I got so far. Please review