"Jacob?" I called out of my bedroom window as soon as I raced up the stairs"Jake?"

"Are you okay Bells?" Jake responded frantically from somewhere in my yard.

"Yea, I'm fine" I replied.

"I'm coming up" He called out as he climbed the tree next to the house, gripping at scarily small branches as he scaled the trunk and swung in my bedroom window, landing on the floor with a large thump, in a way that reminded me of him. I had to blink to make sure I wasn't dreaming when I saw Jacob standing in front of me in nothing more than a pair of shorts.

"Bella?" He said, worried as I slipped into abstraction staring at his perfect bare chest. I felt the blood rush to my cheeks as I broke from my reverie and Jacob smiled, realizing where my attention was focused and laughed quietly to himself.

"That's not fair" I said as I sat on the edge of my bed, avoiding looking him in the eye.

"What isn't?" He replied faining ignorance.

"You....standing there....like that" I managed to stammer out. Jacob shifted to the other side of the room and lay down on my bed with his hands behind his head, looking smug.

"Better?" He questioned stifling a laugh.

"Jacob" I whined "your not as funny as you think."

"How about this?" He asked, catching me off gaurd as he pushed me down onto my bed and rolled on top of me, making sure not to put to much weight on me, but enough that I could feel his heart practically beating out of his chest. I glared at him, trying to look as threatening as possible .Once again I drifted into abstraction. Half wishing that was him on top of me right now. And that it was him who had kissed me in the kitchen, or that something like that would have even been possible between us. Jacob just smiled sadly and rolled off.

"I love you Bella" Jacob whispered gently "I'll always love you but I can see that you don't feel the same way" he said as he stood up.

"But I do love you" I said pleading.

"Not how I love you" Jake said more seriously as he walked towards my window.

"I DO!" I yelled at him as I clutched his arm, pulling him towards me with all of my strength. Jacob turned but didn't budge.

"I can see it in your eyes Bella!" Jacob yelled pulling his arm away from mine "you still love the Leach" He said, putting as much venom into the word as possible as he began to crawl out of my bedroom window. I sat down on my bed and buried my face in my hands, hiding my sobs until Jacob was out of hearing range. If he heard me like this it would only hurt him more. I sat there losing track of time as tears streamed down my face and I finally let myself cry when I was positive Jake would be too far to hear me.

"Bella?" Jacobs familiar voice called making me reflexivly pull my hands from my face and look around.

"Bella?" Jacobs voice called more frantically, louder than before as if it was getting closer. I dragged myself up from my bed and looked out of my window hoping Jacob truly was there and I wasn't hearing another voice in my head.

"I'm sorry Bella" Jacob said as he swung in through my window causing me to stagger back in surprize. I wasn't even annoyed that he had been listening. I was just glad I wasn't hearing another voice.

"Jacob" I said "I thought......I thought.......I, I " Jacob walked up to me and placed his hand on my lips "ithoughtyouhadleft" I blurted out the second he moved his hand.

"It's okay" He said putting his arm around me 'I'm sorry I reacted like that."

"But it's not okay" I said resting my face on his warm chest "I'm sorry, this isn't fair to you" I said as I lifted my head and looked into his deep brown eyes "you deserve someone better, someone who isn't broken" I managed to choke out. I was crying so much it was hard to speak and the words came out barely comprehendible.

"It's okay...It's okay" Jacob said comfortingly as he rocked me back and forth "It doesn't matter to me how broken you are or even that you still think of me as a friend" Huh? Had I been that unconvincing before.

"But...before" I stuttered out as I pulled away from his firm grip to look at him "In the kitchen...that, that was more than...."

"I'm sorry" He interuppted putting his hand to my lips "that wasn't fair of me, I pressured you into it" he added while avoiding my questioning gaze "I promise we can be just friends, I'll control myself, I'll stop holding your hand and doing all the little things I know you don't like just please don't go" He broke off. He looked as if he were about to cry. I was pushing away everyone I loved and I certainly didn't deserve Jacob. It was unfair of me to expect him to be just friends when he felt this way about me. But just thinking of how he thought about me sent chills down my spine.

"Please don't" I pleaded.

"Don't what?" He asked, confusion mixing with the pain in his deep brown eyes.

"Don't stop the little things" I said as I raised my hand to his shoulder and pulled myself onto his lap. The confusion in Jacobs eyes melted into shock, matching mine as I wondered how exactly I'd gone from crying on his shoulder to kneeling across his legs. Jacob cleared his throat and I leaned in to kiss him on the cheek.

"For the last time, I do want to be with you.