Chapter XV
He's running ahead of me, too far to catch up to. There doesn't seem to be any point in even trying to catch up, I'm so far behind. What's going on with me? What is happening to him? Did I miss something, a plan somewhere along the line? Did I miss the time we were supposed to meet? Why didn't he wait for me?
The hallway gets smaller when he turns the corner. I lose him in the confusing house I've become so familiar with. Walls around me start to move in close giving an attempt at a comforting hug, but I am not warmed by this. Tears are coming out of my eyes but they are painful as if they had been clawing to get out. I have lost my love and the emptiness rushes over me so fast I feel like I have fallen under a wave.
My hand reaches over next to me as soon as my eyes open. Gohan is not there. I got up as quick as I could and ran out to the hallway, "Gohan! Gohan don't go! I'll come with you!"
"Videl, calm down. Stop yelling," 18 grabbed a hold of my shoulders but I couldn't let her hold me back. He was leaving and I had to stop him. I had to find him in time. I pulled myself away from her and stumbled down the hallway pushing past every memory in my way. Trying so hard to climb out of the past to get to Gohan. The walls screamed at me as I went by, every door opened to show that little boy trying to find his parents and refusing to play. Every stupid dare we ever said whispered itself down the hallway. There was no way I would lose him, not after all we went through.
I sat down outside the door, looking out into the trees and empty paths that lead to nowhere. He was not out there. No one was out there but me. I could do nothing but curl up inside myself.
"Videl," 18's voice was distant at first but it finally came in clearly, "Videl get up. Are you okay?" She shook me but I did not move. "Videl!"
"Why didn't you tell me," I whispered.
"Tell you? Tell you what?"
"Why didn't you tell me!"
18 sighed, "Videl let's just go back inside."
Something took over me and I became so angry that I grabbed her and pulled her to my face, "WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME!" I slapped her across the face and she stared back at me.
"I didn't know. I didn't know! Are you listening to me! What were you going to do about it?"
I let myself fall back to the ground. There was nothing I could do. Where did they go? I was lost from that point on and 18's voice began to fade out like music passing to the next song. Madame disappeared and 18's daughter took over.
Now I am sitting in front of the window in my faded room. I've been waiting so long just to see him again but all I have left is the memories of what was. My daughter is sixteen and she is servant for the new favorite girl. She comes into my room and pulls my hand into hers. It's nice to have some you know will never leave you. I touch her hand to my check to feel the warmth of another person. It's hard to believe that she is a part of him, but she is the part of him that I will never lose.