Okay. Still, I am just as eager for a nice little review. Dude, I am crazy about reviews. Anyways. Now I will be writing about Goldenflower, and her thoughts about Tigerstar. And, I am having a hard time finding ideas, so PLEASE review and LEAVE A FREAKING REVIEW. Thank you. I am just so-- eager-- for that freaking little review. Click the freaking button, I BEG YOU!
Love of Betrayal
"How could you?"
I gasped
My heart torn in half
My face printed with horror
Tigerstar,
I just love you.
Even if you did so many
Evil, menacing things.
I still love you.
Why can't I bring myself
To hate you?
You didn't love me at all
It was all an act.
You wanted ThunderClan to think
You had a kind, and caring side.
That was what you said.
I was already carrying your kits
You were so proud,
Bringing me everywhere,
Showing my plump belly off.
Then you told me
What you plotted
All along.
You said
You didn't love me.
You were using me.
I didn't think so,
Tigerstar.
I still don't.
When you pressed your flank against mine's,
All I could feel, vibrating in your warm body
Was love.
I could feel it.
But I wasn't evil, not like you.
I didn't want to join you
To do crimes with you.
I was disgusted
How you said you were using me.
But, deep inside
I knew you loved
Once.
I knew you had
Just once,
Loved me
Truly
With your whole heart.
But you betrayed yourself,
And by betraying yourself
You betrayed me.
Your betrayal shocked the Clan,
It shocked me, too,
But in a different way.
Tigerstar.
You thought you were strong,
Did you?
But truly,
You were weak.
You couldn't admit your own feelings.
You couldn't even accept how you ever felt
You didn't accept your own heart.
Most of all,
You couldn't even admit your own love,
Snuggling in sleep,
Deep inside you.
You were weaker than you thought,
Not physically,
But emotionally
You couldn't control your own feelings
You lost control of yourself.
You loved me.
However, you did not admit so
Only concealing that love
Deep inside your dark plans and plots,
Deep inside your long claws and cold amber eyes
Deep inside your heart.
You were very weak,
Tigerstar.
That is why Fireheart
Beat you.
He was Firestar,
A better star than you.
You were a dim star,
Too afraid to admit your fears,
Too frightened to admit your feelings,
Too frail to admit your own love.
Firestar was strong
When he was Firepaw
He loved Spottedleaf
And he said so to her, too.
He was strong.
But not you.
You loved me.
I knew you did,
But you hid your own feelings,
And I couldn't love you then.
Did I?
But I still did.
I was the only cat
Who truly saw your weakness.
Firestar was stronger than you
In so many ways.
That's why you lost, you know.
Fireheart, had fell in love with Sandstorm.
He admitted his true feelings
He knew he wouldn't be able
To stop loving Spottedleaf.
And he told Sandstorm so,
That even so,
He still loved her.
Tigerstar,
If it were you
You wouldn't do that,
Would you?
If I demanded you loved someone else,
You'd lie.
I know you would.
You betrayed yourself too badly,
You lost control.
You were foolish,
Foolish and weak.
That is something you should admit.
I knew you were
Foolish and weak,
But why
Why did I still love you then?
Perhaps I pitied you,
The way you lost control in yourself,
The way you betrayed yourself,
Your betrayal to yourself
Was nothing
But a lie.
I still
love
you.
Why?
Well,
I don't know.
But I do.
Aw, Tigerstar was stupid to ditch Goldenflower like that to do his evil plannies. If it were I, I would at least not fall in love with Goldenflower! :P Anyways, enjoy and REVIEW! *going nuts*