Still not owning anything…. I dropped my apple in the kitchen sink…=(

"I can't replace….
And now that I'm strong I have figured out…
How this world turns cold…" Your guardian Angel- Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.

Anna stared at Hannah then up at Dean who looked just as confused as everyone else.
"You were never meant to be saved Hannah. Lillith's blood was meant to kill you" Gabriel explained.

Bobby shook his head "You should know that Castiel would never let her die under his watch. He loves her too much"
Gabriel looked down "And thus the problem lies. His love for the human has clouded his judgement. He's been making mistakes. Disobeying orders which concern her" She finished the last sentence with a snarl.

Hannah let a tear fall down her cheek "He doesn't love me. After talking to you when we were up there. He left me" She finished quietly.
Gabriel shook her head "He never left you Hannah. He was always looking out for you. When Zachariah made him stay in heaven after you kissed him. He was going stir crazy. He tried so hard to keep the thoughts of you away…"
This made her Hannah feel so much worse about herself. Guilt pouring out of every pore. While she lives, Castiel was having God only knows what happen to him.

"Hannah. He will be okay" Anna reassured "He's a strong angel"

"But how do you know?" Hannah asked, standing up and eying down the angel.
Anna didn't know how to respond. She knew Hannah was hurting, but she didn't know how much.

Dean watched Hannah's body movements "Hannah. Maybe we should go grab a drink. Calm you down a bit. Who knows I could do with one"
Hannah sniffed and shook her head "No. I need to find Castiel" She said, wiping her nose and moving towards the front door.
"I have too"

Meanwhile…..

Castiel was bound to a bright wooden board. The spirit in his eyes was gone. His heart screaming out for anyone who would listen.
"You didn't learn your lesson last time now did you Castiel" Zachariah stated, twirling a blade around in his hands. The only blade which could harm an angel "You're lucky our father is fond of you. Or you would have fell a long time ago"

"I'm sorry" Castiel whispered, more to himself then to Zachariah. The archangel plunged his hand into his brother's very soul. Screams echoed through the building. "You shouldn't have saved her Castiel. You shouldn't have fallen in love with her…And you wouldn't be here now"

Castiel knew that Zachariah was right. He always was.

Since she was a little girl, Castiel had watched over Hannah. Watched her fall in love so many times, watched her get her heart broken over and over again. He watched as she killed her sister while under the influence of Ruby's blood. He never wanted to leave her; he wanted to take her away from all the heartache and pain. He wanted to be allowed to love her the way she loved him.

But he was a fool if he thought that would be allowed any time soon….

How she and Dean ended up at a local bar was beyond her. She originally set out to find where Castiel went missing; she got as far as the driveway before Dean pulled her up and told her that she shouldn't look for him until daylight. Until she'd had a decent night sleep.
"I don't think I've ever met a girl who can drink as much as you and still be able to string a sentence together" Dean laughed, drinking another shot of a clear liquid.

Hannah shrugged "Well what can I say? My daddy brought me up well" She lifted a glass filled with a scarlet liquid up to her mouth and drank it.
"So why are you so determined to hunt Ruby. Help us. Help Cass?" Dean asked, staring at the brunette beside him.
She looked down at her purple painted nails "I just want to hunt all these demons before they hunt me" She motioned the bar tender for another drink "Do you think he'll come back?"
Dean knew that she was talking about Castiel. He missed him too "Do you prey? Every night, before you go to bed?" This question shocked Hannah. She hadn't expected him to ask that.
"Yeah. Ever since I was 16. Whenever I didn't, I'd have nightmares. So I kept doing it and doing it. Until…It became a habit that I can't break"

"It would explain why Cass is so fond of you. You have faith" Dean smirked, having another shot.
Hannah nodded, taking another sip of her drink "You know why I want to hunt Ruby? Because…She's evil. She made me do thing's I wish I never did…." A tear made its way down her cheek "…But you know what made me keep fighting? The fact that one day. What I do might make a difference to something or someone. That I may get revenge on her"

Dean nodded in understanding "This job. Tears you apart until you can't feel anything anymore. Makes you less human. Makes you a freak….Until one day you finally have the nerve to say. That's it. I quit. But the angels don't help much in that fact" He gave a short chuckle.
"Amen to that" Hannah smiled at the bartender as he placed a few more drinks in front of the nineteen year old. It's amazing what fake ID's can do for you.
"So you and Castiel huh?" Dean smirked. Hannah gave a short snort and drank the last of her drinks "He's the right kind of wrong. And out of bounds"

She looked down at her watch "Its 3am. We should get back" She slurred just that little bit.
The eldest Winchester nodded and stood up, swaying a bit on his feet "I agree. You have had wayyy too much to drink"
"Says you" Hannah stood up and placed her arm around Dean's shoulder "I don't know what I would do without you Dean" The alcohol was taking an effect on her now. Dean noticed this. But he also noticed how beautiful she looked as her cheeks flushed a slight red.

But he would never go there. Not in a million years. Not when she was so hung up on Castiel.

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She walked further and further into the darkness. Her eyes glistening with tears.
Sam Winchester waited for her. His eyes pitch black. An evil smirk plastered across his face.
"It's time Hannah. It's time to release him" He laughed.
Lillith stood next to him. Her hand entwined in Sam's "It's time to kill me. Set him free…"

Hannah woke with a horrid taste in her mouth. The room was spinning. How the hell did she get in here? Then the previous night ran through her head.
"Hello Hannah. What did you dream about?" A familiar cool voice echoed from next to her.
Castiel's voice.
"What? Do you get your freak on by watching other people sleep? I was dreaming about Sonority Girls. Hated that movie" She slowly sat up. Her head thumping violently.
She watched as Castiel reached over and gave her two little white pills and a bottle of water "Your father left them here last night"
Hannah gratefully took them and swallowed them "What time is it?"

"Just after 12" Castiel looked over at Hannah. She noticed the usual spark in his eye was gone. Like his soul had been ripped from him.
Sitting in her bed for a moment later, she turned to look at Castiel "What happened?" She whispered to him.
Castiel stared off into the distance "I've tried so hard to keep you safe…." He absently stated.
"What?"
He finally turned to face Hannah. His blue eyes piercing her grey "This is the last time I can see you"
"What?" She asked again, her back a little straighter.

"My superiors have questioned my sympathies towards you…." Castiel looked away. He couldn't stand seeing the sadness in her eyes.
"So? Why take you away…I..." She climbed out of the bed and sat next to Castiel "…I-I need you"
Castiel saw how much she was hurting, reaching over, he brushed a piece of hair out of her eyes "This is for the best Hannah" He carefully leaned forward and planted a soft and short kiss on her lips. Wishing the moment could never end.
When Hannah opened her eyes, Castiel was staring at her "Why is it for the best Castiel? Tell me that?"

"Because. If my feelings for you still remain. The archangels will destroy you" It broke his heart to see her looking so vulnerable.
Sitting on her bed wearing a singlet and a pair of boy short underwear "But…But I love you"
Castiel sat up. He needed to leave before he says something that would send him back for more pain "Forget about me Hannah. Forget I ever existed" and with that, he was gone in a flatter of wings.