This shall, obviously, be about Sandstorm and... how she felt about Fireheart when she first fell in love with him, and da Spottedleaf business. When the idea was originally suggested by dude1094, I wasn't absolutely sure about this, but I was influenced by Macey's songfic, Firestar's Crush! Aww, c'mon, it was nice. Read it! Yah, more advertising too. You should all also read Warrior-Owlfeather's story, New Beginnings Book 1! It's a quite good story, and stormikat suggested it to me. Also! Enjoy this chapter. Please read the sequel to Flaw I wrote, Perfection, by the way. It just came out. *continues to blabber on*
Confusion and Love
There are two things
I love and hate
Those two things
Are confusion and love.
I like to be confused
When I rather not understand
A few things.
But I hate to be confused
When I want to know
But cannot figure out
The answer.
I love to love
Because it's such a wonderful thing
To be together,
Pelts pressed,
Tails intertwined
With a cat you love.
But I also hate love
Because sometimes,
It can drive you the wrong way
It's irresistably strong
That stealthy emotion
Always lurks silently inside
A single cat.
Sometimes
You don't want to love
But you just can't help it.
Sometimes
Loving can hurt you
Like when someone you love
Doesn't love you back
Or loves another cat.
It would really hurt
One soul.
I had mocked Firepaw.
But then he became Fireheart
And I was Sandstorm.
He was brave,
Strong,
and kind.
I didn't know why,
But I suddenly admired him.
I thought
If he were just a kittypet
Would he have gone to Tallstar
Behind Bluestar's back
And ask for peace?
Would he have risked
Bluestar's trust
Because he believed what he was doing
Was best for the Clan?
Would so many of his Clanmates
Have supported him,
Even Whitestorm and Goldenflower?
I suddenly realized
He was devoted
And worked hard for the Clan.
I then realized
I loved him
More than any cat I'd ever love
I loved him
more than he could imagine.
But would he love me, too?
Would he accept me
Even when I had mocked him so much?
Confusion dawned upon me
Along with love.
Moons later
I found out something good
Fireheart loved me too!
That was great
For me
And I was so happy.
When we went on
The journey to SkyClan,
I suspected his love for me.
Firestar loved Spottedleaf
I knew that
But did he truly love me?
It was confusion all over again
Along with some love and envy.
I questioned his love
Did he really
Love me?
Or did he
Still love Spottedleaf?
I hoped he loved me
Or I would be alone.
I couldn't love anyone else
Would he really be that cruel?
What had I saw in him
In the first place?
When we were separated,
I desperately searched for him.
We had a fight before that
And I felt ashamed.
Shame made me love him more
I didn't know why.
When we found each other,
I felt so delighted
He had been
Working hard
Just to find me.
But I could still see
The tired, hopeful gaze he held
Whenever he thought of Spottedleaf.
If Spottedleaf were alive,
He probably would never notice me
And I wouldn't have ever
Experienced
Confusion and love.
Sometimes I can't decide
If I should accept him or not
But truly,
Even if he didn't love me
I'd still love him, I guess.
Firestar told me
He loved me,
But he could still not forget Spottedleaf.
It was fine by me
Because he showed
That he loved me
As much as he loved Spottedleaf.
I knew he could never forget her
But I would be by his side
Because I love him.
I was glad
He was honest with me.
If he lied,
I'd be angry at him
And maybe all that love
Would disappear.
If Fireheart never appeared,
I would know
How love and confusion
Felt like.
So I hope,
For the moons to come,
He would never forget
About our love
Because even if he hated me,
I'd still love him
For who he was.
Yeah, I used some lines from Code of the Clans. There's an interesting part called A Change of Heart, Sandstorm Speaks and it's about how Sandstorm felt when she changed her mind about Fireheart. It's pretty nice. And everybody, I hope you liked this one. It was a little long, but just fine for some awesome FireSandness! x3 Yeah, Firestar was quite blind. Dedicated to Macey!!
~~Rainy