FINALLY! Here it is! School started for me. Middle School is very busy. I apologize, Silverpebble, and everyone, but I'm not going to be that fast at updating anymore. Anyways, this is Bluefur and her thoughts about giving away her kits, and Oakheart! By the way, my awesome friend borrowed me Bluestar's Prophecy! It's just so awesomely good! ;D
Wrath of Love
When I first
Met the eyes of Oakheart,
Something strange
Tickled my heart.
My chest heaved,
And I didn't know what to do.
I snarled at him,
But Oakheart kept attracting me,
Inviting me always
To meet with him,
Ignoring the code,
Loving me so.
I wish I could
Also, like him
Easily leave behind
The code just like that.
I loved him so much...
But it was the code,
The wrath of the code
I couldn't escape.
Oakheart whispered to me once,
"Bluefur, you don't have to
Always stick to the code!"
I stared at him and replied,
"The code keeps our lives in order..."
But he convinced me,
He convinced me
That we were no harm.
That our love
Wouldn't harm
Any one.
But he was wrong.
"You can escape the wrath of the code."
"We can escape it, Bluefur, we can."
His words echoed inside my head
As I hunted silently
Raking my claws across a mouse.
Oh, Oakheart.
I love you.
But he was in StarClan
What good would it do?
Our kits, Mistyfoot and Stonefur
Grew up into strong warriors.
Oakheart would've been so proud.
Our plans never went well.
None of us were willing
To leave our Clan.
So I gave our kits away...
But Mosskit...
Oh, Mosskit!
How could I have done that?
How could I have lost you?
I couldn't believe
What my selfish decision
Had done to you.
I couldn't believe
That I have done that to you.
I was a mousebrained fool.
"Bluefur, believe.
Believe that we can love.
Believe that we can escape
The wrath of the code."
I tried so hard, Oakheart
I tried my best to believe...
But at the end,
I still couldn't make up my mind.
I love you so much,
Oakheart...
But our love was too forbidden
I don't think I had
Successfully escaped
The wrath of the code
As you had, Oakheart.
Up in StarClan,
I could be by your side.
If only I hadn't made
So many mistakes of my life
Mosskit might've became
A great warrior.
Our plans might've gone right.
I was so selfish...
The warrior code got
Too good of a hold of me.
I felt weak
And mousebrained.
Even if I loved you,
I couldn't change things
Or make up my mind like you can.
Oakheart, I wish I were like you.
Bright, strong, brave...
I wish I had made up my mind.
Maybe Thistleclaw
Could've became leader.
But so?
I'd have my kits...
Maybe
I could've escaped
The grasp of the code, then.
"Make up your mind, Bluefur!
I know you can do this.
I love you.
I know you can.
I believe
I believe you can do it!
Don't just think about the code.
This is about us!"
My heart soared
Every time Oakheart talked
Or looked at me.
But what good was that?
The day Leopardfoot told me
I was expecting kits,
My heart nearly stopped beating.
This was the horrible results
Of our love, right?
I had thought.
But everything,
Every single bit.
It was never anyone's fault
Not Oakheart's.
Just mine...
Oakheart,
You say I can do it, right?
I can escape the wrath of the code.
Perhaps I can, Oakheart.
But the question was,
Could I escape
The wrath of love?
