Yayzas, Rainy's back! I'm hoping to aim for at least three reviews with this chapter since I haven't updated for forever! :) Still, I don't mind because I just write these for enjoyment. After thinking my head open, I've finally came up with an idea! This time I'm writing about Stormtail from Bluestar's Prophecy. He is the father of Bluefur and Snowfur. Coby always says that Stormtail is an awful father. I agree. I want to change something. Maybe reveal some feelings of Stormtail, to show that he isn't just an emotionless freak. I hope I can change the minds of who think that Stormtail is a HELL of a BAD FATHER! (I still agree. But will I convince myself after writing this?)
Too Late
She loved me.
I wasn't sure if I loved her.
She still loved me.
Now it's too late
For me to love her back.
She fell head over paws for me.
I didn't, not for her.
But now I feel like I am doing so
And she's not here.
I wasn't by her side,
When the kits came.
I wasn't by her side,
During the battle with RiverClan.
I wasn't by her side
When she needed me the most.
When Bluekit and Snowkit opened their eyes,
I didn't go play with them,
Or be the good father I was supposed to be.
But you still loved me,
Moonflower.
You loved me
Despite my cold affections
You loved me
Despite how awful of a father I was
Despite how awful of a mate I was.
You loved me
And I didn't realize to love you back
Until Hawkheart laid his claws on your neck.
When I turned to stare at you
Your eyes had already lost
Its beautiful, yellow gleam.
Your graceful body
Had been limp.
Your lively, usually-gliding tail
Dropped and lay on the muddy ground.
Your neck was pooled with blood.
From that moment,
I loved you
And I hated myself
For that.
Because it was too late.
It was too late for me to
Care about you.
Too late
To love you.
Too late
To want you.
And now
I've spoiled my chances
To be by your side
I couldn't keep you by my side
Because I wasn't strong for you.
Why didn't I love you earlier?
Did I only realize to love you
When you died?
Am I a cat
Who'd only feel love
When it's too late?
If so,
Then I didn't want
To be a cat anymore.
Because if it's always going to be
Too late for me,
What was my life's meaning?
You gave me a chance,
Moonflower,
For me to realize
How horribly foolish I was.
When I had my chances
Given by you,
Why didn't I realize earlier
That this would be my only chance?
Now
Because it's too late
My heart has been torn into pieces.
Too late.
Bitter words
Dry taste in my mouth
Dilapidated heart...
Can't someone come to heal me?
It was too late,
I tell myself,
During my last days of life.
It was too late,
It was too late,
It was too late.
It was too late to love her
It was too late to care for her.
As I am dying, I look upon my heart
Still torn up.
Too late... Too late...
The devilish words
Seem to enjoy
Echoing around my mind
Ever since the day
She died
Ever since the day
I started to care.
But then, I reflect
It was too late...
It was too late.
Bluefur and Snowfur
Had mourned over Moonflower's death
So much.
I just sat.
Stared.
Pretended not to care.
And then I realized
After that
It was too late for me
Again.
I just ruined the chance.
Why didn't I cry,
Why didn't I show
My sorrow,
My care,
My love
For Moonflower?
It was too late again
Too late
For me to love
Care
Need
Want
Moonflower,
Too late
For me to be a good father,
For me to seem like
A cat with emotions.
But then
It was just
Too late,
Too late,
Too late,
And now
Even in StarClan,
Whispering in my sleep
Are the words of
Too late, Stormtail,
Too late
Too late.
I could've been a good mate.
I could've been a good father.
I could've been a good cat.
But I chose not to,
I chose the wrong paths,
I chose skills,
I chose fame,
I chose smugness,
Not love.
I chose something I didn't want,
And now
It's too late to turn back again.
Sniffles. Okay, that wasn't really awesome since I'm kind of rusty now at writing these poems. Still, I tried, and I hope you liked it! :D
~~Rainy