Act 2 Healer of the Broken Heart Chapter 2, a buffy: the vampire slayer fanfic

Act 2: Healer of the Broken Heart

Buffy's Reflections

Sitting in front of an old vanity in her room brushing her hair Buffy stops in mid stroke for she sees a tear run down her cheek as Willow knocks at her door.

"Buffy are you OK?"

She took a breath "Yes Willow I'm fine"

Willow not sure Buffy was okay said, "OK see you down stairs.

I sat there just staring at myself until my eyes hit my stomach, it was rounding out I could be… but what if… No he was a vampire they don't breed they infect others to create another vampire.

My thoughts drifted on to that morning waking up in the nude next to Spike who was also in the nude, remembering the events of that morning before the last battle in Sunnydale. We didn't think any of us would survive. but I had this nagging feeling that I wanted to believe that maybe some of us might, early that morning Robin had gotten the school bus in case any of us did.

Telling Giles to gather everyone, when they were together I said, "Everyone I want you to pack one bag a piece and your bed rolls. I know don't need to tell you to bring weapons.

I Heard Willow say, "I needs my lap-top I can't leave it behind."

Giles stated "These books are irreplaceable they have to come."

I said, "I'll tell you what I will do, get the other stuff packed first then we will see what room we have left for anything else."

Amanda said, "We don't expect to survive this battle so why pack?"

Faith stepped in at that point "May I Buffy?"

"Sure Faith."

"That is what the First wants us to believe Amanda nothing is wrote in stone yet. We need this we need hope if we are going to defeat the First. That is something he doesn't want us to have. We have to make our own hope and this is a step in the right direction."

Kennedy stepped in "I don't know if you're right or wrong Faith but it positive thinking."

Buffy said, "Ever one is to meet on the lawn with your stuff in an hour."

Kennedy looked at girls and said, "Come on girls lets get our stuff" and she walked toward the hall then stopped looked at them "Well what are you waiting for an in-graved invitation."

The others got up and started moving about as Buffy said "Spike you know what you need to survive."

"Yea, sure Buffy."

Then he and I walked into the hall he heading toward the kitchen. I went up to my room and looked around at first then went to the closet got out a duffle and I looked at the clothing then I heard a noise when I turned it was Spike standing there with a duffle, cooler, pillow and two blankets.

"I'm ready, what about you?"

"I don't know I'm having difficulty deciding."

He walked over sat his stuff on the bed then looked in "If you don't mind I think you look great in these" as he pulled button down the front shirts out.

They were in earth tones and some shades of pink, yellow and green. Looking at the pullovers pants and jackets I had he pulled out the ones, which complemented them.

"A thanks"

He looked at me "Sure any time" then he walked over picked his stuff up and went out.

That was when I heard Giles yelling Spikes name.

"Spike I need your help."

Spike stopped at the banister and yelled down "I heard you for bloody sake I'm coming."

He gave me another look then went down; I stood there thinking about last night, God I wanted to be in his arms right now but now wasn't the time.

By the time I finished packing and was down stair, there was a pile of bags and bedding on the lawn and another pile of weapons, books and Willow's laptop on the porch. Giles had organized every one into a line, Spike was passing bags and bedding to them as Giles, and Willow organized it into its place on the bus.

The rest of that morning was a blur with fighting the First. We where standing behind the bus after the battle looking at the hole that uses to be Sunnydale I think all of us were glad we had collected the things we had in the bus. I stood there thinking about the fact I would never see him again, part of me wanting to fall apart but I knew I had to be strong and hold us together.

Part of me feels sad when I looked back; I was with him longer than I had been with any man or demon. My stomach churned and my hand started to hurt I figured it was burse for I saw nothing on it at the time. I was running down as we got back on the bus for the trip down to Los Angeles; where else could we go Angel was the only one I knew that had the money and connections to help us, I hated to set him up this way.

I touched the bar in the bus Willow was behind me as I pulled my hand away.

"Something wrong Buffy" Asked Willow.

"Yes my hand feels bruised and I'm tired."

"Maybe you should get some rest."

"That's my plan Willow," I said as I found my comforter and Spike's blanket and wrapped them around me and fell to sleep in one of the seats.

As the adrenaline in my system came down, I drifted into a troubled sleep thinking Angel loved me and in a way, I loved him, but I knew he and I could never have the closeness that I found in Spike's company. That I would have to hurt Angel for his own good, I didn't want him changing into Angelus because of me. I need him as one of my generals not as my demon lover, I loved him but it was different from the way I felt toward Spike.

I thought I had woken from my dreaming; I saw children playing by an underground pond. One yelled "Watch Mom" as he jumped into the steaming water. I yelled, "No you don't know how deep it is!" then an arm caught me.

A voice "Buffy he is safe; it is you and Joyce that needs help."

It sounded like Spike's voice, I looked but the man that faces me he had skunk hair, he had dark hair with a blonde stripe down the middle, and his face was scared. The scar was over the same eye that Spike's was but then it traveled up to the temple and down to his cheek. It was sew unevenly which gave him a scary look. A beautiful dark haired woman came up and kissed him with five children that ranged from three up to fifteen trailing after her.

I felt pain at that point and opened my eyes to see my hand swollen. I guess I made a noise for I saw Willow look over and her eye got big as she saw my hand, she yelled "Giles we need to get to a hospital, now!"

"Why Willow?"

"Buffy her hand it is swollen."

Giles came back and took one look "She has a burn second degree I think. Robin doesn't look well either I was going to stop in the next a few miles up" as he turned and moved up the isle to his seat. I heard Willow and Giles talking as everything went black.

When I thought I came awake again I was back in the cavern but I was alone the only light were torches. I walked then a little man with pointed ears and red hair came into view "What you doing here?"

At first, I thought he was taking to me then I saw I was holding the hand of a little girl with curly blonde hair and a face that was like Spikes except for her eyes they were like mine.

"Momma is sick I thought you could help."

He smiled "She has help" as a screen appeared on one wall showing the bus pulling into a parking lot. "Your love will help her little one until your Papa shows up."

I woke looking at white walls and a white curtain, my hand was in pain, then some one walked up, I felt something sharp poke me and I felt sleepy.

I felt like I was flying I could hear loud blades going, then a smell of disinfectant. I woke in the afternoon with Angel sitting in a chair a sleep at my bedside.

I felt let down I wanted the fight to be a dream and to see Spike sitting there, but I knew he was gone really dead know longer on this earth any more. I felt myself fall into this deep whole known as despair.

As I looked out the window of my hospital room I thought "I wished had been able to collect Spike's dust then I could at least have it sitting on my dresser in a pretty willow jar." I don't know why I feel his loss so deeply my heart feels like a knife is stuck in my chest. Why do I feel so tired? Why do I feel sick to my stomach?