A/N: Wow, it's been ages huh? I'm so sorry! This story takes the most for me to write. I think it's more because for this I actually have to become Lorelai for it to work. I have to put myself in her shoes completely. Anyways, I promise I'll try to make the updates more regular.

This chapter is dedicated to Copop, my faithful reader and reviewer! I love hearing from you and I hope you like this chapter. I know you were wanting to have it up.

Disclaimer: I don't own GG...sad.

February 14, 1986

Happy Singles Awareness Day! He-he. Okay, now really its Valentine's Days. The most romantic day in the whole year. Last year at this time, let's see. I was out with Chris, of course. Probably doing something stupid. I can't really remember now.

Oh well.

I'm working today. Later on, of course, not at this particular moment. I went and got the rooms set up, because I guess the whole in is being rented out by this organization that is doing this romantic couple's weekend getaway. Twenty overly happy, over giddy, overly horny couples checked in today and won't be checking out again until Sunday afternoon.

I'm just thrilled.

I'm trying to kill the sarcasm, really. But, this day started off bad and doesn't seem to be getting any better.

I suppose I should explain. Two words.

Christopher Hayden

OR

Jack Ass

Whichever you would prefer. The latter seems more accurate to me.

The idiot had the audacity to call me this morning. Oh, side note! I was finally able to get a telephone line installed here in the shed. This means I don't have to make all my calls from the Inn or have the desk clerks take messages for me. I have my very own phone. It's this old looking thing that Mia found at a yard sale.

I'm ecstatic.

Anyways, back to the story that will now make much more sense. So, after I got this great line installed, I of course gave my number out. Well, to dad, Chris and of course Mia.

Now, even though I feel like Chris is a piece of scum, I think he should still have a chance to know his daughter. She does share half of his DNA. I think she deserves to have the chance to know him especially.

Back on topic.

So, I got a call this morning. It was right after I had woken up; I hadn't even had a cup of coffee in my system yet, when the shrill ring of the phone blared. It of course woke Rory, which I was not ready for.

Mistake number one.

He started talking like everything was normal and almost like we never went through that stupid messy breakup/me denying his proposal thing. It really threw me off and made me wonder. I realized after ten minutes of him going on and on about school and stuff that he hadn't asked about Rory once since getting on the phone.

Mistake number two.

THEN! He was going on and on and frankly I had tuned him out since I was trying to calm down Rory, who was now awake and super fussy, but then he paused and I realized he had asked me something.

"Sorry, I got distracted. What did you ask?" I asked him, silently praying for Rory to call down.

"I wanted to know what you were doing tonight?" he repeated and I rolled my eyes briefly.

"I have to work tonight," I answered. "We are packed out at the Inn and Mia asked me to work a few extra hours tonight. You could come and hang with Rory though. I think she would like that."

"Oh, well, I dunno…"

"Didn't you want to see her tonight?"

"Well, yeah of course. I was just hoping to see you too."

"I'll be here," I told him, oblivious to his tactic at first. "You should come see her. It's been ages and she's so big now."

"I really wanted to take you out," Chris finally admitted. "Just the two of us."

"Why?"

"Because it's valentine's day…"

"Chris, don't."

"What?"

"I'm not seeing you," I told him forcefully. "I don't want to be a date for you."

"I want to marry you Lorelai."

"I don't want to marry you," I answered. "I thought you would have gotten that by now."

"But…"

"No. I gave this number to you so you could call and talk to Rory and about Rory and actually be a father to your kid. But, if you don't want to do that, then forget it."

"Lorelai wait."

"No, Chris. I'm not waiting. Bye."

I hung up and had to keep myself from throwing the phone across the room. I could feel my blood boiling. I was furious, scratch that, I'm still furious. Well, then not more than two minutes after I hung up on him the phone started ringing again.

I had a feeling it was him, but I answered anyways.

I blame myself for that mistake.

"Lorelai don't hang up," his voice said quickly.

"Why shouldn't I?"

"I love you Lor," he bargained and I let out a choked laugh.

"You have to got to be kidding me Chris," I sighed. "Please leave me alone Chris. If you want to call and talk about Rory then that is perfectly fine. I'm not discussing me and you, there is no us."

"But…"

"That is it Chris," I said. "Have a nice life."

"Lor…"

I hung up before he said anything else and then when the phone rang again I ignored it. I can't talk to him. I just can't. I don't want to fall for his crap. You see, no matter how many times I say I don't feel anything for him my heart still does.

He is the father of my daughter for crying out loud. I think I'll always feel something for him. He was always a charmer too, that was always my downfall.

Stupid jackass Christopher.

Is it so wrong that I just want to find someone who I can love? I do want to get married eventually I think.

I mean, every girl does right?

Is that fair to Rory?

I don't know about that. I mean, is it fair that I won't give her father a chance, but I do want to find a man in a few years to fall in love with and possible make a family with? I need to grow up first.

That's a given.

But then, will I find someone who wants to take me and my daughter on? A ready-made family? What young guy is going to want that? I hope so.

And what about more kids for me?

God, my head hurts right now, too much thinking.

On to something that will make me happy. My little girl.

Rory, dear god, she's getting so big. She's growing up so fast. Her first birthday was great. I had a small little party for her in the Inn. Mia was there, along with Babette and Miss Patty. They love Rory as their own and I can tell she'll be a princess around here.

I don't mind at all. I think the characters of this town will make up for the lack in family that she's going to have to endure.

I've lost contact with my dad. I mean, he still knows where I am and how to get a hold of me. But he isn't happy with the fact that I'm still keeping my mom out of the loop and I haven't talked to him since last month.

I'll tell her eventually.

I think.

Anyways, I still love my parents so much. But I know that mom would demand we move back there and I can't. I won't. I'll stay away until she can understand that I'm on my own and doing fine. Until then…well, sorry.

I'll be eighteen in a couple months. Wow, I can't believe that. Eighteen. I'll be considered a legal adult.

Funny huh?

My daughter will be two in October and I'm just now becoming a legal adult? My life is so twisted.

I'm so tired right now so I'm going to cut this off here. I'm going to try to lay down for a nap before I have to be back at the Inn tonight for turndown service.

So, here's to be single.

Hooray.

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