A/N: Holy crap, it's been forever! I'm so sorry about the wait. I'm not sure why it's been so hard to write lately, I've been crazy busy. But anyways, I'm back! I hope you enjoy this chapter!

Disclaimer: I don't own any part of Gilmore Girls.

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December 12, 1989

How in the hell did I let myself get talked into this Maddie?

I mean, I told myself I wouldn't do this. It was bad enough admitting to myself that Luke is more than a friend tome and now I don't have a chance, but then to witness it all first hand?To be there center stage when he says 'I do.' I don't know if I can handle it. But where I am, sitting on an airplane, thousands of miles in the air, somewhere over the Midwest.

My life.

I'm on my way to Long Beach, California and the wedding of the century. Well, maybe it won't be considered the wedding of the century for most people, but for me…

God, I have to get over him. I have to. I care enough about him to let him go. It sounds silly really, I haven't even known him for a year yet and already I'm so…yeah, so, anyways. How does someone become so important to your life in such a short amount of time? Is what I'm feeling even possible?

Is it? Cause I'm not sure it is, and yet, here I am. God, how did life get so complicated? Why?

I guess I now just have to give myself the time and chance to get over him. I guess that is why I've been seeing this guy at home. I know Maddie; you don't have to scold me. He's nice enough, I guess, but…

Oh, his name is Tom. He works at the high school; he's the gym teacher and basketball coach. I know…me, dating an athletic guy? It doesn't make sense, but he seems to really like me and I like him. It isn't like we've been dating long, only a couple weeks now. We've only had a grand total of four dates, but, maybe he might be a future for me.

It's too soon to tell for sure. I don't love him yet, but I'm not counting that out. I'm not counting anything out yet.

I'm letting myself get all depressed, Maddie, with all this thought and stuff. Maybe I should try to grab some sleep before we touchdown. Let's just hope I can actually sleep.

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Luke couldn't help but let his eyes drift over across the aisle to where Lorelai was deep in concentration and he saw the pink tinted paper in front of her and had to smile. She was so avid about writing in that thing, a diary, which he thought most girls stopped doing around age 13, but for her, there was something that just made it sweet.

He had always wondered what she wrote about, what plagued her thoughts and spilled over onto those pages. He'd never know, that was off limits, he knew that, but he would always wonder about it.

He was thankful for her friendship. They had come leaps and bounds since they had first met when he came home for Spring break last year and now he considered her one of his best friends, if not his best friend. She always seemed to be there, and would worry with him, and gave him a sense of comfort he'd never really known in such a long time.

Luke smiled a bit before closing his eyes and a picture of another brunette haired beauty filled his head. He would always see his mother when he looked at Lorelai. They were so similar and he knew that if his mom was still around she would just drink Lorelai in. They'd be soul sisters and that just made him grin. It hadn't taken long for him to realize why his father had brought Lorelai in to their family after getting to know her. He knew that he wasn't the only one that was reminded of his mother when he looked in her big blue eyes.

"You okay son?" his father's voice asked pulling Luke from his thoughts and Luke nodded. "You seem, distracted."

"Just thinking about my wedding," Luke lied, "I can't believe I'll be getting married in less than a week."

"This is a very big step," William acknowledged, "Now…"

"I'm ready dad," Luke anticipated and stepped in. "I love Kara and I can't wait to start my life with her."

"Then why do I have a feeling you weren't just thinking about your soon-to-be wife?" William asked and Luke groaned and caught a glimpse of Lorelai out of the corner of his eye. "I just want you to be sure that you are doing what you want, and not what you think is expected."

"I love Kara."

"I know you do," William assured him, "I'm not doubting that."

"Then what is this?"

"I'm just wondering if you are in love with her," William answered.

"Dad?"

"There is a difference between loving someone and being in love with someone."

"I know that."

"Do you?"

"Yes," Luke answered, "And I'm marrying Kara. She's the one for me."

"If she makes you happy," William started, "then that is what I want for you. I just want to make sure that you're happy. If Kara is the girl that you picture your life with then, marry her."

Luke nodded, afraid to trust his voice or his words after that. He closed his eyes and tried to sleep after that, but he didn't think it was possible. Especially when a pair of stunning blue eyes filled his thoughts.

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California is beautiful; I can understand why Kara loves it so much. I mean, who wouldn't love the perfect sunshine and mild temperatures in mid-December? I mean, we came from freezing temps to this gorgeous weather and I wouldn't mind staying here forever.

Okay, so that is a lie. I'd miss the snow too much. The snow and me, we go way back, and I couldn't leave that.

Okay, so enough about the weather, cause that is just boring. I guess I should fill in some holes. Our plan was magically on time and because of the time difference it was still pretty early when we got here and now we are just hanging out in our hotel room. Mine and Rory's room sits adjacent to Liz and Jess' with a door between. That has made it easy for Jess and Rory to talk and spend time together.

Those two are just so adorable.

Luke and William are staying on the other side of Liz and Jess.

I know, I thought it was a bit strange that Luke wasn't staying with his fiancé, but I guess her parent's are really old-fashioned and don't like the thought of premarital sex. That leaves Luke sharing a room with his dad for the next week. I find it funny.

I know, I'm horrible.

I really don't mean to be. I really don't.

This should be an interesting week. I'm going to be on my best behavior. I did promise myself that.To behave. I can do that, can't I?

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"I don't know what I'm going to do Luke," Kara whined, "I can't believe that Larissa can't make it."

"Kara," Luke stopped her, "She can't help it about her family emergency."

"I know Luke," Kara whimpered, "but who am I going to find to fill in her spot? We can't have an uneven wedding party."

"You'll find someone," Luke assured her, "You have lots of friends. Don't worry about it. This is supposed to be the greatest day of our life, I don't want you all stressed out."

"You're right," Kara sighed leaning into his arms, "I'll call Jenna or something. It won't be hard to find a replacement. I'm so glad you are here."

"I'm glad I'm here too," Luke smiled, "I love you."

"I love you too Luke," Kara whispered before placing a kiss on his lips. "I love you so much."

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December 14, 1989

How in the hell did I get myself into this mess? How? That is all I want to know Maddie. How do I always allow myself to get tied into something that I don't want to do? I guess you're wondering what I'm talking about huh? I wish I could explain how this happened.

Right now I'm taking a break from altering my new bridesmaid dress.

Yup, you heard me right. I'm a bridesmaid now.

Oh God.

Apparently one of her friends had to cancel due to a family emergency and I was here and being begged to be in the wedding so she didn't have an uneven wedding party and so now…

God, why did I agree to this? Am I really that glutton for punishment? Apparently that's a yes.

At least the dress isn't horrible and I'll be with Liz who was already a bridesmaid. I just don't understand why she had to ask me. It doesn't make sense. We barely know each other. Why would she think to ask me, unless…unless Luke asked her to ask me. But I don't think that is the case either, cause he seemed just as surprised as I was, when she asked today at lunch.

And because she asked in front of the family and Luke I felt like I had to say yes. Though, I probably would have thought that even if she had asked me in private.

Oh shit.

It's late and I'm tired and I'm cranky now. I need to sleep. Maybe this will look better in the morning. Hopefully.

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"You know Kara," Luke started as they rocked together on the porch swing at her parents' house, "it was really nice of you to ask Lorelai to be in the wedding. Thank you."

"She's your friend," Kara answered with a shrug, "it made sense. Do you think she minds?"

"Nah," Luke answered, "She's a good sport and a good friend. She'd do anything for my family."

"It's amazing how close ya'll have gotten since you met her last spring," Kara prodded and Luke struggled to keep calm. "I'm happy you've got such a close friend at home."

"Yeah," Luke agreed, "Sometimes it is hard for me to allow people into my life."

"Oh I know," Kara replied, "I tried so hard to get you to notice me before you asked me out. I was afraid I'd never get the attention of Mr. Lucas Danes, star of the track team at college. Then you finally asked me out and I was over the moon."

"Don't worry," Luke assured her with a grin, "I noticed you. I just didn't think the bubbly cheerleader would want anything to do with me. I guess I was wrong."

"You sure where," Kara drawled. "Now, I should probably get inside. You get back to the hotel; we've got a busy couple of days ahead of us."

"Yeah."

"Hey Luke," Kara called as he started to walk away, "I love you."

"I love you too Kara," Luke answered coming back to place a kiss on her forehead, "I'll see you tomorrow."

"See ya," Luke replied before watching Kara head into her house. Luke smiled and headed down the street. When he got back to the hotel he was surprised to see Lorelai sitting in the lounge area, curled up on the couch, with her pink pen scrawling away quickly.

"Hey you," Luke called and Lorelai looked up guiltily. "I didn't think you'd still be up."

"Uh yeah," Lorelai stammered, "I couldn't sleep."

"Thanks for stepping in and being apart of the wedding," Luke said as he sat down next to her, "We really appreciate it."

"Don't worry about it," Lorelai shrugged, "happy to help out a friend, friends. I'm really happy for you Luke."

"Thanks Lorelai," Luke stammered, "So, how is your dating life? What's the guy's name? Tim? Thad?"

"It's Tom," Lorelai supplied, "and it's good. I'm not sure where it will lead, but, it's good."

"I'm glad," Luke said with a smile, "you deserve to be happy."

"I am," Lorelai whispered, "I really am. Well, I should go to bed. Night Luke."

"Night."

Luke sat back against the couch and watched as Lorelai wandered over the elevator. It wasn't until the elevator doors had closed and Luke sat up to head to his own hotel room did he notice the pink book that had slipped to the floor.

Picking up Lorelai's diary he turned it over in his hand, a desire to open it in his head and heart. Shaking his head he tucked her diary under his arm and headed for the stairs.

He wouldn't read it.

At least, he didn't plan on reading it.

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A/N: So…another chapter is up. What do you think? I'd like the reviews. I know it's been awhile, but if you could be so kind to review anyways…that would be great! Can't wait to hear from ya'll!