Ok. One more chapter for this weekend. Geeze I'm a whore.

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Ha ha! So, this chapter. Hella short. I'm sorry. But it is a somewhat important chapter. Axel explains more thoroughly to a (not much) calmer Roxas about why things are the way they are now. I'm not saying its proper justification, cause Axel's still an emotionally weak wreck with no will power at all but at least he was trying to do the right thing. I won't say much else. Just read.

The next two chapters are EPIC. I might upload them in a double whammy next weekend or I may be a cruel mistress and leave you with a cliff hanger. I haven't decided yet.

Enjoy!

Axel avoided eye contact with Roxas as he entered the main office from the garage. He handed down a handful of papers onto the desk where the blond sat and occupied his hands with tying his hair back into a ponytail for about the hundredth time. It was a nervous habit he picked up every time he had to face Roxas now-a-days. "So, Mr. Robertson finally paid for the repairs in full and just left with his car."

Roxas grabbed the papers off the desk and began sifting through them calmly. "It's about time."

Axel forced a chuckle and rubbed the back of his neck briskly. "Heh, yeah. I thought that car would be here forever."

Roxas stood and spread his hands out on the desk, eyes piercing into Axel. "No. I meant it's about time you said more than two words to me. You know, since you tore my heart out and stuffed it in a blender."

Axel cringed. He'd been hoping to avoid this conversation all together. That was the real reason he avoided talking to Roxas, but it couldn't be helped now. "Listen, Rox…" He froze as he heard their boss coming out of his private office, keys jingling which meant he was going to lunch. This meant nothing to save him from the blond's wrath. He spun around to face the large man and forced a smile. "Hey Xaldin, goin' out to lunch?"

Xaldin nodded to his redheaded employee, mildly irritated. The kid was annoying but he was the best damn auto repair man he'd ever seen. "You two can handle things while I'm away, right?"

Roxas grinned and waved to Xaldin as he nodded. "Sure thing boss! Have fun at lunch!" He retained his cute smile until he heard the man exit the office and speed off in his car, at which point his smile turned into a look of disdain. "Where were we again? Oh yeah, the blender."

Axel sighed. "Roxas, listen. I never meant for…"

"No! You listen!" Roxas lurched forward and grabbed Axel's grease covered jumpsuit by the collar. "I haven't stopped hoping that maybe, just maybe, one night when I'm laying in our bed and I'm crying so hard I can barely breathe, that you'll just come in the room and lay down beside me and tell me everything is alright! I keep waiting and waiting and it never comes Axel!"

Axel stared into Roxas' eyes as the tears in them began to swell. "Roxas, I'm sorry. You're the one that stormed out on me and when I tried to talk to you, you wouldn't have it. I waited an hour for you to come back but you didn't and I thought…"

"Oh, you waited an hour!?" Roxas inched forward. He was now kneeling on the desk face to face with Axel and his anger building. "I waited for you for hours until I finally couldn't stay awake anymore! And when you finally did come home you came bringing news about how Luxord has changed and how much he loves you. What a load of crap!"

Axel took offense to Roxas' last comment and scowled. "It's not crap! It's true! And if you would have just stayed there long enough for me to explain myself you would understand everything! Yeah, I had sex with him that night! And I regretted it! I was torn because I love you both so much! I came home and I was going to go right to you and tell you the truth but Saïx stopped me first and interrogated me."

Roxas growled. "And you said you couldn't promise that you wouldn't fuck him again! I heard it with my own ears Axel!"

Axel shook his head. "When I said I couldn't promise it wouldn't happen again I only meant that I couldn't promise I wouldn't sleep with Luxord again if things went bad between you and I when I told you! But you didn't give me the chance to explain all that!" He looked away from the boy, tears now burning his eyes. "Damn it Rox, I was going to tell you everything. I wanted to talk through it like a couple and deal with it like it should have been dealt with. I wasn't planning on continuing to see him! If you said the word I would have kicked him out of my life forever. But instead you ran!" Axel turned his gaze back to Roxas. "You ran and you wouldn't hear me out! So what was I supposed to think!? I thought we were finished."

"Axel." Roxas looked into Axel's tear filled eyes feeling a pang of anguish. He wanted to throw his arms around the older man and just cry hard like he needed to but he couldn't. He released his grip on the light blue jumpsuit and let his hand fall slowly down Axel's chest to its place at his side. He felt sick, suddenly realizing just how stupid he truly was for getting so worked up. He heard a man's voice coming from the garage asking for assistance and he sighed. "D-don't you have some cars to fix?"

Axel looked to Roxas sadly and placed a grimy hand against the boy's cheek. He pressed his lips to the blond's forehead and hugged him briefly. "I'm sorry Roxas. I never, ever meant to hurt you."