A/N: I'm back. With another update. Here you go. Yup, that is it.

Disclaimer: I don't own Gilmore Girls.

February 21, 1990

Sorry Maddie, it's been quite a busy month and I'm fully feeling the ramifications of that. But, I need to get caught up, so I purposely made time in my day to write today. I've been meaning to for about the last week, but, you know sometimes it just doesn't happen.

I mean, raising a daughter, working one full time job and one part time job, and dealing with everything else is exhausting.

At least I have help though.

Yup. Luke came home. About a week after I left Florida he showed up on my doorstep with an apology for being a jerk and a new attitude.

Neither of us have really talked about that weekend since. Which really is okay with me now that I think about it. But, it's good to have him back. And he really seems to be doing okay. I mean with the whole called off wedding and everything.

I'm glad.

Liz knows about William now. We couldn't hide it from her anymore and I think William knew that. I mean, really, he had to. But as hard as it has been, I think William is doing better knowing that he has people behind him that care for him. It is almost like he is fighting harder.

The rest of the town doesn't really know yet. Mia knows and that is pretty much it. She's been so close to the family for so long that it almost seemed like she deserved to know. She's been great about flexing my hours and such if I'm needed at the store.

That in itself has been great. She's such a great friend. I'm not sure what I would do without her. I know there is no way that Rory would be as great as she is right now without Mia's help.

Speaking of my darling daughter! She's thriving in school right now. Her teachers are consistently raving about her. And I couldn't be more proud. She, right now is in ballet practice. Now, she's not super graceful to be honest, but she loves being in class with Miss Patty and I wouldn't take that away from her.

It was quite adorable, she tried to get Jess to sign up and take a dance class with her. That certainly didn't happen. Jess isn't one for dance class. It was funny watching her try to convince him though. I thought for a moment that he might actually cave, but he didn't.

She's doing a good job at making new friends in the dance class too. There are several girls from neighboring towns that come for dance lessons from Miss Patty so there are a lot more people she doesn't know in class. I'm happy that her little social bubble is growing some.

Now me, I'm fine in my social bubble. I really don't have much of one.

But when would I have time for a social life anyways?

Sometimes I wish I could have a normal 'young adult' life, but then I look at Rory and I wouldn't change having her for anything in the world. I love her more than words could say and yes, her addition to my life is well worth the 'scandal' I caused being an unwed, pregnant teenager.

She's worth it all.

I haven't talked to either of my parents' since that fateful dinner last fall. I'm not sure I'll ever hear from them again. Mom was pretty upset and dad, well he tends to go along with mom on whatever she says. He has always let her pretty much run the show.

He was never around, that is probably why. He was consistently gone, or one business trip or another, doing something for work. That was the normal for me. To be left with the nanny while my parent's gallivanted around the globe.

I traveled with them some when I got a little older. I think I took my first trip overseas with them when I was ten or eleven. We went to Paris, London, Rome, and I think we also went to Amsterdam that time too. Paris is my favorite. All the beauty that is there, I would love to go back and visit there again.

Maybe with my very own prince charming?

Yeah, if that ever actually happens for me then I'll make sure we travel to Paris, but I'm not holding my breath anymore Maddie. As much as I want Luke to realize that I'm more than the best friend I've become to him, I've pretty much given up hope.

He's never going to get over Kara and I just have to come to terms with that. I can survive just being his friend. I know I can. I mean, it isn't like I really have a choice, is there Maddie? I can't force feelings from him and I wouldn't want to.

Friends. Friends are bad, everyone needs friends…

"Mom!" Rory's small voice called from the entry way, "I'm home!"

"Really?" Lorelai asked her daughter with a laugh, "I wouldn't have guessed with you yelling through the house. "Who brought you home today?"

"Luke walked me home," Rory explained as she peeled off her dancing shoes, "he wants to talk to you."

"Okay," Lorelai said watching for Luke to enter the same way her daughter had. When she didn't see him after several seconds she turned back to Rory, "where is he?"

"I think he was looking around the garage for something," she said with a shrug, "he wants you to meet him out there."

"Thank hon," Lorelai answered and slipped on a pair of sneakers before heading outside. "Luke?"

"In here," she heard his voice call from the garage and she trekked slowly to the open garage door.

"What are you looking for?" Lorelai asked when she finally got to the door.

"Nothing," he answered honestly, "I just needed a reason to get Rory away from our conversation."

"Why? What's wrong?"

"Its dad," Luke told her. His voice was calm and steady but Lorelai could see the tears starting to gather in his eyes. "I think he's getting worse."

"But…" Lorelai stammered, "I thought he said the doctors told him the treatment was working? He said…"

"Exactly," Luke said interrupting her. "Dad said those things. Neither of us could actually go to the appointment with him and I don't know how honest he was being."

"Why do you say that?"

"I know this may sound, strange, but I can just tell. But I can't call the doctor and ask because they won't tell me anything."

"Luke," Lorelai started gently, "you have to calm down. You have to."

"I know," he stated firmly. "I just…I don't know what to do Lorelai and that scares me more than even I can think about."

"He'll be fine," Lorelai whispered and wrapped her arms around him. He immediately returned the gesture and Lorelai felt the wetness from his tears on his shoulders. Her own eyes filled with tears.

Then he suddenly pulled away.

"Thanks Lorelai." His words were short and to the point. "I've got to get back to the store. I'll see you later?"

"Yeah," Lorelai answered with a quick nod, "I'll see you later."

And then he was gone. Lorelai wrapped her arms around her stomach trying to quiet the butterflies that had taken flight when his arms wrapped around her.

"It was nothing Lorelai," she told herself, "nothing. Just a friend comforting another friend. It was just a gesture of friendship."

Lorelai shook her head and started back towards her house.

March 16, 1990

I just have to rave for awhile Maddie, is that okay? Rory is just amazing. I mean, I'm sure all parents say that about their kids, but I'm serious. She's a genius. I had some parent teacher conferences and stuff today at the school and Rory's teachers are completely taken by her.

She's top in all her classes, which, doesn't mean much now, since she's still so young, but I have a feeling she'll stay on top for the rest of her school career. She's going to be valedictorian when she graduates. She'll graduate at the top of her class, go to Harvard, and rule the world.

That is right, she'll rule the world.

And I'll be right there cheering her on. My little girl, who sadly enough will not stay little forever.

Though I have to admit that sometimes I wish she would. Stay little I mean. I just want to keep her close to me forever. But I can't and I know that. I do. I just don't want to think about that yet.

So I'm not going to .

Not yet.

It really isn't like I have to deal with that yet. I mean, she's only five and a half. Man, how did I get on this topic Maddie?

Maybe it is because I'm trying really hard to think about anything else. Mainly William.

It isn't look good Maddie. He's getting worse and we all know it. But no one knows what do to about it.

The town knows about it now. Everyone has been incredibly supportive and great, but there are some things that are just hard. And this is certainly one of them. Luke is doing okay I guess. I know that he's trying to deal with it all and I'm just happy to be here for him.

I'm doing everything I can to be the supportive friend.

I hope I'm doing an okay job.

Now Maddie, before I close you up for the night let me tell you this crazy thing that happened to me the other day. So, I was in Hartford with Mia, just taking some time to myself. Away from Stars Hollow and everything and I ran into my dad.

I know. It was weird.

But good. Oddly enough it was good. I mean, we spoke…and it wasn't yelling, it was friendly. Friendly would be a good word.

It might be able to be salvaged, our relationship, I mean. I would like to say that I know it can, but I can't say for sure. But I'm going to try. That is for sure.

I'm falling asleep here Maddie so I guess that means I need to actually sleep tonight. I've got a full day tomorrow. William has another doctor's appointment. I'm praying for some positive news. That is what we need.

Good news.

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