Title: She Couldn't Believe It
Show: Sanctuary
Pairing: Helen/John
Category: Angst/Drama/Romance
Spoilers: Set immediately after 'Haunted'.
Summary: One Shot. Helen's thoughts after John took the creature back inside him in 'Haunted'.
A/N: Just a very short piece, considering building on it, let me know what you think.
She couldn't believe it, she simply couldn't believe it! All those long years she had spent thinking the worst of him…and to have it revealed over a century later that it had never been John who had done all those terrible things…it was the blood thirsty abnormal inside him.
She knew she had told John that it would be too easy to put all of the blame on the creature and none of it on himself but she had lied through her teeth and she knew it. The fact was it just made so much damn sense that it had never been her John and always been that god forsaken creature that had stolen so much from her…form both of them.
He had been so good, and then all of a sudden had become so bad. Why had she not suspected something like this, why hadn't she fought longer?
Fought for the man that was her love and her life.
Now equipped with the knowledge the he had been infested with that creature back in London, the stunning revelation was that John had not spent over a century taking lives….he had spent all that time saving lives….many lives.
When Helen thought of the energy being's thirst for death when it had briefly escaped John's body, and the thousands if not millions of people it was not only willing but able to kill…as astonishing as it was after all these years, it seemed that the startling truth of the matter was the her love had been holding the beast at bay…significantly!
The deaths of the few dozen people John had killed when infested with the energy being were indeed terrible but when you compared them to the many more horrible deaths that would have undoubtedly resulted from the beast's freedom, it became clear to Helen that she needed to turn every assumption she had made about John in over a century on its head.
John was not evil. She couldn't believe it. John was not evil, far from it! In fact one could argue he must has started out as the epitome of goodness to have had such a large and long lasting positive effect on a beast that was the personification of evil and that had chosen to live inside his own mind and his own body.
Helen didn't even remember feeling this bad when she had first learned of John's apparent defection over a century ago, the pain she was now feeling almost rivaled that of the loss of their daughter. It more than rivaled it when she truly realized how much could have been different if she had kept her faith in her lover longer, if she had diagnosed his affliction and found a way to free him of it back in London…instead of abandoning the man she had claimed to love with all her soul to evil itself.
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