"Did Dean fail or win this battle?" I looked to the ground and answered truthfully.
"I don't know. They don't tell us much of anything." I looked up to meet his eyes but they were somewhere else. I knew what he had told Dean, I just hoped no one else did.
"Cas," he herd his nickname and perked right up. "I herd what you told Dean." He looked a little confused but then got what I said. "Don't worry, I wont tell anyone, because I have doubts to." I paused and looked down at the ground. "Can I trust you with something; that I even question myself about?"
"I wont tell a soul." I smiled and continued.
"I don't think God is giving the orders anymore." He gave me a look of confusion.
"Then who is?" I laughed at his simple mind.
"Castiel; I think you know who is." He looked around and tried to think of other people that might be behind it.
"I don't…." I put up a hand to stop him.
"I do. And I think were being played. You keep an eye out for trouble, even from the angels. Keep an eye on the Winchesters; I have to stay away from them." He nodded and then I took off from this town. There was no more saving I had to do here.
I wasn't far when I heard a familiar voice. The angels were talking rapidly, I normally didn't hear them but I heard a name, a name that I hadn't heard in a while. Anna Milton. I stopped where I was and tried to focus, she was in trouble. They were after her, everyone was.
I took off to find her but she wasn't at her home, I focused on her presence to locate her. She was at a hospital, a metal hospital. I got there at night, there was a demon inside, and I could feel it. I found her presence at the window; I sat on the window sill and watched. The demon walked right in and she saw him for what he was.
"Your face, what happened to your face." She was stumbling backwards to get away from him.
"I know." I watched his eyes go black. "I'm downright kissable." He shushed her and closed the door. I watched her eyes go to a nearby cabinet and she looked back and forth from it to him. I got her message and I waved my hand, it moved and then slammed him into the door. She ran to the door and took off. She ran from the hospital and didn't head home.
I flew to her house and gingerly walked up the stairs to her room. I grabbed the first pair of pants and shirt, jacket combination. I was getting ready to leave her room when I thought about her bare feet running on the ground. I slid open the closet and grabbed a pair of boots with some socks in a nearby dresser. I looked around and made sure I had the whole outfit and then walked down the hall; her parents were sound asleep in there bed and the wife stirred. She peered up at me and almost leapt out of her skin.
"Who are you!?" I stepped into the room and put two fingers to her forehead.
"A guardian, Amy." She looked surprised that I knew her name but her eyes quickly rolled into the back of her head and she past out beside her husband. I pulled the covers over her and then picked up the boots that I had set down.
I followed the fear that was emanating off Anna to a local church where she was hiding; I walked up the stairs and placed the clothes on a table inside the attic room. I waited with her; I only stood outside in the pew waiting for someone to show up to take her; whether it was angel or demon. It was at least a day before I heard talking about it.
I felt a presence coming toward the church, I herd it rumble. I cocked my head to the side at recognition to the sound, it was the Impala. Sam and Dean were here to get her? I took seat in one of the confessionals to wait and see since I wasn't allowed to interfere with Sam and Dean. They rushed in guns at the ready and headed to where she was hiding. I followed them up and heard the conversation just outside the door. I could smell a demon coming and I slipped into a room nearby.
She called herself Ruby and she was being tailed by another demon. She was trying to get them to leave, I felt the demon get closer and thought of something fast, I took the pocket knife out of humans pocket and pricked the end of my finger to make it bleed I pinched the finger and imagined it bleeding from the statue of The Virgin Mary from inside the room. I knew it worked because they all took notice. I stuck the finger in my mouth and pulled it out to revel that the wound was completely healed.
I wiped off the spit on my leg, then looked back outside the door, Ruby had Anna in tow and they left while I herd the boys fighting with the demon. I didn't wait to see what happened before I left and located where Anna was put in hiding.
I watched from high above over the trees in the sky. The demon left to get Sam and Dean, but she left as the black smoke. I could feel the angels getting closer, they were figuring out where she was. It would have been the perfect time to talk to Anna, but I feared what she would think of me, since I was an angel. Would she fear me?
Sam and Dean arrived at the shed like barn that they were hiding at and I could see them getting closer, no they where here. They didn't know about me yet, hopefully. I found Anna moving into a back room, away from everyone. I knew we were out of time I and I had to act. I flew down into the room and she was staring at the door.
"Anna, it's good to see you." She turned around and tried the handle but I clicked the lock to stop her. She turned to me and I reached out to grab her arm.
"Stay back." She was scared. I grabbed her hand away from the door handle and sent her an image through a mental connection. She stumbled back and grabbed the desk for support. "What was that." I pulled her to the mirror and sat her down.
"You have to draw it in your blood." I gave her a piece of glass and she held it awkwardly. "Tell no one you saw me here. Tell them it just popped into your head. It will get rid of the angels but only for a little while, do you understand." I was in a rush when I heard them enter. There in. My head snapped up at the sound of them entering. "Now, I'll be long gone for that to affect me." I turned to the door and listened for a minute before I realized she was just sitting there. "Draw!" She sliced her arms to get the blood she needed and printed it on the mirror. She stood up and I saw the last symbol before I got out of there; I was three miles away when I saw the light push out and engulf everything. Luckily it didn't reach me and I got closer when I felt the power recede.
I watched them move her to Bobby's panic room and then Ruby handed them all a hex bad, I couldn't sense them anymore, no smell, no trace; if I didn't know where they were now, I would have never found them. It was a few hours before I saw movement; Dean had left and brought Pamela the psychic to where they were hiding. I kept my distance from her while she was there; there was something about her I couldn't shake.
It was quiet for a while, they were all quiet. The angels, the Winchesters; it all seemed to quiet. I sat on the ground for a while thinking when I felt a familiar pull on my mind. It was Anna; she was tugging at my conscience. I touched her mind and felt rising fear. I stood up and tuned into what was happening around her.
"No, no! No!" he voice was rising and my head started to hurt from all the concentration. I gripped my ears and fell to my knees.
"Calm down." I heard a woman's voice try and calm her down but I could see what she was seeing, it was Father, and he was angry, it made even me, terrified.
"He's gonna kill me!" I couldn't tell if it was me or Anna screaming.
"Anna, you're safe. Calm down." The same woman from before; my head hurt so bad I felt the power lash out and the lights burst around them.
"He's gonna kill me!" we repeated again.
"Anna?" Dean reached forward to touch her but I lashed out in fear at him not realizing my own strength. He fell to the floor and I tried to push back from Anna. "Wake in, .5" Anna's memory quickly faded and I was able to pull myself away from her. I realized that I had fallen to the ground and was in a fetal position holding my ears and my toes hurt from scrunching them to tightly together. I got off the ground and pulled myself over to a tree. Did Anna do all that, or was it just me through her? I couldn't tell if I had destroyed that place or Anna's human did.
Pamela left when she found out the truth about Anna, that she was an angel before; if she only knew the whole story. It was night, and time was running out; soon they would find them. It was only a matter of time. I started to worry when I saw movement outside, they were moving; it wouldn't be enough time for them to find her grace like they were planning. I wanted so bad to tell her what I knew but I would be punished for disobeying; so I waited, watched, and followed them so I wouldn't lose track of her.
They went to the oak tree and found that her grace was gone, I could have saved them a whole trip but I was still to my orders. They waited inside a stable close to the tree when I heard one whisper at first then more; it turned into one strong voice saying over and over again. Dean Winchester gives us Anna by midnight or we hurl him back to damnation. I closed my eyes and lowered my head. They couldn't be serious. They wouldn't do that, not to there prophecy. I opened my eyes to see Anna alone outside for the minute, I looked behind my shoulder like someone was there and then laughed at myself; I decided to visit her on the ground.
"Hello Anna." She turned around worried at first but the expression changed the minute I got there.
"I remember you now. Ananchel right?" I smiled at her and she returned it. "It sure is good to see you." I looked behind me again and made sure no one else was there.
"Anna, I'm glad to see you have your memory back. What's it like to be human." She tilted her head to the side in surprise.
"I didn't think you would ask me that. Well, it's a lot like being free, there are no more orders, and you make your own decisions, kind of like what you use to do." I corrected her.
"What I still do." She laughed and looked me up and down.
"Where did you get the body, she looks…" she was going to say something about my true form but she didn't continue. I lowered my head, and couldn't look her in the eye.
"I'm sorry, I don't seem to be in control anymore." She nodded her head.
"I didn't figure you were, you came to save me when the angels are ordered to kill me. Why aren't you trying to kill me?" I laughed and raised my head.
"I was never given a direct order to kill you, so I'm looking out for a fellow angel in need." She smiled.
"Thank you." Her facial expression went from happy to sad again in thinking of our past, I could see it though her small connection to me. She went to the time when she had come to me for guidance. I told her to do what she wanted to do, what made her happy, she decided to fall; her memory went fuzzy about the falling and I filled her in on the details considering I was there.
She had ripped out her grace and I watched it fall to the ground, I was guiding her to Earth, I found a woman trying desperately to have a child, I pulled Anna off course to her and put her with the woman. Anna pulled out of the memory.
"Why would you put me there?" she looked confused, she obviously didn't know I had helped her.
"Anna, angels fall to Earth all the time, but the angels that don't find a human to be born from; fall through the Earth and turn into the things that we try and stop. That's what happened to Lucifer. I didn't want to see you be one of them." Her face lit up and her smile returned.
"I'm glad your here for me, but you should not be here. What if they find out about you?"
"You have a hex bad to keep me under cover; they don't know I'm here." I placed a hand on her shoulder and we were like sisters again.
"I wish you could feel the things I do. You don't realize how nice feeling loved is." She looked up at me and I patted her shoulder.
"I can feel things through our connection. You can send emotions, images; anything you can think of." She smiled and tried it out; I saw through her eyes and could smell the night air through her nose. Hear the sounds of the forest through her ears, everything was duller in human. When in angel form everything is clearer; sight is multi- colored, sound is crisper, and the smells are greater, but it was still nice to know what human was all about. She pulled back and I was in my own body again.
"Wow, I've never done that before; not even as an angel." I smiled and then noticed I had over stayed.
"I must go, but if anything bugs you, you can talk to me alone, not around the Winchester's" she nodded her head.
"Orders?" she scoffed. "You still follow the rules." I smiled and gave it a cocky nod of my head.
"Yeah, but I get around the rules somehow. I'll talk to you when you need me." I bowed my head to the side and flew back into the trees; back out of sight, but not out of ear.
I could hear Dean and Anna talking, mostly about how there trying to save her and it's not going so well, I guess I gave her confidence to talk about what she heard and what I know that I could tell her. I sat by a tree and listened to the birds tweet the last time before bed and the bugs chirping in the grass awakening to the night; it was peaceful.
I laid my head ageist the truck of the tree and closed my eyes to just listen when I felt pulled away from my body for a minute and felt the connection between me and Anna closer then ever. Was she calling me, trying to warn me? I sat up and I felt a pain in my hips, muscles tightened that I didn't even know I had. It was pain but felt good. My body tensed without my control, it was acting on its own. I moaned and grabbed at my lower stomach, I pulled back ageist the tree and gripped it with my fingernails scratching the bark right off.
It was a quick image of Dean, like a quick flash, and then disappeared in the night again. It flashed back and stayed a solid picture. He was atop me and looking down at me; he was beautiful in the night light coming through the windows of the Impala. I returned to my body to find I was stretched out on the ground, both arms gripped around the trunk of the tree. I couldn't control my own body as it disobeyed me by arching in the air with the movement of Dean in my head. It was like nothing I'd ever felt before, I gasp at the feeling.
My body bucked with his body on the other side of the connection, I tried to stop but I wasn't in control anymore. I felt the turn with both of them, my body on top now. It was then that she let go of the connection. My body fell to the ground and I was slowly gaining control again. I pushed myself ageist the tree for support. My breathing was rapid and my heart was beating faster then ever before. I slowed my breathing and heard only a small voice in my head speak to me. Now you know what its like to be human. It was Anna and I wasn't sure if I could respond; so I didn't.
It was morning and I was sitting like a statue by the tree when I felt the Angels presence, they had found them, but how? I watched them enter and listened closely to hear what was being said. I could feel the demons getting closer too; both heaven and hell in one place. Smart one boys.
"No more tricks, no more running, I'm ready." It was Anna stepping forward.
"I'm sorry." Castiels familiar voice, he truly did sound sorry.
"No, you're not; not really. You don't know the feeling."
"Still, we have a history. It's just…" Anna cut him off.
"Orders are orders. I know. Just make it quick." I waited for them to take her away at least, but the demons had showed up just in the nick of time. I moved to the door and crouched down in the brush to get a better look.
"You know who we are and what we will do. I won't say it again. Leave now... Or we lay you to waste." Castiel had a commanding voice when needed be. I missed what the demon said but I could hear the fight from within the stable. I closed my eyes and looked through Anna's to see the whole fight. Castiel was on the floor and Alistair, the demon her mind filled in for me, was trying to exercise Castiel. Go for Urel, he holds your grace. She looked over to Urel and saw the necklace around his neck holding her grace. She took it back and I felt it filling her up again, I left her body and returned to mine, I waited to see what would happen. It was a bright light coming through the cracks in the ceiling, through the walls and lit up the trees around. She was gone, taking the demon with her. I felt Castiel and Urel stay for a while, but couldn't hear them speak; then disappear from sight. It was quiet again after that.