Read the AN at the end guys! After the chapter, but its actually important today :)
The rest of the week flew by. I was always in my room studying for finals which were the following week. Only one more week of college left. It felt surreal.
On Saturday Alice decided she had had enough of me hiding in my room and demanded that we all go out as a group, which of course included Edward. It was the first time all week that I would be around him for more than a few minutes.
Everytime I was I tries to get away from him as fast as I could. Being near him again made me think of those two years we spent together and thinking of THAT made me think of how things ended between us. Getting angry about something that happened two years ago is not how I like to spend my free time so I just like to avoid that as much as possible.
I was sitting on the floor in the living trying to finish an essay for my lit class when Alice came charging in.
"Bella! I said no homework today!" She shouted when she saw what I was doing.
"This is due on Monday. I'm almost done. We can leave when I finish." I told her without taking my eyes off the laptop screen.
"Bella!" Alice whined. I looked at her over the computer before going back to my typing. "Fine." she pouted, crashing onto the couch.
"Bella, what'd you do to her?" Edward laughed as he walked in. I raised my eyebrows at him.
"Drugs. Only way she leaves me alone." I said. Alice huffed and crossed her arms. I stood up and put my laptop in my room. "When are Emmett and Rose getting here?"
"Five minutes. Jacob?" Alice answered. She went into the kitchen and from the sounds of it started pouring herself a drink. When I walked into the living room Edward was sitting on the couch staring at nothing.
"Any second." I said. I put all my research papers into a pile and brought them into my room.
"Bella?" I heard Jacob call as he walked into the apartment. I waved my hand through the door to show him where I was before grabbing my coat and purse.
As I walked down the hall I heard Alice laughing. She was hiding in the kitchen and when she saw me in the hall she put her lips to her mouth and pointed to the living room. I put my back against the wall and leaned my head around the corner.
Jacob was standing in front of Edward who was still sitting on the couch. I could tell that Jacob was say something to him but I couldn't hear what it was. Edward rolled his eyes and stood up.
"I know that, okay. I don't need it explained to me by some rebound." He said before turning to go into the kitchen. When he did, he saw me peeping around the corner and Alice standing by the kitchen door with one hand one her hip.
Edward's eyes widened as he realized that we had heard the whole thing. Well, he thought I heard the whole thing. The front foor opened and I saw Emmett and Rose walk in and freeze.
"Can I ask what's going on here?" Rose asked and she looked between the four of us. All Alice and I did was look at Edward.
"Nothing. Can we just go?" He said. When nobody moved he sighed. "I had a long day and took it out on Jake. Sorry."
Jacob grunted. "You've had a long two years. And its Jacob." he walked around Edward and grabbed a hold of my hand. "Let's go."
Normally I wouldn't allow anyone(except Alice and Rose) to boss me around like that, but I understood Jacob's need to show that I was his.
Even without hearing the whole conversation between them, which I would get from Alice later, I knew that it had been about me. I felt bad for Jacob for having to deal with my ex. Espically because it had been his role model.
Jacob and I rode in his car to the resturant that we were going to before heading to the movies. Because he took the long way we were the last in the group to arrive. I almost laughed when I saw Edward sitting the furthest away from the two empty seats that were saved for me and Jacob.
Dinner passed by slowly. The tension from the apartment didn't seem to want to go away no matter how many bad jokes Emmett told. I could tell everyone was relieved when it was time to leave for the movie.
I was dieing to ask Jake what happened but I knew that he would either refuse to tell me or completely change the events to make him look innocent. Instead, I sat silently and watched as the world zoomed past my window.
The movie was boring and the plot was the same as all the others. Jacob seemed to enjoy it though so I just smiled and pretended to enjoy myself. It was late when we finally got out so we all decided to just go straight home. Of course, I didn't think about the fact that Edward's home was the same as mine which would put us in the same car.
Thankfully Edward was being Edward so he insisted on driving. I forced Alice into the back with me so I could talk to her without Edward over hearing us. I knew he would be able to tell we were talking about something he wasn't allowed to know and would probabley guess it was about tonight but I didn't care.
"What happened?" I whispered to Alice after Edward started the car and the music would cover up our conversation if we were quiet.
"Jake walked in and called your name," I nodded, remembering that, "and then you waved or something. Well, it looked like you fell or tripped and Jake said 'She's so clumsy' like a boyfriend would. I could tell he was still awkward with Edward but he was trying to be all cool about it. Anyway, so then Edward says..."
She looked at me then and seemed kind of hesitant. This was going to be good.
"Just spit it out." I really should learn my lesson about forcing people to talk when they don't want to say something.
"Edward said 'I know. I fucked her before you, remember?'"
And the sad part was that I wasn't even surprised. The Edward that said that was the same Edward that had left me two years before and was the only Edward that I seemed to be able to remember.
"Don't worry. Jacob went into pissed boyfriend mode and told him that if he hadn't screwed things up between the two of you that he would still have you. And you heard what Edward said. He was pretty loud about it."
I was quiet for a minute before I felt my eyes well up with tears. Even though I knew Edward said those things just to piss Jake off it upset me to think that that was all he thought of about those years together.
Alice shushed me and glared at the back of her brother's head who thankfully didn't turn around or look in the rearview mirror.
We pulled up in front of the apartment building and went in silently. I was almost at the door to my room when I heard Edward call my name. I kept my eyes on the floor so he wouldn't see how red they were.
"I'm sorry" he said quietly.
"For what?"
"For what I said. I just... You weren't suppose to hear that." He ran his good hand through his hair as he spoke.
I shook my head. "Your really unbelieveable, you know that?"
"Bella-"
"No, Edward, it's okay. I don't know why I expected anything different from you." I shut the door behind me and leaned against it. I tried to blink the tears away before they fell. Didn't work.
Finals Week dragged by. The tests themselves were easy. I think it helped that it didn't really matter how I did on them. With the few paintings I'd sold so far I already had a name in the buisness. Enough anyway. My dream had always been to publish a book and my art could be my income until I did that.
On Thursday Rose insisted on taking me, Alice, and Jacob out. And because this was Rose we were talking about, we were going out to the clubs. I put my foot down when they tried to dress me. I was not five, I could do it myself.
A simple black dress and heels did the trick. When I walked out of my room everybody got quiet. I rolled my eyes.
"Okay. I know I don't get out that much, but all of you besides Emmett have seen me in much less." I regreted saying it when I saw Jacob grimace.
"You look good. Black suits you." Rose said. After everyone agreed we piled into Emmett's jeep, which was the only car that would hold all of us. Well, kind of. There were only six seats, so I sat on Jake's lap. I laughed when I realized just how much he liked that idea.
When we pulled up to the club we got in right away thanks to Emmett's constant partying before he met Rose. Apprently, he and the bouncer had been good friends during college.
The music was blaring out of the speakers. Alice forced the boys to get us drinks as we grabbed a table. I was nervous about letting Jake and Edward go anywhere without proper supervision. Alice rolled her eyes at me before dragging me to sit down.
"They'll be fine." she said in my ear. I nodded and out my clutch down. "Let's dance!" she shouted and pulled me to the dance floor. I sighed and begin shaking my hips. I was so not druck enough for this.
I felt a hand go around my waist and a drink was put in front of me. "Here." Jake said. I chugged the whole thing down before handing it back to him. "Thirsty?" he asked.
I laughed at shook my head. "Umm, no. Took my last test today. I am on my own schedule from now on. That means I can affors to be hungover."
I saw him laughing as he went to go get me another drink. I turned back to Alice and felt a lot better with some alcohol in my system. She smirked but otherwise ignored me. Rose joined us and handed me two more glasses, which I threw bacck. I rarely ever got drunk, but when I did, i sure as hell didn't hold back.
Two hours and five shots later Jake still hadn't come back from first delivering my drink. Rose had kept me busy dancing but when I had to fend off yet another guy I decided it was time to go out looking for him. I didn't manage to find him, but I did find the next best thing. Edward.
"Dance with me?" I asked as I pulled him from the bar. He nodded and followed me. Even in my drunken state I knew this was a bad idea but I didn't really care.
If Jake wouldn't come out and dance with me, then he sure as hell can't say anything if I want to dance with Edward. Besides, from what I could remember, Edward had some dance moves. And it looks like I was right. Even with one arm in a cast he managed to look flawless.
The two of us had always naturally drawn attention to ourselves when we'd been going out. Two years and a lot of bullshit still couldn't change that.
When some stupid blonde tried to squeeze between us I wrapped my arms around his neck and pushed our bodies together. When she realized that we were pretty much glued together she gave up and went to go hit on Jasper.
Edward laughed. "Jealous?" he whispered in my ear.
"Old habits die hard." I replied as I pulled away and turned around. I guess he thought I was leaving because he wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me into his chest.
"Where do you think you're going?" he asked. I tilted my head back so he could see my smile.
"Nowhere." I said as I out my hands around his neck again.
He smiled against my neck as he started placing sloppy kisses there. In return I pressed butt into his obvious hard on.
"Bella. Don't start when your not going to finish." He groaned as he pulled away.
I turned to face him. "What makes you think I'm not going to finish?" I whispered. I heard him gasp when I nipped his ear. He turned his head so his mouth was almost touching mine. So close yet so far away.
Right when I was about to lean forward and press our lips together I felt myself being wrenched away. I turned to see Jake standing there glaring at me and then Edward.
"What the fuck is going on?" he asked. I blinked at him. There was something off about him. I didn't know if it was because he was angry, which he never was, or if it was something else.
"Jake, are you okay?" I asked. I tried to take a step closer to him but tripped over...something. Since Edward was closer he caught me. He quickly made sure I could stand and pulled away again. I pouted. I felt so safe in his arms.
"I was fucking great until I come out here and see my girlfriend dry humping her ex." he said. He grabbed my arm and pulled me to him. I rolled my eyes.
"Oh please, Jake. We were just having fun. I wanted to dance and I couldn't find you. What was I suppose to do?"
"Dance with Alice? Or Rose? Or anybody else that isn't someone you use to fuck?" I pulled my arm out of his grasp.
"How dare you? You weren't fucking around! Where the hell were you, Jake?" I asked, putting my finger in his face. I knew that he always got pissed when people tried to get in his face. I usually just thought it was funny.
"I was with a friend that happened to be here. Maybe if you weren't such a slut all the damn time I would be able to enjoy myself every once in a while without haveing to worry about you." he said as he slapped my hand away.
I felt tears in my eyes and put my hand over my mouth to keep the sob in. Jake and I had had our fights, but they were never in public and he never said shit like that. I pushed past him and out of the club.
I heard someone following me in heels and assumed it was Alice. She'd been right there the whole time and there was just no way she didn't hear that.
"Bella? Are you okay?" A fimilar voice asked. I turned to face it because that sure as hell wasn't Alice and it wasn't Rose.
"Vanessa?" I asked. My vision was blurred but it sure as hell did look like her.
"Yeah. Hey, here's a tissue." she said. She dug in her purse and handed me one.
"Thanks. I didn't even know you were old enough to go to the clubs." I said after whipping my eyes and cheeks. I knew that I must look like shit right about now about I honestly didn't care.
"I'm nineteen. Can't drink yet but I can get in." She laughed. I smiled weakly. Oh to be nineteen again.
"Bella?" Alice called as she walked throught the door. She walked towards us when she saw us. "Hey, Vanessa! Bell, you okay?" I nodded.
"I just want to leave." I told her.
"You can't. Jake wants to talk to you. He already called a taxi for you guys. If you want, I can go kick his ass, but I'm pretty sure that wouldn just make things worse."
"Yeah, don't. I'll talk to him. Can you go get him? I want to stay out here and just... NOT deal with all that for a few seconds."
Alice nodded. "Coming, V?" She called over her shoulder.
"Just a sec. Bell, who is Jake?" She asked me.
"My boyfriend. Or maybe ex? I don't know anymore. Piece of advice, don't get a boyfriend in college. They just so aren't worth it."
She laughed. "Advice taken. I'll see you Sunday I guess. Wait, didn't you finish your tests today? Your done with college now right?"
I laughed. "Yeah. Great way to go into the real world huh?" She smiled and gave me a hug before heading back into the club. A minute after she went in Jake came out. He saw me and walked over.
"Taxi's here. We can talk when we get to my apartment." He said quietly. I knew he felt bad for what he said to me but I couldn't help but get pissed at him. There was something off about him and I didn't like it.
"Fine."
The ride there was silent. I was getting really tired of the silence. It seemed to only bring bad things with it.
We walked into his apartment and he shut the door. I turned to face him with my arms crossed.
"Bella, what the hell was that?" he asked, leaning against the door.
"I was having fun. What were you doing all night?"
"I was with a friend. I came over to introduce you guys but I found you with an ex. Is he really an ex? You guys live together and you seemed pretty close at the club."
I rolled my eyes. "We live together because he couldn't keep his pants on and I'm roommates with his sister! That's it. You of all people should know that!" My voice broke and the tears fell from my eyes before I could stop them.
Jake rushed to me and engulfed me in one of his massive hugs. "I'm sorry." I told him between sobs.
"Shhh, I know. It's okay. I'm sorry too, okay? Hey, we're fine. Everything is fine. Please stop crying." he said as he rocked us.
"Really?" I sniffed. I'm not sure if he heard me or not since I was speaking into his soaked shirt.
"Yeah. Come on. You must be exhausted." I nodded and let him carry me to bed. I was asleep before we got there. Which sucked because I still didn't know what was wrong with Jake.
Wow drunk Bella is fun. I can make her do anything I want and nobody can kill me lol not that anyone would want to. There was E/B! Not allowed and got both of them in trouble but it was there lol
Alright, so as I was writing this chapter I realized how fun it was to write about adult stuff. I'm going to change the rating just in case. Umm, I can't write lemons and don't know if you guys would be comfortable with that kind of stuff. If you are though, and you or someone you know can write it, send me a message or email me and we can work something out :) If I can figure out how, I'll get a poll on my profile so you guys can vote on it. So vote, or leave a review lol I will count those too :)