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Chapter 13

Before I even opened my eyes the next morning, I could tell that I was already regretting my decision to let loose and have some alcoholic fun. My head was killing me and I felt sick. I smelled horrible. It was like the booze was seeping out of my pours. I groaned and tried to roll over, but I was trapped by an arm wrapped tightly around my waist. "Oh hell," I thought. "What did I do last night?"

I bolted out of bed and was standing in the center of the room looking around trying to recall everything that had happened. Eddie bolted up taking a defensive position next to me waiting for any threat that might have made me jump so fast. His face was confused when he looked around and saw nothing or no one there besides the six people who crashed in his room the night before.

"What's the matter?" he asked still waiting for a threat to come bursting into the room at any moment.

"What the hell happened last night?" I asked finally starting to get my baring straight. "And why in the hell did I wake up cuddled up next to Adrian?" I pointed over to where he was now laying awake with one hand placed behind his head smiling like nothing happened. Well for me, waking up in the arms of a guy, is not a nothing. It's something; something big! I looked over at him and glared. "What were you thinking when you decided to cozy up to me last night?" I asked accusingly. By this time Lissa and Christian were up watching my freak out session. Lissa looked truly concerned and Christian just smirked. I turned to Eddie, who for some bizarre reason still was in a defensive stance. "And what the hell are you doing Eddie? Do you think some Strigoi are going to just saunter in here and want to join our little party?" I don't know why I was so angry, but I was. I looked over at Rose who was still fast asleep. What the hell? Did I need to hit her in the head with a brick in order to wake her?

Adrian got up and walked over to me draping his arm around my shoulder. "Sam, you are a feisty little creature aren't you?" I looked at him steam bellowing out of my ears. I turned around narrowing my eyes, hoping I looked as dangerous as I felt. "If you ever want to see another day of drinking and smoking I would highly suggest that you do not talk to me like that again." I turned around and stormed out of the room. I ran down the stair and into my room slamming the door behind me with such force I thought it would fall off the hinges.

"What the hell just happened?" I thought to myself. I slept with Adrian Ivashkov. Yes, we only slept but still, that was not an experience I wanted to have while drunk.

I was so angry with myself that I didn't care if I was okay or not. I needed to work out. I through on a pair of shorts and a tank top noticing for the first time how big they had actually gotten on me. After throwing on my shoes I bolted from my room and towards the track. I knew I would pay later for now stretching, but right now I could care less. I just ran as hard as I could, trying to work out my anger.

Blaring my IPod I was going into my eighth mile when I felt my leg start cramping excruciatingly. I slowed to walk and eventually stopped to try and stretch it out. God, it hurt like hell and I knew I was going to have one of those limps that came with this kind of cramp…great.

"Decided to skip stretching today did ya?" I turned to see Eddie walk up beside me. Sitting down he began to massage my calf and did it feel good. "Thanks Eddie." He just nodded concentrating for a moment on my leg. I was really glad at that moment that I had decided to shave the day before.

"So, what happened back there?" he asked breaking the silence. I looked over at him embarrassed by my odd freak out in his room this morning. "I don't know," I lied trying to stand up. "Don't," he said. "You're just going to hurt yourself even worse if you don't let me rub this muscle lose." I sighed and sat back down next to him. He began rubbing my sore calf again and smiled. "You're a really bad liar, you know that?"

I shook my head in defeat. "Fine, I'll tell you." I had already embarrassed myself today, why the hell not continue the trend of the day? I told him everything. About how I liked Adrian, but not anything more than a friend and how I didn't want my first time being held in the arms of a man while I slept be the cause of some crazy drunk night. "I wanted it to be special. With someone I really cared about or loved even," I said looking down at the grass. Eddie nodded as he kept massaging my calf. "Is there someone special you had in mind?" he asked. "No," I said with a laugh. "And probably never will." I thought I saw a hint of sadness cross his features, but it quickly dissolved back into Eddies thinking face. "It will still be special when the right person comes along."

He smiled and grabbed my hand pulling me up. "Come on. You better call it good for now. I don't want to have to explain why I allowed you to go do something I knew you weren't supposed to." I laughed and started walking back. "You think I'm kidding," Eddie said shaking his head. "Stan would yell at me because he is your mentor and would feel the need to yell at me because he's a prick and Dimitri, well he scares me. He has taken a liking to you and if he found out about your morning adventure and you cramping like you did…well, let's just say I don't want to feel the pain that would come with his punishment." I laughed and shook my head. "I'm not so sure about that. He's probably just doing it to please Rose."

Eddie stopped walking and grabbed my hand pulling me back to him. "Sam, you need to stop talking like that." His tone was a mix of frustration, anger and sadness. What the hell was that all about? I gave him a confused look and smiled. "Like what?"

"Like you think that you're not worth anyone's time. Like you're not good enough. Like your ugly or something."

I stood there looking at him with my mouth hanging open. I can't believe he figured me out. I always joked about it when conversations came up. It was true I felt that way, but never before had anyone figured out I wasn't joking when I talked like that about myself and here he was calling my bluff. Tears were threatening to spill over and I blinked furiously to keep them at bay. Then anger took over. "Eddie look around you. No one accepts me here. Hell you didn't even accept me until recently." I saw hurt and regret flash in his eyes, but I just kept going. "I am not one of you and I will never really belong. Now look at me and tell me what you see. I am not strong as you or fast as you and no matter what I do or how hard I train I will probably never meet the expectations of the guardians. I am probably putting the Moroi more at risk by staying around and trying then I would if I just packed my crap and hightailed it out of here." I shook my head trying to keep the tears away but to no avail. They came flowing down my cheeks and I did what I did best lately when I was upset. I ran.