Ciaossu! The final chapter! Yes baby, the last one.
I'm so sorry, but I just felt I had to end it.
This is a few years later. Deidara thinks about Sasori. The used song is Reminiscence by Nega.
Enjoy!
Deidara sat in his chair
Sitting
Thinking
Thinking about a few years ago
Thinking about his slave
His lover
His Sasori
He had a sketch block on his lap
A pencil in his hand
He was drawing
Drawing the flowers
That Sasori liked
'All of your pain
Is my pain
With such a broken voice
You said
"Why am I this weak?"
Embracing the shaken you
I prayed in the night
I know I won't ever get you back again,
But...
Your birthday is coming,
Isn't it?'
With his pencil
He drew
Absentmindedly
Beside the first flower
Another one
'I want to draw the white world
Even if you are in the black world
I believe that you are white'
Deidara started to cry
He knew
That Sasori was up there
Up there
In Heaven
And he knew
That when he would die
He wouldn't go there
He knew
That he would go to Hell
Because he failed
Because he didn't follow God's rules
But if God actually existed
He would already be punished
He didn't believe anymore
In that "God"
Because
His punishment hadn't come
And now
It wouldn't come anymore
'Maybe I'm punished right now
Maybe this sadness is my punishment
I don't deserve it to be happy
After I took the happiness
From someone else away
Someone's happiness
That made me happy
That someone
Was him
Why...?
Why did I do this?
Why?!
WHY?!
I drew two flowers.
This picture is not sad.
However,
Why am I sad?
I know it
It is because you're not here
I miss your presence
I miss your cries
I miss your laughs
That I have only heard
When you were just here
I hate myself for it
I hate everything that I did
What if...
What if I could turn everything back
What if I just helped you
And didn't torture you
What if...
What if I just killed myself
Then I would go up there too
Maybe
On my way to Hell
I can see a glimpse of you
Maybe...
I'm very painful in suffering of you.
I wanna meet you.
I wanna touch you.
Because I still love you.'
Deidara stood up from his chair
He walked outside
Where he hadn't been for years
He walked to the park
Where he had seen Sasori for the last time
He walked to the pool
The pool
Bounded with much memories
He stared into the water
He saw his own face
He didn't recognise it
He saw a face
With long blonde hair
That hadn't been brushed
For a long time
He saw hollow, blue eyes
Almost all the colour had vanished
They lied deep in his head
He saw a pair of cheeks
Pale
And hollow
He stared
At the for him unknown face
The unknown person
He teared his gaze away from the pool
He went to the drugs store
When he heard his voice
He didn't recognise it
It was cracky, and high
He sounded like an old man
He asked for a pack with 75 paracetamols
When Deidara was home
He walked to the bathroom
He took a glass
And broke the pack with the medicines open
He took a handful
And he swallowed then
One after another
He had almost half of the paracetamols swallowed
When he felt that he became dizzy
He gripped the sink
Preventing him to fall down
Slowly he sat down against the wall
Memories flashed through his mind
He swallowed again a few pills
Then he really didn't feel well anymore
He started to puke
He grabbed his stomach
It started to hurt a lot
His liver was beginning to hurt the most
He was thinking about how much he already consumed
'It has to be around 60'
Then he collapsed
'Sasori, I will see you again
Though
That's what I hope
Goodbye world'
"Sayonara..."
And he closed his eyes
He floated
He saw his dead body
He smiled
He was gone now
He was leaving the world for good
Up he floated
He left
He was happy
He saw the white walls from heaven
And in the middle
He saw the great white gates
And behind them
He saw what made him the happiest
He saw there Sasori
He saw that he was happy
He called for him
Sasori looked up
And saw Deidara
He gasped
And ran to the gates
"DEIDARA!!"
"SASORI!!
I'm going to Hell
I'm sorry!
I can't see you anymore
But I'm glad that you're okay"
"Deidara!
NO!!
You can't have died!
YOU CAN'T
Don't tell me you committed suicide
YOU DIDN'T
Did you...?"
Deidara became sad
Sasori became pale
"You... did...?"
"Yes..."
Right at THAT moment
Deidara felt a great force
Pulling him away from the gates
He couldn't do else
Than coming with it
"Deidara...
Where are you going?
HEY!
DEIDARA!!
DON'T GO!!!!"
Sasori cried
Deidara cried
They couldn't do else
Than obey
Sasori deserved Heaven
Deidara deserved Hell
So be it
'Seems like God actually does exist'
Deidara thought
He was happy
He was sad
Happy
Because he knew that Sasori was all right
Sad
Because he knew he wouldn't see him anymore
He had to obey
It couldn't be else...
It couldn't...
Hmmm.... Don't like the ending though... I guess I'll make a short epilogue...
About the Paracetamol thing, I actually did research! After 40 ones, you may hope that you'll die, but the chance is bigger that you go into coma or something like that. It destroys your liver, and causes paleness and sickness.
Anyways, THANKS FOR ALL THE REVIEWS I GOT!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!
Maybe see you soon???