I don't own Twilight or the characters!

It's a quick update, I know. But I had to do it, to calm you, people. I get it, everyone hates Tanya :D About Esme, don't hate her, she doesn't know Tanya's secrect. In fact, no one does.

BPOV

Secrets
We're got dreams
Mysteries
And crazy schemes
Secrets
We've got dreams
Secrets
Can't be seen

I had finally changed my ring tone, yesterday.

"Hello"

"Bella, it's me Alice"

"Oh, hello, Alice. I'm heading home. Would you like to come?" It was Thursday and she had yet to come and talk with me.

"Actually, I can't now. But I called to see if you can this weekend"

"I'm sorry, I'll be out of town. Next week?"

"Sound's good. Tuesday?" she asked.

"Of course. One-two pm? You can?"

"Yes, I'll see you then. Have a nice weekend" Oh you have no idea how nice it will be!

"Thank you. You too! Bye"

"Bye, Bella"

I had to pack, I hadn't had time for packing. Three days with Edward, alone. Bliss.

"So…you and the famous married lawyer! Is it true?" Jessica asked making me trip in shock.

"He's an old friend! What possessed you to say such thing?"

"Friend? I could see you on Monday! I will not say anything, it's not my place. But, be careful! He's not the type to leave his wife for a fling" I huffed annoyed and stepped in the elevator. So, she had seen us. Better, she keep her mouth shut.

I got home and started packing. It had been two days since my break down. Rose was right, of course. I shouldn't have kept those feelings inside, but whom was I supposed to confess? I was sure, I had lost Edward when I finished the story; but he stayed. He soothed me and stayed the whole night with me, not sleeping. I shouldn't have been upset that he had slept with his wife, it was something normal! I was positive that he still had feelings for her, and hell, he must be stupid not to bang her!

I finished packing around eight pm and now I was lazing around, watching TV. Something, that Rose had brought with her, on Monday, caught my eye. OK! magazine. Nothing strange, I wouldn't have cared about it if it hadn't been for the cover picture. Edward with his arms around Tanya, smiling crookedly at the camera. I took it and skimmed to the right page. I nearly dropped it when I saw the pictures. The first two were relatively innocent, but the last one; she was wrapped in his arms, legs around his waist, kissing the life out of him and he looked like he enjoyed it. A lot. It must have been a month old, this issue, but still. No one can change their feelings like this, not even Edward! The interview said everything I didn't want to know about his life. How happy they are, how they still love each other and how healthy their sex life was. The bitch even said that he had sex with her on the kitchen table! Who cares about that? I was surprised she hadn't gone in more interesting details, as in how big he is or the amazing look he has on his face when he orgasms. I felt my heart beating wildly. I wasn't sure if I was angry or if my heart was just telling me it can't take another loss.

I had managed to fall asleep in that uncomfortable armchair. The doorbell woke me up what felt like an hour later.

I ran to the door, bumping into the wall next to the hallway.

"Shit" I opened the door, looking down at my bruised knee.

The door shut and I looked up to see Edward looking concerned at me.

"What has my clumsy girl done now?"

"Wall…it was in my way"

"Come here" he took me in his arms and proceeded to kiss me.

I felt the wall behind me and Edward's hands under my shirt, he moaned lightly and nibbled on my lower lip.

"If we wouldn't have tickets for this plane, I'll take you right here and now!" he kissed down my neck. I tugged at his hair to raise his head, he moved to look at me.

"I'll get the luggage, stay here" I slipped from his arms and went to my room. When I returned, Edward was looking at something on my floor with a panicked expression on his face.

"I'm ready" I whispered.

"Tell me you don't believe these! It was a month ago! Please, Bella" he whispered fervently, caressing my face with the back of his hand. I sighed, "I'd like not to believe it"

"I'll show you how much you mean to me this weekend!" Edward said determinate. He picked up my luggage and his, which I hadn't realized it was there until now.

In the cab he stayed in the front seat, throwing me glances in the rear-view mirror; in the airport he just stayed quietly next to me while we waited to be called to embark.

"Flight #3816 from New York to Philadelphia…" I just got up and followed him to the gate. Once in the plane, Edward offered me the window seat, I accepted it and fiddled with my iPod.

"Bella" I just shook me head and closed my eyes hoping he will get the point. I had to think of what had just happened, of I read.

The song Secrets by the Runaways came on and I giggled, turned to Edward and nudged him. I put an ear bud in his left ear and watched his face as it changed many emotions.

"It fits" he whispered watching me closely. Then it came on Lovers. I blushed and looked away. Edward took my chin in his hand and turned my head to him.

We lovers never say goodbye
We lovers never die
We stop and go so quietly
Cold lovers fade away

He whispered to me, his eyes twinkling.

"We're strong, hot lovers. Our love will never die. What we are doing proves it, over thirteen years and we still love each other" he told me.

"Whatever, Cullen. But tell me, the truth. Do you still love her?" I had to use 'the truth' thing or he will lie.

"Yes. But I love many people. I'm in love just with one. And that one is you" ARGH! He is infuriating. I can't win the argument, he was right when he told Alice that. You just don't argue with lawyers!

"If you don't mind, can you answer me a question?" he asked uncomfortable. I nodded.

"Did you love that guy? The one that…" he gestured to my ring.

I swallowed a few times and answered. "Yes, I still do. Always will. But as you said, I'll always be in love with you. And it's not because you were my first in everything…it's, you're…" I didn't know how to explain my feeling to him.

"The air that you breath? That's how I feel. My life. I told you that my life lost its meaning the moment I left Forks" I blushed at his words.

"Something like that", he put an arm around me and held me against his chest for the rest of the flight.

We landed and arrived quickly to the hotel. In the room was just one bed.

"Emmett will be Emmett" muttered Edward.

"Does he know?" I asked fearfully.

"I'm not sure. I hope not"

He started taking out of his luggage a suit and a shirt. "I have to go to the meeting. I'll be back around six and we'll go out and eat" he said stripping and putting the suit on.

"You don't have to strip for me" I teased him. His eyes grew wide.

"Oh…now, what's done is done. Entertain yourself while I'm gone" he kissed me for a few minutes and we separated, he was gasping for air.

"Go, you don't want to be late" I murmured.

"Later, love" he whispered and left.

What was I supposed to do? I took a long bath and lazed watching TV. What will we do tonight? I didn't have any nice clothes with me, didn't think to pack. Not like I had any.

There was a knock on the door and I answered. A guy gave me a package of something, "From Mr. Cullen" and he left.

I went to the bedroom and opened it. A dress and shoes.

I felt my blood boiling while I read his note: I know you don't have any nice clothes with you. I took the liberty to buy you this dress, Love, Edward

The nerve of him! He made me feel like a cheap whore without meaning, I knew he had good intentions, but it still hurt.

I deliberately put something else on me. I normal skirt and a blouse.

He came around seven, later than what he had said. Edward looked sad when he saw I wasn't wearing the dress. I went straight to him and slapped him hard.

"How dare you do this?? You made me feel like a whore! Not that you are treating me any differently" I was mad and I tend to overreact when I'm mad.

He cradled me in his arms, "I am so sorry, I didn't think when I bought it. We don't have to go anywhere"

"Are you ashamed to be seen with me wearing this? Or just be seen with me?" I almost yelled.

"Bella! My love, I can't be ashamed with you, ever" he whispered kissing my hair.

"I just want to stay in. I missed you too much" he continued.

"We'll play my way tonight!" I told him. He nodded.

"Ok, strip and wait for my orders!" I instructed him. His eyes widened but didn't say anything.

I got a shawl and called for him. I had stripped down to my underwear and left the high heel on. A naked Edward came in looking ashamed.

"Get in the bed and put your hand on the headboard!" he did and I tied them to the headboard. He groaned and I saw he was excited. I ruffled his hair and motion for him to stay quiet.

I called room service and asked for strawberries and whipped cream. The guy came fairly quick and I was back to Edward in no time. He was squirming, trying to get his hands out of the bind.

"There will be consequences if you get your hands out of that" I said, biting a strawberry and moaning lightly when I tasted it.

"Come here, I want to taste that from your lips" whispered Edward.

"You are not to talk or make any sounds until I tell you" I demanded. He moaned loudly.

I went in the common area and got the belt from his pants.

"What have I told you? No sounds! Now I have to punish you" I said slapping the belt to my palm.

"Yes, punish me, I've been bad" Edward groaned. I touched the belt to his thigh lightly and he moaned again.

I hit him again, harder, his eyes widened and shut his mouth, whimpering quietly. I hope I had not hurt him.

I took a strawberry, dip it the whipped cream and held it to his lips, "Open", he opened his mouth obediently.

I traced his lips with it and his tongue darted out to lick the fruit, I snatched it and pinched his nipple hard. He growled low in his chest, but didn't say anything.

"Will you be good?" He didn't answer, so he can listen if he wants. "Answer"

"I will" I raised an eyebrow and he frowned not getting what I wanted to hear. "Bella?" Oh wrong word, baby.

I slapped the belt to his leg lightly. "Try again"

His eyes grew wider and his mouth dropped open, he swallowed and said "I will, Mistress"

"Very good, my pet" I whispered and ruffled his hair again. Edward was watching me strange but didn't say anything. I brought the fruit to his lips again and after I had smeared the cream I whispered "Bite". He bit it, but didn't chew.

"You may chew" I told him stroking his cheek, feeling the muscle flex while he chewed. I lowered my lips to his and licked the cream carefully, then parted his lips and mingled our tongues. The taste of Edward combined with strawberries made me dripping. Oh, how I missed to play with him. I've always wanted to have him at my mercy.

"Good, boy" I murmured.

I dipped my finger in the whipped cream and smeared it on his chest, leaving a trail to his groin.

"My, my what a dirty boy you are!" I grinned. I started licking and biting his chest, I payed great attention to his nipples, his muscled twitched but he didn't moan. His hands were gripping the headboard as if his life depended on it. When I nipped at his lower stomach, he let a out the softest moan and looked scared at me afterwards. I dug my nails in his thighs and licked down to his erection; it twitched and grew harder if possible.

"I shouldn't do this, you were a bad boy" but I lowered my head and licked him once from his sack to the tip. Edward trembled under me and growled softly.

I circled my tongue around the tip and played with his sack, then I engulfed him slowly in my mouth. His whole body went rigid and a shudder ran through it; Edward didn't moan. Wow. I was impressed by his self-control. I moved my head a few times and he twitched in my mouth. "You are not allowed to cum until I tell you", his eyes grew wide and implored me with them not to joke with that.

I released his and went to his mouth again, feeding him another strawberry; he closed his eyes and hummed against the fruit. I took another one and made sure he was watching me. I took off my knickers and bra and settled on his chest, spread wide. I dipped the fruit in my juices and didn't even care when he moaned loudly; I raised the strawberry, "Would you like a taste?" Edward watched me closely but his eyes jumping to the fruit every second. "Answer"

"Yes, Mistress" his voice rough.

I gave him the strawberry and watched as he devoured it, savoring it's taste, my taste. I couldn't wait, I need him. I raised and settled on his face, "Eat me as you ate the fruit" I instructed.

He moaned and rolled his tongue over my swollen clit, I fisted my hands in his hair and literally fucked his mouth. I was moving on his mouth, feeling his tongue go in me and then come out. My climax came faster that I thought and nearly blacken me out.

"Very well, now I'll help you find your release" I murmured. I lowered on his stomach and took in his face, smeared with my juices and flushed. I took a condom and put it on him, and then I slammed myself on him.

"Jesus, Bella!" he cried out, raising his hips. I put my hands on his chest and started moving.

"Bella, let me touch you" he begged.

"Did I tell you to talk?" I asked rolling his nipple between my forefinger and index finger. Edward hissed. I haven't been on top of him, yet. He was so deep and everywhere that I could barely think.

I focused on the beautiful creature that squirmed under me. Edward's hair was sticking in every direction and some of it was plastered on his forehead form the sweat, his eyes were closed, his nose scrunched up and twitching involuntary and his amazing mouth was slightly open; his head was titled back a little and I could see his Adam apple bobbing up and down, the veins on his neck stretched. I had a hand over his heart and I could feel it beating wildly, concurring with mine. His hips were meeting my thrusts and his legs trembled just a little. I could feel that he was close to cumming.

I put my mouth to his ear, "Cum for me, sweetheart". He didn't need any other encouragements, he twitched violently and cummed with a loud groan. I clamped around him and started milking him. I couldn't hold up anymore and fell on him.

Edward nudged my cheek with his nose.

"Wha'" I managed to get out.

"Want…hug…you" he gasped out. I raised a bit and untied him, his arms circled me and held me tightly to him.

"Did I hurt you?" I asked when I was able to regulate my breathing.

"Hell, if that's what you're going to do every time I disobey, I'll disobey more often" he chuckled.

"Seriously. I hit you pretty badly, I'm sorry" I murmured.

"It will go away, it's just a bruise" he grinned and kissed me. "Are you tired?"

"A bit"

"Let's sleep. Tomorrow we'll go explore the city" said Edward. He got up, threw the condom away, went to bath to clean and came back to bed.

I put the blanket over us and snuggled next to him.

***

"I TOLD you, it was going to happen! There's no way back!...Are you sure this Benton woman is good?...I just asked, I don't know her!...Wow, put the day in history!...Mhhmm, I wrote it. Thanks, Meaty hands…Sure, anytime"

"What's wrong?" I asked sitting up, wrapped in the blanket.

Edward's head snapped to me, "Oh, I didn't mean to wake you. Sorry. Emmett called to tell me about a lawyer, I apparently haven't heard of" I frowned my brows at him.

"For the divorce, Bella"

"Oh…"

"Don't say anything. I promised you I will do it. Now let me call this Carmen Benton and see what I can do, then we'll go out" he murmured and started dialing a number.

EPOV

There was song, I could hear it, it was nice. But it was annoying, I wanted to sleep, I was tired. The song was familiar, my ring tone for Emmett! I shot out of bed and hoped I hadn't woken Bella.

"What is it, moron?" I grumbled.

"A good morning, to you, too" he greeted.

"Had a long night?" he teased.

"What do you want at…10 am?" Already? It felt as if it was 7 am.

"I talked with a friend about your situation. Do you still want to divorce her? You know mum will be devastated, she's been married with the same guy for over thirty year"

"The difference is that she loves him" I explained.

"Can't you think? I know you and Bella…but man, think-"

"I TOLD you, it was going to happen! There's no way back!" I exclaimed exasperated.

"Okay, then I'll give you the number. Her name is Carmen Benton. The best, believe me" he said.

"Are you sure this Benton woman is good?" skeptical that a woman lawyer was that good.

"Haven't you heard of her cases? She saved fucking Sony from shit a few years ago and-" I cut him off.

"I just asked, I don't know her!"

"Really, in what world do you live? I lived the day to hear you say you don't know something" Emmett said proudly.

"Wow, put the day in history!" I shouted.

"Keep your pants on…or off for Be- fine, fine. Here's the number" he rattled it and I wrote it.

"Mhhmm, I wrote it. Thanks, Meaty hands"

"ARGH you know I hate it!" he groaned.

"Sure, anytime" I said and hung up.

"What's wrong?" Bella asked sitting up, wrapped in the blanket. She looked like some kind of godness, her hair wild, flushed skin and that blanket covering her goodies. I wanted to be the blanket. Can someone be jealous of a blanket?

"Oh, I didn't mean to wake you. Sorry. Emmett called to tell me about a lawyer, I apparently haven't heard of" she frowned, trying to understand what I'm saying.

"For the divorce, Bella"

"Oh…"

"Don't say anything. I promised you I will do it. Now let me call this Carmen Benton and see what I can do, then we'll go out" and I dialed the number. Bella went to the bathroom, dropping the blanket on her way and making me groan.

"Carmen Benton speaking" her voice sounded warm.

"Edward Cullen, here. My brother, Emmett talked with you" I explained.

"Oh, yes. We can arrange it. I can be discreet, no one will know that you are divorcing" If only it will be possible, Tanya will make a big thing out of it.

"Can you make the documents? I'll be back on Monday, I'm at a meeting, now" I said.

"Sure, then I'll come to your office Monday. First thing in the morning?" she asked and I nodded, before I realized she couldn't see me.

"OK, Monday morning. Dissimilarity in character and often fights? Is this good enough?"

"Perfect, I have a few other ideas. I'll write it and see you then. Good day, Mr. Cullen" she said.

"Thank you. Good bye, Mrs. Benton"

I could hear Bella muttering in the bathroom, then the door opened and she came out only in her towel.

"Forgot the clothes" she looked sheepishly at me.

"If you were to ask me, I'd prefer you won't wear any" I strode to her side and picked her up and then threw her on the bed. She shrieked.

"Weren't we going out?" she asked.

"Outside or here with you?" I asked thoughtfully.

"Outside, come on, let me up" she pushed me aside and went to her luggage.

We were out of the hotel in record time. Outside was raining softly, but I didn't care.

"It doesn't bother you?" I asked turning to Bella.

"Why would it bother me?"

"Oh I dunno…you used to hate the rain"

"Someone made me love it!" she grinned at me.

"We've made some pretty awesome memories in Forks" I murmured.

"I can't believe it was just an year" she sighed. I put my arms around her.

"So…were are we going?"

"Walking" she smiled up at me.

We started walking and made small talk.

"Let's get something to eat" she said after a few hours. We went to a small restaurant.

"Italian, I should have guessed" I murmured happily.

"You know I have a soft spot of pasta and ravioli"

"Wonder why?" She hit me.

"You were so bad…how could you do that?" she blushed remembering how I rubbed her under the table.

"I never thought ravioli could give someone an orgasm" I chuckled and ducked out of her way when she tried to hit me again.

We sat at a secluded table and ordered.

"Really? Want another one? You know what ravioli does to you!" I exclaimed in mock concern.

"Maybe I do" she answered cheekily, making me choke on my soda.

The food came and she gave me a looked that dared me to try anything.

"I'm good, really" I said defensively. She scoffed and started eating.

I looked at my spaghetti and suddenly, I wanted some of her ravioli. I snatched one with my fork.

"Hey" Bella protested. "That's mine"

"So? You can have some of this if you want" I pushed my plate closer to her.

"I want my food" she covered her plate with her hands.

"Childish much?" I laughed at her behavior.

"Mind your own business. Those are mine" she conceded and took a ravioli and popped it her mouth, moaning lightly. I felt myself harden.

"Eat, Cullen. They'll get cold" she gestured to my food. I listened, but then I felt her foot directly on my groin.

"Fuck" I muttered lowly.

"Tsk tsk. Speaking so badly at the table! You deserve to be punished" Oh, God! Punishment, yes!

"Punish me" I moaned like a little bitch, suddenly happy there weren't people around us.

"Here?" Bella asked amazed.

"Yessss" her foot was moving slowly on my erection which was encased in those tight jeans.

"Eat" she urged me and her foot picked up speed. This whole time, she looked quite bored and chewed slowly her ravioli.

I was squirming in my seat, her toes curled around me and squeezed. "Shit!" Her foot applied pressure and I twitched. "Jesus!"

I felt something against my lips and looked down to see Bella's fork with a ravioli in it. I wrapped my lips around her fork and took the amazing food in my mouth. I moaned rather loudly when her foot disappeared from my cock only to be pressed on my balls. I gripped the table, her foot slid up and one more hard stroke and I was done.

I was breathing hard and my head fell with a thud on the table.

"Edward??" I could hear her scared voice, but I couldn't move or talk.

"Edward??? Are you ok?" her concerned voice was closer. Her small hands were on my knee. I grunted.

Her hands came on my head and turned it to her, she breathed a sigh of relief.

"I thought I killed you. It would have been funny to explain it" she grinned.

"You will someday. You will be the death of me, Bella" I murmured slowly.

"Let's go back to the hotel, ok?" I nodded and paid for the food. It was quite uncomfortable to walk with my wet boxer, but I made it back alive.

"I'll go take a shower" I said as we got in the room.

"What do you say about a bath?"

I took her in my arms and deposited her on the counter in the bathroom. I filled the tub with warm water. "Want bubbles?" I asked, eyes warily the different scents.

"I want strawberries" she grinned at dangled her legs on the counter, moving them. I groaned. My cock started coming alive. She eyed me dubiously, what now?

"Again? Really? Aren't you thirty or something?" she asked laughing gleefully.

"So? That doesn't mean I can't be ready so soon. And, besides, I'm twenty nine" I said smirking.

"Oh, my bad, old man"

I narrowed my eyes at her, "What did you just say? I'll show what this old man can do!" The tub was filled. I stripped and I could hear her breath pick up. I undressed her, too and we got in the tub.

Bella started to laugh, startling me. I raised an eyebrow.

"You'll smell like strawberries" she giggled.

"Imagine! I'll be the first man in history to smell of strawberries" I said in horror.

"You'll smell like me" Bella blushed.

"That I'll do" I grinned, picked her up and put her in my lap. Her folds rubbed against my cock and I put my head on her shoulder, kissing at her neck. Bella lifted herself and planted herself on me.

"Not in control again" I groaned, and turned to be above her. I started to awkwardly pump in her, one of her legs wrapped around my waist and so we started a fast pace. Water splashed on the floor, but I couldn't care less. Bella's head was dropped over the edge of the tub, so I took advantage and kissed her exposed neck.

"EDWARD" I felt her clamp on me and we fell over the edge together. It was then that I realized my mistake. No protection. It was said that water was helping and getting the fluids away, but still.

"Shit" I groaned. "Do you have pills with you? It may not be too late" She cocked her head to a side and watched me confused.

"Oh" She got it! Now, she'll hate me for my carelessness.

We gazed in each other's eyes for a whole minute, trying to figure out what will happen.

"It's ok. Let's pray nothing will happen" she said finally.

"Can you forgive me for not thinking about this?"

"Of course, you're as guilty as I am" she whispered and cupped my cheek.

We got out of the tub and put a movie. I just loved being with her, there, cuddled together under a blanket watching what looked like a romance. I didn't pay attention to the movie, I admired the beautiful woman in my arms.

"Don't you find it funny that she put green hair dye in his shampoo?" asked Bella. I shrugged. "You aren't even watching it!" she accused.

"Guilty as charged" I murmured and kissed a spot behind her ear. I felt her shiver and felt quite smug.

"Can we talk about something?" suddenly her tone was serious.

"Sure, Bella"

"You don't have to answer…I'm just curious" she started.

"I don't want to be secrets between us" I said solemnly.

"Then, why…no, it's stupid" she sighed and turned to the movie.

"No, Bella. Tell me. It's about me sleeping with Tanya, isn't it?" I knew I shouldn't have. I wanted to take it back, but I couldn't.

"How did you know?" she asked surprised.

"Lucky guess" I said with remorse. "I don't know, really. It's a poor excuse to say that I'm a man and I thought with the wrong head. I felt guilty for neglecting her…No, not even than. Lately, I've done so many mistakes I don't even know myself. You're the only right thing in my life, right now" I tried to explain.

"Do you realize…if she finds out…I'm dead! But Edward, I hate to say this, but…I can't believe I'm saying this. Choose" she whispered the last word.

"Always you" I said softly. She relaxed against me and hugged me. "I love you" I whispered in her ear, stroking her hair.

"I love you, too. So much. I can't lose you again" she mumbled. Then she fell asleep.

I carried her to the bed and I went to my luggage. I took out the little box and looked at it. How will she react? It's perfect for her, she has to accept it.

I turned and looked at her sleeping form, she mumbled my name softly and rolled over. How could I be so selfish? I was determinate to end it as soon as possible with Tanya. I couldn't wait to start our little fantasy. Bella's fantasy. Our dream home, the dog she said she wanted and of course, kids. I imagined a little girl, looking like an angel with my hair color and her brown eyes. I felt a tug to my heart. I settled on the bed and took Bella in my arms. Soon, everything will be perfect. No more mistakes.

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