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BPOV
My day went from bad to worse; I got sick in the plane (It's because of the fly sickness, I told myself, which I've never had before), then when we finally made it to New York we had to wait an hour for Emmett to come and get us, because the idiot forgot to come and get us.
"I'm so fucking sorry!" Emmett apologized for the tenth time.
"If you say you are sorry one more time I'm personally going to kill you!" I exclaimed. Edward looked at me bewildered by my outburst. It was the nerves and…hormones? No, Bella, you are not pregnant! Just tired. I reassured myself for the hundredth time in the last twelve hors.
"Stop!" I yelled when I saw a pharmacy, which was open at three am.
"Are you not feeling well again?" Edward asked concerned. Emmett stopped the car and I jumped out of it. "Stay here. I'll be right back."
The boy behind the counter was dozing off and he jumped startled by the doorbell.
"Hello." I whispered, glancing to see if any of the boys had followed.
"Hi." He answered, rubbing his eyes. "What can I get for you?"
"How many pregnancy tests do you have?" I asked, his elbow fell off the counter as his eyes widened.
"A f-few." He stuttered and showed me seven of them.
"I want just three. The best, please."
"Sure." He muttered and ran them; I stuffed them deep in my pocket. "And a…" I glanced around to see what I could buy to make it look like I came in for that. My eyes stopped on condoms. How ridiculous is this? "And a box of condoms. Extra large." I whispered, blushing furiously. The boy started coughing and ran them, too.
"Isn't it a bit too late for them?"
"Shut up!" I snatched the box, threw some him cash and ran out.
"What would you need at this hour?" Emmett asked exasperated when I returned.
I blushed and ducked my head, slipping the box in Edward's hand silently. He glanced at his hand and started laughing, then hugged me to his side and kissed my forehead.
"What can I say, Em? My girl seems to be horny." He chuckled. "We'll tell them later today, okay?" I nodded, not know what I was agreeing with. Then I realized he said 'my girl' not fiancée, so we'll tell everyone about the engagement later.
"Thanks, Em" I whispered when he stopped in front of my apartment complex.
"Don't mention it, sis. You two should sleep. Stop acting like rabid bunnies for a night. We'll see you at mom's later." He grinned.
"Mom?" Edward asked as he picked the luggage.
"Oh, yes. Rose couldn't prepare the Christmas dinner, so we decided that this little holding, after Christmas should be held by the old ones."
"Sure. Five?" Edward asked hopefully.
"In your dreams!" Emmett laughed they looked at each other and bumped fists, "Two –fucking always- two!" they said together.
"You can be such kids, sometimes." I muttered. "Let's go inside. Bye Emmett."
I stumbled on the stairs and Edward caught me, I hadn't even put my hands out; I put them over my stomach. Predictable much, Bella? The tests were burning in my purse.
Edward dropped the luggage next to the door, kicked it shut with his foot and picked me up carrying me to our bed.
We stripped, getting comfortable and snuggled in each other, falling asleep. Or Edward falling asleep, not me. I couldn't, I stayed up thinking of what could this mean until it got to my nerves and I got up.
I opened my drawer, took the calendar then took my purse and locked myself in the bathroom.
God, please, I know I wasn't good and didn't listen to people. I know I angered Charlie and Renee more times, than I can count, but please, don't punish me. I'm truly not ready for this! I want to marry Edward first, be together for some time, you know…and then have a baby. Please, please let it be a miscalculation. I prayed, it was all I had left.
I glanced at my calendar, no 'x' on December. My heart literally stopped beating.
I peed on all three tests and berated myself for not buying all seven of them. While I waited, I looked at myself in the mirror. Nothing had changed. I was the same, maybe my eyes were a little more crazed because of the tension. I paced and checked my calendar again; maybe I had missed the 'x'. Nope, still not there.
Finally, after what felt like hours, I took a pregnancy test and looked at it. The one with the smiley or sad face; it was smiling at me. Why? Why must it smile?
The second one had pink lines that meant the same thing. The third one will say no, and I will listen to it. I whispered to myself.
The third one told me the same thing. I screamed and everything went black.
EPOV
Bella's skin crawling scream woke me up sending me on my feet. I looked dazed around me. She wasn't anywhere. A loud bang echoed from the bathroom and I ran there; the door was locked. Why?
"Bella?? Answer me, love! BELLA!" I pounded on the door. Was she sick again? What was going on?
I didn't wait another moment, I pushed my shoulder hard in the door a few times till it gave away and I saw Bella on the floor, a line of blood leaking from her temple when she had hit it when she fell, on the side of the tub. I kneeled next to her and shook her.
"Bella!" Nothing. Please, be ok. What was wrong? I took my phone and called Carlisle.
"Edward?" His sleepy voice answered. Shit! It wasn't even dawn…
"Dad! Come to Bella's, now! She's on the floor, she hit her head on the tub!" I screamed, all the time tried to wake Bella.
"Give me the address, I'll be there soon." What…oh yes, the address.
"140 Hackensack St. East Rutherford. Please, hurry." I whispered, feeling my tears spill out of my eyes as I watched Bella's closed eyes.
"I am already dressed. I scared your mother. She's coming, too. Don't freak out. Look around for thing that might have caused her to slip." He told me. I heard the rumbling of his car's engine in the background and felt a little better.
"I will. Drive safe." I said and I hung up.
I pulled her in my lap and held her close; then I saw something next to her on the floor. I picked it up and examined it. Two more similar things. I furrowed and peered at them. My breath caught in my chest and I let the test fell from my hand. Pregnancy tests. Was she…Of course she is, you idiot! The smiley face says it all. I am screwed. Charlie will kill me, Dad will kill me! How could she be pregnant, we had been careful!
I stayed there on the floor, with Bella in my arms, until Dad knocked on the front door. I scrambled up and carried Bella to the bed, then answered the door.
"Edward! He's white as a ghost, Carlisle!" Mom yelled and enveloped me in a hug.
"Where is Bella? You need some sugar in your system." He murmured to me. I pointed to the bedroom and followed him blindly.
Esme kept fussing about me until I snapped, "Leave me the fuck alone! Bella is hurt!"
Carlisle went to give her something and I stopped him just before he got the needle in her arm.
"Edward, she needs this."
"NO, don't!" I yelled and bit my lips, glancing at the bathroom door.
"Edward? Is there something you need to tell me, son?" asked Carlisle authoritatively.
"Just don't…she's allergic." I lied.
"To paracetamol?" she can't swallow it so I'm injecting it." He told me, preparing the needle again.
"No! Dad, don't!" I was at a loss of what to lie anymore.
"What is the meaning of this??" Esme asked holding the tests out for me.
Carlisle took my perfume and run it under Bella's nose who moaned softly. If I had known that shit, I won't be in trouble now!
"EDWARD! Answer me! What have you done to her? You just divorced and now you got her pregnant? I raised you better than this! How long have been screwing Bella?" My eyes nearly fell out of my sockets. My mom was swearing.
"Edward?" Bella moaned and rubbed her forehead.
"I'm right here, love." I sat next to her and took her in my arms.
She saw my parents and looked questioningly at me, then her eyes grew wide as she saw Esme's hands.
"Answer me!" Esme demanded advancing to me. I have forgotten how much she loved Tanya. I sighed and hugged Bella closer.
"Since September." I murmured, feeling like when I was little and I had stolen a cookie.
Esme did something she hadn't done in years, she slapped me. Hard.
"You divorced Tanya just because you got your little-" I jumped up before she could say a bad word about my angel.
To my surprise, Carlisle was on my side and pushed me back on the bed. "Esme, darling, let's not get there. They had loved each other since high school. It's all my fault he even married Tanya." He said.
"And it's not true what you said. I had wanted for the longest time to divorce her! Bella made it all clear. And…she just found out that she is pregnant." I told her.
"I am so sorry. I should have been careful." Bella whispered between tears, her hand over her mouth to keep the sound inside.
Another slap woke me from my amazement at how beautiful Bella was, even crying.
"And by marrying her you think –"
"No, Mom! I had proposed to her BEFORE I knew she was pregnant! I fucking love her to death!" I screamed. "And stop slapping me!"
"Watch your tone, boy!" she said narrowing her eyes at me.
"Why don't we go to the hospital and see if she is truly pregnant and how far along. These things may be wrong." Carlisle motioned for the tests. A hopeful look appeared on Bella's face and she got up. Why was she happy? Didn't she want a baby with me? She said she wanted. Please, still want this for us.
At the hospital, Carlisle took Bella with him somewhere, assuring me I will be there when he is sure that she is pregnant.
"Edward, you disappoint me!" Esme muttered, slumping in a chair next to me.
"Mom, please…I am sorry. I know it doesn't cover all the bad things I've done…but understand that I can't live without Bella. She is my life." She watched me curiously, moved by the emotions in my voice. Emotions? Maybe it's true that men get mad once their girls get pregnant. "Mom, I might have…bought ahouseforus." I rushed out.
"You what? Say it again, slowly." She murmured, taking my hand and rubbing soothing circles over the back of it.
"I bought a house for me and Bella. I want to marry her because I love her, not that she is pregnant and feel obligated. I consider this a bonus." I grinned.
"Are sure you are ready to be a father? You're still so immature in so many ways…" she sighed.
"I am. You didn't know anything about being a mother until you had us. I'll learn in time. Isn't it awesome that my and Emmett's babies will grow up together and be the same age?" I chuckled.
"Edward…What have I said? Immature."
"Son? Go to her, she's ready for her first appointment. We'll see how far along is she." Dad came to me.
"So Bella is pregnant?" I asked, sporting a shit-eating grin.
"Yes." He answered and I rushed past him.
Bella was fidgeting nervously on the table when I got there.
"I love you so much! You make me soo happy!" I shouted and crushed her to me.
"Excuse me. Could we start this?" Someone asked behind me. I nodded happily and let Bella settle better there. The doctor confirmed that she was almost a month pregnant. I chuckled when I realized it was when I Carlisle told me I was ok. She had got over her cold and my ribs were fine…so we had been fucking as Emmett put it, like bunnies. All over her flat. It was quite predictable to happen, even with the condoms.
"January 7th. Is it okay for your next appointment?" Dr. Fletcher asked.
That was the day of my first process of the next year and I couldn't miss it. "Yes" Bella said, looking shocked when I said over her "No."
The doctor looked between us. "I have to work that day." I said.
"It won't be the whole day. We'll put it in the morning if you prefer." He told me. I thought about it. The process started around eleven, I had time if he put it at eight.
"Eight?" I asked hopefully, glancing at Bella. She nodded and the doctor scribbled down the date and hour.
"You don't seem very happy." I murmured while we walked outside and to the waiting room.
"I am…I am just thinking of how awful this is. I wanted us to marry, then have the baby. How are we going to raise a baby in my flat? We should have been more careful! Arrange our lives, then…be reckless. It was bound to happen; we forgot the condom a few times." My ears perked up. Come again?
I stopped and turned to her. "Wait! When? Oh…but you already were…in front my old house…" I whispered remembering that.
"On my birthday, on Halloween, the first time Carlisle let us be together after the accident…there might have been another time, I'm sure. We were inseparable for a few weeks." She told me. I sat there frozen remembering all those times. How stupid could I be? So my condom everywhere trick…had been late by a few weeks, she was already pregnant by then.
"So? How far along are you?" Esme asked, fixating her glare on Bella. Don't be mad at her! I am the fool who had gotten us in this.
"It's my fault." I said.
"Of course, it is yours! She couldn't have gotten pregnant on her own!"
"Almost a month." Bella whispered, stifling a yawn.
"We're going home. You need to sleep." I said and steered her to my parent's car.
"Why don't you two come over?" Esme offered.
"We really shouldn't…" I tried to back out, but I couldn't change her mind.
"You can use your old room." She told me.
"Oh…Did you know that the house in Forks is still there and…untouched?" I whispered, stroking Bella's hair, who had fallen asleep. Dad had taken care of her forehead too; there was a band-aid on it.
"Really? Your father never told me what he did with it. It will be nice to go back there and…stay a few days." She mused and watched me stroking Bella's hair. "Do you really love her? Why did you marry Tanya, then?"
"It was the only option. If I had thought rationally, I wouldn't have done it. I could have gone back after college...or just write to her. But I was stubborn and stupid. I am just glad I can have Bella in my arms again. Oh…what I told you it's a secret. Don't slip it. Only Jazz and Em know about it." I told her.
"It's only normal for me, as your mother, to think of Bella as something bad. She was the reason you divorced in my opinion. You know how I loved Tanya."
"Of course. I know! You can still be friends for all I care. But keep in mind, Bella will marry me and she will be the mother of my children. Try to like her. She's not a bad person. She is an angel." I told Esme and pressed my lips to Bella's bruised forehead.
We got to their house and I picked Bella up ready to carry her to my old room.
"You should sleep, too. I will come and wake you when it's close to two. Ok?" Esme whispered and caressed my cheek, the one she had slapped earlier. "I am sorry for hurting you. I love you, Edward. I was just…angry, I guess."
"I understand. I love you, too." I kissed her cheek and went to my room. Everything was there, as I let them the last time I had been over. In November. Had it been just a month ago? So many things had changed…
I lowered Bella on the bed and covered her with the comforter, then snuggled next to her. I fell asleep instantly.
Bella was descending on me, kissing my abs and now she licked me enveloping my cock in her deliciously warm mouth. I moaned and twitched when she sucked.
"Holy shit! I'll come back later!" I heard Emmett's voice said scared. Why was Emmett in my dream?
"Edward!"
I jolted up, staring at a bundle of sheets in front of me and at the door where Emmett winked and shut the door after him. The sheets were moving and I realized Bella was there. It hadn't been a dream, she had been indeed down on me and Emmett had walked in on us.
"Love?" I asked tentatively and peeked under the sheets.
She put them back on her mumbling, "Leave me alone. That was the most mortifying experience so far. What is he doing here…and where are we?"
"My parents' house. You fell asleep so I carried you here." I said and stuck my head under the sheet. She was red from blushing and the lack of air. "Get out of there. Don't make yourself sick." I murmured and scooped her out of there. Bella squeaked and buried her face in the crook of my neck.
"It's alright. It's good Emmett came to wake us and not Mom." I assured her. Bella stiffened and started crying. "What's wrong? Does it hurt somewhere?" I asked panicked. She shook her head and sniffled.
"What can you possib- WHAT have you done to her?" Rose burst inside and shrieked when she realized I was half-naked. "Put some clothes on, Cullen!" I tugged the sheet around me and hugged Bella trying to understand why she was crying.
"Rose?" she cried.
"I'm here. What had he done?" Rose asked, staying on the other side and dragging my love in her arms. Rose looked…rounder. She had gained a lot of weight and to my surprise, she didn't give a damn.
"No-nothing…It's me." Bella choked out. I discreetly tucked myself back in my boxers and got out of bed just in time to see Bella ran away. I had gotten used to this. I ran after her, knowing she is trying to find a bathroom. I tugged on her hand and showed her in my bathroom when she made it to the sink just in time. I turned the water on and rubbed her back. I caught a glimpse in the mirror of my doorway where Rose was frowning; trying to understand what was going on. Bella pushed me away and crouched in front of the toilet, even in moments like these she was trying not to make me sick, myself. I don't think I could be grossed out by this. Why must women go through this because of us? To make us happy in the end?
I sat behind her and hugged her to me, kissing her shoulder whispering to her.
"Water." She croaked and Rose said she'd bring some.
"Bella, I am so sorry you have to go through this." I whispered, smoothing her damp hair away from her forehead.
Rose brought the water and Bella rinsed her mouth and drank a bit.
"What in the world did you eat? Or didn't…That was bile!" Rose asked concerned.
"You should eat." I told Bella. She really hadn't eaten that much the past few days.
"Say one more word about food and you will see all my intestines in the toilet. I can't even think of it!" she muttered and slumped in my arms.
"Okay, explain!" Rose demanded. Angry, pregnant Rose was in action and Bella dismissed her with a hand and stuck her head back in the toilet.
I heard Mom yelling across the hall what was taking us so long, and then she saw Bella. I saw her eyes warming and she came to us.
"Has she eaten anything?" she asked. Bella moaned loudly and put her cheek on the toilet.
Rose looked between all of us and exclaimed loudly, "Holy crap! Is she…how stupid can you get? I thought you had condoms all over that damn flat!"
I flushed and averted my eyes from Esme, busying myself to check on Bella's white face.
"Edward, help her downstairs. She needs to eat. I will make whatever you feel like eating. You NEED to eat, Bella." Esme said concerned. She took Rose out of there and I helped Bella brush her teeth and change her clothes in some of mine I had there.
"Isn't Belly-Boop hot? How big is your ego, bro? Have your girl in your clothes." Emmett boomed loudly when we got downstairs.
"Bella?" Alice asked concerned upon seeing Bella's white face.
"She'll be fine." I told her.
Bella buried her face in my shirt, "Stinks." She muttered. I stirred her towards the kitchen.
"What do you want to eat, my love?" I asked.
"You cooking?" she cracked a smile.
"Tell me. I'll do anything for you."
"If you burn down my kitchen, son or not I'm killing you!" Esme said threateningly.
"Toast." Bella murmured.
"Go back. I'll make some. Stay in the loveseat, she won't smell the food form there." Esme advised and shooed us out of her precious kitchen.
"Dad says you have news!" Jasper said.
"Let Mom be here." I said and sat on the loveseat dragging Bella on my lap. She curled in me and sighed quietly.
"I feel like there's something in my stomach dancing around." She murmured.
"Actually, there's something there." I whispered back.
She punched my arm half heartily.
"Here you are." Esme gave her the toast and Bella munched on it while I declined Emmett's offer to eat a turkey sandwich. I could imagine what that will do to Bella.
"The news!" Emmett yelled clicking his glass to Jasper's.
I raised Bella's hand and put the other hand on her tummy above hers. It grew silent in the room and I waited to see who would scream first.
A chorus of profanities echoed around the room, some had their eyes on her hand and some on my hand over her tummy.
"Come here, I feel like hugging you." Emmett said quietly. He is beyond happy or beyond angry, otherwise he won't use that tone. I put Bella in my place and took a step toward Emmett only to fly back and crack my head on the wall.
BOTH Emmett and Jasper had jumped on me.
"NO! Don't hurt him!" I heard Bella gasp as Emmett kept me up by my neck.
"Son, it's enough! Why don't you let him talk?" Carlisle asked, pushing Emmett away. Jasper threw me an angry glare and turned back to take his seat next to Alice.
"I…ashked Bellha tho marry mhe. Then we fhound hout she'sh preghnant." I said through my bloody mouth. What was with everyone being violent today?
Before any of us realized what happened, Bella went straight to Emmett and punched him straight in the nose, a second later she moaned and clutched her wrist.
"Lhove!" I ran to her side and Dad went to get his medical bag.
"He had hurt you. No one is allowed to hurt you!" she said through gritted teeth.
I went to the bathroom to clean my mouth and felt sick at how much blood I spit. All my teeth were in their places; Emmett would have paid if he had happened to knock out one.
Carlisle put Bella's wrist in an elastic swaddle.
"Okay, the party is over. Say good bye to Edward and Bella." He said after half an hour of all of us staying quietly around the room.
"Good bye Edward and Bella." Emmett, Jasper and Alice said at the same time.
"Fhuck you! So mhuch to behing on mhy side!" I seethed to Emmett and Jasper, then turned to the door.
"How's the hand, lhove?" I asked, once in the car.
"Edward, stop talking or the blood will keep coming. Stay quiet." Dad advised and for once, I listened.
"I am ok. I swear." She whispered and touched my cheek slowly making me wince.
When we got to her flat, Bella plopped down on the couch and got lost in her thoughts.
I went to her bathroom, got some gauze, and bit on it so I'll stop the blood, as Dad advised me. After that I went to the living room, next to her and put my head in her lap; I put my hand on her stomach and caressed it softly. Bella stroked my hair, "How do you feel?" She whispered.
"'kay." I mumbled.
"No one is happy about this. Your mother hates me. Everyone accuses you as if it's your fault, only yours, that I got pregnant and…I think…" she trailed off. She thought what? I put the gauze on a magazine and turned to her.
"Bella…there's something you must know." I told her. I needed a car. How will I get her to the house?
"You're not ready? I know, but we'll figure some-" I pressed my lips to hers.
"Shh. I am more than ready to start a family with you. I've been since I was eighteen. Bella…Do you remember the house I showed you a few weeks ago?" I asked nervously. She nodded looking at me confused. "Well, I might havelareadyboguhtit." I rushed out. Why could I not say this slowly? I'll end up saying it again, anyway.
"Edward? You…WHAT?" she screeched, understanding me. I looked sheepishly and buried my nose in her stomach, kissing it. "Bought it." I murmured.
"It was too expensive! What have I told you! What else have you done behind my back?"
"Just bought the house. I did it before I asked you, I just needed to know you liked it, then. I want to buy that car, now. As soon as humanly possible and spend New Year in the house. If you'd like it." I was rambling. Damn it!
"I propose we sleep, then go look for the car. Only if you feel better." I told her.
"Alright. We go tomorrow, today it will be too late for it." Bella whispered, took my hand and led me to the bed.
"Will you tell me…why you were doing that when Emmett came to wake us…Not that I complain." I asked hugged her close to me.
"I had just woken up and you were pressed in my ass…I didn't think about it, nor looked around to see we weren't home. I wanted to help you. Oh, I should explain my sudden burst in tears…call it hormones. I was thinking of how your mother hates me…and I would have died of she saw me…" she shuddered and pressed her cheek to my shoulder.
We fell asleep holding each other. I hoped my family will change their mind and be on my side. I needed them, now. More than ever.
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