N94: Hey, guys! I know this story has been pretty boring, but it's a story about discovery for the young teens. I'm not going to be writing during the holiday so have a great holiday. The imeem playlist is temporarily off, but it should come back on, I hope!

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in this story. Stephenie Meyer the wonderful mormon woman who published the Twilight saga owns the whole gang.

Chapter Song

So now you want me to fix everything

But baby there's so much and so little time to

Replace the things I've broken

Ripped apart, and thrown away

You can say that you don't miss me

I think about you everyday

"I Think About You Everyday" By A Rocket To The Moon

The past weeks have gone by the same way. I wake up, shower, eat, go to the bus stop with Jasper, have class, eat lunch and hang out with the gang, have more class, get on the bus go home, eat take out, then go to bed. Me and Edward have gotten closer. I know his favorite color, favorite everything, and that he plays the piano, also born and raised in Chicago before moving here.

I learned: Jasper is shy and reserved and can defuse a situation; Alice is hyper, loves shopping, and has premonitions; Rosalie is a bitch, but can be nice when she wants, also she always has her guard up; Emmett is a fun loving teddy bear, who really doesn't have a care in the world; and Edward is always composed and doesn't like when things out of control, he's mostly organized.

It was February 11th and Charlie came home early from work claiming there was no crime tonight. I was about to order out, when Charlie stopped me. I looked at him confused. He laughed and told me to sit.

"Bells, we are going to the reservation they are having a party for Jacob Black, you know Billy's son" he explained.

I thought for a second and nodded. Me and Jacob used to make mud pies, when Billy and Charlie went fishing. Rachel and Rebecca always were with Sarah, Jake's mom.

"We're going so...yeah"

"Cool, dad could I talk to you" I asked.

"Sure, what is it"

"Well, I think each week we can go grocery shopping and I can make whatever you want for dinner, before you even come home. I learned how to cook from Food Network"

"Yeah, I would figure Renee couldn't really cook" he explained with a laugh.

After talking we made it down to La Push to First Beach. I saw a bonfire and lots of people. Charlie parked the car and got out. I stayed inside looking around trying to recognize someone. I finally brought my eyes back to Charlie, who was talking to Billy and Harry Clearwater.

I finally decided to get out of the car and got to Charlie. I tripped over the curb and got a mouthful of sand in my mouth. I spit it out and sat up, sitting on the sand. I saw a figure crouching down by me, recognized it immediately. He had a smile and a hand out to help me up. I grabbed it and got up from the ground.

I dusted off the sand and wiped my mouth. I used my sleeve to wipe the sand off my tongue. I saw him have an amused expression. I was slightly taller than him, but he looked older. I grabbed the cup of water he had in his hand for me. I sipped it then spit it out taking all the sand out of my mouth. I drank the rest and put the cup on the floor so I could throw it away later.

I jumped on him and hugged him. He wasn't really stable, so we fell to the ground. I looked at his face and we started to laugh. I saw Billy and Charlie walking toward us with amused expressions. We had known each other since we we're practically born.

Billy and Charlie went to high school together. Billy met Sarah at First Beach and decided to go to La Push High 'Home of the Wolves'. Charlie was on his own and then Renee showed up and the rest is history. Renee and Charlie dated, got pregnant, got married, got divorce 4 years later, then we moved away.

Me and Jake got up, dusting the sand off, smiling at each other. I saw our fathers with the hugest smiles ever. They always pictured me and Jacob to get married, but he was like a brother. I loved him, but I wasn't in love with him.

I saw Sarah come by with Rachel and Rebecca, having smiles on their faces, seeing everyone together. Renee liked Billy and Sarah, but thought Charlie should stop fishing and hang out with the family more.

"I'm taller than you" I said.

"Yeah, but you still look like a kid" he replied.

"Oh, whatever. You're hair is growing longer" I touched his long straight black hair.

"Yeah, I want it long"

"It looks good either way"

"Hey, come meet my friends" Jake said, pulling me towards a crowd of people.

***

After, meeting Jacob's friends and having cake, I had a lot of fun and made more new friends, we made it back home. I got dressed and made it to bed. I finally fell asleep and was having the weirdest.

Me, Jake, and Edward were all at the beach, but something was off. Jacob was huge and had his hair short with no shirt on. Edward was taller too, but Jake was taller than him. They both looked older. I guess I was taller to because I had bigger breasts and my nails were long.

I had a black leather finger less glove on my right hand with an emerald ring on my right ring finger. My other hand had a ring that was engraved and black tied jelly bracelets.

I had knee high black boots and a denim mini skirt and a tight blue tank top with a black leather jacket. I was wearing three rope chocker necklaces and a long gold cross necklace. My ears were pierced with gold hoops.

I wasn't my normal self neither was Edward or Jacob. I looked around and saw it was summer. I walked up to Jake and Edward, who looked like they wanted to kill each other.

"Why should she be with you, dog? She's my best friend" Edward said.

"Best Friend? That's what you call her. She's your sex slave, you go to her for release, leech" Jacob yelled.

"What? No, she is not. She's my best friend, I love her"

"You love her? Are you serious? She's broken. She has been drinking and smoking, while you have been with that bitch Megan! She almost cut herself"

" WHAT! How? We hang out all the time" Edward said, calmly.

"You are such a player. You are cheating on your girlfriend by doing Holly and Bella"

This all came to a shock to me. I've had sex with Edward. Edward Masen who was becoming my new best friend now. This is totally a dream.

"Ok, I might be a bad boyfriend, but Megan is doing the same. Wait, why the hell do I have to explain to your dumb ass"

"You better not touch, Bella"

"After, the James incident we both know something changed inside" Edward whispered.

"Yeah, and then after hanging with her you go and get a girlfriend leaving Bella alone, but only coming around for a quickie"

"That's not true" Edward yelled.

I picked the worst time to step in to this conversation, I mean argument.

"Can you two stop talking about me" I asked.

"Bella-" Edward began but I cut him off.

"Edward, go to Megan. You don't have to worry about me. You know I'm in love with you. I'm perfectly fine and you know it"

"Bella, why have been ignoring me though" he asked.

"I've told you at the hospital. I don't think we could be just friends and keep doing what we have been doing"

"I told you that was fine, but can't we be back to where we were"

"As you clearly said at the hospital 'I've changed'"

"Bella, I miss you"

"I know, I miss you too, but I can't go back to how we were. I love you now and I know you'll never change and that you'll always be a player"

"Bella, I don't want to lose you"

"Edward, I'll always be here for you"

"Why can't we be friends" he asked with tears welling up in his eyes.

"Because I love you and I just-I can't handle it" I had tears coming in water falls.

"I think you should go, Edward" And with that I ran. I ran away from the man I love and all my problems.

I jolted awake when I heard my alarm. I touched my face and it was covered in sweat and tears. Once I calmed myself down, I went on with my morning ritual.

I went outside with my granola bar, locking my front door. I walked where I saw Jasper was standing, playing on his PSP. He always playing Halo or whatever war or fighting game. He looked up and gave me a warm smile.

Once, the bus came I saw Rosalie on the bus putting on her make-up on like always. I sat down next to her and waited til the bus moved. She finished and turned to me and we started talking. Then she asked how I slept.

"Um..well...it was weird" I stuttered.

"How weird" she asked.

"Well, I was in an argument" I said, turning my body to face her.

'That's not weird"

"Well, this was like everyone was older, but it showed me, Edward and Jacob"

"Edward" she asked, surprised.

"Yeah, they had were having an argument about me"

"Ok, the only thing that's weird is this dream you have is Edward"

"Um...well, they were saying that I have been having sex with Edward and-" but she cut me off.

"What" she yelled.

The whole bus looked at us, surprised and amused. Rosalie growled and flicked them off and turned back to me. I looked back at Jasper to see if he heard anything, but he was in full war mode.

"Are you serious" she asked, incredulously.

"Wait, then I said I was in love with him and that he was a player and we can't be friends anymore. Not even the weirdest there was a James accident with me I guess" I whispered.

"Oh my god, that's the weirdest dream. It would be like a premonition if all that shit happens"

"What shit happens" Emmett asked, sitting down.

"None of your business, monkey man" Rosalie yelled.

"Aw, I want to know" Alice whined.

Rosalie looked at me. I nodded, but I had them promise not to tell or I would never go shopping. Rosalie explained and Alice yelled with a surprised expression. She looked at me and I blushed.

***

I got to first period and saw Edward smiling at me. I was worried and anxious. I knew that the dream wasn't real, but it seemed so real. It was going to be awkward situation now, for me at least. I wasn't going to tell him.

Threw out the school day I tried to avoid talking or looking at Edward. I could see in his eyes that he was sad and worried, also concerned about it. He didn't know what was happening. It wasn't his fault for me having an argumentive dream about me loving him and I've had sex with him.

Jesus, that's so wrong. How can I even look at him without picturing him naked and on top of me? It's not right to think of your best friend that way, right.

I walked with Rosalie to lunch. I saw Emmett at the table with Alice, looking rather amused and Alice; irritated. I laughed, walking in the line. I grabbed my food and went to the table.

I saw Jasper and Edward sit down. I walked slower, before getting dragged by Rosalie. We got to the table and everyone looked at me. I could see everyone's expressions. Alice looked sorry, Emmett amused, Jasper regretful, and Edward embarrassed. I went to look at Rosalie who masked her emotions.

I sat down near Alice and Emmett. Emmett scooted closer and Alice farther. I wasn't sure what was going on until Emmett said something.

"So, Bella have any good dreams lately" he asked, wondering.

I blushed and looked at my tray, ignoring his laughter. I heard someone come up behind me and say

"I hope you dream about me tonight" and left. I looked back and saw James, walking away.

I could feel myself get embarrassed and angry, because I felt the water works come. All of a sudden, Emmett was smacked beside the head and arms closing in on me. I could feel myself shaking and sobbing. I was weak, because of a dream.

"Emmett, you idiot, you made Bella cry" Alice said.

"Bella, I didn't mean to make you cry. I'm sorry" he said, sincerely.

"I-it wa-was not y-you" I stuttered, from my sobbing.

"James" Edward hissed, scowling.

"W-who told y-you Em-mett" I asked still sobbing and wheezing.

"Edward" I looked at Edward and he said

"Jasper" I looked at him and he said

"I heard Alice and Rosalie talking about it on the bus"

I was shocked and mad that he didn't keep it his business and not tell Emmet, but I could tell that he was sorry and regretful because of it. I just needed to know who told James. Jasper sensing my answer shrugged and went back to eating his fries.

"Bella" I looked up at Edward.

"Its ok, to have dreams about people who are close to you" Edward whispered.

"That's close, alright" Emmett said with a laugh. He stopped laughing when Rosalie smacked him again.

"But it seemed so real there was Jake and we were all older somehow like-the future"

"Do you want to explain it to me" Edward asked.

"Um...yeah-sure"

He got up and came around, taking my hands and pulling me up, dragging me out of the cafeteria. He stopped in front of the restrooms and I started to explain the whole dream. He waited til the end to ask questions.

"Holly, Megan, and James. Wow" he said, combing his hair with his fingers.

"Yeah" I said, looking down.

"Holly lives with her sister and is a little wild so I don't know if I would have sex with her in the future. Megan is miss goody too shoes, so not her either" he stifled a laugh, while I pushed him.

"I wonder what 'the James accident' was" he put up air quotes.

"Well, remember I said hospital it I bad"

"Yeah, but how could you be in love with me of all people you hardly known for a month and have sex with me"

"God, Edward! This is too weird. I don't know why my subconscious picked you maybe because you've been a good best friend" I yelled, throwing my hands up.
"And did I have to be a player" He whined.

"Oh, yes! Maybe, next time I could make you a clown" I said, sarcastically.

"Nah, clowns don't get enough money"

"And players do" I hissed out sharply.

I walked away, clearly angry and upset. Edward grabbed me and pulled me into a hug. After a while I could feel his body shaking, I looked up and saw him silently laughing at something or someone. I looked to where he was looking at and it was Emmett, who had a juice mustache and a 'kick me' sign. Rosalie went up to him and kissed him, putting some spray in his hair. I was just shocked at the PDA.

Emmett looked at her, shocked, while she had a smug smirk on her face. This was her revenge for getting milk on her shirt so many weeks ago. Now, I still had to get mine done.

"I have the perfect plan" Edward whispered.

"Tell me about it"

He explained the plan and how we were going to do it. His plan was brilliant and I knew it was going to work, just when were we going to do it. We would get the supplies from our house and we could do it over the weekend.

We heard the bell rang and we ran to Art. Jasper and Alice had our backpacks next to them in the class. wasn't in class yet, so everyone was talking to each other. I looked around and saw Bree smiling at me.

After class James and crew were waiting outside. Edward was still talking to and Alice and Jasper left already to Language Arts. I was all by myself with the bad kids in school and I had to wait for Edward.

I went to the corner, trying to hide myself from them. I looked around and didn't see them coming. I turned back around and James was smiling at me. I cowered back until my back hit the wall. He had a evil smirk on his face, I closed my eyes to not see what was going to happen next. I felt the shadow tower over me and hug me.

I screamed and pushed him away. I couldn't really hear what he was saying. I was stopped by him grabbing my wrists. He told me to open my eyes. I obeyed and saw it was Edward. He looked sad for me. I hugged him, tears running down my face. He dropped down and picked me up. I yelped in surprise and put my arms around his neck.

I felt safe in his arms. I could feel someone next to me; I looked and saw it was Emmett who looked sad. I looked around and saw people staring at me. Once we got to P.E. everyone was worried I got hurt, but I denied it.

I got out of Gym for the day. We were watching a video on dodge ball and tomorrow we would play. Edward sat next to me and Emmett on the other side of me. I leaned into Edward, holding his hand. He squeezed it and looked at me from the corner of his eye, smiling at me.

I leaned my head on his shoulder and started to drift into unconsciousness. I felt myself lifted and moving, surrounded by the smell of raindrops and mint. I could feel myself jumping slightly. I was put in a sitting position. Someone sat on my lap and poked my face.

"Cynthia, stop it" Alice whispered.

"Why is she sleeping, Ali" she asked.

"She had a rough day" she replied.

I stirred slightly and opened my eyes. Cynthia was sitting in front of me and my head was leaning on someone's shoulder. I looked up and saw Edward looking out the window. I felt Cynthia jump on my lap, squealing. Everyone looked at me smiling slightly, but with worried looks. I sat up and rubbed my eyes.

"Hey, are you ok" Edward asked.

"Yeah, thanks"

"No problem"

"Aren't you supposed to be getting picked up" I asked, worriedly.

"My dad is going to a court case in Seattle this week"

"Oh, you're staying with Jasper"

"Yeah"

"Bella, are you going to Ali's birthday party" Cynthia asked.

"Yeah" I replied, looking at Edward.

He smiled at me and took my hand, kidding the top lightly. The gang was talking about Alice's birthday and how everyone was going to be older than Jasper. I wasn't really paying attention everything just blurred in the background as I thought to myself.

N94: Have a great holiday!

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