AN- OK, so chapter 3 was ready a little earlier than expected. Say hello to Bella. Enjoy.

BPOV

I have a beautiful daughter, am surrounded by the best friends anyone could ever ask for and Charlie, well Charlie was a wonderful father to me. He always knew exactly what I needed and he absolutely adored Renesmee. So why couldn't I just be happy? Watching my friends relationships hurt me a little. We were nearing 40, both Alice and Rosalie had married their high school sweethearts and they were just as in love as they were back then. If not more. I couldn't help but be a little jealous. I knew there was only ever one man for me, but our time had been and gone.

I was dreading Nessies graduation day, I know it was a whole year away but that meant I only had her for another year. My baby was going to college. Don't get me wrong I wanted her to go, in fact it was me who persuaded her she should get as far away from Forks as possible. This place wasn't for her. My daughter needed to spread her wings and she couldn't do that in this small town so rife with gossip. Ness got her stubbornness from me, lucky we never argue really I couldn't see either of us backing down. Its taken a while but I think she's finally coming around.

I wrote my first book after my mother Renee passed away. Nessie was 9 years old and she didn't really understand the extent of Mom's illness. My Mom had been misdiagnosed, the doctors told her she didn't have breast cancer and she went untreated. It took about a year for the cancer to spread, slowly but surely destroying each and every inch of her insides. She never let me or Ness see just how much she was suffering and when she was finally taken seriously by her doctor, months before her death she refused treatment. She said that a little girl should never have to see her grandmother with no hair. It was her time and she was ready to leave. My father had wanted to sue, but Renee had made it very clear in her will that it wasn't what she wanted. She had left a letter for me to read at the funeral. It was the hardest thing I'd ever had to do and I bawled my through it. It was something Renee wanted and I would not see her wishes go overlooked.

I'm not sorry that I'm leaving this world, I'm only sorry that I didn't get to say a proper goodbye to everyone I wanted to. There comes a time when you have to be strong, stronger than you ever thought possible and stop fighting, everyone has a path to fulfil in life. I just happened to complete mine early. Remember me but don't miss me, I haven't gone far and I will see every one of you again someday. Charlie, stop eating so much steak I don't want to see you that soon. Bella take care of that beautiful little girl, she's an angel, reminds me so much of you as a child. You're going to do great things Bella.

Mom's words made everyone cry, especially me. I couldn't stop the tears, it was pretty difficult to see through the tears and I made several mistakes.

I used to find it easy to write, I'd sit at a table in Alice's shop with a pad and pen and the words would fall out of my head onto the paper. I always wrote on paper, the words seemed real on paper. On a screen it was like they were just floating in a white space in front of me, no real order, no final placement. I've been struggling to write the last few chapters of my latest book for a while now, OK I admit I've spent a lot of time in front of the TV watching re runs of The Gilmore Girls and eating pop tarts. I was determined to finish this book though and no amount of writers block was going to stop me. Perhaps the hero was supposed to die tragically on his way to sweep the poor maiden off her feet. That's the way I kept writing it. The pen wouldn't make nice words, only ones that would leave the nobleman dead and away from his beautiful servant girl. It wasn't how I wanted the book to end. I only do happily ever afters.

I picked Tobias, Ethan and Phoebe from school and headed home with them. That was the routine most days, I'd pick the kids up from school, Jasper would swing past Robyn's daycare on the way back from one of his restaurants. Rosalie and Emmett would close the bar for a few hours and we'd meet at my house. Renesmee would watch the kids while we chatted. Often the men found other things to occupy themselves with and it would just be Alice, Rosalie and myself. It was the best part of my day. I glanced in the rear view mirror to find Ethan beaming at me. He was the spitting image of Emmett, dark curly hair, bright blue eyes and dimples. Only he wasn't big like Emmett he was lean and tall like Rosalie. Tobias was just like his dad, blonde, thin and charming. The little guy was always sweet talking old ladies, he liked to call people 'Ma'am' or 'Darlin' Alice found it hilarious especially when he called Emmett Sir. Phoebe had jet black hair, it was long and poker straight, she was petite even for a child and refused to let anyone else dress her. Phoebe chose all of her own clothes and often tried to make me change my outfit. Just like Alice. Robyn on the other hand was a perfect mix of the two, she was a cheeky little tyke, with her sparkling eyes and chubby cheeks. Her hair was a mousy colour and she was an average height for her age. She'd picked up her fathers accent more than her siblings and spoke with a little Southern drawl but a very naughty giggle almost identical to Alices. Robyn never stopped talking, she often recited entire Disney songs to me. I'm glad Jasper picked her up every day because as much as I love her I'm not sure I could handle 'A Whole New World' on a daily basis.

"Bella?" Phoebe piped up from the seat next to me. I shot her a quick glance.

"Brown is not your colour." She scanned my brown sweater an expression of utmost disgust on her face.

"I really like this sweater, its comfy." I knew it would never work, I knew as soon as I took it off Phoebe and Alice would burn it.

"It doesn't like you Bella. You should wear more blue, yeah definitely blue, but pretty stuff. Not sweaters and jeans." she began listing everything I should wear that was already in my wardrobe. I tried to drown her out, it was better to let her ramble than to even bother trying to shush her. We pulled into the driveway and the boys ran into the house before I'd even stopped the car.

"Bella!" Robyn toddled out of the house and wrapped her arms around my waist. "Ness-Me says I can sing to you as much as I want today."

"Oh did she?" I shot an evil look at my 17 year old daughter standing in the doorway of our house, she had almost been knocked off her feet by two destructive 8 year olds and was trying to regain her balance.

"Renesmee, where is my daddy?" Phoebe gracefully shifted herself out of my car and danced towards us.

"Daddy went to help Emmett buy some tools. Are you going to help me in the kitchen?" Renesmee reached for Phoebes hand and she took it.

"Mommy gets angry when Daddy does home improvements. She says if Emmett give him any more tips she's gonna cut off his .."

"Phoebe!" Nessie jumped in before the real damage was done. " Lets go you can help me too." I tried to stifle a giggle as I walked into my living room. I love my house, its perfect. My living room had a deep oak floor with 3 beige walls. A big squishy leather sofa was positioned in the exact centre of the room, a thick burgundy rug in front of it and a modestly sized flat screen on the 4th wall, made from big grey stones. There were 2 antique lamps in the room and various ornaments and photographs. I was even more proud of my kitchen. It had proper terracotta floor tiles and emerald green, marble worktops. My cooker was my pride and joy, I had made some mean dishes in that. Not to brag but my lasagne was amazing, Jasper repeatedly asked me for the recipe but I was having none of it. I watched as Renesmee got Phoebe and Robyn to help her make cookies, even though none of the dough ended up getting baked, it went in our stomachs.

Alice and Rosalie walked in to find Renesmee and I being tickled senseless on the kitchen floor by all the kids.

"Seriously.. Alice.. Rose.. get .. your.. kids... off.. me.. I.. gotta.. pee." I was a sucker for tickles, I could never fight the laughter and they'd had us pinned on the floor for about 10 minutes now. Alice and Rose scooped the kids off of us and I made a dash for the bathroom.

It took Alice several attempts to get onto the breakfast bar stool. She really was huge at the moment. For such a petite person, she had big pregnancies anyway but with twins. It honestly looked as if she'd swallowed a space hopper. Alice's hair had always been long in high school, since becoming a mother however she'd cut it short and used a little wax each morning to spike it up a bit. It was very Alice yet very practical, she was distinctive. Rosalie finally noticed Alice's struggling and hauled her onto the seat. Of course Rose had no trouble, her legs went on forever and she was wearing heels. She had kept her long blonde hair, though today it was tucked up into a bun, she worked the bar during the lunch shift. Rosalie never worked with her hair down. I stared at my best friends for a little longer, they bickered over who would eat the last Reece's cup.

There was only one person missing in my life and I was pretty sure I'd never see him again.

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