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hey guys, this is the sad chap, so get out those tissue boxes and wipe away the eye liner. This chapter is dedicated to my late grandfather. once you read you will understand why its to him. 'i love you grandpa, and i miss you.' so if you have a song that is close to your heart, play it while you read "Doesn't Change Anything"

enjoy.

rach.

EPOV:

She gave me a final glance, and shut the door. My heart was beating so fast. I didn't know how this day had become so perfect. I knew I was falling for Bella, it was fast, and that scared me. I put my hand in my hair and a goofy smiled crossed my face. She really did care for me the way I cared for her. I walked to my car and started down the street to the hotel, in almost a trans like state. Not a good idea when you're driving. I couldn't get the images out of my mind of Bella dancing and the expression on her face and body when we shared a 'first' by the river.

I opened the hotel door, and I didn't bother turning the lights on, I just flopped on the bed, sighed, and put my hands behind my head. I just started thinking about what I would plan for tomorrow, when all of the sudden, my phone rang. I rolled over to grab my cell phone off the table, and saw that I have 6 previously missed calls. I couldn't help but smile when I knew that it was Bella calling. I flipped it open and hit "incoming call". I cleared my throat and tried to say hello, but I got cut off by Bella's crying words of "EDWARD. HELP. ME!" and then there was the noise of the phone hitting something, and disconnecting. I didn't think I just got off the bed, grabbed my keys, and ran to the car.

I drove way over the speed limit through the sleeping town, towards Bella's house. I had to stop once, for only a moment as an ambulance drove past me with flashing light and siren whaling. I had a moment of fear when it came to Bella's corner. I mouthed "please don't turn!" and my hopes diminished as it made a right down Bella's street. I floored the gas and followed the speeding vehicle to Bella's front lawn. Police were trying to keep neighbours from coming on the lawn and disturbing the ambulance workers, but I needed to get to Bella. I didn't know if she was hurt, dying, or what happened. I just needed to get to her. I parked the car and jumped out, running across the street, forgetting to close my door, I didn't care. I dashed up onto the lawn yelling Bella's name. The policeman stopped and tried to pull me away but I couldn't be stopped.

"This is my girlfriend's house! She called me! Is she hurt? Where is she?" I broke free of his arms when Bella came into view, standing there in the doorway looking for someone.

"BELLA!" She turned her head, and my heart broke when I saw blood all over her clothes, tears streaming down her face, and the image of her running to me, a broken mess. I ran to meet her half way and braced my arms for her. She grabbed at my shirt and held on for dear life. I kissed her head, and all over her body, over and over.

"Are you ok!? What happened?" I demanded in between kisses. She just kept crying. I put my hands on either side of her face and made her look at me, wiping her tears away with my thumbs. "Charlie" is all the croaked out, before more tears came streaming down her face.

BPOV:

I closed the door and deep in my heart I knew I had made the right choice. Edward was healthy for me, and I needed him. He completed and closed that empty hole. Tonight was one for the memories. I looked at the door and smiled, I didn't know such pleasure in my life. He made me feel like the only girl in the world. I felt extraordinary. I took my boots off so I wouldn't wake my dad with all the clicking. It was only 12:30, but he would have probably fallen asleep watching the game. I leaned forward and looked in the den, the light and TV was still on. I smiled and shook my head. I tiptoed into the kitchen to get a drink before heading to the shower and heading to bed. Just as I crept around the island in the kitchen, I screamed. Charlie was lying on the floor in a pool of his own blood. I threw my body to the floor and screamed, and shook my dad.

"DAD! DAD!?" no response. I laid my head to his chest to see if I could find a pulse, and I did. Thank god he wasn't dead, but he was bleeding badly. I got up and ran to the phone.

"911, WHATS YOU'RE EMERGENCY?" I explained what happened the best I could, while trying to form words between the sobs. As soon as I got it out, the voice said "HELP IS ON THE WAY, JUST HOLD ON". I clicked the phone, and dialled Edwards's phone over and over. Why wasn't he answering!? I finally got threw on the seventh try, and just as he was saying hello, I cut him off with "EDWARD. HELP. ME" and I was going to try and explain, but I suddenly heard my dad cough. I dropped the phone and ran to him. "Dad, just hold on, help is coming." I grabbed a tea towel and put it to his head. He was still bleeding and it wasn't slowing. I braced his body up on my lap as we waited for help. Tears freely flowing now. "Dad" was all I kept whispering while I cried over my father's unconscious body.

A few minutes later, I heard sirens blaring in the streets. I started screaming over and over "IN HERE! HELP ME!" I knew the ambulance wasn't here, but I didn't care. I screamed until someone walked in. The man turned to his team and yelled "IN HERE! BRING THE CRASH CART!" and a few other men ran in. They picked my father off me, asked if I was hurt, and then asked me to leave so they could work. I stumbled out of the kitchen to the front door where I heard sirens going, people crying, and Edward screaming my name. I turned and saw him. New tears poured from my eyes when I saw him. I didn't think, I just ran to him. I clung to him and he started kissing my head all over my face, my arms, and lips. "Are you ok!? What happened?" He held me tight and I just started crying harder. 'Don't leave me' I wanted to say, but I couldn't form coherent words. He held my face and whipped the tears away with his thumbs, waiting for my answer. I looked into his fear filled eyes, and croaked "Charlie", and that sent me into weeping. I felt him take in a breath and tightened his arms around me. "It's all my fault" I kept crying out over and over. I grabbed his shirt and clung to him tighter than I couldn't have thought. My chest was falling apart and I needed him to hold me together. He put his chin on my head, and I felt a wet drop hit my hair, as a tear fell from Edwards's eye. I turned his head for the fraction of a second, before turning our bodies away from the door. I knew what was happening, but if I looked, I would surly faint.

After they loaded my dad and drove off, Edward picked me up off the ground and put me in the car. The tears had stopped for the moment, but I couldn't move, breathe, or feel.

Edward never let me go as he drove us to the hospital. I wrapped my arms around my core, and Edward tightened his arm around me. We were almost at the hospital, when I started the guilt. What if I was too late? What if he had died? It would have always been my fault. "Bella?" Edwards's voice snapped me out of my revere, and I looked over to him. He was out of the car and at my door, holding it open for me. I couldn't move. He took my hand and helped me into ER waiting room.

I was getting nervous. It had been an hour since I heard anything. My leg was shaking uncontrollably, my arms crossed, my teeth making a new home in my lower lip. I stared at the old click ticking slowly, it was making me mad that time wasn't showing me results. I felt claustrophobic sitting in the small, mint green, room. It smelled of rubbing alcohol and it was making me sick to my stomach.

Edward had left to get us some coffee for our long wait. It was after 1:30 am when Edward came around the corner, dead look on his face, and dark circles under his eyes. He handed me a coffee and sat down beside me. "Thanks" I croaked. My voice was horse and I sounded worn out. My face was still pale and swallow. He leaned back and put his arm around me, but I pulled away and leaned forward. "How can you be near me?" I braced my elbows on my knees and started rocking. "How can you touch me after this?" I was wallowing in self pity, but it was all my fault and I should be punished.

Edward leaned forward and put his hand on my back and his lips to my ear. "Bella, you did nothing wrong. You couldn't have controlled this. Prostate cancer isn't something you could have stopped" I knew he was trying to comfort me, but he was wrong. This was my father. I should have known. I lived with him every day, and never knew. "Edward, I live with him, I should have known!" My puffy eyes stung as I closed and opened them over again slowly. "Bella, your dad didn't even know."

I put my hand on my neck and started rotating my neck from side to side, trying to erase the tension. Edward replaced my hand, and whispered "If this is anyone's fault, the blame is mine. I come down here and change everything, making you come out with me, and you weren't here. I'm so sorry." He leaned his head against my shoulder and I turned my head to the side and kissed his forehead."Didn't you just say this was on one's fault?" I tried to give him a small smile, but I still couldn't. I couldn't bear to see that look in his eyes ever again. I leaned back into his arm and rested my head on his shoulder.

About a half hour later, the nurse walked out told us some news. "Miss Swan, your father isn't the in ICU anymore, but he is going to have to stay here over for a few days so we can keep a watch on his brain scans, and start treatment. When the pain from the cancer hit, it hit all his nerve endings and brought him to his knees, and when he fell, he hit his head off something. We ask that there be no visitors tonight." She said all she needed to and left, basically, go home. Edward stood up and stretch, yawned, and looked down at me. "Ready? I'll take you home." I got up and took our cups to the garbage. "Um Bella, where are your shoes?" In all the chaos of the night, I had forgotten I didn't have shoes. "Oh, there on the floor in the hallway. Edward, don't make me go home! I can't handle it tonight. Walking past the kitchen or past his room. I just can't handle it." He came over and put his arm around me. "Where do I take you then?" I just looked at him and said "anywhere you're going."

EPOV:

"Anywhere you going" she looked up at me, and I saw behind her puffy pink eyes, that she really couldn't handle going home. "Ok, you can stay with me tonight if you want" I had never spent a night alone with a girl, but this was different. Nothing was about Bella and I tonight. She needed someone to hold her while she worked through this. I would do that for her.

I stopped at the hotel and waited. She wasn't speaking and it was worrying me. I turned the key and just waited until she was ready. A few minutes later, she opened the door and got out. I jumped out and went to her side. We walked hand in hand, silent, to my room. I unlocked the door and she slide in. "Uh, I'll go get a shower started for you. And I guess you can sleep in something I have." I tried to smile, but she still had Charlie's blood all over her. She didn't look down at her, just nodded her head. I went into the bathroom and started the warm water in the glass shower. I put a fresh towel down and left the bathroom.

She was still standing in the same spot, same look on her face. "There you go love; I'll bring you something to sleep in, in a moment." She nodded and again and walked into the bathroom and closed the door. I fumbled around my suitcase for a t-shirt for her to sleep in. When I found one, I walked to the door and lightly tapped. "Bella, can I come in?" I waited, but no response, so I opened the door. She was sitting in the bottom of the shower, fully dresses just crying. I put the clothes down and opened the shower door, and sat with her in the steaming water. She leaned her head against my shoulder. I just sat there quietly as she shook uncontrollably in my arms, and cried out all she had in her.

After the hot water was almost gone, I got her to her feet. "Bella, you need to change." She finally spoke for the first time in an hour. "Thank you Edward" She kissed my lips, but nothing was behind that kiss, and then pushed lightly for me to leave so she could have some privacy. I took another towel and left the bathroom. I didn't know just how much pain she was in, but I hoped she would be ok. I took off my soaking clothes and hung them in the closet to dry. I put a fresh pain of boxer pants and went to sit on the bed and wait. Bella was wearing my shirt, so I didn't have one to sleep in. I hoped she wouldn't mind. Tonight there was nothing sexual about Bella and I sleeping together. I turned on the TV and awaited her return.

A short while later, I heard the door creek open, and she walked out in my t-shirt. It was like a dress on her fragile body, but it would do for the night. She came around to me and wrapped her arms around me, and sat on my lap. I shifted her so she would be sitting on the bed, and I just held her. We watched the news for awhile until her tired puffy eyes finally drifted closed. I carefully leaned over her and turned the light and TV off before pulling the blanket over her legs. I looked down at her as she slept. She finally had peace brought back into her face. I lay down and she shifted so her head was on my chest and her hand was under her cheek. She looked so small and helpless. I rubbed her back and kissed her hair. The next few weeks she would need me to get through this. I needed to stay. I reached over and grabbed my cell phone.

Txt:

Hey mom and dad, i know it's early, but I need to know if you would mind me staying a while longer? Bella's father was rushed to the hospital tonight and Bella really needs me. I'm sorry to wake you. Please call me when you get this ok?

I hit send, and closed the phone. I yawned and closed my eyes, hoping for sleep and no images would flood into my mind. Sooner than I would have thought possible, I was fast asleep.

The next morning I woke early with Bella still asleep on my chest. Her tiny body was shuttering and she was muttering "Daddy". I shook her to wake her from this dream. I felt bad because she needed her sleep, but I didn't want her hurting. She came to life and turned her face to mine. "Hi" we both muttered.

"You ok?" I asked her. "she sat up, yawned and stretched." better, thank you" she started looking around the room. "What time is it?" I looked over at the clock on the night stand. Oh wow! "It's nearly 3:30" she jerked her head towards me. "In the afternoon?" her voice rose along with her eyebrows. I nodded and she nearly tripped jumping off the bed. I reached to catch her before she fell to the floor. "Thank you." She got up, and ran to the bathroom.

I got up and put on a fresh shirt and some jeans while I waited for Bella to get dressed. In seconds, she was dressed in the sweat pants and sweater I put in the bathroom last night. Her hair was in a lose pony tail, and she had no makeup on. She was beautiful even when she didn't try. "Thank you for the clothes, I'll bring them back soon." She pulled at the sweatpants, much too large for her and smiled.

I could help but be glad that her smile was back. She was mending, and it made me too happy. She came over and put her arms around me and whispered "I should have gone home; you shouldn't have had to see that." I kissed her lips softly and said "don't be silly, it's what boyfriends' are meant for right?" Her face lit up and she kissed me back. "Is it so sick of me to be happy right now?" I laughed at that, and she did a soft laugh as well. "No, not at all. Your dad wouldn't want you beating yourself up." She shook her head. "I guess you're right." Can we go see him?" she didn't have to ask, she knew I would go with her in a second. "Of course, let's go" she took my hand and my keys and placed them in my other hand.

Just as I was closing Bella's door, my phone rang. I didn't want her hearing this.

-Hi Edward, I'm sorry I didn't get your message earlier. What's happened?

-Hi Mom, don't worry, Charlie is ok, but he's sick. He has cancer and last night he got some kind of pain and he fell. Well when he fell, he hit his head pretty bad and Bella found him that way. So she called me and 911. He is resting in the hospital, but Bella is blaming herself. Is it ok if I stay?

-Oh Edward don't be silly, of course you can stay. Your father and I are coming to. Your dad may be able to help. See you soon.

-Oh ok.. See you soon Mom. Bye

I went around to the side of the car and got in. "What was that all about?" Bella looked at me and smiled.

" Uh, Bella, remember how my dad is a doctor? Did I tell you what his specialty is?" She looked thoughtful for a moment, and then looked back at me. "No, I don't think you did." I smiled sweetly at her. "My dad is a specialist in cancers. He and my mom are coming so he can take a look at your dad, and maybe help him." Bella's eyes were full of tears again. "I'm sorry, I should have asked you Bella, I'm sorry I can tell them not to come I can-"

"Edward, I'm crying because that's very sweet of them, and because the first time I meet my boyfriends parents, I'm in his sweatpants." She laughed and sniffled. I looked at her and couldn't help but laugh as well. "Well, I think they will forgive you" She hugged and kissed my cheek"thank you".

I drove to the hospital, her hand in mine. She was anxious to see her father, and I could tell. Her hand was tightly gripped to mine, and her shoulders rigid. She was better than last night, I knew that.

"So tell me about you Parents Edward. What are they like?" I knew she was trying to distract herself, so I played along.

"Well, my mother Esme is very quiet, but she is always thinking. She's very insightful. And well my father Carlisle is very brilliant. He's done some amazing work and I know that he can help your father Bella." I looked over into her eyes, and picked up our twined fingers, and lightly kissed her hand. She smiled up at me, questions in her eyes. "Go ahead, ask me."

"How did you know I wanted to ask you something?" Her cheeks flared a bright red, and she fidgeted in her seat, looking to the street.

"Your eyes tell me the word Bella. I can see forever in those big beautiful eyes of yours." I knew this wasn't the time to be gushy, but I was so in love with her, I just had to say it. I smiled at her reaction. "Shoot."

"Well I was just kind of wondering . . . Edward, do you think my father is going to die?" She wasn't blushing anymore; her tiny face became very serious. She was truly worried over him, and I didn't blame her, but I also didn't know how to answer her.

"I really don't know the answer to that one love, but what I do know is, people live, and then they die when it's their time. Cancer is something that can speed up the process, but I honestly don't know Bella." I rubbed the back on her hand with my thumb to try and soothe her. She bit her lip, and nodded.

"Ok, here's my other one." I held my breath for it. I don't know what else I could tell her. "Will I fit into your family? Will they like me?" I let out that breath and let out a laugh.

"No!" She froze in place. The car stopped at the red light, and I leaned over. "They will love you!" and I lightly kissed her lips. She looked worried still. "And as for fitting in, I think you will be just fine. We Cullen's are kind of freaks so ..." I had to tease her. It was so much fun.

She laughed, and it sounded right. She playfully punched my arm and said "that's so not funny." She snuggled into my side, and I placed my arm around her, happy to have changed the subject.

BPOV:

We got to the hospital and Edward parked the car. Walking into reception I asked the nurse for "Sawn", and she directed us to the third floor. The elevator took an excruciating length of time to get to the floor we needed. When the doors opened, I was off. I was like a missile going off, I was nearly running through the hall way. 12, 13 . . . . 18 and finally the 19th door on the left. I stopped dead in the middle of the hall way, and turned to look at the door. Edward came behind me, kissed my cheek and pushed me forward. I turned to look at him and he mouthed "I love you" as he went to sit in the waiting room.

I took a deep breath as I walked slowly into the room. Charlie was sitting in the hospital bed, watching TV and yelling at the baseball players. Naturally. His head was wrapped in gauze and he looked older to me, it made his look like a cancer patient. I gasped and he quickly turned his head towards me.

"Oh hey Bells." He clicked the TV off and adjusted in the bed, covering himself with the blankets. "Didn't see you there." He laughed nervously at his comment. "How are you?" I walked over, unable to find my voice at the moment, and just sat on the side of the bed.

"Bella" I looked up at him and his face was thoughtful as he spoke these awful words. "Bella, there are a few things you need to know. My will is in the closet in the old shoebox under my winter sweaters, in my room. It says how I want my funer-"I cut him off there.

"Dad, don't! You're not dying!" I tried to speak with care, but I didn't want him talking like this.

"Bella, it's a possibility when you don't take the treatment, and Bells, I'm sick so I want you to be –"I cut him off again.

"Hold it, why are you taking treatment? It could save you dad. I swear, if your being stubborn again Charlie." I sounded just like my mother, it was an unsettling feeling. "So what's your plan? Just wait here to die? Leave me here all alone? Don't try and save yourself?" He waited for me to get it all out. I took a breath and calmed myself.

"You're not alone, you have Edward. And I'm not just waiting to die. I'm going to live my life, just like I have for the last ... well for all of my life. Bella, cancer doesn't change anything, and I'm not going to let it rule out how I spend the rest of my days." I got off the bed and went closer to his face.

"Dad, I need you." Was all I could get out. He slowly let out a breath, and lightly put his hand on mine. "Bells, I'm not going to be around forever." He gave me a small smile, but it did no good.

"Then I'm staying home to take care of you!" I was determined.

"Bella, you can't do that." Wanna bet?

I narrowed my eyes at him. "Life can wait, you need help."

"Bella, I won't let you ruin your life over this. I can take care of myself. The reason I decided not to do this is because I don't have the funds, and I'm not about to get some silly loan that you will be left with when I'm gone. I've made up my mind, end of story. Now I'm a big boy. And, I know this sounds pre-mature and all but, if you push Edward away now, it may end your relationship." He wasn't right. Edward would understand, wouldn't he? My dad was sick, he needed me. Would Edward understand? I shook my head to dislodge the thought, this was about my dad, I would worry about that later.

"Dad, I'll take care of my life when you're life is spared! Money isn't going to stop us from helping you! Now just listen to me! –" The nursed walked in disrupting our conversation. "Sorry honey, but Doctor Cullen needs a minute with your dad, can you just wait outside? He won't be long." She rushed me off the bed just in time for Edward's father to walk in.

"Hello, you must be Bella; it's a pleasure to finally meet you. Edward has said nothing but good things. I'm sorry to meet under such circumstances." He raised his hand to shake mine, and I was in awe. Edward's father was like a model. Pale white skin and dark green eyes to compliment his golden hair.

"Hello Doctor Cullen, it's a pleasure as well to meet you." I quickly reached my hand out to shake his. "Please, call me Carlisle." I smiled up at this beautiful man, and had to giggle, "Carlisle." I bowed my head, shot my dad a warning look, and walked out of the room.

Edward came over and gave me a hug. "How is he?" I shrugged in his arms and mumbled "stubborn as always." Edward lightly pushed me back to look at my face. "What's wrong?"

There was no use hiding it, Carlisle would find out in a few moments anyways. "Charlie won't accept treatment because he is worried about money and my future if he went to get a loan. It's silly, I told him, but he is refusing." I shook my head and rolled my eyes. Edward pulled me back into the warm embrace of his arms, and he kissed my forehead. "Its ok love, we will figure something out."

Edward took my hand and whispered in my ear "I know I said my parents were coming down, but a few people tagged along for the ride" He looked worried. "I hope that's ok . . "

I squeezed his hand and whispered back "I'm ready. You're the one I want to be with, I can handle anything. Plus, I already met your dad, and if everyone else is just like you say, I know I will love them." I kissed his cheek and mouthed 'I love you'. Edward smiled and pulled me into a passionate kiss. He always made me feel extraordinary when he kissed me. His breath so sweet, and lips so soft. My heart went into a race.

He broke the kiss and took my hand once again, leading me around the corner where were greeted by 5 friendly, breathtaking faces of Edward's family. Edward squeezed my hand, and I suddenly felt at home.

"Hi, I'm Alice" She ran over, with grace that would break a ballerina's heart, and she hugged me tight, kissing my cheek. I smiled and hugged her back.

"Alice!" Edward smacked her. "Hey, I'm just welcoming her Edward, relax." I smiled at them both. This was natural for her; it made me feel like she approved of me.

"It's great to meet you Alice." Her pixie face brightened quickly and she grabbed my hands "You and are going to be great friends, I know it." She smiled once again at me, and then pulled me to meet the rest of the family.

"This is our mother." Esme extended her small hand to me, and I with a small voice spoke to me. "Please, call me Esme; it's an honour to meet you Bella. I send you my deepest sympathy towards you and your father." I shook her hand and said "Thank you, and it's my pleasure to meet you as well. Edward's told me so much about you. I'm happy to finally meet you." I know I stole from Carlisle's welcome, but I was nervous.

"Ok, this is Jasper; my fiancé, Emmett, my brother, and his wife Rosalie." Alice pointed to each of the faces before they each gave me a warm welcome. "It's great to meet you all." I told them, blushing as they all stared at me in Edward's clothing. I saw Emmett nudge Jasper and they exchanged a glance. Edward rolled his eyes and shot them a warning look.

Alice brought me over to the seats and started gabbing. I looked back for Edward to follow, but he was walking over to meet his father. I shrugged and got into a conversation with the most beautiful people I had ever met. They welcomed me into the conversations with extended arms, and warm hearts. It truly felt like home. Edward was a lucky man.

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