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Of course we were caught.

I don't even know why I thought we wouldn't be, but of course about an hour after Seth and I had figured out the joys of making out, in his small yet comfortable bed Sue, with the silence of a Vampire opens the door and begins laughing.

Yes, his mother laughed at is, I don't know if it was because I was pretty much mortified by the fact the women had caught us practically mauling each other or because I was suddenly very aware that I was wearing next to nothing, that Seth was wearing next to nothing.

Now Sue Clearwater is a very hip Mom, she has been through a lot yes but she is almost a boy form of Seth she enjoys making us uncomfortable which is why both of us are now sitting at her kitchen table along with my Mother. I mean if I found my son, in bed with his "soul mate", madly making out in next to nothing, said boy getting very into this new activity... I'd call the girls parent too so we could embarrass them. Well I would have done that, but now that it has happened I've reconsidered that idea.

"Are you two being safe?"

"Practicing safe sex is very important Lily"

My god! I could feel my face turning red with embarrassment, not that I could get pregnant anyways. Wolf-ism was the ultimate birth control.

"We're not having...relations!" Seth yells his own face beet red. It didn't help he was standing there in his boxers I could practically feel my eyes roaming his body accidently. I couldn't help it physically he was 20 or so and I was going to be 18 at the beginning of the new year. I was allowed to stare. At least thats what I kept telling myself. No we weren't officially dating but it was an unspoken agreement that we kind of were. We didn't have an option, we were genetically made for each other. Which was freakish because most people, or wolves don't imprint on each other, we were weird.

"Yeah what Sue saw was the extent of our relationship" I mime standing up and spinning. Did I honestly do that, what was I trying to do anyways.

"You're not having sex then?" my Mom asks looking...disappointed. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THIS WOMEN!

"NO!" both Seth and I yell, I was beginning to shake, me not having as much control as Seth did.

"Lily" he says resting his hand on my shoulder making me calm down. I look around the small kitchen seeing my Mom smirking and Sue looking absolutely delighted at the fact we would some day be having sex. This is so weird.

"Seth and I aren't having sex, nor will we be for quite awhile. If we choose to we will be careful I can promise that. Now" I pause seeing Leah standing by the door silently laughing her ass off."-we-" I was cut off when a howl ripped through the air.

Well that makes things easier, the three of us, Leah stopping her laughing all briefly look at each other before running out of the kitchen pulling our clothes off in the process.

"What's happening Clearwaters-OH! OH! Priceless" Paul laughs as Leah deliberately thinks about the kitchen scene. I growl at her swatting at her with my paw as more chaos begins.

"Seth, little Seth Clearwater was caught in bed with his imprint! Lily, Lily you little minx" Jared taunts as well all continue to run to the border line.

"Lily are you corrupting innocents again?"

"Oh Lily-pad remember when that was almost you and J-"

"SHUTUP QUIL!" I growl in just the nick of time, all Seth had was a 'J' that could easily be Jason, or Jack, even John, he would never know. I mean yes it was something I was going to have to tell him about eventually, well soon but still.

"All of you be quite we have to meet up with Jacob he has something to tell us"

"Maybe he imprinted on a guy?" I suggest seeing Embry ahead of me, I was happy we had caught up to them, though I was still ticked at Jacob for the silent treatment I had been getting.

"Lily!" I yelp feeling the power in Sam's voice, behind me Seth growl slightly before he two was quite.

"Where the hell did they go? The pair of them just take off like some sort or monkey's!" I yell pacing in Leah's bedroom, she was sitting on her bed quietly which was weird for her but I think she was trying to come up with a plan.

"We can't even hear them anymore, they just ran off on his own, can he even do that?" I ask with a huff plopping down beside Leah, of course Jake had freaked out when the death of Bella was mentioned. Now that I think of it, I didn't really want to kill a person either. How did she even get pregnant? I didn't think little Eddies ding-dong worked.

"I want to go with them" Leah says suddenly, I look over at her shocked I thought she hated the Cullens, actually I knew for a fact she didn't like the Cullens at all actually and she hated Bella even more for wanting to be a Cullen.

"You want to..." I pause, I would go in a heartbeat really I mean Seth was with Jacob, who knew what he'd get himself into, and I missed him,"can we do that?"

Leah frowns, nodding slowly. "I think if we wait to phase till the border, then make our decision final we should be able to...we have to be quick though when Sam hears what we're doing he's going to try and send us right back. You're too new to this Lily, he's going to try and use that against you".

At this I scoff, I had pretty good control actually, I think it helped that Seth was usually near when I lost control, one touch from him and I was perfectly calm again.

"Okay" I nod, "let's go". It was around 5 in the morning. Sam hadn't been particularly pleased at what Seth and Jacob had done and has spent a good while yelling and taking turns either blaming Leah or I for not having enough control over Seth. Please the only part of Seth I controlled was his..erm.. I didn't control his brain okay!

Leah grabbed the house phone turning it on so it was off the hook incase Sam tried to call Sue alerting her of Leah and Seth's AWOL status. My mother was bound to want to hang me alive whenever I got home but she knew I would rebel the first chance that I got. Quickly we make our way out of the house running down the dirt road and towards the high-way where the border was, all we had to do was hope that Sam hadn't sent someone to look out for this area incase he was anticipating that we would do this.

"There's no turning back now, you know that right" Leah asks as we sprint easily down the dirt roads turns, both of us in shorts and a tank top that would no-doutably be ripped in a few minutes.

"Yup, now lets go protect some vampire ass" I mutter as we both speed up.

"Are we seriously going to fight about this? She's staying, Seth is staying and I'm sure as hell not going back so Sam can lock me up in some cage for being a bad puppy. Looks like you got yourself a small pack, now deal with it Black" I growl sitting down in wolf form beside Seth as close as I could. Leah and Jacob had been arguing about if we were all leaving or not. I can see why someone would object to Leah being in their pack but my thoughts weren't all that bad, I knew that I wasn't experienced enough yet, I'd behave.

"I don't want to tell any of you what to do"

"Good because I rather not listen to your crackpot ideas anyways"

"Then don't" Came reply's from both Leah and myself, Seth was sitting quietly choosing not to speak anymore because with Leah here he knew that she'd win.

Jacob growls choosing to ignore me still before running into the trees, with a shimmer we could feel him phase back before his very naked form comes walking out of the trees. Even as a wolf my jaw dropped.

"Don't look, look away, holy heaven are all wolf boys that gifted?"

"Always showing off"

"Shit that's something I didn't want to see" Seth whines before turning away from Jacob who didn't seem to care he was standing in front of us naked, in front of me, his best, or former best friend naked begins to speak.

"I'm going to go check on Bella then I'll be back, you guys run or do whatever you want".

"I'll do what I like leech-lover"

"I'll run for a bit I don't mind"

"THAT is what has been hiding under his clothes all these years!" I mentally scream loosing a bit of control, sure I didn't feel anything for Jacob anymore I couldn't but I could see that he was very nice looking, probably better then I used to imagine.

"Better then you used to imagine? Why were you.." Seth trails off, crap. This mind sharing thing was a horrible, horrible idea.

"Seth please I'll explain everything"

"Just, let me think for awhile Lils, just.."

"Oh great, can't believe he left me here with you two"

'Seth it's nothing really.." I feel the hurt rolling off him as he turns looking at me, his wolf eyes conveying what he felt. I look around the small clearing before running off in the direction Jacob had taken I'd go sit by the house and wait for him, naked or not I had to leave Seth alone.

As I ran I concentrated on following Jacob's scent trying to ignore the hurt rolling off of Seth as he mentally conversed with himself and snapped at Leah who kept complaining about his girly feelings and thoughts. I finally stopped at the edge of the bush around a large white house, the stink of the Cullens burning my nose. To think about two months ago I ran into that Jasper guy and though about how nice he smelt. Well that really wasn't the case now.

Okay Lily don't think about Seth, or Jacob just think about anything else, like no ones listening to you. But there are people listening to you, even that Eddie guys is probably listening. Hello Edward, you know I didn't think your ding-dong worked, imagine my surprise when I heard though. You obviously weren't practicing safe sex, no condom? Seriously? Ah don't feel bad my Mom and Seth's gave us a sex talk just yesterday morning. Too bad I can't ovulate. Oh forget I said that, I really hope to go you aren't listening because I'll either get my ass kicked by you or Jacob if you tattle. If you are listening though.. never mind. I couldn't ask him for clothes I didn't exactly want to go in and talk to Jacob either, stupid old best friend ditches me as soon as I imprint to think I used to be in love with that guy. Oh shit, EDDIE DON'T TELL HIM THAT!

I sit down my dark brown fur was catching on a bush but I didn't care, the guilt I felt was almost overwhelming I think it would be easier if I just sat here and waited for Edward to come out here and eat me. Stupid love, stupid forced love, stupid imprinting, stupid Jacob, stupid Bella, stupid vampires, stupid shape-shifting genes, stupid birth. If I hadn't been born none of this would happen, why oh why did you have to have sex mother! Father, who-ever you are why did you sperm pick me!

"You know I have never actually heard someone curse their own birth"

I jump up instantly growling at the Vampire in-front of me, Edward, figures.

"Esme wanted me to bring you these so you could come in and eat, I also wanted a slight break from your constant thinking" he mumbles putting the clothing on the ground in front of me. The clothes smelt pretty bad, I was hungry though and tired of feeling Seth's hurt and confusion and Leah annoyance. Even if it meant I had to go inside where there were many Vampires and Jacob I couldn't find myself caring.

"You're a new wolf?"

"Well you haven't see me before have you? Don't worry I'm too depressed to loose my temper". I assure him nudging the clothing over behind a tree so I could phase and pull it on.

"If you loose control even a bit I won't hesitate in dragging you outside"

"I won't hesitate in letting you, I don't want to hurt anyone" I mutter following him into the smelly house. It was too sweet and it was burning my nose, sure I could breath through my mouth and then I would just taste it and that was no better.

"What are you doing in here" Jacob demands standing up quickly stalking towards me. I roll my eyes at him moving closer to Edward an action that seemed to shock him as well. I wasn't scared of Jacob but he was acting like I came in here to kill Bella. The girl who was laying on the couch in the lap of a blonde vampire looking like she just was ran over by a truck. Sorry Edward.

"I was offered food, like you I haven't gotten sleep or food for at least two days"

"Shouldn't you be running with the others?" he demands towering over me, I once again shrink closer to Edward loosing any type of dignity I had.

"You said you didn't care what we did, besides Seth and I need some space right now" I mumble the last part feeling a cool hand on my shoulder. This is what I have been reduced to a scared puppy afraid of my Alpha who looked like he wanted to murder me right now.

"Oh Lily dear I have some food in the kitchen for you" a soft voice says startling me slightly. "Edward why don't you take her into the kitchen for a bit?" the maternal Vampire instructs, she was kind obviously and her face showed that kindness it would be very hard for anyone to dislike her. I'm pretty sure I disliked Jacob at this moment more then I could ever dislike any of the Cullens.

"He worries that you'll loose control around Bella, that you're only here because Seth is." Edward sighs as I sniff a plate of food, the stench wasn't too overwhelming which would make it easier to eat.

"That is why I'm here but I thought my best friend still considered me as such" I mutter, I didn't care if Jacob could here me, but I was beginning to see why Seth liked the Cullens so much.

"Oh man it reeks in here" a loud voice announces suddenly, a huge, very muscular and scary looking Cullen walks into the kitchen followed by a short block haired one. Emmert and Ally? Edward chuckles a little I guess I got their names wrong.

"Hello wolf-girl, I don't recognize you, you're not the moody one"

I snort, "Leah's outside somewhere with Seth", I shove some more pancakes into my mouth, once you get past the smell these were like heaven. The tiny one with black hair kept sighing and muttering under her breath, she looked like she was under a lot of stress I felt for her.

"Lily I left some clothing by the door for Seth and Leah, when you do go back out I hope you wouldn't mind bringing it to them?"

I shake my head shocked by her kindness, "Of course not Mrs. Cullen" I promise, it was the least I could do she did make me a yummy breakfast.

Esme smiles looking at me with a kinds smile, "Call me Esme dear, also tell Seth and Leah there's food in here when they want it" she offers sweeping out of the room once more.

"I like her" I announce happily shoving more food in my mouth ignoring the snickering around me.

"Someone's breaking treessss" Leah sings mentally a brief look at a moody Alice slamming against trees one by one and angered look on her face.

"Leave her alone you two, I'm going to go see what's taking Seth so long, Lily come ".

I growl lightly before following along behind him not wanting to hear Leah's laughing. No Jacob and I weren't talking again he now felt that where were I was to go, he was to go. That of course didn't help things with Seth, our separation was beginning to physically hurt, as a human he'd gaze at me hurt and confused, then glare at Jacob softly before leaving to go elsewhere. As a wolf I felt the emotions roll off him as he still refused to let me talk to him or explain.

I quickly change not even bothering to get behind a tree anymore, Paul had see it anyways meaning they all had. I could hear Jacob mumbling under his breath as he pulls on some pants, I roll my eyes at him starting towards the front door and entering without so much as a knock, someone could probably smell me coming anyways.

No,no,no,no,no,NO..!

"Lily calm down" Edward says quietly as I stare at the scene in front of me, Seth sitting on the couch arm draped around Bella, smile on his face. No only did she manage to take Jacob from me but she woos my own IMPRINT! I glare at her clenching my teeth hearing Jake walk up behind me. He wouldn't be all that pleased either.

"Seth" he greets, Seth finally noticing we were in the room. I didn't even bother to listen to his stuttered out apology as he unravels himself from Bella, Jacob going to his seat. I could feel my body start to shake slightly, rather then break this lovely house I turn for the door feeling Edward's concerned gaze on me. Stupid guy thought I was suicidal or something.

Why did everyone flock to that girl? She had friggen vampire spawn growing in her and my former best friend still wanted her? Hell even Seth rather spend his time with her then trying to talk to me. "Where do you think you're going?" Jacob's voice cuts though the silent room. I begin to shake more violently.

"You are to stay here, you go where I go"

"Is that an order?" I ask back still turned, teeth clenched. I didn't see what he was trying to do, keep me occupied, keep an eye on me. Either way Jacob didn't answer my question and that just made me more angry.

"Jacob Black" I growl feeling Seth walk up beside me, his comforting hand clamping down on my shoulder," take our friendship and blow it out your ass, as far as I'm concerned we've never been friends".

It was probably a drastic thing to say because I should hear Bella gasp and then she started crying probably because she blamed herself, good she should. I shrug Seth's hand off my arm and fling open the door still feeling him behind me.

"Lily?"

I continue to walk down the front stairs making my way to the edge of the tree line.

"Lily, please" Seth's voice cuts through me like a knife, I missed him ever neuron in my body was telling me that, I could now understand what it felt like for Quil sometimes.

I sigh turning to see him standing there, his face was crumpled up and his hands were slightly shaking at his sides. "What Seth, can we talk now?" I snap walking up to him poking his chest as hard as I could without breaking my own finger.

His gaze shifts down, his lips forming a slight frown.

"If you had let me explain you would know I don't feel that way for him anymore, it's impossible for me to! I don't love him, I can't and you know what even if I wanted to I doubt I would anymore!"

"Lily-"

"I know I hurt you, I didn't want to hurt you I tried my hardest not to hurt you but I can't be around you anymore when you're hurting, knowing I caused that pain is unbearable" I yell frustrated, I was frustrated with myself, with the fact Seth wasn't saying anything he was just staring at me looking amused, I was frustrated with Jacob and the fact I knew he could hear this little fight everyone could.

"I'm leaving, I'm going home I can't be around that hot headed asshole anymore. I'll sneak back onto the rez and just stay home. I'll tell your mom you two are fin-"

Lips were suddenly on mine, a gentle hand on my cheek another on the small of my back pulling me into the body of my imprint.

Gentle at first, caring, longing soon turned into frantic and lustful, his lips started to most against mine quicker, straying every so often to nip at my neck and ear. I sincerely hoped that Jasper wasn't anywhere close by right now.

"I missed you, I'm sorry, so sorry" Seth mumbles whilst dropping a soft kiss on my forehead. "I was just, I just I felt how you used to feel for him, I could see it" Seth sighs pulling me closer cradling me against him. "I..I just wonder if you would ever feel that way for me".

"I feel more for you Seth, more then I ever did for Jacob, more then I can understand right now".

"As long as you try, as long as we can try, that's all I need".