You live you die, models make girls feel like they're fat, and inappropriate touching leads to babies. Ten pieces of gum is hazardous to your health, adding juice to cake batter doesn't make it change color and no matter what people say when pregnant you should never wear a mu-mu. Boys lie all the time, they don't think with their brains and no matter what they say Adam Sandler is a horrible actor.
The facts of life ladies and gentlemen, the one fact I never learned however. You can't be a lone wolf, it just doesn't work. You have to belong somewhere and since I refused to go back to butt-munch Sam and since I absolutely refused to be around Jacob or even have him in my head I was now sitting in the La Push store working for Quil's mother. Who didn't seem to be very impressed with me at the moment.
Okay unimpressed seemed to be an understatement, now I know i was never the best employee. No I will admit that much I always gave the guy free snacks even when she demanded I made them pay, yes even her own son! I made excuses to leave early on night we worked together and often closed up early when I was alone. Most days I ate more food then we sold and I had been caught with a particularly yummy senior by the back fridges, but that was only once. However today she looked like she was going to pull out a Bible any moment now along with some Holy Water shouting 'the power of Christ compels you! Be gone demon employee!' I mean yes I missed a lot of shifts but she knew why! I know she knows!
I mean I'm pretty sure the whole reservation knew I was back, oh boy did I getting a scolding when I got home. Of course that was after all the tears and sobbing and hugging but I got it good. I have a theory that the wolf-moms get together and plot ways to torture us. Hence why I'm here, in the job I was required to quit not but a few weeks ago.
"So Mrs. A..."
"Why don't you go home Lily, I'll close up" she, well orders not breaking her hardened gaze. I slowly back away from her almost afraid to turn, she might have a hatchet under the counter who knows!
Quickly I make my way out of the store and towards my car choosing to use this slower method of transportation. As long as I stayed away from the woods I wouldn't be harassed by Sam's pack, well much because it was only a matter of time before they came and killed me I'm sure. Then as long as I didn't phase I would be safe from Jacob, yes, safe safe safe. I hadn't phased since I told him to blow our friendship out his ass. Believe me it's not that easy because I have quite the temper now a days.
Yeah it also meant I had to pace around outside the Cullen house until Jasper go so fed up with my feelings that he offered to drive me to the border line after calling and asking my mother to pick me up there. Yeah it was a regular drug deal I was being smuggled it was kind of fun. It was all shady like we sat in the car until my Mom's car came around the bend and then she stopped and flashed her lights once, at this point Jasper had gotten a little annoyed with my excitement and did push me out of the door but it was still fun.
"I want someone to love me, for who I am. I want someone to need me, is that so bad? I want to break all the madness. But it's all I have, I want someone to love me. For who I am". I scowl slightly at the lyrics of this song, guess that Nick Jonas fellow didn't count on a thing called imprinting. Sure that someone loved everything about you but it was still different. I sigh before turning into my driveway happily seeing the front porch vacant of any shape-shifting brothers of mine. Chief Swan's car was here, him and Mom had been hanging out a lot more recently I think she was trying to open his mind a bit more, though as long as it didn't include me stripping and morphing into a wolf I didn't care how she prepared him.
I had the sudden urge to listen to the Spice Girls which was good because I listened to it last night while I cooked dinner meaning it was close by.
"I'll tell you what I want what I really really want" I sing skipping up the stairs and opening the door swiftly. I wonder if Mom had dinner ready yet..
"I wanna! I wanna! I wann-" I pause taking in the scene before me before cussing quite the range of swear words. "MY INNOCENCE!" I yell covering my eyes. On the list of things I never wanted to see again in my lifetime, Charlie Swan in his boxers sitting in a kitchen chair, my chair, with my topless, formally innocent mother straddling him, yeah that was now on the top.
With my eyes still firmly shut and left hand covering them I attempt to run from the room whilst plotting way to get the scene out of my head. Bleach? Heavy drugs? Hell I don't think anything would work I'm pretty sure if I shot myself in the head the bullet would just get stuck in my brain and the hole would heal over. Unless... I located the part of the brain that stored traumatic event, oh traumatic event I could get some kind of scholarship for this in future.
"Where the hell is the hallway, oh my god I've gone into shock!" I yell hearing the frantic movements in the kitchen as the two adults try to cloth themselves, I didn't even want to look at them again. What Charlie Swan was doing to my mother top half was not an appropriate activity for an older man like him. He should stick to fishing with Billy.
"Lily" I shudder hearing my mother's voice, ugh even her voice brought horrible visions that were going to plague my mind for the rest of my long existence.
"Do not try and pollute my mind with your filth, immoral women!"
"Lily!" she snorts as I continue to try and feel my way to my bedroom, sure I probably looked like an idiot with my hand over my eyes and butt sticking out and I attempted to find my way but so be it!
"Lily I want to introduce you to Charlie properly" she says calmly, I could almost see her green eyes pleading with me but nope that wasn't happening, remind me of the time I found her and that nice man fixing the dishwasher when I was six-wait a minute..ew! SEXUALLY ACTIVE PARENT!
"I think I know him more then anyone else in the world right now, with the exception of you and his ex-wife" I hiss, I could hear him shuffling around in the kitchen, and my mother coming closer to me her hands pulling my hand off of my face. Well jokes on her I wasn't opening them.
"If you come play nice with Charlie I'll make you brownies" she whispers making my eye snap open, brownies? Chocolate goodness? Yummy for my tummy?
"What are we waiting for then" I smile pushing past my mother who's buttons weren't done up properly I noticed, and head into the kitchen where a blushing Charlie Swan sat in the chair, clothing back on, "Hey Charlie wanna teach me how to shoot a gun!?"
Charlie Swan, Charlie Swan and my mother kissing.
Charlie Swan and my mother kissing shirtless.
Did Quil's Mom know this was happening?! IS THIS WHY SHE SENT ME HOME!?
She knew she was scaring me for life didn't she, she just knew it?
The world has it out for me, give me freakish genes and turns me into a werewolf, sends me home early to see the father of my sworn enemy shirtless in my kitchen hand raping my mother!
So gross so gross, I was going to need major therapy, some major therapy.
I mean I thought him and Sue were getting closer or was she with Billy now? God so much drama on this reservation. I mean I know I have a father, somewhere...
Touching leads to babies, touching leads to babies, my mind kept rewinding the scene I had walked into on in the kitchen earlier. Oh course I had booked it out of the house running for my car as soon as I had finished eating a very awkward dinner. Both of them kept looking at each other and smiling, hell my mother giggled! She giggled and then launched into an embarrassing story involving Seth and I, like that made things any better. No it just added to the awkwardness, then she went on to say how I used to be in love with Jacob! That got his attention all right, I hope the man know I hate his daughter.
I see a Cullen car zoom by, but the person in the car was not a Cullen. Hum maybe my future step-sister told him to take a hike finally? Ignoring my former best friends mood I drive happily on my way eventually arriving at the big white house. Edward was of course waiting on the stairs it looked like he was already laughing at me.
"Stupid mind reader" I mutter slamming my door closed and running up the front stairs to the house following him in. Bella was wincing on a bed like usual but was drinking something red out of a cup, something told me it wasn't a smoothie.
Hiss
"Oh calm down I have no desire to touch her, talk to her anything really" I mumble too low for Bella to hear me.
"So...where did jerk off go?" I ask after a few moments of silence, the annoyingly protective vampire was hovering around Bella and Edward was staring out the window with a frown on his face.
"He just needs a litte-"
"YOU!" a voice erupts from the door way, I jump seeing Leah storming through the door, yelps and growls following her as it slams.
"Er me?" I ask stupidly as my angered friend storms past me giving me a glare, okay not me. I raise my hands in surrender letting her storm past, whilst standing a good distance from Bella's gurney.
If I was on the receiving end of this I would be scared, unlike me Leah hadn't had the opportunity to shower for awhile and her hair had leaves a twigs in it, dirt was smudged off over her body and the clothes that she had put on. Though I'm pretty sure it was because she rolled them in the mud to get rid of the smell. She looked to put it nicely, like she had been rolling around in cow shit and then decided to take a bath in a leaf pile.
"-but I love him, I can't-"
"-and another thing! STOP USING HIM! He doesn't need you in his head playing games with his mind, you think you're all grown up and mature? ACT LIKE IT. You're a married women stop stringing along a seventeen year old boy who's heart keeps getting broken at every turn because of you! You mess with the Alpha, you mess with his pack why do you think Lily can't stand you either! If my brother wasn't so messed up instead of letting you us him a a space heater he might tell you to get a blanket you whiny ass women! You don't deserve him as a friend, hell your pathetic and don't deserve to be in his presence!" Leah rages her face turning red and her body beginning to visibly shake. I stared wide eyed at her as she shot another look at the now crying Bella and shook Edward's hand off her should stalking for the door.
Holy shit I'm pretty sure I just found my new hero! Would it be a bad time to yell at Bella myself. I glance at Edward who looked torn at what to do, he didn't like the attention Bella gave Jacob these days but he also wanted to comfort his wife.
Ohh Leah was going to get it when Jacob got back, not that I was going to stick around and witness that though.
"I thought I smelled dog"
"Hello Alice" I laugh watching as Edward cautiously approached a still crying Bella, well it was more of a wailing now. God that girl was annoying, not only did I have to leave my house to get away from her father but I was going to have to leave this one to get away from her annoying sobs.
A door slams outside, crap.
"LILY!" Jacob calls out, oh what did the jerk want now.
Edward suddenly snaps his head towards the closed door before looking at me his eyes widening before he shakes his head almost frantically.
"What does that mean?" I hiss as he pointedly looks at me shaking his head, yeah because I know what that means.
"LILY! Come out here!" Jacob's voice roars, I could hear the growling of Seth from the trees nearby, I'm pretty sure Leah had high-tailed it out of his path at least till later on.
What did bossy want and why was Eddie shaking his head no? Like no don't go out there? "Bella honey I'm just going to go see Jacob" he whispers before appearing in front of me.
"I hope you're ready for a fight" he mumbles before disappearing out the door quickly.
Fight? Now? About what? I wonder as Bella looks at me tears still running down her face. I hope she didn't expect me to go comfort her, sorry not everyone is going to like you bud.
"LIIIIIIIIIILLLLLY!"
"Jacob!" Edward yells as the doors burst open and my former best friend strides in directly towards me. Oh hell I'm going to die, it's going to hurt and Mom will be pissed. "How could you not tell me dammit! All that time and you didn't even mention it to me! Don't you think I would have liked to know that you were in love with me? That someone finally loved me? None of this imprinting shit! We could have had a future together, could have been happy! Why Seth? Why him! WHY NOT ME! Out of all the things you didn't think to mention to me, this! I could have learned to love you, I could have protected you from everything! You wouldn't even be here if you had just told me!"
I feel my jaw drop and my eyes bulge out. Holy shit. This is what we were going to fight about? Oh he could have learned to love me, yes don't you know the way to a girls heart Mr. Black.
"Told you!" I yell my hands on my hips, how was this my fault!? It didn't even matter now, I had Seth and Seth was all I needed I didn't need Jake like that anymore, actually I didn't want the guy within ten feet of me.
"When was I suppose to tell you? When you were gushing over what a great girl Bella was? Telling me how you loved her, how you wanted to be with her? Was I suppose to tell you when you asked me to leave you alone so you could wallow in your self pity because she had come back to Edward? Oh no I guess I was suppose to tell you when you ran off, just when you had kind of managed to let her go!" I bite sarcastically rolling my eyes, if he thought that he could pin this on me now he had something else coming, I didn't care if I was screaming at in in the Cullen's front hall he obviously needed to finish this now. "Of course! All those wasted opportunities I had, especially all those times I didn't know where you were when you were out with the pack too busy for your best friend, yep all my fault and here I was thinking I was doing a good deed keeping your feelings spared!".
"How are my feelings spared? Now I have no one Lily!"
"What are you talking about" I scoff glaring at him with a hardened look.
"You have Seth, you're gone, Bella's married. I have no one"
"No Jacob" I sigh disappointed in his little realization, "it's not that you have no one its that you came too late. You realized you can't have her so now you ticked off because you can't have me. You can't just decided that Jacob, you loved her, you can't get mad at me now because in some other world you think you would have given me the chance. You wouldn't have and you know it! Things didn't work out, but now you can't get pissed off because you have no one to fight with. I'm happy with Seth and someday you'll find that happiness too. If you weren't such a jack ass then maybe we would still be friends instead of you ignoring me over things I can't control you ignorant asshole! There are more then two girls in the world you know, and even if I hadn't imprinted on Seth I wouldn't want to be you second choice. I don't want someone who has to learn to love me, and I sure as hell wouldn't want to deal with you while you learned to love me while still being head over heels in love with her!" I hiss pushing past him roughly leaving him to stand in his stupidness. That's right just stand there and be wrong you insensitive jerk. I think hearing Bella start up with a whole new bit of crying and mumbles of 'Jake you don't love me anymore's?'
"I seriously thought he was going to kill me in there, but he got it out of his system it'll be good for awhile". I mumble pulling away from Seth who was shaking slightly, he was pissed at Jacob for storming in and yelling at me but I like to think I won the argument.
"Well I love you, he had his chance before but not now, and never will he" Seth grumbles making me laugh, I lightly kiss his shoulder which was the only thing in reach managing to pull away fully. We had been attempting to say goodbye for ten minutes and he was no closer to the bush then he was before.
This was how our days would go now, I refused to step foot in the Cullen house again because of Jake so we would meet on the Cullen side of the border in my car. Mostly to make out but we did some talking too, I missed him most days I spent my time locked up in the house avoiding Sam and the others the best I could, they had yet to make contact but something was telling me I had been extremely lucky so far.
"No he won't" I agree still laughing, "and it better be known widely known to any girl that you are mine"
"I'm yours huh?"
"Yup" I sass leaning over to open the door on his side before motioning to the forest with my head. Maybe when he phased he'd give Jake an eyeful.
Seth pouts, his eyes sparking slightly, he was like a playful little puppy and I wanted to do nothing more then take him home with me but I couldn't.
"Tell my Mom I say 'hi', and that I'm sorry, we'll be home soon" I nod sadly thinking about the state Sue was currently, thankfully she was blaming Sam mostly which I took a lot of joy in. "I will, I'll stop by your place tomorrow. Does Leah need some clothes too?" I ask. He nods once more leaning over and placing a swift kiss on my forehead.
"Be safe".
I snort, "I should be telling you that wolf-boy".
"Says the wolf-girl with a bad temper" he teases hopping out of the car before I could hit him. Stupid sassy boyfrien- boy.
I watch as Seth runs off with a wink pulling at the drawstring of his sweat pants almost suggestively making me want to glare. I start the car quickly pulling a U-turn and driving down the road to La Push. I had a feeling I was going to need a nap before some unexpected company that was bound to show up within the next day or two.
"Ohh Lily-pad my lovely little frog bed"
"Ah fuck off would yeah, I'm not participating in any kind of brain wash"
"But we were ordered to come get you, there's a pack meeting at Emily and Sam's"
"I'm not apart of Sam's pack, I'm not apart of any pack I'm a lone wolf now like I said fuck off"
"Such language, she's got quite the mouth on her doesn't she Embry"
"She does Quil, what do you think Jared?"
"She needs her mouth washed out with soap I think"
"Nah I say a spanking" Paul offers winking, I sneer oh the things I could tell Rachel Black about her little boyfriend.
"Either you come willingly or we drug and gag you"
"You could try" I mutter feeling hands grab my arms and legs, I kick and wiggle trying to free myself from the offenders.
"Good job Collin, not too tight Brady if you leave a mark Seth will kill you"
I feel rope tighten, you have got to be kidding me. I glare up at Quil who looked like he was trying not to laugh. I don't even know who they got in here I was having a nap and then BAM, now I'm a hostage. Well not really these ropes were old and weak and I could easily get away but if I tried now they'd just come back later.
"Now since we don't want to deal with you we're going to use these" Embry smiles holding up a piece of black cloth and one of my old battered mp3 players. I scowl as the ear buds are forced in my ear a crappy dance mix blaring loudly, too loud for my overly sensitive ears. I try and bite Embry hand as he covers my eyes with the cloth.
For the duration on my drag to Sam's I kick at who ever was holding onto me, I was beginning to think it was Embry or Paul because when I kicked I would in turn get poked in either the butt or boob. Either way when I find out who was finger raping me I was going to rip their head off. The dance music was still blasting and it made me wonder who's music this was because it sure as heck wasn't mine. I could feel myself moving up and down as we walked down what I assumed was the road or a path, oh I think we were climbing now, stairs thank go-OW MOTHER FUC!-
The ear buds were ripped out suddenly as I yell holding my head, no it didn't hurt that much but I don't enjoy having me head rammed into door frames.
"Embry! What did you do to the poor girl!" Emily's scolding voice sounds as I feel a gentle tug as she take the blindfold off of my eyes. I blink a few times taking in my surroundings in the bright kitchen smiling up at the older women. Leave it to her to scold them when I was the one who as hear for a scolding.
"I told you to get her here not kidnap her!" Sam's voice snaps from above while I sat on the floor with my arms and legs still tied. I sigh pulling my arms apart with some effort feeling the rope give way before repeating the process on my legs. I don't know what world they thought those knots would have held a werewolf but I guess they tried.
"Can I go home now?" I whine standing, the pack turning to gape at me in shock. I let them have their fun, they kidnapped me what more could they ask for.
"No, sit" Sam demands pointing to a kitchen chair, I roll my eyes and let out a short bout of breath. I don't know what had their panties in a bunch but it was ruining my mood.
"Seth hasn't been meeting with you recently correct"
"Yes" How in the hell did they know that?
"Jacob's watching over the Cullens though?"
"Yes"
"Why are you not there?" Sam asks eyebrows raised. Well this isn't what I was expecting, I was waiting for the, TRAITOR! YOU LEFT US! NOW UP THE RIVER WITH YOU!
"Because Jacob is an asshole, and an all around jerk who deserves to get fleas and or rabies. He always wants what he can't have and is never satisfied with the way things are, are far as I'm concerned he doesn't exist. I refuse to go back to him and I ain't coming back to you bunch".
"Jacob imprinted a few days ago"
I stare at him, on who? It had been a week since I had last seen him and I hadn't seen Seth in a few days he hadn't shown up at our normal meeting times as Sam so nicely pointed out. Is that why? Did Jacob imprint and then go ape-shit on her ass? HOW DARE I LOVE YOU! I could see him do that, ungrateful ass.
"Renesmee"
"Who the hell is that? Do I know her? Is she from around here? Tell me did he yell at her too? He has a tendency to yell at people for things that they can't control. Friggen hypocrite".
"Renesmee Cullen"
I laugh, and I laugh hard. He imprinted on a vampire! Is that even possible? When I voice these thoughts I'm met with a few smirks, obviously I was missing something. I'm guessing it was important too.
"Is she like Dr. Cullen's niece or something?"
"Or something, she's his grand-daughter"
"He has a grand- Oh my god...Bella..baby?" I ask weakly staring up at Sam who looked like he had swallowed a knife. Wait, Jacob Black, who just screamed at me for imprinting, just imprinted on a baby which was just born? From the very girl he was, or used to be love with? Wow what a..pedophile creep.
"So, Black imprinted on Bella's demon spawn?"
"Yep"
"Show some respect.."
I couldn't help myself, I laughed, and boy did I laugh hard.