"Don't be stupid you can't un-imprint" Leah snorts, I growl at her turning my wolf gaze on her, I wasn't being stupid I knew it couldn't happen, I mean if it could I really hope both Quil and Jacob would give up their pedophiliac tendencies.

I groan, now Seth was all angry and bitter I really didn't want to talk things out with Jacob right now. It just wasn't worth it anymore he's been a jerk, I've been a bitch, and I wanted my friend back. Then again I've been wanting him fully back for a year or so now and that never happened.

"Lily?"

"Aw screw this, howl when you need me I'm going to go make sure he doesn't drown himself in the shower or something" Leah mutters taking off quickly, disappearing in the same spot Seth had just moments prior. I turn away phasing back into a human waiting for Jacob to do the same. So here we stood, nude, I didn't have any clothes with me since I had shredded mine, I feel a light tap on my shoulder as a ling button up appears in my view.

"Here, I think this will be awkward enough without..." Jacob's voice trails off slightly. Without the girls on display? Yeah I guess that makes sense. I pull on the shirt making quick work of the buttons, memories plaguing my mind.

"Here put this on"

"Ew no, this thing sticks like a swamp what did you do? Roll this in dirt before you got dressed this morning" I tease shoving the button up shirt in to Jacob's hands, it didn't smell bad at all, it actually smelled pretty good but he was apparently tired of wearing said shirt over his t-shirt. I think he had been trying to impress Sarah Wakii by dressing up at least thats the impression I got when Billy was teasing him when I met him for school this morning.

"Come on Lils' I'm getting too hot, and you" he raises and eyebrow looking me up and down, "aren't all that covered up my dear".

"Sorry dad" I stress the word, once again throwing the shirt back at him this time it landing over his face making me laugh loudly in the crowded hall.

"Put it on"

"No"

"Please"

"Noooooo" I sing grabbing the lock to my locker and spinning in the combination with ease. I turn around to gloat only to be grabbed my arms pinned behind my back. "JAAAAKKEEEEE" I whine my arms being pulling through the holes like a toddler, he just grunts fixing the collar quickly buttoning it up, flashing me a satisfied smile.

"There now you don't look like a hooch"

"Jerk" I snap with a grin kicking his shin swiftly grabbing my next classes books and dropping them into his arms, "Here make yourself useful dear". I drawl.

"So I guess we should talk eh?" Jake asks when I turn around thanking my lucky stars that the shirt covered my other areas as well.

"I guess, Seth seems pretty serious on that bit. I rather do this quickly so I can go grovel" I mutter crossing my arms. Jake laughs, yes laughs, scratching the back of his neck a nervous tick he picked up a few years ago.

"I know I was hard on you, hell I know I've been a right jackass-"

"-which is a very large understatement-"

"-are you going to let me talk?" he asks annoyed, raising an eyebrow, another trait he picked up but this one was at an early age, one I had always been jealous of.

I sigh and nod, miming zipping up my mouth and throwing the key out onto the Cullen's lawn. "First" he starts pointing a finger at me, which ticked me off, " I talk, you listen I won't get this out otherwise, so shut up kay?". I grunt again showing I was listening watching him take a deep breath.

"When I left, I was hurting bad. Once again Bella had picked him over me and I didn't think I would ever be able to get over that. I loved her, I really did but then there was you-"

"What did I-" I clap my hand over my mouth seeing his glare, right no talking..

"As I was saying" he glares making me shrug innocently, "then there was you, everyone else knew why I left. The pack knew I was going to be okay because they knew what I was, you didn't though. I knew you'd be worried because you didn't know what was going on, I always try'd to keep my thoughts wolf because I didn't want anyone talking to me, trying to get me home but some how my thoughts would slide to you and I would feel horrible all over again". Like he should have.

"One night Embry was running a patrol alone it was just him and I, he told me off and boy did he rip me one. I mean the guy didn't know I was listening and all he had to do was show me how upset you were and I felt like shit. He told me how you had came up to him and Quil screaming at them and demanding my whereabouts because you didn't believe I had just taken off without a good reason". I smile at this , that's when I had noticed my anger getting more uncontrollable.

"HEY DUMB AND DUMBER!" I yell seeing Quil and Embry trying to sneak past my house quickly, they had been successfully dodging me for a few days but I knew they had to pass me to get to Sam's it was only a matter of time before I caught them in the act.

"Ah Lily-kins, how are you this fine afterno-"

"Cut the shit, where's Jake" I interrupt Quil feeling the anger in my body increase with each step I took towards the two, I wasn't believing any of this, 'he needs time, he'll come home when he's ready' crap Billy had been feeding me anymore.

"Why would we know?" Embry asks trying to look innocent but failing, he had a horrible poker face.

"I know you two know, I realize you guys keep stuff form me but this is something I don't want to be left in the dark about. Tell me now Embry Call or I will personally make sure you never have children". I threaten standing in front of the both of them. I was mad, I was sad, I just wanted Jake to come home.

"Lily-"

"NOW, WHERE IS JACOB!" I yell feeling my anger boil over, now I was just embarrassing myself I could feel the tears running down my face. God I was pathetic.

"We don't know Lils, we wish we could tell you that" Quil says quietly his hot hands resting on my shoulders. I sniff back a few tears angrily wiping them away, I look up at my two friends, I had known them for years and I also knew they were both lying.

"Liers" I laugh weakly, Embry kneeling down making me feel like a toddler as he rubbed a comforting hand up and down my arms.

"Let's get you out of the rain eh Lils?"

"I had came back with one thing on my mind you. I had a perfect girl at home waiting for me, she was probably pissed beyond belief but I knew you'd forgive me." Jake laughs a bit shaking his head, "I ran back having every intention of running straight to your house after I cleaned up and then I remembered the wedding. I just, I saw her again Lils and I just caved once more. Everything I had tried to forget came rushing back, and it hurt. Of course you phased right after all that and then I felt more like crap. I could help but blame myself I knew that it was Vampires that made us change but I couldn't help but think it was because I left that you changed. I didn't want you to know that I felt that way so I avoided you, that and I didn't want you to know everything that happened with Bella, I wasn't ready to share a mind with you yet".

I shift from leg to leg, this little apology was turning into a long ass monologue and I had to pee..

"Then the first time you see Seth, ugh" he shakes his head, "I was so pissed, I had been hoping that maybe if I let Bella go I would just imprint on you and then bam, you and Seth lock eyes and you're gone. It felt like everything was being taken from me, hell even my own sister was now claimed. Not that I would..you know" he says nervously shaking his head with a grimace, yes incest is always bad good boy. "I just didn't know how to deal with you after that it felt like I had lost my best friend, I convince myself that you were pissed and blamed me so I just acted like you were. Then I found out you used to be in love with me before everything and I had hope for a spilt second before I realized that there was no way it would work. I didn't care though I drove to La Push even though you were already pissed at me, before I realized that it was you that I had passed and not your Mom. I probably could have reacted better instead of blowing up at you but I didn't. After that I just let the anger fester until Ness was born," he sighs slightly making me want to gag, this was a child we were talking about, blah.

"I saw that there was no controlling it this girl was my whole world and I had just yelled at you few days before because of you and Seth. I wanted to apologize I really did but you were pissed still, I would ask Edward to rate your anger level after you left but he was pretty firm on the fact you didn't want to talk so I gave you space. I'm not mature about things like this, and I know you know you aren't either. But hell, I miss you Lils, I need you still, I always will".

I stare at him mouth agape, I probably looked like a fish. I blinked a few times before poking Jake once to make sure it was actually him and not some dream. I had known the guy for 17 years and I couldn't get him to say sorry for eating my Smarties and now I get this? It was seriously amazing, I was waiting for the world to end. Part of me wanted to yell at him a bit, but the other part just wanted to hug him and cry a little.

One guess at which part won.

"Awh I need you too Jake, who else will walk me down the aisle when Seth and I get married?" I joke letting him grab me up into a hug. I was pretty sure the whole Cullen house had listened to our reunion but I didn't care. Jake was done being a jerk and I had my best friend back.

"You really love him don't you?"

I pause, did I? I mean in all aspects I guess I did but I had never told him that..

"Yeah, I guess I do" I decided with a smile, he was everything you would want in a guy, and he was what I needed, what I wanted. I was happier when I was around him, I smiled when I thought about him, or his name was brought up.. was this what love was? What it felt like?

"Okay now your turn" he grins setting me down, it was kind of weird to hug when I was braless and bottomless.

"My turn for what?" I snort attempting to raise an eyebrow, "I did nothing wrong".

"Lilllyyyy" he says in a warning tone, I shrug before turning for the trees, sprinting away with a laugh. It felt good the have him back.

I take a deep breath pausing outside outside of Seth's door feeling Leah's glare from across the hall. I think she was a little pissed at me for driving her home, Sue wasn't in the best of moods to deal with she had practically dragged me in the house when she saw me pacing outside and told me de-mood her son. I don't know if it was meant to be suggestive or if I just saw it that way.

I knock twice hearing my heart pumping in my ears, I don't know why I was so nervous, I don't think I could even be angry with him it was impossible but he was frustrated I knew that much.

"Go away Mom, I'm not coming down to help bake cookies". he groans a small bite in his voice which made me squirm. I could hear Leah snickering at me now from her room as she got up to close her door which I couldn't decided if it was a good or a bad thing. I take another breath turning the handle walking in quickly and shutting it behind me.

"Mom I just want to be alone" Seth mumbles, I look around his small room briefly noticing him face down on the bed. It was a comfy room, very Seth, books and forgotten homework littered his small desk along with an ancient looking computer that would probably be more useful as spare parts. Everything was wood, looking handmade, but it wouldn't surprise me if it was. His comforter was on the floor along with his sheet and pillow leaving him face down on the bed, his blue sheet wrinkled from movement.

"It's me" I say after a few moments of watching him breath into the mattress, he kept that up he was going to pass out. I kind of expected him to jump up and start beating me or something but he didn't he stayed perfectly still instead which was sort of maddening.

"Seth?" I try again walking closer, this was nerve wracking maybe I should have just went home and thought about what to say first.

"If you came to apologize I don't want to hear it" he mutters softly, my ears picked it up anyways and I frowned. "I'm tired Lily, I'm tired of you fighting this every step of the way". he was facing me now, having gotten up rather quickly in order to stand in front of me.

"Fighting what?"

"Us, Lily!" he all but shouts making me jump back, he was rubbing his face and then his hands through his hair, sighing, muttering, what the hell was he talking about. "Us, you're fighting us! I don't know if its because you can't accept us or what but I can feel it Lils, I can feel it right here". his voice lowers at the last part as he grabs my hands placing them on his chest where I could feel his heart beating.

"I know you can feel it, I know you feel it too. I don't know if it's as strong as what I feel but you feel something. I know you don't want to hurt me Lils, I know you try but I need more from you. I need you to acknowledge this, us".

"Seth you kn-"

"No I don't know Lily" he shakes his head sadly, "you need to tell me how you feel. I can't guess all the time, I can't go by what I feel when we're wolves, I need to hear it, because you know what I feel for you?" he asks rhetorically pulling me down on the bed into his lap, well this was a little weird..

"I love you, I'd do anything for you, I would jump off a building if you asked me too. When I close my eyes you're there, you make me work harder, run faster, you are not the reason I breathe, the reason I live. Normal people don't feel like this at sixteen yet I can't imagine not feeling this way, can't imagine a world where you don't exist. I need you, I need you close by, I need you always".

"Seth I.." I sigh, now getting frustrated myself, sure I could admit I loved him in my head, but out loud to him that was different. He knew I loved him, I know he knows, I had to love him it was impossible for me not to. I take a deep breath before looking up at him resting a calming hand on his cheek making his gaze lock with mine.

"I love you too Seth, more then I can comprehend, more then I could ever begin to try and understand I-"

Okay that was annoying, I growl looking pointedly at his hand, I try and tell him how I feel and he covers my mouth. I glare up at him seeing all his frustration gone, replaced with his dopy, lovable smile. "That's all I wanted to hear".

"Ah my eyes!"

"LEAH!"

"Aw come-on I just got her shirt off" Seth pouts as I scramble to pull it back down over my torso. Stupid hot werewolf boyfriend. Yes boyfriend.