DISCLAIMER. Boohoo, I do not own Twilight. Although the SPARE CHARACTERS, such as the additions to Bella's family, boyfriends and girlfriends, I do.
A/N. Very quick. I need ASAP a beta-reader. PM me or something like that. :) I really, really need one!!!
[BPOV]
I'll give it away, that was probably the weirdest thirty minutes of my life, what the hell was wrong with Edward? Not wrong in a bad way, in an entirely and completely good way. Jesus, why am I sitting in class, almost brooding over the guy? Why am I being bothered by the fact that his masculine scent is all over me? Why am I stressed over the fact that I like that? I could hear what the teacher was saying, I just wasn't paying attention, my mind was wondering far off, more to the Health Care side of the campus where Edward was taking classes now. I decided I would shake my mind off him, even though, the hardest I tried, the hardest it seemed to take his face off my head, his words and his touches that sent my entire body to frenzy, that left my skin burning with desire, but it was good thing, I didn't exactly need anyone in my life at this point – romantically speaking –, and Edward wasn't someone I wanted to hurt, so I would just push him away until he eventually just stopped acting the way he is acting around me. I would have to just not be myself around him, even when I feel so comfortable doing so. However it was for the best, sort of like a twisted engaging torture for me. But he's different, he has always been different and you know it. And I knew it, I just didn't want to drag him into my problems pool, he had a life ahead of him and a career to follow, the same as me, just my life… was a little bit more complicated, at least that's what I thought.
I'm probably putting out my feelings in the wrong way, however I don't see other manner of doing so, at least for now.
I was snapped out of my thoughts by the bell ring, thank God class was over, I don't know if I could endure it for any other five minutes, I needed some air, some place to clear up my mind before I could practice, otherwise, I would probably be with my mind wondering during practice time.
But I couldn't just get up in the right time could I? No, of course I couldn't, my clumsiness had to get in the way, I sort of tripped on the stairs and before I knew it, my books were scattered on the floor while I tried to hold myself on a chair to not fall down, along with a bunch of papers and works I was supposed to get done, due Monday. I mumbled "Shit" to myself, before pulling my glasses up on my nose, since they were consistently falling off – I would have to get their frame to fit my face once again, since Emmett decided to play naughty librarian once with my glasses –. I kneeled myself on the floor and started to gather my belongings, not fast enough, because Mike Newton had come up to help me and make small talk with me.
"Hey Bella, are you alright?" He asked, kneeling down and helping me. I don't have a lot of bad things to say about Mike, he was a frat boy, and he also was on the basketball team, so I had cheered for him a couple of times, but he wasn't my type, of course he's not your type dummy! He doesn't have the green eyes, his hair isn't in a weird shade of bronze and it isn't messy, it doesn't have the casual disarray of Ed- I shut my thoughts, I was getting way in too deep and way too quickly, if I don't look out for myself I might just wake up one day a realize that I'm in love with him or something. Would it be that bad? Letting yourself fall again? YES! It would be terrible, just to remember what happened last time… It's not like last time you were actually in love.
During my internal debate I was vaguely aware of Mike's snapping his fingers in front of my eyes trying to rip me out from whatever I was thinking, I shook my head to clear it up. "I'm sorry Mike, what did you say?" I looked at him, into his baby blue eyes. Mike really didn't appeal to me, he had absolutely no manly features, he looked like a baby, and a woman doesn't want to date babies, because that would be… sick.
"I asked if you were alright." He was breaking the words into syllables, like I was deaf, or had a mental disability.
"Yes, I'm fine; I guess my mind is somewhere else." I was getting slightly irritated and feeling insulted. I couldn't help if I was a daydreamer.
"Here" He delivered to me my books and some papers he had collected from the floor.
"Thanks. Well, I have to go now; I think I'm going to hit the gym before practice." I started to walk away from him.
"Bella wait!" He called out, before I could reach the door. Why was everyone stopping me from reaching the door today? This day would most likely classify as the oddest day on earth. Paranoid Bella is coming out to play? I stopped on my tracks and turned to face him, putting on my favorite fake smile.
"Yes?"
"I-um… Do you have a date for tonight's party? Because I thought if you didn't maybe we could go together, I could pass by your dorm two hours after the game and we would go… What do you think?"
Why did Mike have to make things so much difficult in our friendship? Did he not understand the meaning of the word 'boundaries'? Here I go again, I have to blush and give him the lousiest excuse so I would deny him, for the millionth time, my company as a date to anything that included him.
"I don't know Mike. I don't think it's a good idea." His head started to fall down, as his eyes met the floor, he would always stare at the floor, and internally I was thanking him, because I really didn't want to look into his eyes as I lied, because I'm not such a good liar myself. "Besides…" I continued. "I already promised Rose and Alice I would go with them, since their boyfriends are going straight from the game and we have to change clothes, take a bath and all the girl stuff, but I'll see you there ok?" I patted him on the shoulder and he looked up to see me, giving me a smile. I could already say that he was being hopeful.
"Okay then." His smile was brighter and he had cheered up a little bit. I was doomed. "I'll won't hold you back then. See you at the game." Sooner than I thought, he was out of the class, I imagined him jumping down the corridors as he thought I had accepted his invitation to a date.
I made my way to the gym, which was near the football field and the gymnasium, I was looking pretty forward to this game tonight, I loved cheering more than I assumed, I didn't like being a girly girl, and I didn't exactly know how to be one, Alice and Rosalie would always play Barbie Bella with me, and I was already used to, I liked to stay safe on my converse and jeans, but they loved to throw at me high heels boots and the tightest pants that I would highly doubt my ass could pass by the waistband.
I quickly changed my mind about the gym when I saw Mike Newton and Tyler Crowley heading towards it. Did the guy never let me out of sight? Instead I chose to take a turn on my path go to my room, maybe do some paperwork I was in need, or work on my book outline, I still needed some sort of heroin, or hero, I mean, every book has its hero's right? Mine would be no different, but I had to figure out her or his personality, which wouldn't be easy. I speed up my pace as I passed by them, praying that they would ignore me, and maybe not even notice me, but there was no such luck. If you told me that a lightening didn't strike twice at the same place, I would be the girl who was at the place where the lightening stroke twice. I had made peace with my luck so far, but today, I was starting to get pissed off.
"Bella, I thought you were going to hit the gym." Mike said. He didn't even try to hide that he was coming to after me. Stalker much? The kid really needed a life.
"I know Mike, me too." I pulled a lock of my hair behind my ear. "Hey Tyler."
"Hi Bella." Tyler greeted me back, smiling, I swear I tried to smile back, but I was annoyed, to say the least.
"Where are you heading off now?" Mind your own life Mike.
"I'm going back to my dorm, I guess that I need to be some time alone and finish my paper work for Miss Linda's class, but I guess that's all." Please go away and let me go.
"Do you need any help?"
Okay, let's stop there. I don't mean to brag about anything I do, but does he really think that with his straight C's and my straight A's I would be needing help from him? I always had a solid 4.0, and he had what? A 3.0? Maybe a little more, but still.
"No, Mike, but thank you, anyway. I'll see you at the game ok?" I tried my best to be nice and flash him a toothy smile, but my mouth never went that far.
"Alright then, see you Bells." I'll let that pass, never, anyone besides my closest friends and Edward called me Bells, and they didn't so it very often because I don't like it very much, Edward does just to piss me off. Whoa! Why every thought you have does have to end up in the bronze haired Adonis?
I waved at Mike and Tyler and started to walk up to my housing building, it wasn't very far from the football field, so I could still stay a few minutes more on my dorm then I expected to be, fortunately, once I practically raced up the stairs – and didn't fall –, unlocked the door and entered mine, Rose and Alice's room, none of them two were there to ask me where the hell I stormed off that afternoon and why the hell I hadn't called them to do some explanations.
I just made my way inside and tossed my bag on the corner, slipped my flip flops off my feet – tossing them behind me- and closed the door, making my way to the desk, scooting my open laptop aside before I could throw the books I held on my arms on the desk, as I sat on the chair and opened my Penal Code book, well, one of them anyway, and started to leaf through it, I had to pull off a five thousand words assay about the human mind, this sorta looked more like an anthropology assay then a Criminal class thing, but we had to outline the serial killer's personality, like... what makes him a serial killer and all the shit, but what wouldn't I give to be curled up on the couch with a hot chocolate mug and my oldest edition of Wuthering Heights? Or even ice skating on a closed rink. Ugh, I already had foreseen my exciting weekend, locking myself away on the library, with a huge ass headache from the party on Friday, I just hoped that Alice would let me leave the Beta Theta Pi soon enough to get some beauty sleeping.
I started to make my way through the book and the internet, words started to freely flow from my fingertips, and I silently thanked that at least that, doing my work and putting my effort into things would take my mind away of Edward, I was doing a lot of thinking about him these days - no, I lie – these past few months, I don't know what's got into me, I don't know if I'm liking him, I just… he seems to be a current and unforgettable subject on my mind, his hair, his lips, the straight line of his nose, the way his jaw clenches when he's mad, the way he closes his eyes when he's trying to concentrate, the way he talks about his family, his wanted career, his friends and his life, it's just so mesmerizing… I sound like a fool, right? But don't even get me started about the way I get completely lost in his green eyes, the way they lighten up when he's talking about medical school, the way it gets darker when his lusting for something – I saw that in a completely way I thought I wouldn't, let's just say that his eyes darken ever since we were fifteen years old. Olivia was her name – nevertheless, he is amazing, and I know that, I just don't want to jump my bones and tell him that I like him…
You like him? Like? God woman, you sound like a thirteen year old.
What am I going to say? That I love him? I don't love him, it's a crush that will soon go away, I just need to push him away, follow my brilliant plan to make him stop behaving the way he is behaving around me.
"BELLA!" Alice came through the door, screaming my name out loud for anyone down the hallway to hear. I jumped slightly from the chair I was sitting on, making some of the papers to fall, almost my laptop went along with them, during the typing I had shifted positions a lot, now I was with my laptop on my lap, while my feet were up, resting on the desk, I looked at Alice and smiled to see that Rosalie was with her.
"Bella, why aren't you with your sprint shorts on yet?" Rosalie asked. "Oh and hi." She greeted smiling.
"Hi Rose, hi Al." I greeted them back. "Well, I'm not with them on yet, because Miss Arrogant-Linda asked for the students to make a five thousand words assay about a case, and I still have two thousand more words to pull out of my ass." Did I just say two thousand words? Man I was like a machine today, and it wasn't even five pm, I must say that right then and there I felt quite proud of myself, I could do the rest of the assay on Saturday and on Sunday I would review it and make my presentation to present it on Monday to the Cow. I'm sorry; I just don't like the teacher.
"Oh, that's why when we got to the gym you were nowhere to be seen."
Rose and Alice must have hit the gym; they were both on Lycra shorts and sports bra, usually the way we practiced, I however, put a t-shirt on to walk to the field.
"Yeah, I just had a little run in with Mike Newton, I guess however he followed me there." I laughed at my own thought, the girls laughed along with me.
"You know what? I don't doubt it, the blondie has it hard for you Bella, I bet he's going to go crazy on Wednesday's game." Alice said.
"Oh God, I had completely forgotten about that game! Sometimes I wish we would only cheer for football, it's like we have thousands of games a week." Rosalie threw her head back and sighed loudly.
"I know how you feel Rose. Now, just give me five that I'll quickly change into my sprints." I got up, putting my books and laptop on the desk, not before saving my work; - of course – I went to our room and changed my clothes before you could say Oompa-Loompa, putting my white Adidas on and my hair on a loose ponytail, then I made my way back to the "living room". "Okay, I'm ready, let's go."
I passed through the door and Rosalie slapped my butt, resulting in a yelp slipping out of my lips. "What the hell was that about?"
Rosalie shrugged, while Alice laughed. "You just look like a hot piece of ass woman, trying to impress anyone?"
Alice regained her posture and looked at me like she was remembering something she had to say. "Edward." It was the only word that came out of her mouth and I must have gone from a little pale, to other fifty or eighty different shades of red.
"No." I would deny it with every fiber of my being.
"Don't lie to me Bella, I know that you like him, actually, I know that you have liked him for the past couple of months, and we know he likes you too."
Now Alice had really got me confused, she must've read my face, before I could voice anything she spoke.
"It's like you two are on your little world when together, I've already ripped you out of you gazing, or should I say, ogling him a few times now and when he's around you, he's different." A million of different thoughts passed through my mind.
"Bella, what Alice is saying is so true. You were ogling him today when we arrived at the cafeteria, you ogle him more than you think, he ogles you too, you know? But when you two look in each other's eyes…" Rosalie didn't get to finish her sentence, I don't know if she didn't have a word to describe what she wanted to describe, she just didn't, and she just left me there, dazed and confused.
I snapped myself out and pretended I hadn't heard anything what they had said. "We have to go to practice." I raised my left eyebrow and turned to walk away from them, they were in an instant beside me, each of them linking their arms with mine, so I would be in the middle of them.
"You are so in denial Bella. Just give it time, you'll see… I know that I tease Edward a lot Bella, but he's not a bad guy, he never was, he is different and you know it. He's not James." I flinched at the mere mention of his name.
James is my ex-boyfriend, we dated a while in high school, actually I dated him for two solid years until senior year, when I broke everything up with him – first, because he had cheated on me and second, because it was senior year and I would move away to College pretty soon and had absolutely no intentions of staying at my old hometown -, let's just say that James flipped a little, drank too much and ended up at my door, midnight, my dad and I woke up to his frenzy knocking, he called me a few horrid names and dad had to pull out his gun, he promised however, he would make me pay for breaking his heart, I couldn't run far away. Between the two years we dated he had been pretty much a jerk, I couldn't do anything and he would hit me, I was only a teenager, and thought I had my head over heels for him, I was terribly wrong.
Alright, enough about that.
I pretended not having heard her again as we walked down the stairs making our way out of the building. Within five minutes of walking and complete silence, we arrived the football field, Rosalie and Alice ran across the field to greet Jasper and Emmett, but I didn't, I waved at them, spotting Edward on their side, he gave me a quick wink and I smiled at him, my smile faded as the image of Lauren by his side, he had an arm around her waist and she was saying something on his ear, I turned around, not wanting to see anymore of that. Different huh? Different my ass. I peeled off my t-shirt, staying now only on my sports bra and my sprint shorts, just like the rest of the squad, I clapped my hands together mentioning for them to gather around as I stepped up on the first step of the bleachers, soon enough the girls were around me, looking at me attentively.
"Okay guys, I'll be true with you, I don't know why the hell we are here, but since we are we might as well put on motion something I have thought for Gold and Blue week since tonight's game, like all Friday's games will be a practice for us." Blue and Gold week was the week before our big final game against USC, we always had something going on, but this year the Cheerleaders had to put something together in order to raise money for charity.
"And what was that Bella?" Alice asked coming to stand beside me on the bleachers as Rosalie did the same.
"So, I was thinking that could be something fun and we would raise a quite amount of money if we auctioned both the Football team and Cheerleader Squad."
"Auctioned?" All of the squad looked pretty confused, but Rose was the one to voice it.
"You know, on dates, with whoever wants to go on dates with us, however, we cannot participate, that means that you girls will have to give your boyfriends up for adoption."
Rosalie had a smirk on her face while Alice looked quite bummed, the rest of the squad squealed and I heard Lauren whispering her hopes of taking Edward on a date. "Now, let me make this clear: We cannot take the Football team on dates, since we are going on dates ourselves." I raised my voice a little bit so it would reach Lauren's ears, hell, I was looking directly at her, so I think she got the hint, since she instantly seemed disappointed. "So, who's with me?"
A major part of the squad raised their hands, the girls saying how it was going to be fun, and I had pretty much sure we were going to have a blast, a whole date with a stranger, besides, raising money for charity made the experience completely worth the effort.
We stood there discussing what we were going to do for the next hour, sitting on the benches and just talking, we didn't do much practicing like I said we wouldn't, the girls were pretty much excited and now all I had to do was talk with the superiors and getting a day of the week, we would probably settle for Friday night, we did the auctions and we would go straight to the dates. Some of the girls didn't even participate on the conversation, preferring to be aside and watch the boys practice, I would hear some sighs once in and while and also, many, many giggles, I don't know why but I felt like I was being watched the entire time, I shook my head to avoid the feeling, I was probably getting paranoid all over again. Not a hard thing to do.
"Okay girls, we meet in two hours for the game, you know the place right? Be delayed and we won't stop the bus." I warned getting up, having both Rose and Alice getting up after me, all the squad nodded and we hit off, as soon as we passed by the team, Alice and Rosalie ran to say goodbye to their respective boyfriends and we were out of the field, once more going to our dormitory.
"So, I guess your idea was a total blast huh?" Rosalie nudged me while Alice unlocked the door.
"Hell yes, it's going to be a fucking success." The smile never left my lips. I felt successful. "However, I have yet to talk to the superiors."
"Nah, don't worry about it Bella. All you have to do is smile and the coach will be eating out of the palm of your hand." Rosalie said. "Lucky bitch."
"You know that's not true, besides, it would be way easier to get what I want if either you flashed your tits at him or Alice massaged him, maybe give him a blow job. What do you think Al?" I joked receiving nothing but the two of the flipping their fingers at me. "What? I was just suggesting."
"Why don't you do all this? Miss Virgin." Oh, here they go with the nickname they gave me after I spent seven months without having sex. It's not like my hymen got restored.
"Because he probably has an icky dick?"
They laughed; we were already inside our dorm.
"So, I'm going to hit the showers, since there are probably a lot of girls in it right now. We should really move to a new housing you know that?" I was grabbing my toiletries in one hand and the underwear in the other, I would dress my uniform once I was back at my dorm.
"I completely agree, we need a bathroom only for us, but we'll discuss this later, let's hit the showers." We left the dorm and closed the door behind us.
The showers were full with girls, all we heard was the water falling, endless conversations and giggles, sometimes laughing, but mainly giggles; girl's could be so loud sometimes. We looked at each other and started stripping our clothes off, getting inside the showers right after, we also mingled our voices into the giggling, laughing and talking, half an hour later, we were making our way back to our dorm, in five minutes we were closing and locking the door behind us before taking out our towels, hanging them on the window, staying simply in underwear on our living room. We were already used to that, besides, none of us had anything in our bodies that was different, and there was nothing to be ashamed about there.
We dressed up in our uniforms that fit every curve of our body, leaving something to the imagination, blowed our hairs dry and I let Alice do the rest with me. I was never too good with the makeup and getting my hair ready part, Alice always helped me. She put my hair up in a high ponytail and curled the ends, on the my face she applied some gold eye shadow on the corner and smoked some blue on my eyelids, she decided not to go with any black besides the huge amount of mascara she put, letting my lashes longer than they were and thicker, my cheeks were slightly pink and my lips were transparent – just… glossy. I got my CB sticker which held for captain and glued on my right cheek, just below the right eye, and then I was good to go.
I thought I looked good, however Rosalie fit the uniform ten times better than I did, she never put her hair up, so it was in a half ponytail, Alice was just as beautiful, her spiky raven black hair was sort of curled. We all grabbed our pompons and head out the door, talking about the game tonight and how we thought it would be.
All the squad was there and so was the Football team, the guys were waiting to put their protections once we arrived the Rose Bowl, we all entered the bus since we got there, and the girls took their seats on the sides of their boyfriends, since Laura, one of the cheerleaders had took my place on Joshua's side, I had no one to seat with, but Edward Cullen.
Trip made in hell right? I bet Alice and Rosalie had something to do with it, because they were looking at me with those damn, stupid smirks of theirs, I gave them the death glare, the one that signalized that they were on my black list. I thought I was being lucky that they hadn't brought the Edward subject up again; I was just being a fool.
"Mind if I join you?" I asked when I got to the end of the bus, where he usually sat… sometimes to make out with some girl.
"Be my guest." I couldn't help but smile at the familiarity of the moment, after all, we had exchanged the same words just hours ago.
"So, not waiting for some girl to make out with you here today?" I teased him while I took my seat. Was that… blush creeping out to his cheeks? Since when did he blush?
"Unless you want to candidate to the moment, nobody's coming." Damn, he was better than I thought.
I pulled my bottom lip between my teeth; I always chewed it when I was nervous.
"So, you didn't even say hello to me on practice today." He spoke; making me let my bottom lip be freed.
"Well, you were a little busy." I alleged, turning my eyes to the back of Lauren's seat.
"Oh well, she was just seeing if I had liked the gift."
"Well?" I laughed, turning my head and my body to look at him, he mirrored my moves.
"I said that I had found it interesting, but I had no plan in using it, so, I just ended everything with her, because I have my eyes on one girl now..."
That really caught me off guard, that and the fact that Edward was closer to me than I thought, his face was inches away from mine, and I could feel his breath on the tip of my tongue, he gently brushed the longer part of my bangs behind my ear, letting his hand fall on top of mine which rested on my thigh. I wanted to say something but the words were erased from my mind and my mouth, I couldn't find them, he was leaning closer and closer, looking into my eyes, seeing if I was going to move back or was going to say anything, the confusion was written on my face, but soon my mind became clear, and I realized that I wanted to do this, I just didn't know if kissing him right then and there would be the right thing to do, I looked back into his eyes, his green eyes and my soul melted.
How can a single look make your soul melt? I don't know.
Our lips were almost touching.
"Okay boys and girls, everyone here?"
Coach Waters said, making me break apart our "moment", my hand snapped away from his, like a reflex, I blushed and turned my head to the bus passageway, and my body was turned to the front, nobody seemed to have noticed Edward's little stunt and for that I was glad. I wasn't going to give into him; I didn't dare to look at him for the rest of the trip. It was well…. Interesting.
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