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A/N. Very quick. I to thank to my awsome beta-reader clarinetguardgeek07, this chapter is dedicated to her. :) - Share with me your opinions about the cast. Do you like them, or not? PS.: REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW! I decided that you deserved an earlier update because you've been so good to me in reviews. I need someone to help me write LEMONS!
[BPOV]
My head was hurting and my ankle was on fire to say the least. I didn't know what the hell had happened, or why my ankle hurt so bad, my head was heavy on the pillow and I was completely spread across the bed. Where were the girls? The atmosphere in my room reminded me a bit of my dark, drafty classrooms, and then I was reminded that it was Tuesday, and I probably had classes today, but then, I glanced at my clock, it was a little past ten, so that meant I lost classes, or entered coma. What the hell was happening?
The last part of yesterday I remember, I was being dragged to the infirmary right after being hovered by Mike and some Jacob dude, maybe that's why my ankle was hurting, some thing started to make sense, not all of them anyway… I rolled my body so I would be staring at the ceiling. The last few days were confusing to say the least, with all the Edward shit and my fucked up trust issues, I was a complete wrack, I still didn't get thought, why I earned one day in bed.
The white ceiling was making me dizzy, and the pain in my ankle almost forgettable, I knew I would have to get up at some time, I just didn't know when, or how I would face a community shower which I shared with twenty other girls. Fortunately, me and the girls got this good deal, we called our banks – meaning moms and dads – and asked them to do something to move us up to Plazas, preferably Suites, where we would certainly have more privacy and stuff, Rosalie would try to use her mother's alumni authority to give us some privilege, I don't know what the heck she meant by that, but her mother said that by the end of Fall semester – which was yet to start - we would be out of Rieber Hall and into De Neve Plaza, Rieber Vista, Rieber Terrace, Hedrick Summit, Sunset Village or The Hitch or Saxon Suites, whatever one, suited us quite finely. Me and Alice almost kissed Ms. Hale's feet, and damned ourselves for choosing to get housing without parental help… The boys were rather luckier than us, entering UCLA a year sooner and Joshua leaving this year, they were yet in the Halls, but with a Suite guaranteed, they would move as soon as Fall semester began, which would be a in a few weeks, little over three months, they never really talked about it, they would just call our help when they had everything packed, Alice however, was more excited for this moving then the three of them combined.
She was already making plans for our Suite decoration, everything in mahogany, and she would call on Esme's help, Esme was known for redecorating places and they just got… stunning. She had this talent, but she rarely ever put it to use, Carlisle was the working husband, Esme was the devoted housewife, but that never was a problem between the two of them, they were perfectly happy… Sometimes I wondered if such thing happened these days, probably… for Alice and Jasper.
I quit debating on whether or not I should finally get the hell up and sat on the bed, staring at the ceiling a little more would mess up my already messed up head. I passed my hand through my chaotic hair… Or should I say… haystack? I grabbed my cell phone and dialed Alice's number, hoping she would be in a break between classes, thankfully, she picked up on the second dial tone.
"You're up sleepyhead!" Always too bubbly, always too Alice.
"Yeah." My voice was raspier than usual; I hemmed, feeling it a little bit sore. "How long was I out?"
"Probably since eight… almost nine pm of last night, don't worry, you just took too much pain medication."
"Fuck. What happened? Tell me everything." Panic was written across my face because I knew very well what I did when I got in those tipsy states of mind. She laughed on the other side of the line.
"Shush Bella, you said nothing too much. We were all there; you ruined our night you know? We were going out with the boys and the last thing we knew, you were all high and funny, you even tagged Edward along."
My head dropped on the pillow, making the migraine feel the need to make an announcement, my temples throbbed and I let out a pain yelp.
"What happened sweetie?"
"Fucking huge migraine. Would you mind send over some medicine when you're done with your schooling shit? I don't know if I'll ever open the curtains."
"Oh is that so? The sun is so beautiful out here Bella. Anyway, I'll surely bring you some aspirin, or Tylenol, but don't avoid the talk missy, you heard me, didn't you?"
There was no possible way of letting a subject go when you were talking to Alice, she was this little pixie fashionista from hell. "Yeah, I heard you Ali, but honestly… What do you want me to do about it? It's not like I said too much…"
Silence.
"Mary Alice Cullen! What shit did I spill out of my mouth yesterday?" I whispered harshly.
"Okay, you sort of went harsh on him about the Sunday event with the bimbos, and he didn't say anything, he didn't try to argue with you or anything, but one thing I do know."
"Stop with the buildup Ali, what do you know?"
She laughed once more. "He didn't spend the night with the hoes; he was just taking care of some business there."
It was my time to laugh, humorlessly. "Yeah, like I have stupid written all over my forehead. I can imagine what he went there to do with them, I just want to sleep some more, and not have nightmares."
"C'mon Bella, stop being so thickheaded, give the guy a chance, it's not like you gave him any chance of explanation anyways."
What? "Repeat that please? Whose side are you on?"
"It's not like I can pick sides Bella, you're my best friend and he's my brother, you're putting me in a difficult situation here Bella, please don't do this!" She pleaded on the phone.
My head complained again. "Okay, I'll probably get back to my sleep and try to forget about my pains and my bandaged ankle… Oh, how come I'm not in class?"
"You're just one lucky piece of shit, that's what you are." I laughed now, I completely loved when Alice used the harsh tone of voice, when I got my way around and she did not.
"What happened?"
"Well, you and your all mighty grades gave you the day off, even if we are like, a few weeks away from fall semester! Anyways, the guy who took care of you last night said that it would be better if you didn't set your foot on the floor for the rest of the day, we talked to your teachers while you were out."
"WHAT? How am I exactly supposed to move around?" What the fuck? I was a completely restless person, and I really didn't feel like hopping myself on one foot around the campus, at least I didn't exactly have to leave my room.
"You don't. Don't move around too much, he said that if you didn't, then on Sunday game you would be good to go."
"Fine, fine, I guess I can do that. I'm getting sleepy all over again. Love you."
"I love you too; just go back to bed-land Peter Panda."
"Watching 'The Pacifier' too much?" I yawned.
"What can I say? Vin Diesel is growing on me. Ciao." And then the other side of the line went dead.
I rolled my body so I would be in the previous position I was before I woke up, my belly to the mattress and my ass being outlined by the comforter. I was out very quickly.
***
I slept a dreamless sleep, nothing to worry about because the mental images of the next door hoes and Edward hadn't popped into my subconscious just yet. I stirred myself in the bed, spreading my legs and arms wider than I thought I could, my cell phone was vibrating with the indication of a new message, my eyebrows were frowned from the sun peeking through the curtains, I popped myself up on my elbow and reached the other hand to grab my phone on the night stand. Joshua's picture was bright and smiling to me.
How r u Bells?
Feel better already? Call me.
Ily sister.
~J.
I just loved him, but didn't exactly feel like talking to anyone just yet. I looked at the clock once more, realizing I had slept a little too much, which would probably affect me this night, it was nearly three in the afternoon and the classes were about to finish. I knew there was no way I would take a bath without Rosalie's or Alice's helping hands, because how the hell would I just wrap up my foot in a plastic bag without falling flat on my ass while doing so? I wasn't smelly, but I sure as hell would like a bath. I looked down at the sheets and comforter tossed to the end of the bed and noticed I was still wearing my cheerleader outfit from last night, I know I shouldn't do this, and everything, but I had to get up and at least put me my cozy mid thigh off-shoulder cream sweater, long sleeves to sustain the cold breeze the winter was bringing. The only thing I truly missed about New York was the winters and the snow, yeah, mainly the white snow, something we didn't see a lot in Los Angeles, it was always too hot and sunny all the time. I began to get sweaty just from the thought.
Being as careful as I could possibly be, I got up from my lying position on bed and stood at least a good minute analyzing my bandage. I brought my hand to the desk so it would sustain me. I noticed a few papers that weren't there before and rummaged through them, finding a little note on the end of one. Hey sweetheart, you were snoring so badly that we didn't wake you up. Passed by on the lunch break to leave you some assignments you were requested in class, that Angela girl gave it to us. Really sweet of her. Make sure you say thanks. There's some food in the mini-bar. We love you. ~Rose. I groaned, the more I wanted to just stay away from those assignments and tasks, they would always come back and bite you in the ass, not literally.
I hopped myself in one foot to the wardrobe, quickly peeling off any garment I had in my body, except my bra and panties, I examined them… Was I trying to get laid last night? My bra was midnight blue and my panties as well, they had laces and all the shit, one of the many Alice had bought me, maybe she chose them for me? I don't know, last night was still very fuzzy, eventually it would make sense as the time passed by, or when I finally got to talk to Alice. I bent to look at the drawers and finally fetched myself my oversized off the shoulder sweater and passed my hands and arms through the sleeves letting it fall until my thigh, leaving my right shoulder exposed, I decided it was time for damage control. I surely wouldn't take a bath, neither was I presenting the need to spray any more deodorant in my body, but I surely would brush my teeth and take care of my hair. Hopping to the bathroom shouldn't take long; neither would be too hard… Right?
I decided I would let go of my fears and just do it, I grabbed my toothbrush and paste, tagging along my hair brush as well, and hopped out the door. Thankfully classes were still a good half an hour away from finishing and I had time to do my thing without having to explain myself to Alice or Rosalie, but my grumbling stomach made me hurry my pace… or my hopping, whatever.
Arriving at the bathroom feeling exhausted, I leaned myself on the sink for some support, being quite aware that I was completely and totally alone, I closed my eyes and took in sharp long breaths to calm down my accelerated heart beat and my blood who seemed like was trying to create extra veins on my body.
Opening my eyes, I took a look at the mess… I mean me. My hair was all over the place, my eyes were tired and I sure did look like hell, but nothing that couldn't be taken care of. I tied my hair up with an elastic band I had on my wrist, not leaving one single piece of hair trailing out. Water was running from the sink once I turned it on, and the cold water suited me quite well right now. I washed my face at least hundreds of time, and brushed my teeth until my mouth was intoxicated with the taste of mint. Once I was finished and looking more and more like a human, I pulled my hair down, and started to brush it, fortunately, last night Alice didn't put hair spray, or my hair would be worse. My hair didn't take me long and I pulled it up again in a messy bun, leaving some locks falling out especially on my neck. Checking myself once again, I hopped out of the bathroom; I didn't have a lot of time before the hallway filled itself with yelping teenagers that wouldn't guarantee my safety in returning to the bed.
Locking the door after a lot of hopping, I made my way to the bed, trying to calm my system down again. I was pretty damn sure my cheeks were flushed. My stomach grumbled again, but I didn't have enough energy to grab something from the mini-bar. The screams, talking and walking that started to fill the hallway up were pretty damn audible from my room, making my temples throb a little bit, I got up and hopped myself to the window, sitting by it, pulling my knees to my chest, quickly quitting doing so when my feet contacted the floor. I turned my head to peek through the curtains, not having any courage to open them and taking away the comfort of the room, the housings courtyards were filled up with students and parents, after all this quarter the new students arrived and after a few months, parents were still worried. I laughed at the memory of Renee nearly fighting with the Dean, asking him to extend my meal plan.
The hallway became more audible, but the voices were being distinguished now. I could hear Alice, and Emmett's loud roar – which meant he was laughing – but I didn't know at who's cost and why. Alice sounded fairly angry and annoyed; her words weren't notable until she got near the dorm room, or in front of the door, their shadows peering through the door.
"I can't take this anymore. We are seriously over with this cat and mouse thing you and Bella are playing. You want me to ask her if she's fine, ask her yourself!" She whispered, but by the tone of her voice I could see she was meaning every word she was saying.
"Alice, don't do this. You know her; she probably doesn't even want to talk to me." Whoa! Wait. I stopped dead on my tracks; I knew that voice quite well. What the hell was Alice up to?
"Yeah, oh well, I don't care. Actually none of us do. You've got stop behaving like this; you will talk to each other, and decide once and for all. We can't take any more of your complaints and drooling over each other. Just talk…" She just opened the door and practically kicked him inside. "And get this over with!" She took the key out of the hole and locked the door from outside. Shit. "When you're done with talking, we'll unlock you. Just don't call us until you've made a decision. I won't be happy."
"ALICE!" I made the fine error to stand up, making my feet hit the floor, full force. I cried in pain. He was there before I could shoo him off. He locked my hand in his and attempted to lift me up.
"Don't be a baby Bella, let me just put you in bed so we can get this over with." His voice was a bit harsh, was I the cause of that?
I let him take me to my bed and sit me there; I passed my hand around my neck and through my hair. "What's this all about?" I thought that if one of us spoke up first we could get that over with like he wanted to.
"I don't know, Alice just told me to drive here because something was wrong, and before I knew, I was being ushered into the room with Alice yelling nonsense at me." He didn't looked me in the eye, he just paced around the room, with one hand tucked inside the pocked and the other touching here and there around the room, but always with his back turned to me, he had taken his leather jacket off and hung it on the door.
"Oh." That was all I could say. I got up from the bed and hopped to the other side of the room, across from where he was, I couldn't stand looking at him and him being in this mood like… Ugh! What the fuck was with the butterflies in my stomach? "So, um… I heard a bit of the conversation and I'm fine. Thank you... For yesterday, and taking in my bullshit. I don't know what I said, but I'm pretty sure you didn't deserve it."
He stood silent, minutes passed by and I was starting to get restless, he wasn't saying anything, and it was making me irritated.
"Say something Edward!" I demanded, no different tone in my voice, it sounded more like pleading. He turned on his heels to face me.
"I said everything I had to say Bella, and you ran away!" His hands were in the air and he let out a sigh of frustration, passing his hand through his hair. "I told you how I felt, I pulled out my cards in the table, and you took off."
"I-I don't know what to say…" And I really didn't, I was confused to be exact. "I don't know how to explain this to you Edward. I'm confused right now, what I'm feeling for you, it nothing that I've ever felt before, it's new and it's scary, and some things happened these past years that makes me being around you more difficult. Being around you like this…" My voice trailed off, and was stepping closer and closer to me.
"I can't promise you I won't do any bullshit Bella, because I am only human… but I can promise you I'll try. I want to be with you, and it's new for me as well, I'm scared because I never wanted to be with anyone like I want to be with you." His voice was sincere, and my lip was pulled in between my teeth.
"You have to understand Edward, I'm a basket case, you don't want to be with me, I'll be no good for you that is my nature, run away when things get rough, I'm a wimp, and you deserve so much better than me." It hurt me to try to get rid of him like that, but he would quickly want to get rid of me as soon as we started dating.
"No you don't understand Bella." He was right in front of me, his green eyes burning on my brown eyes, his fingers trailing themselves up the sleeves of my sweater and finding the bare, exposed skin, leaving burning trails there, making a direct connection with my panties. "I want to be with you, like this, holding you, kissing you, whenever I want, wherever I want and not having to explain my lustful actions around you." His mouth did the sexiest cooked smile. My smile. "I won't push you, we'll take baby steps, one thing at a time, but I won't let you push me away, I can't live with that..."
"Don't." I anticipated his next actions.
"Don't what?" His hand froze on the crook of my neck.
"Don't do this, don't…" My voice trailed off again, I was running out of arguments, and I didn't want to have any, it was no news to everybody that I wanted to be with him, I wanted this a lot, but at what cost? "I want to be with you, I do…"
"Then what's keeping you?" His brows frowned and he distanced himself a little.
"I'm confused, I said it to you. I'm a wreck Edward, I'm not good for anybody, I want to tell you why, but I can't. I want to believe in everything you say, because the way I feel about you it's just… overwhelming, and there's no where I rather be than here, in your arms, all day long if it's possible, but I don't want you to waste your time with me, the fucked up girl." I laughed at my words, and looked down when his hand cupped my cheek, melting myself in his touch.
"Hey…" He tucked his finger under my chin, and made me look at him." Don't make me repeat myself Bella…I'm not going to let you push me away. I want to make you trust me, I'm the guy for you, I know it and you know it, because when I'm around you, I'm a complete different person, I can be myself with you, and I'm tired of being someone else."
"Then don't let yourself be you just around me Edward. You don't have to be anyone else, I like you just the way you are." I caressed his cheek, and he closed his eyes, I sighed loudly.
"Just give me a chance Bella, please? Let me be with you, just… trust in me." He rested his forehead in mine and we kept looking at each other's eyes, trying to find some reason in his words, some validation in mine. Nothing needed to be said, or done, I closed my eyes trying to figure something out, what to say next, what to do…. Feeling his intense gaze upon me, my heart fluttered, the butterflies were killing each other on my stomach, goose bumps were all over my skin from his touches, my whole body felt like it was being drawn to his, and I loved the way that felt, I loved the way he didn't pushed me into saying anything, and how he just stood there, drawing traces in my arms with his fingertips, one of his strong hands intertwines with my own, another new round of shivers went down my spine.
How could I say no to him? I couldn't just deny love, it was slapping me across the face and I was noticing it, I was experiencing it, even if it was unsaid. It's different when you watch in the movies, read in the books, it's real, and it was in front of me, begging to stay and to let me take it in. I wouldn't deny it, not a second time. I won't make the same mistakes again; I would deal with the complications later. No more procrastinating.
I opened my eyes and there he was, just like an angel, a dream come true. What had I done to deserve such devotion? It was written in his eyes, along with a mix of emotions. If I had to pick my favorite body part of him, it would be his eyes, the way he was looking at me… made my heart want to jump out of my ribcage and my stomach be refilled with newborn butterflies that all they wanted to do was fly. His eyes were questioning me, and I knew just the answer to that.
My free hand wrapped itself around the back of his neck, and pulled him down as my face went up so our lips could touch.
This kiss was so different from the first one we shared. There was no hesitation from my part, only trust and reliance; I put all my feelings in this one kiss, hoping it would be the second of many. He was startled for a minute when our lips touched, but then, he went along with me, we moved in perfect synchrony, his hand left mine his arms were wrapped around my waist, lifting me up so my feet were no long touching the floor. I smiled, but my mouth never left his. In the beginning there was no urgency, we were just enjoying the moment, embracing all the new discovered feelings.
His tongue licked my lower lips, as if asking for entrance, I was more than happy to oblige and I was invaded by his intoxicating scent, tingling on my tongue with each touch, and his tongue caressed mine at first, but then, the kiss became more urgent, more lustful than before, it was like I had no control whatsoever over my body. My nipples were hard from arousal, my panties were damp and I was completely ready for him, my legs wrapped up around his waist, and his mouth left mine and he placed open mouthed kissed along my jaw and my neckline, I moaned in response and he growled.
I could feel his hard groin grinding against my wet center, leaving me completely helpless and breathless. Every sensitive part of my body was throbbing with need and desire. Our mouths met again, and he took me to the bed, laying our bodies in it, his mouth never left my skin as I tried unsuccessfully to put some or any sense in my head, but he did it before me. He stopped kissing me and I felt my brows frowning, he detached from my legs and sustained his body weight on his hands each one on the sides of my head so he could look at me. "Baby steps." He said breathlessly.
My bottom lip was sucked between my teeth as I regained my posture and tried to breathe again. I was completely dazzled. He gave me a peck on the lips before rolling himself off me, and hitting his back on the mattress. We stayed like that for a couple of minutes, trying to catch our breaths.
After a while I looked over him, rolling my body to its side, propping my head with my hand, his eyes were closed and he took long, deep breaths. "I'm sorry." I whispered.
His crooked smile showed. "It's okay, I knew damn well how my body reacted to yours, and I shouldn't have behaved like this." Edward looked at me.
"It's not like you're the only one to blame, you know." I flashed him a side smile.
"Yes, I'm very aware of that, and you need to behave yourself if we're taking this slow." He laughed and I joined him.
But where did this whole new situation left us? I had completely no idea, we didn't mention being boyfriend and girlfriend, and I surely couldn't make this decision by myself, but I didn't want to break the light mood that circled the room; and I sure as hell wouldn't be the first to ask this, I was still getting used to the new.
"You won't leave this time, will you?" He asked me softly, sitting on the bed and putting his head in his hands while his elbows rested on his knees, I could see his tensed up shoulders from where I was laying.
I sighed and moved my body to kneel behind his, completely ignoring the pain, my hands rubbed his back and then his shoulders, I leaned so I could kiss his neck, and inhale as much of his scent as I could. "I won't leave, I'm right here, and I'm not going anywhere unless you want me to." I tucked my chin on his shoulder, near the crook of his neck, staying like that.
I shifted in my position, making the biggest error of sitting on my knees; my ankle was pinned up between my ass and the mattress, becoming slightly uncomfortable with the throbbing pain. I winced.
"What? What's wrong?" He was fully turned to me now, worry all over his face. I looked at my ankle and he simply gestured me to sit down, I did as he silently asked me to. "Where it hurts?" Edward asked, sitting at the edge of the bed, taking my ankle between his hands, examining it.
"It's nothing Edward." I tried to take my ankle away from his hands and he just didn't let me do so, instead, he glared at me from underneath his long lashes, however, he kept silent, his hands caressed my ankle and then my calve, in touches that should be considered a crime, I was completely under his spell once again. A fucking sweet torture, I was about to send 'baby steps' to hell.
I sighed deeply. "Stop doing that." He looked at me and didn't say anything, again. I was starting to get slightly irritated. "I'm not leaving Edward, I don't know how many times I have to say it, or what I can do to make you trust me, but I'm not leaving."
Silence. Fucking God damn it! He was starting to back away. The feeling went from irritation to agony.
"Shit Edward! Say something!" I demanded, my voice raising a notch.
"I guess I trust you, if you trust me." Edward's voice had a hidden doubt behind it, something he couldn't hide from me.
"What is it, huh?" I took my feet off from his lap and got closer to him until I was sitting right in front of him, cupping his cheek with my hand. "Tell me, please? I can't figure out by myself, I can't fucking read your mind."
Edward looked anywhere in the room but to me, his eyes roamed around, never stooping on my face; I would have to seek the cavewoman in me. "Look at me!" I commanded, holding his face so he couldn't look away from my eyes, his face was unreadable and there were no emotions on his face. That pushed me out of the edge.
"You're not telling me, right? Well, I'm tired of it, everything was fucking perfect…" The last part I murmured to myself, while getting up from the bed. "What happened huh? Was I not clear enough?" I turned to face him, and he looked at me, astounded, right before a crooked grin appear on his face. Oh, not he didn't. "What the fuck are you smiling for?"
Edward got up and wrapped his arms around my waist, lifting me up and burying his face on the crook of my neck, inhaling me in, just like I had done to him earlier. His breath prickling on my shoulder, I couldn't help but wrap my arms around his neck and pass my hands trough his head, massaging his scalp. He moaned in response.
"I'm sorry." He mumbled, voice muffled by my loose hair locks and skin. "I don't know why I freaked out…. You must be thinking I am a huge pussy."
My body trembled with my chuckle. He was adorable. "You're not; I don't think I would put any substantiation in your words if you had left me creating ruts on a fraternity house the first time we kissed."
He kissed my neck, and trailed my skin with the tip of his nose, kissing here and there. I purred. Everything was just so fucking erotic I wanted to fuck him right then and there, not that many things would be a stopping factor.
Baby steps Bella, remember…. Baby steps, he doesn't want to scare you away.
My feet touched the ground once more, but I never left his arms.
"You're not leaving and I believe you, I wouldn't want any other way…" Edward stopped breathing in me, and looked in my eyes, touching my face like it was a mechanical thing to do, so that every inch of our body was touching, but my body was aching for so much more. Patience my sweet, be patient.
Patience…. Yes. Patience was the key to success, we were not fucking but that didn't forbid us from having intense making out sections like hormonal teenagers right?
His eyes were dark with lust, I imagined if he was thinking that way about my eyes as I well.
"What's with the sudden silence?" My voice cut the tensionless air. His face was so close, if I could just stay on my tiptoes…. I was completely at his mercy.
"It's nothing, really nothing. I'm just sinking in the happiness, and all the stuff, and internally thanking Alice."
I smiled at his words; I was doing a lot of smiles in the past hour and a half.
Wait, what? I'm locked up in the room for an hour and a half with him, already?
I know that Alice asked for us to call her once we were done, but now that I was in his arms, I was never letting go, I buried my face in his chest.
"What is it?" His finger tips caressed my back.
"I was just wondering…. Whether or not we should call Alice." I bit my bottom lip and looked at him, my brows raised with anticipation and doubt.
"Probably not, she would enter the door the minute we called her, and I want you at least some more time for myself." Edward leaned and pecked my lips, my arms held him there.
"Greedy aren't we?" I said against his lips, and he smiled against mine.
"You have no idea." I didn't know how to react at his innuendo; he knew very well that I understood the meaning behind his words. He was hungry for me, just as I was for him.
So I did the first thing that came into my mind. I took his bottom lip between mine and sucked on it, a growl came from his chest in response to my gesture and I wanted to see how much I could make to elicit moans from him. I added my tongue to the kiss, massaging his slowly and torturing, his taste was delectable and I don't think I would ever get enough of it, he moaned inside my mouth while my hands worked furiously on his scalp.
Score to Bella.
Our mouths moved together like they were meant to fit together, this kiss was nothing but erotic, not filled with the trapped lust inside of us, but with a great amount of passion, he bit my bottom lip lightly, causing electric waves to descend my body and hit my knickers, the tables were turned, when I finally thought I was the dominant one, he came and swept me off my feet, just like he was doing now, exploring my mouth with his tongue and wetting my lips with his tasty saliva. We pulled apart for air, my head was light, but the good thing was that we got to keep ourselves under control…. Barely.
Our foreheads rested against one another's, and I was panting, for a good cause, but still, would it be like that every time he kissed me? I truly hope so.
"You know, this baby steps thing is going to hell soon enough if you continue to behave like this." He smiled and kissed me once more.
"I'm not the one behaving badly, you are…. My self control is nearly going to hell with your kissing expertise." I didn't mind to burst his ego, not now.
I was having a difficult time in breathing around him and asked myself what tomorrow would be like, when I got completely sensible to his touching and presence. I didn't want him to leave, but I knew that it would happen any time soon, give it or take a few hours. The goodbye hovered on the air, at least for me, but he somewhat felt it too.
"So, do you want to see what's on TV?"
[EPOV]
To say that I was at complete and total bliss right now was undermining the situation, Alice was the best little sister in the whole world, and because of her, I had the woman of my dreams in my arms, resting her head on my chest, playing with the buttons of my shirt, with the hidden want to rip it off.
The day started confusing, but it turned out to be the best day of my life, I understood how she felt about me, and about our current situation, I wasn't going to push her, and throw the boyfriend, girlfriend thing on her shoulders, we would both take this decision when the time came, right now, I was just enjoying her presence. Laughing at her clumsiness when she would hit her injured foot on mine or too hard in the bed. It didn't take long for her stomach to become audible, it grumbled and she apologized; blush flushing into her cheek, making the sweet contrast of red in alabaster. She said she hadn't eaten since she woke up so I let her do so, she practically devoured the chocolate cake Rosalie and Alice had left for her, and I licked the chocolate from her lips afterwards.
I don't know why we were behaving like this, but the sexual tension could be cut with a knife, my cock twitched whenever her hips were moving or when she innocently grinded on me. The freaking woman was torturing me, and I was being careful, building up my self control so I wouldn't take her right then and there, her injured ankle presented no obstacle for the arousal I knew both of us were feeling.
She was the most beautiful woman I've ever seen, I didn't know how she could think less of herself. I was breathing her in; her hair had the most mouth-watering smell of strawberries, making me imagine how good it would be to eat strawberries, or any kind of fruit from her skin. I had to stop these images from flooding into my mind, they were making my pants incredibly tight, I didn't expect her next move, but her leg moved up to rest against my hipbone, almost on my belly, and I was very aware she only had that sweater dress on. Fuck. Bella snuggled more in my chest, and I knew I was fucked and damned. Could she just stop tormenting me now?
But you know what? This was a game for two to play.
I moved my hands from her hips, and moved her up so her body was on the same level as mine, I turned my body to hers and my right free hand trailed her arm, her torso, caressing the side of her breast through her bra's and sweater's fabric, making her let got an inaudible gasp, her eyes were even darker from lust, so I took that as a permission. My hands continued passing on her hips, her ass, her thigh and then pulling it to wrap around my waist, eliciting a moan from her lips. My cock twitched again.
Fuck baby steps, fuck baby steps!
My inner voice chanted in my head, over and over again. It was like I had my personal devil and angel and the angel was losing his battle terribly fast. I fondled her thigh, reminding myself that I wasn't far away from her most likely wet sex.
"God…" She whispered, and blushed fiercely when she noticed I heard, she was completely helpless, her breathing was slowly becoming erratic and tingling my tongue when it left her parted mouth. This woman would be the death of me.
I couldn't take no more. My mouth covered hers again, not waiting any time before slipping my tongue inside of her mouth, she moaned. The next thing I knew I was on top of her, her fingers working on my shirt buttons trying to get rid of them, passing her hands across my bare torso, before sliding my shirt off my shoulders and arms, our lips touched again, I had lifted our bodies so we were both on our knees, my hands went to the hem of her dress, sliding the offending garment off, I stopped kissing her and took in the view, she was wearing the most beautiful set of underwear I had ever seen, she looked amazing in it, it was midnight blue which a bunch of shit in her bra, and lacy boy shorts.
"So fucking beautiful." I whispered breathlessly. She smiled at me, and pulled me in for another kiss, I laid her back on the mattress before putting me on top of her once more.
I guess it's fair to say that we were both sending baby steps to hell, and we were not thinking very much straight, intoxicated by the other's presence and touches, I knew I should have stopped, but like I said, the angel was failing miserably in restraining the devil. The devil laughed with his triumph.
My left hand was making its way down her body, prepared to feel her and to give her some kind of pleasure besides the one I was already giving. I placed open mouthed kisses on Bella's collarbone and my left hand fingers played with the hem of her panties. I don't know if each moan she gave was a restraining one, or an allowing one, and honestly, I didn't give a fuck. I was completely inebriated; savoring the moment like a lion savoring it's pray. Her hands paid special attention to my scalp, the freaking massage she was giving me made my cock convulse harder, and my balls tighten. This was fucking paradise, and then…. Her phone rang. The moment was over. Fucking cock blocking technology.
Seek Amy by Britney Spears rang loudly on our ears, and I groaned, rolling myself off her, letting a loud frustrated sigh, rubbing my hands in my face.
The song stopped, but not long after, it began again.
"Could you hand me my phone please?" Bella asked, making me look at her, she was propped up on her elbows, which made her abs contract from her position. She blushed a little, but she didn't make any mention in dressing her dress again, so she stood there, in all of her glory, and I was blatantly ogling her. "Edward? Phone, please?" She asked again, startling me out of my fantasies.
I reached her vibrating and singing phone with my right hand and gave it to her. She picked it up with a small thanks and took it from my hand, the shock didn't passed by unnoticed, it happened whenever we touched, and it didn't seem to tone down with each contact, it only seemed to increase.
Alice's voice was loud on the other end of the phone, but I couldn't exactly listen to her. Whatever she said made Bella sit down, Indian style and pass her hand through her messy hair, sliding the elastic band off so her hair fell freely on her back, making me ogle her again.
"No Alice, we're good, yeah, you can say that we came around our problems and differences." She looked at me with a smile on her swollen lips; I raised my brows at her.
Rolling to my side, I sort of crawled until I was sitting behind her, putting my legs on each side of her. I recognize that I was being quite unfair, but she was releasing this lustful monster in me, whatever I did to her was completely her fault.
I pushed her hair off her shoulders and kissed her bare skin, gliding her bra's spaghetti strap off her shoulders, letting it hang on her arm. Her breath was caught in her throat. I smiled devilishly.
"No Ali, I'm fine, I just sat on my ankle." I laughed a bit, smelling her scent from her bare skin, wishing so much that Alice would stop being a fucking cock blocker and let me and Bella finish our fun.
I kept teasing her during her talk with Alice, her right free hand ended on my thigh, digging her nails through my jeans; it would hurt if I were without those. Here and there I extracted a moan from her throat.
"Okay, I'll see you in half an hour." I frowned and looked at her, resting my cheek on her shoulder, she battered her lashes seductively at me.
"What?" She asked like she hadn't done anything wrong.
I put my head up so I could look at her better, she had the sweetest pout in her lips, I gave her a chaste kiss not being able to resist any longer.
"'I'll see you in half an hour'?" I mirrored her words, making her giggle.
"Well, I'm sorry about that, but we're not to be left alone, I have yet a bath to take and Alice will help me with that, and I'm sure you have homework to do and I have a lot of catching up to do, I can't fall behind if I intend to be in Harvard in two years. Besides, our self control is officially non-existent today." Bella laughed, giving me a peck on the lips. "I mean, look at us! I'm on my underwear and you're shirtless."
"And may I say that this underwear looks fucking amazing on you." I whispered in her ear. "But I think you might look more amazing without it." She blushed.
"Oh it does? Well, I'll have to unfortunately cover it up before Alice barges in through the door. Maybe we shouldn't say anything to them right now…. Maybe we won't be able to hide it from Alice, but could we just keep this between us? At least right now?" She asked me, I didn't feel rejected from her request, I could completely understand her, besides, I didn't mind enjoy her only for myself for a while before sharing the news with the world, so I simply nodded and kissed her again.
"You know however, that by Friday at least our friends will know about it. Jasper is very perceptive, and Alice will probably know by the time she comes through the door, Rosalie will know right after that due to the simple fact that Alice will tell her, you know how my sister cannot hold her tongue." I sighed before continuing. "And then Emmett will find out – Rosalie will obviously tell him – and he will tell Joshua, since Emmett is a gossiping old lady, Joshua will kill me and then whine to you about how he was the last one to learn the news."
I smiled again and kissed her startled self on the cheek, beginning to get up from the bed, once I was completely up, I looked at her, she was still dumbfounded, yet completely hot, she passed her hand through her hair and looked at me.
"Wha-What?" She whispered.
I picked her dress up from the floor and threw it to her, she picked it up and quickly dressed it, and I took a final peek at her underwear and picked up my own shirt, starting to dress it up. She got up from the bed hopping in one foot and I grabbed her elbows so she wouldn't have to do much effort.
"Thank you." She smiled. "And you're right, it'll probably be inevitable to hide you in my closet and as much as I want dearly to spend more time with you, I have to get you out of the room."
I pouted, making her chuckle.
"Don't pout at me." She caressed my lower lip with her thumb. "This is really a weapon you've got there you know? You shouldn't go off pouting at the poor girls; you get them to do anything you want." Bella joked pulling me in for a chaste kiss.
"Anything, eh?" I enclosed my arms around her waist dragging her closer to me.
She smiled and nodded.
"Then I guess I'll have to put my weapon in training, practice is required." I leaned in so I could whisper in her ear. "By the way, there are no girls for me, I intend in releasing my powers, full force on you. Congratulations, you've just became the main target." I nibbled her earlobe, making her tremble, pulled my head away and looked at her. "Are you cold?" I knew quite well she wasn't cold. Bella slapped me playfully on the chest.
"You're completely horrible you know that." She flattered her long lashes, making my heart pound with just that simple movement.
It was unnerving the effect she had on me, I don't know how I would behave myself around her tomorrow, or how would I be able to stay away from her, I could honestly say that tomorrow's classes were damned, she would be everything on my mind, I didn't know if I would see her tomorrow, my day was filled up as much as hers and my Pre-med building was on the southern part of the campus while she was on the northeastern part of the campus, no need to say we were pretty much far away from each other, then tomorrow we would have the auction, I would have to stand in my seat while other creep took her out on a date before I could do so.... Gladly enough we had the week after the game free of practicing for all intents and purposes, and I would be all afternoons and evenings with her as I could.
"Me? Terrible? You're a dangerous little creature and you don't even realize it." I tucked a hair lock behind her ear; she looked down and took in a deep frustrated breath. "Is something wrong?"
Bella looked at me, her eyes were sad. "I…. I'm going to miss you tomorrow." She admitted sucking her lip between her teeth, chewing on it.
It was pretty breathtaking seeing her vulnerable like this, I didn't stop to think what this day meant to her, she let all her guards down to take me in, and I was relieved that she let me, that she was letting me take care of her, I loved her, that was already established in my mind and in my heart, but maybe today wasn't the time or place to say it, it would take time and I wanted to give her the time to feel the same way about me too, because I knew that when the words were finally said, we wouldn't be able to keep our hands off each other, the simple thought made me want to say it, right then and there, but I made calm my hormones, otherwise I would look like a freaking teenager, and that was not wanted, at least not for me.
I captured her lips in a passionate kiss, showing her all my devotion and putting in all my love as well even though I most likely knew it would pass unnoticed by her. As soon as we parted to catch our breaths, she rested her forehead in my chest and I rested my chin on the top of her head, sinking myself in her scent.
"I know the feeling." I whispered.
"I don't want you to go." Bella's voice was muffled by my shirt; I passed my hand through her head, curling the ends of her hair with my fingers.
"And I don't want to go baby, but I have to, otherwise, Alice will kick me out of the room, and I really don't wish to have my butt kicked by her."
She chuckled making her body tremble. "Yeah, that's probably true."
"Oh, shit, I almost forgot." I pulled myself away from her holding her steady before walking to the door grabbing my jacket and taking out her meds and her glasses. "Here's some Tylenol and aspirin, Alice was seriously considering in buying you valium, but I didn't let her." Her eyes widened. "Yes, I know." I agreed giving her; she just put them on her night stand. "And here are your glasses. I'm sorry it took me so long to give them back to you."
She grabbed them. "I'm sorry I was rude to you that day. I wasn't thinking very straight." Bella intertwined her fingers with mine and looked at them.
"It's okay, we're putting all the running away behind us right? It's going to be you and me now."
She looked up to me; her eyes were a mixture of happiness and sadness. It looked like she was dueling on what to say, and how to say it. "Yes," she finally started. "It's going to be only you and me now."
Her words gave me the reassurance that I needed. Tomorrow would be no different than today was, of course without the drama, without everything and probably without Bella. I glanced at the clock realizing that it was a little after eight o'clock.
"You should eat something, order something, I don't know. You haven't eat much today, don't go starving yourself alright?" I said to her, beginning to turn away and head for the door.
"Ay, ay Captain!" She saluted me. "Uh… Edward?" She called me when I was dressing my jacket preparing myself to leave. "Haven't you forgotten anything?"
I frowned looking around the room looking for something I could have possibly left behind. I really didn't get what Bella was saying until she licked her lips. Before you could say 'Willy Wonka' my mouth was hovering hers, I gave her a long and passionate kiss, making sure we both forgot our names by the time we were done kissing.
We pulled apart, out of breath, dizzy and partially satisfied. I gave her one more chaste kiss, and hugged her, burying my head on the crook of her neck and inhaling her scent as much as I could, so I wouldn't be sensitive to her the next day, I wanted her smell fresh on my mind.
"Here's the keys." She opened one of the night stand drawers and gave them to me, so I could unlock the door.
"You knew were they were all the time and didn't release yourself?" I was astounded, to say the least.
"I'm done runing away." She whispered.
Giving her one more kiss on the lips I whispered bye to her and she did the same.
"Have sweet dreams." She wished when I was opening the door after unlocking it.
"They'll all be about you." I smiled and got out of her dorm, feeling fucking ecstatic.
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