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Chapter eleven
Joey was shocked when she found Charlie standing in front of her trailer. Part of her wanted to stride towards her and take her in her arms and hold her, but another part wanted to run away. She was frozen to the spot; she could only focus on Charlie.
Every time she saw her she got lost in those beautiful blue eyes. When she had realised that Charlie was talking to her whilst approaching her she had felt the panic within her rise and without thinking she turned away and ran, she could hear Charlie call out her name, but she kept running, she turned back to find Charlie running after her, without thinking about the consequences she picked up her pace and sped away, determined to escape the beautiful brunette chasing her.
Once again, Joey found herself sat on the beach looking out to sea, she felt so confused about everything. Her feelings for Charlie were so strong and she had never felt this way before, all she wanted was to kiss her, touch her, feel her and be with her all the time, Charlie was all she could think about, but she was afraid she would hurt her like her mother had hurt her father.
She rested her head on her knees and started to cry. Suddenly she felt someone sitting down next to her and putting their arm around her. She glanced up.
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Charlie was determined to find Joey, she ran towards the beach the same way she had suspected Joey would run. She couldn't see her at a glance, so she decided to walk along the beach and take a closer look for her. She was about ready to give up as she neared the end of the beach when she spotted Joey sitting at the very end of the beach with her head in her knees.
As she drew closer she could see that Joey was crying. She felt her heart break; she didn't want to be the one that made Joey cry. When she finally reached her, she silently sat down beside her and wrapped her arm around her, determined to comfort her in at least some small way. Joey looked up at her and their eyes met and she instantly got lost in those beautiful brown eyes.
"Joey I'm so sorry... I didn't want to make you cry... I just thought... well I'm just madly... well I..." Charlie sighed, looking down at the sand as she tried to work out what it was she wanted to say, why couldn't she get any words out when she was talking to Joey, her mind just seemed to turn to mush and she wasn't able to think straight.
She looked up again and saw that Joey was still looking at her. "Joey I didn't want to hurt you... I just like you so much... after last night you are all that I can think about...I think I am falling for you... I just need to know if you are feeling the same... or if I've misread any signals here?"
Joey sighed and looked back out at the sea. Inside, her feelings were at war with each other. Part of her wanted to jump up and scream joyfully that she felt the same about Charlie, but the other part of her that kept causing her to run was urging her to run again.
"I like you too Charlie... a lot... you haven't misread any signals... your all I think about too... I've never felt this way about anyone before." she was surprised to hear herself telling Charlie how she felt. She felt Charlie take her hand and entwine their fingers. It felt so nice; she felt the butterflies which were always present when she was near Charlie flutter harder in her stomach than they ever had before.
Charlie felt her heart pounding in her chest as Joey's words hit her ears, she felt so happy. She took Joey's hand in hers and entwined their fingers, enjoying the tingling feeling she experienced every time she touched Joey. They sat there for a while just enjoying the feeling of holding each other's hands, Charlie finally raising her confidence and courage to ask the question she was desperate to ask.
"So… Joey what are we gonna do about this?" She looked back at Joey awaiting an answer but when she noticed tears falling down Joey's cheeks and felt a panic rise inside again.
Joey was enjoying the feeling of having Charlie so close to her, however, when she heard Charlie's question all her insecurities and fear came back. She felt the tears running down her cheeks when she realised that she could never be with Charlie and that the only thing she could do was not only break Charlie's heart, but also break her own.
"I... I... don't think this is a good idea Charlie... we shouldn't be doing this... I can't... I'm so sorry." with tears still streaming down her face she quickly got up to walk away, but she felt Charlie's hand on her arm, pulling her around so she was facing Charlie. She saw the tears running freely down Charlie's face causing a mixture of feelings to erupt within her.
"Joey please don't run away from me anymore... why are you always running away from me? You have just told me that you have feelings for me, and you know I have feelings for you...so… why can't we just be together?"
"Charlie I just can't... please let me go... I'm so sorry" Joey begged, she didn't even know if that's what she wanted Charlie to do but she knew it was what she needed her to do. Charlie still had a firm grip on her arm, as she gazed at her with two sad confused eyes.
"But why Joey... tell me what are you so afraid off?... I'm crazy about you... I won't hurt you… I promise I won't hurt you" Joey was surprised by Charlie's words, she hadn't realised that Charlie would think she was the one who would do the hurting. As she looked deep into the two blue pools she could see the heartbreak laid within them, the same heartbreak that she herself felt.
"Charlie I'm not afraid of you hurting me.... I'm afraid..." she paused and looked out to sea; she really wished she could just tell Charlie the truth
"You're afraid of what" she heard Charlie ask. She looked back at her, they were both crying softly.
"I'm afraid of me hurting you... and I couldn't live with that if anything happened to you" Charlie smiling through her tears, moving closer to her so they now stood inches apart
"Joey I'm a big girl I can take care of myself." Joey looked in Charlie's blue eyes and before she had realised it she had moved her head toward Charlie and kissed her. She felt Charlie putting her arm around her waist and pulling her closer whilst kissing her back.
Joey felt like her heart was about to burst free from her chest. Her whole body trembled and longed to be closer to Charlie. She wrapped her arms around Charlie pulling her as close to her as possible, she could feel Charlie's body heat against her own skin through their clothing.
They pulled apart, resting their forehead together looking into each other's eyes and smiling, oblivious to the world and anything in it around them, each focussed on just one thing, the woman stood before them.
"Joey... I..." Charlie tried to say but was cut off by the feeling of Joey's lips on her own, she tasted so good. Joey slightly parted her lips and allowed her tongue lick the taller brunette's lips. Charlie quickly allowed Joey entrance to her mouth, their tongues connected and began to dance around each other. It was a kiss filled with passion and love. Neither of the women pulled away until the air requirements forced them to part slightly.
"Joey I really have to get back to work... but can I come by after work?... and we can talk .... and maybe kiss some more" Charlie asked smiling mischievously to Joey but feeling very nervous about what Joey would answer.
Joey nodded. "I would like that."
They smiled softly at each other and took each other's hands and walked slowly away from the beach, back toward the caravan park and to Charlie's car.