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Hi wanted to post the next chapter in the story. I used a lot of music in this chapter to try and tell the girls struggle. Really not sure it worked =/
I put links to the songs below so you can all listen to them.
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Chapter fourteen
Charlie sat in her car heartbroken looking out the front window at the ocean, the darkness and rain distorting her view of it, she couldn't even see it really but she could hear it, she could still hear the waves hitting the shore. The sound of the waves always seemed to calm her down. She felt so confused by Joey's confession. She knew she had to go back and talk to her about her brother and the killings, but right now she couldn't. She didn't know what to think about it all. She was attracted to Joey, but the whole vampire story scared her. If she hadn't seen the fangs she would have thought that Joey was mentally unstable.
She was thinking about getting Watson to bring Joey in to the station the next day and interrogate her, but she knew she couldn't do that to her.
She turned on the radio in her car, but there were no music playing, only news about the worst dust storm Australia had ever experienced that had hit the opposite side of the country. She flicked through the stations but found no music so she pressed play on the CD player and Leann Rimes started to sing. She had forgotten about the Leann Rimes, the greatest hits CD being in her car player, It was one she had bought a long time ago in a service station, when she and Ruby had been driving to the city to visit their dad.
She turned up the volume as she sat listening to the end of the song 'can't fight the moonlight'. The next song started and Charlie froze as she sat there letting the tears run unashamed down her face as she listened to the song playing.
"How do I,
Get through the night without you?
If I had to live without you,
What kind of life would that be?
Oh, I
I need you in my arms, need you to hold,
You're my world, my heart, my soul,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything good in my life,"
The chorus came and she couldn't hold it back any more, and she broke down crying hard into her hands.
"And tell me now
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?"
Thinking of the events of the day, it had been an emotional rollercoaster ride all day. Waking up with Joey in the morning, her dear friend Martha being found murdered, Kissing Joey followed by Joey running away from her, searching for Joey to talk things through and kissing her again, falling in love with Joey and now running from her heartbroken and confused.
"Without you,
There'd be no sun in my sky,
There would be no love in my life,
There'd be no world left for me.
And I,
Baby I don't know what I would do,
I'd be lost if I lost you,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything real in my life"
"And tell me now,
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
Please tell me baby,
How do I go on?"
All of a sudden Charlie was brought back to reality when she heard a loud scream, followed by someone frantically knocking on her passenger window "Please help me... please let me in... someone is following me... please"
Charlie quickly dried her eyes and opened the window to see who it was and saw the young Irish girl looking in the window with horror written all over her face "Aisling... what is it?... who is following you" She said while unlocking the door so Aisling could get in.
Aisling quickly jumped in the car closed the window and locked the door "please drive... before they find me" she couldn't help shaking
"Who'll find you Aisling... who is after you" Charlie asked concerned when she saw the young girl shaking from pure fear.
"two men... they were following me... one of them tried to grab me... but when he saw my golden cross necklace he pulled back... I was so scared I just ran as fast as I could... they ran after me... their laugh was so scary... please go before they find me" She couldn't stop shaking; she had never felt so scared in her whole life.
Charlie stroke the other girls arm trying to calm her down a little "please tell me what happened"
"Can you please drive me home... I'm so scared" Aisling asked and looked up into Charlie's eyes. She saw they were red and puffy and thought that she must be upset about the girl that was found murdered earlier that morning, as her exchange mom had been when she had heard about the murder.
"okay I'll drive you home... then we can talk about what happen there... where do you live" she asked still gently stroking the girls arm to calm her.
"I live at Irene Roberts' house... the address is 12 Pacific Road" Aisling said feeling a little better now knowing she would get home safely.
"I know where it is…. Let's get you home now okay" Charlie said giving Aisling a reassuring smile while turning the key in the ignition and starting the car.
She parked outside Irene's house, turned off the car and looked at Aisling "you're home now… let's get you inside… come on"
Aisling simply nodded and opened the car door. Charlie held her arm around Aisling to comfort her, while they walked up to the house. As they stood at the front door, Aisling was still shaking so much she had difficulties getting the key in the door to unlock it. Charlie was about to ask Aisling if she should help her when the door sprung open and Irene stood in front of them "there you are love… I've been worried about you… where have you been?"
The look of concern and worry became even bigger when she saw Charlie standing behind Aisling in her uniform "Charlie what are you doing here… has something happened?"
Aisling still stood there shocked about the incident, she wasn't able to speak, she just looked up at Charlie. Charlie got the hint and with a reassuring smile she turned her attention back to Irene "Everything is fine… a couple of guys were hassling Aisling… she got scared… she found me at the beach… and I just drove her home… can we come in… she is a little shook up about the whole thing.. I haven't been able to get her to tell me exactly what happened yet"
"Yes sure... Come in… oh love are you okay" Irene spoke and took her arms around Aisling guiding her in to the living room sitting her on the couch.
As they sat down Aisling broke down crying. Irene continued to hold and comfort her, stroking her back "ohh dear…. What happen to you… who scared you" Confused she looked up on Charlie again.
Charlie shook her head "Irene I don't know who it is, I didn't see them myself… I was hoping that Aisling could give me a description of them and tell me a little more about what happened"
Irene looked back at Aisling who now just sat staring out into the room, still trembling and clutching the pillow she had taken into her arms.
Irene turned back to look at Charlie who she thought looked like something the cat had dragged in. She looked really tired; she was pale and her eyes red and swollen. Working on Martha's case couldn't be easy for her, she thought to herself. "Charlie you look exhausted and Aisling is really shaken up, would it be okay if you talk to her tomorrow?... I could bring her down to the station tomorrow if you like?"
Charlie sighed; she knew Irene was right "Yes I guess that would be okay... I'll give you a call tomorrow to see how she is… Take care of her okay?… and if anything else happens then you know how to reach me... okay?"
"Sure thing love… now you go home and get some rest" Irene tried to stand up to let Charlie out, but Aisling just grabbed her hand and held onto it.
"I'll let myself out Irene… just take care of her" Charlie said before she turned around to walk out to her car.
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Joey sat heartbroken up against the door, on the floor, in her trailer still crying. She felt so lonely and broken. In the background she heard the Evanescence song missing playing, she sat listening to some of the words.
"I breathe deep and cry out;
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?"
She took her head in her hands crying into them. Sat there she couldn't help but wonder why life was treating her this way, if there was a reason why she wasn't allowed even the slightest amount of happiness, to be loved and love back or if she was just meant to wander through life alone and miserable. Perhaps her only purpose in life was to follow her brother, seen as they were connected in this weird kind of way. She couldn't figure out how to stop him, it would be easier if she could just kill him.
Sighing she whipped her tears away and lent her head back up against the door looking up at the ceiling. Sat like this a few minutes taking some deep breaths trying to calm herself, she listened to the next Evanescence song that started to play on her IPod.
"How can you see into my eyes like open doors?
Leading you down into my core
Where I've become so numb
Without a soul
My spirit's sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home
[wake me up] Wake me up inside
[I can't wake up] Wake me up inside
[Save me] Call my name and save me from the dark
[Wake me up] Bid my blood to run
[I can't wake up] Before I come undone
[Save me] Save me from the nothing I've become
Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me
To life
[wake me up] Wake me up inside
[I can't wake up] Wake me up inside
[Save me] Call my name and save me from the dark
[Wake me up] Bid my blood to run
[I can't wake up] Before I come undone
[Save me] Save me from the nothing I've become
Bring me to life
[I've been living a lie..There's nothing inside]
Bring me to life
Frozen inside without your touch
Without your love, darling
Only you are the life among the dead"
As Joey sat there, she realized that Charlie was the one for her. In the short time she had known Charlie she had never felt so alive, she had brought her to life. She had to do something to show how she felt for her. She stood up got her jacket and ran out the trailer, not caring that the door didn't close behind her leaving the rest of the song to play out the door as she ran off into the rain to find Charlie.
"[All of this I, I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark, but you were there in front of me]
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything
[Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul]
Don't let me die here(It most be something wrong)
Bring me to life
[wake me up] Wake me up inside
[I can't wake up] Wake me up inside
[Save me] Call my name and save me from the dark
[Wake me up] Bid my blood to run
[I can't wake up] Before I come undone
[Save me] Save me from the nothing I've become
Bring me to life
[I've been living a lie.. There's nothing inside]
Bring me to life"
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Charlie sat in her car outside Irene's house thinking about Aisling. She had been so shocked and scared. She couldn't stop thinking about the one sentence she had said to her in the car. The words Aisling had said about that one of the guys had pulled back when he had seen her golden cross necklace kept running around in her head over and over again. She had a feeling that the guys were somehow connected to the murders and Joey. It gave her goose bumps and she instantly felt cold. She turned the key in the ignition to warm up the car.
Instantly the Leann Rimes CD started to play again. She noticed the song playing, it was one of her favorite Leanne Rimes songs. It reminded her of one of her favorite movies; she smiled at the thought of the movie and thought to herself who didn't like a movie with hot girls dancing on a bar. She sat in the car listening to the song while getting warmer.
"Know all about
About your reputation
And how it's bound to be a heartbreak situation
But I can't help it if I'm helpless
every time that I'm where you are
You walk in and my strength walks out the door
Say my name and I can't fight it anymore
Oh I know, I should go
But I need your touch just too damn much
Loving you, isn't really something I should do
Shouldn't wanna spend my time with you, yeah
Well I should try to be strong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
Yeah baby you're the right kind of wrong
it Might be a mistake
A mistake I'm making
But what you're giving I am happy to be taking
Cause no one's ever made me feel
The way I feel when I'm in your arms
They say you're something I should do without
They don't know what goes on
When the lights go out
There's no way to explain
All the pleasure is worth all the pain
Loving you isn't really something I should do yeahey.
Shouldn't wanna spend my time with you
Well I should try to be strong
But baby you're the right kind of wrong
Yeah baby you're the right kind of wrong"
As the chorus played again her mind wandered back to Joey. She let out a little smile, put the car in gear and drove off, while humming to the song, she knew what she had to do now, and there were no doubt in her mind anymore.