A/N: So... final chapter? Who knows... this isn't the epilogue though... I promise you guys that. Because Ausa said I can't and that it'll break her. Love her for reviewing x like all my over reviewers:
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Ima sorry people... I can't bring Edward back...I'm not God... (no comment) XD but I have a way of Sam seeing him for one last time to say Goodbye... tissues at the ready.
Chapter 16: Breathe Slow
Bella P.O.V
It was nice seeing Charlie again. Seeing him happy. I'd explained everything I was allowed to say to him, including that Sam's or Luke's fault. Just before we left, Charlie stopped me.
"Don't you think you should let your Mom know you're... you know, alive?" He asked.
"I guess." I smiled. He handed me the house phone.
I dialed her number in, and waited.
"Hello?" It was Phil who answered.
"Hi Phil, it's Bella, is my Mom home?" I asked, I heard a gasp.
"Bella? Oh my God... I--" I heard Mom speaking distinctly. "Bella?!" She asked desperately.
"Yes Mom, it's me." I chuckled.
"You're alive? What? How?" She was speechless. "Why didn't you call?" She had an angry edge to her voice.
"It's complicated, and I really can't tell you." I said, she paused and she suddenly chuckled.
"Okay... it's really you... oh God. How are my grandkids?" She asked.
"You know about Sam and Luke?" I asked, looking at them intently.
"They were at your funeral, only babies mind. I bet they've grown."
"Yeah they have. Sam looks like me, alot." I chuckled.
"What about Luke?"
I paused. "He... looks like Edward."
"Oh... how is he? Does he know?"
"He's... he dead, Mom." I sighed.
"Oh I'm sorry..." She began talking to Phil for a few seconds, "I've got to go Bella, but promise you'll visit?"
I chuckled lightly. "Of course I will. Love you Mom."
"I love you too." She said, before hanging up.
I handed the phone back to Charlie. I said goodbye to Charlie, and went back to Sam's car.
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Samantha P.O.V
We got back into my car, and agreed we'd go to the Cullens house. Mom hadn't seen them since my Dad died, so I thought it would be nice for her, maybe Luke and I too.
I drove up the big driveway, and parked up next to the volvo; Dad's volvo. Mom sighed.
"Come on, lets just get inside." I whispered, she nodded.
We ventured to the house, and we were greeted by Carlisle, who looked... a mess, if thats the right word for a vampire.
"Hi Carlisle." Mom said. I can't believe it... my son. He thought. He was pretty torn up about my Dad.
"Come in." He whispered.
We went inside, and everyone was... separated. Esme was sat alone, Rosalie and Emmett were sat closely together on the couch but Jasper and Alice were nowhere to be seen.
Esme sat up, I knew vampires couldn't cry, but she looked like she was, but with no tears.
"Esme's been... grieving a lot." Carlisle told us. I grabbed Alec's hand.
"Where are Alice and Jasper?" I asked quietly.
"Hunting. Alice said she needed some space, and with the funeral tomorrow I think she needs it." Carlisle explained.
"Oh." I whispered.
"You are going, aren't you?" Esme asked, her voice was quiet. I guessed she hadn't spoken for a long time.
"Of course." I said. Mom nodded too.
I looked around the room again. They all looked a mess. Torn. Usually they wore they gorgeous designer clothes, now they're wearing old things. Old scuffed Jeans, baggy tee shirts and trainers.
"He wouldn't have wanted this." I whispered.
They all looked my way, "What?" Esme asked.
"This... the moping, doing nothing. He would of wanted you to... celebrate his life, not stop living yours." I said, they looked down, but Rosalie stood up.
"Sam's right, what are we doing sat around?" She smiled at me, I smiled back. I bet that's the first time she's smiled in ages. "Come on Em, I bet you know what I want to do?" His head snapped up, and an enormous grin appeared on his face, he jumped up and carried a giggling Rosalie to their room. I rolled my eyes.
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Mom agreed to spend the night at Jake's house. I went into my room, everything was exactly how I left it, which I was pleased about. I sat on my bed, and shut my eyes a few seconds,
"What happens to me doesn't matter okay? I may of only known about you an Luke for a few weeks, but I love you both, tell Luke that for me. Tell you mom... tell her I love her too, forever." He went into his pocket, and handed over a envelope with a pained expression, my name, Mom's and Luke's names written elegantly across the front.
My eyes snapped open. I put my hand in my pocket, and felt the envelope. I lifted it out, and opened it, there was three pieces of paper in it, one of which had my name on it,
Samantha,
If you've opened this, I've probably been killed by the Volturi, like I always thought would happen. I know I haven't been much of a father to you or Luke, but you can understand why that is. I wish I had known about you both, things might have been different.
The minute I found out about you and Luke, I knew you'd be in danger. I knew it would eventually end like this, I'm just glad it was me who lost his life, and not you or Luke. I wouldn't of forgiven myself. Ever.
And it isn't your fault, my death was bound to happen. Don't blame yourself, if it's anyone's fault it's mine. I left your Mother pregnant, vulnerable and alone. If I'd of stayed, maybe I'd be alive, and we'd all be happy.
And for the few weeks I knew, it was nice having a daughter. Having a child who will be happy forever. I hope you have a great life, I hope you find someone who loves you, and sticks by you through thick and thin. I'll always be watching you, helping you through life and helping overcome mistakes that you make.
All my Love, forever. Dad x
I felt a tear fall from my cheek and land on the letter. I stared at it and read it again. He knew he was going to die, he wasn't with me when the Volturi took me by pure coincidence, he made sure he was there, so he died and not me.
I heard a light knocking on my door. Alec.
"What's wrong?" He asked. After a pause, I burst into tears. Alec was at my side quickly, and hugging me tightly.
"He cared." I sobbed.
*~*~*~*
Luke P.O.V
I entered Sam's room quietly, and saw a piece of paper with my name on it, which made me curious. I lifted it from her bed and rushed out. I raced outside and onto the beach, and sat on a rock near the cliffs. I unfolded it,
Luke,
If you've opened this, I've probably been killed by the Volturi, like I always thought would happen. Like I've said to Samantha, I'm sorry I haven't been much of a Father to you both. And I know you hate me anyway, but I am sorry.
For the few weeks I knew I had a son, it was great. Knowing that I was a Father made me realize what I had to live for. But at the same time I knew you and Samantha were in danger.
If you are anything like me, I want you to promise me something. When you find the girl you love, don't make the same mistake I did, stick by her forever. Love her forever.
I hope you have a great life, Son. I'll be with you always, I promise.
All my Love, Dad x
I thought I was going to rip it up, but instead I smiled. He was sorry, he truly meant it. I looked up, and smiled again.
"Thanks, Dad." I said.
*~*~*~*
Bella P.O.V
I saw Luke running down to the beach. I was about to follow him down when Sam came from her room, a piece of paper in her hand.
"Sam?"
She wiped her eyes, "These are for you... from Dad." I took them from her, and saw Edward's elegant writing,
Bella,
What can I say to you? I never stopped loving you. When I left, I hated myself. It was a mistake, one I can't undo, but one I wish I could. It isn't Sam's fault I'm dead, it never will be. It's mine, when I found out about them I knew their lives were in danger immediately, and being their Father I had to do something, even if it meant dying for them.
I feel awful about leaving you like I did, dying and pregnant with my children. But I'm glad you found Marcus. You found someone who can love you better than I did, and most of all, forever.
With this letter I decided to return the photos I took from your party, the one that ruined everything. Do with them what you wish, they bring back all kinds of memories. For me, the brought both happy and pained. Some even made me laugh.
Tell Carlisle and Esme, and even the rest of my family, thank you. Thank you for being there for me, taking care or me.
And tell Jacob thank you for taking care of my children when we couldn't, he did a better job than I ever would of done.
And to you, I'll always be with you, in your heart. Watching you, helping you.
But to end this letter, I want to apologize for ever breaking your heart, I'm sorry for ever thinking we could live without each other.
All my love, forever and always, Edward x
I glanced up at Sam, who was now crying into Alec's shoulder. I began crying, tearlessly. It was all true, I never stopped loving him. When he did leave I hated him so much, but at the same time I loved him. So much.
I remembered the pictures. I looked at them, he was right, some made me laugh. The ones of him and me were the best. When we were happy.
Cry much? Bet you did. I forgot about the letters that Edward left, but when I watched New Moon something triggered my memory. I can't bring Edward back, but I thought the letters gave him one last goodbye.
The next (maybe the last) is the funeral, and I have the best place for him to be buried.
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