"I'm really sorry," I repeated once again. So jumping off the cliff probably wasn't the best idea I ever had. Embry had told me to wait for him but I was stupid and thought I could do it alone. How was I supposed to know there was a storm coming? Thankfully Jacob pulled me out of the water before I could drown. Embry came a few minutes after him. I had never seen him so afraid. The pack was chasing after Victoria. They just so happened to lose her scent around the time I screamed. Embry thought Victoria had gotten to me and it had freaked him out so much. He hasn't stopped holding onto me since it happened five hours ago, not that I mind. I like being close to him, especially since I had been in freezing cold water. A shiver racked through my body.

Embry pulled me closer and pressed his lips on my forehead. We were at his house lying in his bed listening to music. The search for Victoria was postponed because Harry Clearwater was in the hospital. He had a heart attack. Charlie and Amy were at the hospital with his wife Sue. I felt horrible about all of this. Embry didn't need to worry about me when his father figure was in the hospital. Embry had told me how close they were. Harry always helped out with Embry since his father wasn't around to do it. He helped Amy out when Embry first turned into a werewolf and was often disappearing. He was such a wonderful man. I didn't have too many memories about him but I knew he was Charlie's best friend, the same for Billy. Embry had been dragged on all of those horrible fishing trips too. He was always attached to Harry so we never really became friends like me and Jacob. Embry was so worried about Harry I wish I could fix it. Just make everything disappear. The heart attack. The almost drowning. Victoria. All of it.

"I know," Embry whispered as if he could read my thoughts. The phone rang. Embry quickly grabbed it. "How is he?" I watched his face as he talked and rubbed my hand on his chest. "Oh...Yeah...Ok...Alright...Maybe...Bye."

"Is he okay?" His face revealed nothing except for emptiness.

"No," he whispered. "Mom and Charlie are staying there to help out Sue. She wants to have the funeral soon. Sam and Jacob are with Leah and Seth." Silent tears escaped his eyes. His whole body was shivering as he tried to fight off changing.

I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him to me. "I am so sorry, baby," I whispered in his ear. His hold on my waist was so tight it hurt but I didn't mind. There was no doubt in my mind that we were soul mates. His pain was hitting me so hard, I felt like I was suffocating. I could feel how devastated he was and it made me hurt more than anything. I couldn't even do anything about it.

"He can't be," he whimpered into my neck. "He can't be dead." I stroked his hair softly. I silently cursed myself for not being better at this. I wanted to be able to say something that would ease his feelings. Death had never been something I could deal with. When my grandmother died I avoided Renee as much as possible for about a month. I hated the way I felt, the loss feeling. Being around her just amplified it. Maybe if I had stuck with her I would have known what made her feel better. "What am I supposed to do Bella?" he sobbed openly.

"I don't know." I was horrible. I was his girlfriend. I should know what to do at a time like this. He asked me for help and I couldn't even give it to him. What was wrong with me?

"Do something for me," he pleaded.

"Anything." Anything to make him feel better.

"Stay with me."

"Now and forever," I promised.

He shifted slightly so his head was over my heart. I kissed his head and continued raking my fingers through his hair. "You know," he started then clear his throat. I knew he was still crying because I could feel his tears still falling onto my shirt. "Harry helped me come up with the setting for our date. I had no idea what to do. He said it would be romantic to take you to your favorite spot. He was also the one that talked me into asking you out. I had wanted to do it since Jacob introduced us in his garage. I had always liked you when we were younger. I always got him to make sure you were there when we went fishing."

I felt my eyes widen. He had always wanted me. It wasn't just the imprint. That was something I hadn't expected. "I never knew that."

"Yeah. I never asked you out because Jacob liked you. I never thought I had a chance with you even if Jacob wasn't involved. Harry always gave me the confidence to do stuff though, like ask you out. He is...was great..." He released me and buried his head in a pillow. He murmured something about crying in front of me.

"Don't be stupid." I wrapped my arms around him and kissed his neck. "It gets better. It wont always hurt." People always said time healed everything. "I think talking helps. I'm always hear if you need to. You know that."

"I love you so much." He leaned up and kissed me. The phone rang again. He pulled away from me to answer it. "Yeah?" His voice was still hoarse from crying. "Where?..I have Bella...Are they together?...Alright." He hung up. "We have to go to your house. Quil got a whiff of Victoria over here." He wrapped me up in a blanket and carried me to my truck. When he got in he pushed my trucks limits but I didn't say anything.

"What did you mean when you asked if they were together?"

"There's another vampire. We think they may be together," he explained.

"Oh..." I paused. "Are you alright?"

He nodded. "I will be. What about you? I probably should have taken you to the hospital or something."

He had planned on doing that in the first place but I talked him out of it. The last thing Charlie needed to know was that his daughter was jumping off cliffs. He wasn't that much younger than Harry. For 16 years he had eaten nothing but take out and fish. He didn't take care of himself. He could end up like Harry and I had no control over it.

"I'm fine," I told him.

He nodded then stiffened. I could see my house right down the street. A shiny black Mercedes was parked out front. My heart skipped a beat. I knew that car. "Shit." Embry slammed on the breaks and a sharp U-turn.

"No, go back. It's Carlisle." He stopped but he didn't go back. "Em it's okay. It's Carlisle."

"I can't go back." His voice was rough. I realized he was shaking. His grip was so tight on the steering wheel I wouldn't be surprised if it snapped. "I would kill him. I'm sorry." He leaned over to kiss me then disappeared into the forest. I just sat there, watching him run away from me. I felt so rejected the hole in my chest reopened. It was far bigger than the one Edward had left me with. I couldn't believe I was feeling this way again. Embry was supposed to be different. I was his imprint, I thought he wasn't allowed to hurt me. This was so...There wasn't a word bad enough. He would come back, right?

I climbed over to the driver's seat and turned around. I pulled up behind the car that held no place in Forks and got out. The front door wasn't quite shut all the way. I knew someone was inside when I went in. I just hadn't expected it to be Alice. She looked just as surprised as I was. "Bella...How?" She ran to me and started cutting off my circulation.

"How what?" I asked as I tried to escape the death grip she had on me.

She noticed and bounce back then dragged me to the couch. "Why aren't you dead?

"Nice to see you too." I grimaced. This had to be the worse possible time to interrupt my life. Of course I wouldn't have minded it when Victoria first started hunting me. She would have been useful and Victoria would be dead by now. But no. She decided to pick the day when someone dies. I should be helping Embry through this but instead I manage to push him away. He must hate me. I piratically chose a vampire over him. I hate me.

"I saw you jump," she continued as though I hadn't spoke.

"Oh...Then why did you come? You should have known you'd be too late to save me."

"I thought I could help Charlie cope after loosing his suicidal daughter."

"I'm not. The La Push guys do it all the time. It was fun until I hit the water."

"Yes I have seen how extreme you have become as of late."

I sighed then frowned. "Didn't you see Embry or Jacob?"

"No. I only saw you which has been difficult. You are always disappearing or fading. I can only see clips of you, but that doesn't matter right now." She shook her head. "Were there other people with you? They just let you jump?"

"They didn't come until after." My voice held an annoyed tone. I couldn't believe her. Was this all she came back for? She actually had the nerve to asks me questions about my life after she had been gone for almost a year. This was insane.

She leaned toward me and started smelling me. I stiffened. It was the first time I realized her eyes were black. "Don't be ridiculous," she muttered. "Who were these boys you were with?"

Was she my mother? "My friend Jacob and my boyfriend Embry." I couldn't help but to wonder if she would tell Edward and if he would even care if she did.

Her eyes widened but she disregarded that. "What are they?"

Uh...Crap. Should I tell her about them. I guess it was only fair considering the pack knew about them. "Werewolves."

"Of course you would find more dangerous creatures when the vampires leave."

"I am a danger magnet remember?"

"Fine. We'll talk when I return from my hunt."

"Oh...Um...Don't go far ok? If Embry hasn't spoken to the pack yet...Well just don't go far." She simply nodded and left.

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"Do you have the flu or something?" Alice asked me. I had been pucking my brains out all day and last night.

"No. I would have other symptoms. It's just stress from everything. I'm fine."

Alice growled under her breath. I took a step back. "I'm sorry. It's the flu. God."

She rolled her eyes. "Your werewolf is here."

I immediately started running downstairs then stopped. "Will you..." I broke off. I didn't want to tell her to leave but I couldn't tell that to Embry either.

"Don't worry. I'll be back."

I continued to run down to the door. Embry was ringing the doorbell when I threw the door open. "Where the hell have you been?" I shouted at him. I had tried calling him ever since Alice got here two days ago. I had been going out of my mind. I was so worried he had left me or Victoria had got to him. I had went to his house twice but no one was there.

I could see Jared and Paul in a car behind him. It was more than obvious that they didn't trust him to be here. "Is that bloodsucker here," he asked quietly. He was just staring at my feet.

"Is that all you have to say to me?"

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