Alice's cold shoulder was comforting as I woke up the next morning. I hadn't slept that well since Edward had left me and I was uncomfortable knowing that sleeping with an ice pack made me feel safe.

"Hey Bella." Smiled Alice as I sat up. "You were so peaceful I couldn't stand to move you. You didn't move all night. You didn't even say anything so I wasn't even sure if you were dead."

I smiled slightly and stood up. "You can go if you want I'll see you in school."

"Okay." She stood up and climbed through the window.

"Um Alice." I called afterwards. "You are allowed to use the door."

She laughed and walked away I climbed downstairs and found Jason sitting on the couch eating an omelet.

"Hey, ready for school?" I asked.

"Yup? Are you?"

"Sure." I sighed.

"Very convincing, I almost believe you."

I smacked him but sat on his, now clear of plate, lap. "I love you," I whispered into his ear. I pulled back to see the fear in his eyes but I couldn't find any.

"I love you too," he pulled me into a deep kiss and once again there was no sparks but a burning within so strong I didn't want to let go of him but soon I remembered to breathe, a little thing Jason didn't have to do, I pulled back and smiled looking into his adoring eyes.

"That was different," he panted, out of habit.

"Wonderful," I corrected. He smiled at me and pulled me into another deep kiss but this one shorter because I needed to get ready and was running late.

At school Melissa pulled me aside "You've had sex haven't you."

I looked at her eyes wide, "What?"

"I knew it you have that look in your eye, and you are totally glowing,"

"I have not had sex," I exclaimed drawing attention from other people in the hall, "I'm jut happy."

"You are elated, what's up?"

"I had one of those kisses." I whispered,

"Where your loins burn?" she asked excitedly,

"No! Well, kind of but one of those kisses where everything just disappears and you don't want to stop but have to so you can breath then when you do he looks deep into your eyes ad you know that you are in love, then he pulls you back in for one more kiss deeper and more passionate then ever before."

"You need to stop reading romantic fiction." Mel laughed.

I laughed too as we turned to walk towards lunch. Alice stood outside the doorway of the cafeteria ready to pounce at me; I walked over towards her and smiled. "What's up?"

"Edward wants to talk to you," she muttered sadly. "I know you hate him but I promised him I would ask for him"

I smiled drunk of my love for Jason, or maybe it was lust but I didn't really care. "Okay, tell him he has the ride home with me to talk then I am free of him for the afternoon."

"Really?" Alice asked.

"Really." I replied.

She looked speechless, "You don't have to."

"Alice, I know but I think even Edward couldn't ruin my mood."

"I remember when he was the one who gave you good moods," Alice Sighed.

"Alice, I need you to listen for a second," I said putting my hand on her arm to stop her from advancing in the line up for food. "What Edward did was his choice and it was his fault he lost my trust. Do you know what he said when he left me?"

"No," mumbled Alice.

"He said he didn't want me," I could feel the newly healed stitches in my heart slowly rip open to reveal the hole Edward had ripped open. "He said I was no good for him, that he was tired of pretending to be human for me and that I was no good for him. Imagine Jasper saying that to you."

Alice's face contorted into an angry grimace as she stared at Edward. "He was right, he doesn't deserve you," Alice spoke in a hushed whisper.

"It's okay Alice," I said catching her attention, "I can move on Jason taught me that."

I was lying to make Alice feel better and I knew she could se it in my face. My eyes were watery and my nose was prickling. She was going to let it drop though I could tell from the look on her pointy face she wanted to believe me.

"Okay, I won't say anything today."

"Thank you, would you like to sit with us or are you going to sit with your family?" I was pained having to make her choose but I knew that sitting with the Cullens was out of the question.

"It looks like Edward is sitting with your group already so I might as well."

I turned and looked at my regular table and Alice was exactly right. There was Edward, beside Jason and then a spot for me on Jason's right. Closer to Edward then I wanted to.

This conversation with Alice had bombed my previous optimism and my soul was not happy to have to see the boy who had destroyed my happiness.

"We could sit by ourselves," suggested Alice.

"No," I said passively, "It's fine."

We collected our lunches and walked back to the table where Jason and Edward were chatting animatedly about books.

"Hey Babe," Jason said pushing my chair away form the table with his foot. "We were just talking about Romeo and Juliet," he smiled.

"Jason agrees with you about the whole tragedy thing," Edward commented, I ignored him and introduced Alice to Mel who was almost as excited about the new spring Prada bag line as Alice. They soon forgot about me so I grudgingly turned to Edward and Jason who looked like they were having a staring contest.

"What?" I asked, they both quickly looked away form each other and to me.

"Nothing," Edward said submissively.

"Edward and I were just arguing about sports." Jason muttered which was our lame code for "We'll talk later"

"So, Edward how are you liking Florida?" asked Ashley in a sultry tone. Alyec looked angry from behind her and I couldn't help but laugh.

"It's, warm," answered Edward obliviously which just added to the humor and I laughed as Jason pulled me up to follow him.

I rolled my eyes and followed him down the hall to an empty classroom. No desks or anything.

"I didn't invite Edward this time," mumbled Jason into my neck. He was inhaling deeply like Edward but his warm breath tickled and I giggled girlishly.

"It's okay," I whispered.

"No, you're hurt." He shuddered slightly, "I hurt you."

I pushed his head off of my shoulder and held my hands on his two cheeks, holding his head in place.

"You healed me." I said sternly then I did something I would never do in school. I pulled his head in for a deep kiss and like before his hands burned my skin where he touched me as we kissed so deeply I felt like we were one person.

"I love you." He panted, as we pulled apart.

"I know," I replied smiling. I rested my head on his chest and he stroked my hair lovingly.

We pulled apart when the bell rang and I followed him to our class, math with Mr. Fords. When Edward came in he shot Jason's hand –which was holding mine- a very jealous look. I shot him back an angry one and my mood was quickly deflated but I knew that when I got home I would be Edward free. The last three classes I had without Jason but luckily I had Mel who shot Edward a nasty look whenever he even glanced our way.

When school ended I waited for Edward at my car. He arrived hesitantly and I didn't smile warmly I just reached over to unlock the door of Jason's Porsche. Jason was "walking" home for "exercise".

"You wanted to talk to me, you have twenty minutes."

"Bella," Edward said getting straight to the point, "I thought you'd be okay without me. You were supposed to heal and you promised you wouldn't do anything stupid. I know that you are vulnerable but I left so you would be safe from the vampire world."

"The point is you left and doing that you left my life and now it doesn't matter what you think."

"He's unstable." Edward complained.

"He's reliable," I said, "Which is more then you could say he also doesn't want to drain my body of its blood which is a plus."

Edward's face contorted into pain and then his familiar mask replaced it. "I came back because I was wrong in leaving you and I can't handle being without you."

"You came back because you're selfish and couldn't see me happy with someone else."

"I came back because I love you!" Edward yelled in exasperation.

I flinched by his abnormal anger and I could see a bit of the animal instincts shine through. "I don't love you." I whispered the lie so quietly it was almost inaudible but he heard it loud and clear.

Edward was silent for the rest of the ride and when I parked he got out wordlessly and pulled out his cell phone to call Alice for a ride seeing as he had no woods to run through.

I walked up the steps into the house and decided not to look back at Edward because I knew that if I did I wouldn't be able †o step forward into my home with my mother, and Jason.

As I shut the door on Edward I felt I was shutting the door on a life, and an opportunity to live forever with someone who loved me and I loved back.

As I shut the door I also felt relief, I was shutting the door on a life that would cause me great pain and regret, I also knew I would get the opportunities again for Edward was stubborn and loyal.

"What's wrong?" asked Jason, "Vampire caught your tongue?"

I smirked at him but sighed, "I'm never going to get over him am I?"

"No, but I wish you would."

"I'm sorry." I groaned pulling him into a hug. "I shouldn't feel this way."

"It's okay, I'll wait for your heart to heal."

"Edward seems to keep ripping the stitches."

"Well, luckily for you I am a very persistent doctor." I laughed at his joke but he didn't laugh along. When I realized this I searched his eyes for an answer.

Before I could find one though he pulled me into a desperate, and passionate kiss that made my legs wobbly. His hands traced my back and left a trail of flames. I kissed back adding to the pressure. We pulled away gasping and he looked me directly in the eye.

"I'm never going to let you go Bella." Jason stated surely.

I nodded weakly in agreement as he repeated his words. "I'm never going to let you go."