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"So what do you want to do today?" asked Alice as she opened the curtains.
"What do you mean? We have school today and after Jason and I are going to a party." I grumbled rubbing my eyes as they burned from the sunlight.
"Don't worry Edward is dealing with your absence you know the affect he has on women."
I looked at Alice who was sparkling like a disco ball because of the sun streaming in from the newly opened window. "No!" I exclaimed shocking her, I instantly felt sorry for hurting her feelings but I was too angry to do anything. "I don't want Edward to do anything for me, especially something this immoral. I need to go to school and graduate and "live my human life" remember? So I am going to go to school and try to patch things up with Jason before he hates me, I have to live with him and I'd rather not be murdered in my sleep. I am also going to go to the party tonight which you are welcome to come to."
"Okay, I mean if that's what you want to do today," she said obviously disappointed.
"It is," I said "But can we hang out this Saturday?" I asked trying to smooth things over with Alice.
"Okay and can I dress you for the party tonight?" she asked me knowingly. I hesitated not wanting to go in shoes I couldn't walk in but at the same time I couldn't stand her disappointment from today.
"Thank you!" she said instantly perking up.
I rolled my eyes, "Have any breakfast?"
She pulled me downstairs to where Esme was standing in the kitchen watching a cooking show and stirring a pot. "Bella!" she exclaimed "Even though it tastes gross to me I do love cooking especially when I can tell you like it."
It did smell delicious but I was tense knowing Edward was in the house Alice sensing my uncomfort spoke, "Jasper's keeping him upstairs and he's a gentleman so he'll be good."
I looked at her skeptically and Esme giggled, Alice glared at her and Esme stopped, "I'm sorry Bella it's just you brought so much drama into our lives."
"I could say the same about you guys," I laughed.
She laughed too and Alice just sat grumpily on a stool against the bar style counter top. "I don't think I like the drama, it was much less confusing before."
My lighthearted mood instantly went away and my eyes started burning at that instant before crying.
"No Bella," she said instantly correcting herself, "I meant before Edward became an instant idiot and made us leave Forks, I love you and never want to go a few weeks without you again. It was horrible not thinking I could see you again."
I smiled "It was hell on earth," I replied knowing it was true.
She smiled back as Esme pulled something out of the oven, "let's get you fed," she said.
I looked at the yummy looking confection and smiled at the delicious scent.
"Smells mouth watering," I said and Alice and Esme both giggled girlishly.
I looked up at them and Alice replied continuing to laugh, "So do you."
Esme stopped laughing but continued to smile. "It's called Creamy Cheddar-ham Broccoli casserole."
I took a bite and moaned, "Oh my god Esme, you should open a restaurant."
She smiled gratefully as Emmett walked in. "Bells if I knew you were here I'd have come home sooner." He said grabbing me in a bone-crushing hug,
"Ow," I wheezed reflexively.
"Sorry!" he exclaimed instantly letting go.
Rosalie followed Emmett into the kitchen obviously following the smell of my delicious breakfast. She looked at me rolling her eyes and stalking out of the room.
Emmett looked at me apologetically before ruffling my hair and following and grabbing a piece of my breakfast and putting it in his mouth. He grimaced as he followed Rosalie out.
"Eddie your girlfriend's here!" He yelled up the stairs and I suddenly heard a booming crash as Edward followed by Jasper fell down the stairs.
I stood up instantly fully prepared to leave when Alice ran out into the main room. "Get upstairs or I swear to go your Volvo is finito," she yelled at Edward. I heard I few undistinguishable mutterings before I heard them calmly depart upstairs.
"Let's go get you dressed she said pulling me up to her room, I quickly thanked Esme who had already cleaned the kitchen and followed her upstairs.
She passed me an outfit she had obviously already planned out, a pair of grey skinny jeans, and a long black tank top with a silver design on it and a striped sweater that clung nicely to me body.
She pulled me over to a make up chair and proceeded to "make me gorgeous". I couldn't help but look at my reflection in the mirror once she was done and I rubbed my hands once again down my soft cashmere sweater and silky hair.
She then pulled me out to the car, and drove me over to my house to grab my stuff.
As I entered the house I could tell it wasn't completely empty but no one spoke to me as I walked upstairs to my room and walked through the hall. I passed Jason's room, he was lying on his bed gently sleeping and I instantly moved towards him. I sat on the bed beside him and watched his chest rise up and down slowly with each breath he took.
His dark hair was messy and cute but his face was strong and masculine. I wondered about his mother and father as I admired his hotness and long eyelashes that brushed gently against his cheek. I wanted to stroke his cheek with my hand and cuddle into the nook at his side.
Knowing I cuddle into him because Alice was waiting for me I compromised with stroking his soft cheek. His eyes fluttered open at my touch and he smiled at me for an instant before it melted into a hurt glare.
"I'm sorry," he whispered.
I was shocked at his apology but still smiled before he pulled me towards him and rolled over so I was flung gently onto the bed. I laughed as he dragged me towards him and kissed me. I instantly craved more of his touch, as the burning sensation spread from my lips to the rest of my body and so I deepened his kiss, he pulled his lips away from mine and started trailing kisses down my neck and nibbled gently at my earlobe, I groaned gently with ecstasy and realization that Alice was waiting for me.
I begrudgingly pulled away and stood up from the bed smoothing out my clothes in the process and he looked up at me. His chest had been revealed and I quickly realized I wanted to get back down there and take off his boxers too but I restrained myself as he pulled his blankets back up.
"Good morning," I laughed at him, "School today and the party, Alice is in the car so I have to go."
He silently watched me leave the room and as I passed his room on the way back I noticed him out of his bed and heard the shower running in his ensuite bathroom.
I ran downstairs and out the door and to Alice's car. She looked at me and then back at the windshield looking pissed off, "You smudged your lipstick," she stated.
I blushed and flipped down the mirror, my lipstick was indeed smudged so I fixed it before flipping it back up. "You're being unreasonable," I said calmly to the cranky pixie in the drivers seat.
"You left me in the car while you made out with some guy," she complained.
"You know that's not why you were angry. If it was Edward-"
"It wasn't Edward," she interrupted me.
I still continued, "If it was Edward you wouldn't have cared."
"Edward treated you better then Jason does," she said.
I looked at her with my mouth open, shocked, "No he didn't, Jason's a perfect gentleman and fun, and sweet, and he kisses me, I mean he really kisses me, he makes me feel beautiful and wanted and he loves me."
"Edward loves you too," she exclaimed.
"Edward left me in the middle of a forest and broke my heart," I exclaimed and refuses to give me what I want, I have to grow old and wrinkly while he stays forever young." I complained.
"He left you to protect you and doesn't want to become a soulless monster, and if it really comes down to it I'll change you myself," she stated, "the whole fight is ridiculous and Jason isn't going to get any older either."
"Well, I don't know what I want," I stated desperately wanting to make up my mind but being unable to. "I'm a slut," I whined.
Alice looked at me in shock, "No. You. Are. Not." She stated, "You're confused and in love and a teenager, you'll figure it out, one day you'll just know."
"How'd you know?" I asked.
"A vision," she said.
"I don't think I'll have one of those," I stated.
"I know," she laughed as we pulled up to the school. She pulled up to under the overhang, got out and threw a kid her keys, batting her eyelashes, "Could you park it for me please?"
"Of-of course," he stuttered running to help her.
"Thanks," she winked.
"What do the guys do?" I asked her.
She looked at me. "They come to school with Rosalie." She stated.
I laughed and walked into the school, to my right Melissa was standing at her locker with two girls, Courtney and Alex who both look alike with the same bleach blonde hair and sporty bodies.
"What's up?" I asked them as I walked over.
"Did you hear who's dating?" asked Mel.
"Who?" I asked actually curious.
"Carmen Walters and Mr. Friesen."
"Oh my god!" I exclaimed.
"And he isn't even in trouble for it because she's eighteen," stated Courtney.
"How old is he?" I asked.
"Like, who cares he's HOT!" Alex exclaimed.
I had to agree he was younger and was new he had just left university and was very attractive with a kick ass body and smile, of course he was no Edward or Jason for that matter, it was unfair how many super hot vampire boys I had waiting for me. I felt slightly guilty for a moment before I was suddenly four feet in the air and heaved over a large shoulder.
"Oh my god! Put me down!" I screamed.
I heard a very familiar booming laugh and realized it was just Emmett. I relaxed but was still angry and helpless. "Emmett." I growled. "Put. Me. Down."
He laughed again but finally spoke, "No can do Bella, I'm kidnapping you."
"What?" I asked, "I'll pay you twice what Edward's paying you!" I exclaimed.
"No offence Bella, but you don't have twice what Edward's paying you."
I whimpered slightly and started kicking, people in the hall were actually laughing by this point and all of a sudden Emmett stopped.
"Put her down," I heard a very commanding beautiful voice. "Emmett!" Rosalie growled.
Emmett very reluctantly placed me back on my feet and glared at Rose. "Rosie," he pleaded, "Edward's buying me a new TV."
"I'll show you something no TV ever could," she whispered very sexily. He nodded and walked towards her wrapping his arm around her possessively.
I straightened my shirt again and looked around at the small crowd that had gathered. I saw Jason in it and automatically walked towards him. He winked at me and pulled me into the nearest empty classroom.
"Hello," he whispered.
"Hello," I smiled as he pulled me into a kiss.
"How are you?" he asked, his forehead leaning against mine.
"Confused," I stated honestly.
"I want to take you out," he stated.
"Where?" I asked.
"How about I accompany on a trip to visit your dad. You can show him how much better you are," he said kissing me quickly again.
"You do make me feel better," I said.
He smiled and pulled an envelope out of his back pocket. "I got us tickets," he smiled, "non-refundable."
I laughed and kissed him again this time it lasted a little longer before Jason's phone rang. He ignored it at first but it just kept ringing so he finally rolled his eyes and answered it.
"Hello?" he asked breathing heavily. "Hey, yeah, yeah, I got it covered, yeah. Okay. Bye."
"What?" I asked,
"Jack, party," he rolled his eyes.
"Ah," I said.
"Yeah." He laughed and lifted me off the desk placing me gently on the floor, standing up.
"We have what? Math?" he asked.
I nodded "Mr. Friesen and Carmen Walters are dating." I stated. "Oh my god," he laughed.
"So this should be fun especially with her and Brian in our class," I said referring to Brian, the rude, crude, hilarious guy who tends to talk out in class.
We walked to class together trying to look more like friends then boyfriend and girlfriend. I don't know how well we pulled it off but when we got into class we sat down in or usual seats. He was behind me with Mel and more of our friends scattered around.
Courtney who was sitting beside me leaned over to me, "Do you think they're like doing it?" she asked.
I rolled my eyes not really caring, "Who knows maybe they're in love. Is it any of our business anyways I mean I hate when people gossip about my relationships."
"Well, he's a teacher which means totally off limits to anyone. It's Carmen though and everyone knows she isn't very modest when it comes to boys and knocking boots."
She was most obviously referring to Carmen's last relationship, which ended when she slept with another boy who she ended up dating for a week after her previous relationship because he picked his girlfriend over her.
"Whatever, it's her body so she can expose it to anyone she wants," I said defending her.
"Her adultery and promiscuity gives girls the label of tramp which only she deserves her behavior is unfair to us," she complained.
"You're complaining about her being promiscuous?" I asked.
"Yeah," she said in her pissed off cat fight voice.
"Well, I wouldn't be talking if I were you," I said.
"She cheated on her boyfriend and is now dating a teacher," she said in a very annoying accusatory voice.
"And you just sleep around no strings attached!" I laughed amazed at her hypocrisy.
"She's a slut!" she yelled at me.
"No, babe," I corrected, "You are."
That's when she bitch slapped me, I raised my eyebrows amazed at how much fun I was having provoking her and laughed. I laughed which I think surprised everyone as much as it did me. By now the whole class was watching our amusing exchange, and Mr. Friesen didn't seem to have a problem with me defending Carmen.
"Bitch!" screamed Courtney grabbing onto my hair and yanking.
Reflexively I shoved her away from me and it worked she let go of my hair and struggled to grab onto something but having no where to grab she landed on the ground very ungracefully.
Everyone laughed and I myself struggled to hold it in, but I did and I think that saved me from another slap. It didn't save me from her screams though.
"You think you have the power to beat me, FYI you just got here and the only reason you have any power here is because you're dating Jason and are friends with Mel," she stated "Other then them no one cares."
I looked at her knowing it was true, "I care," said Alex, "She's a better person then you are, and she doesn't gossip meanly about anyone who gets a guy you like."
"And she doesn't sleep with the entire school and get wasted to the point that she throws up on my new suede boots." Said Trey.
"I wouldn't call Bella innocent of adultery either have you seen her with Edward and what about Emmett, he was all over her before school today?"
Slightly revolted by the thought of Emmett "all over me" I literally cringed.
"Hey," Jason said to Courtney, "Bella and I aren't dating exclusively and Emmett is dating Rosalie and they are very, very exclusive."
"What about Edward?" asked Courtney.
"Bella and I aren't exclusive remember?" he asked.
"Whatever," she said turning to the front of the class.
I realized that I could hardly remember how the stupid fight actually happened and I faced the front too.
Mr. Friesen who was watching the whole debacle finally spoke up, "You girls done?" he asked us laughing.
"I dunno," said Courtney tuning to me, "Are you done?"
"Um," I said confused, "Sure?"
"Okay then open your books to page 109 and we'll start your new unit," he said.
The new unit was more boring then hell, that is a bad expression since hell is probably exciting in a bad way. A better rephrase would be I was so bored I wished I were in hell.
The only amusing thing about it was the looks I kept getting. Nasty ones from Miss. Nasty herself and grateful ones from Carmen and knowing looks from Mel. I was unsure what they were for but I'm pretty sure it had something to do with everything she new about me and Edward and her amusement that matched mine.
I suddenly felt an extreme need to talk to Melissa and tell her about everything that's going on in my love triangle of death. It reminded me of the Bermuda triangle only more like a black hole that sucked away my sanity.
I decided that today at lunch I would sneak away with Mel to McDonalds where I would eat away my problems with a milkshake and Big Mac. Most of my friends would be appalled at the calories but luckily Mel had a crazy Metabolism and could eat everything in McDonalds and lose ten pounds by Tuesday and I didn't care either way I'd have to be immortal to be with the person I love so either way I'd be beautiful and I'd have Alice to thank or Carlisle? Who knows?
I grabbed Mel and pulled her to her vintage Volkswagen bug and she automatically puller her keys out of her purse and drove away from school. We went to the McDonalds farther from school so we wouldn't have to deal with anyone.
"What's up B? You seem extra upset about Courtney, taking anything out on her?"
"She deserved it," I grumbled.
"Well, yeah but normally under spoken Bella wouldn't have shoved her to the floor and confronted her and her hypocritical slut-hood."
I laughed and slipped the straw in my mouth and sucked up the chocolaty goodness. "I guess I was."
"What happened?" she asked.
"I made out with Edward at the restaurant in the bathroom and my mom walked in and freaked at us. Then Jason found out and got pissed. He forgives me but my mom hates my guts and reminded of everything Edward did in the process of making me look like a horrible nasty ho that I am."
"You are not a ho!" exclaimed Melissa grabbing my arm and squeezing you just have a really hard choice to make."
"I'm going with Jason back to Forks, he bought us tickets."
"And your parents are letting you?" she asked.
I felt guilty lying to her and was tired of secrets so I decided to tell her as much as I could without bringing up vampires and immortality.
"Yeah, about that," I said.
"What?" she asked.
"Jason is kind of pretending to be my stepbrother."
"What?" she half shrieked.
"You can't tell anybody! Phil would be heartbroken and my mom would kill me. I met Jason because he lives with us. He's Phil's ex-girlfriend's son and is pretending he was Phil's secret lovechild but Phil isn't his dad."
"And you're okay with that?" she asked, "Its kind of an ass hole move."
"Jason's rent secretly with his inheritance from his mom. He's rich and is paying them back every penny they spend on him and more. It's still weird but Phil and him love each other like they are family so he might as well be called Phil's son."
"So your parents don't even know you secretly make out in school and at parties and are pretty much rabbits?"
"No, of course they don't know and we are not like rabbits!"
She looked at me, "Uh huh," she said totally unconvinced.