Disclaimer: I don't own Tsubasa or the song. I would be writing fanfiction if i did.
"Beautiful Disaster"
Kelly Clarkson
He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He's as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right
Kurogane walked down the hallway to the bedroom that was next to Fai's. Kurogane stopped at the mage's door and opened it so he could look through. The magician tossed and turned under the covers failing his arms and mumbling words. Kurogane hesitated for a moment before closing the door. He wanted to go in and comfort the blue-eyed wizard but something held him back. Everything he had learned at his home conflicted his feelings toward the mage.
It's just a nightmare. Kurogane told himself and forced his legs to move to his room.
Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
Kurogane lay awake in bed and starred at the ceiling thinking about Fai. Was regretting leaving Fai with his nightmare? No! Well maybe a bit… Kurogane turned to his side to try and get more comfortable and closed his eyes it would be a long night.
He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him?
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
Hold on tight
Kurogane got out of bed at six in the morning, unable to get any sleep, and slumped down into the kitchen.
Stupid mage, making me lose my sleep. Kurogane thought.
Part of him told him not to blame the magician because his past had almost destroyed him. Kurogane had tried to only make him smile when he really meant it and not those fake smiles that he wore daily and Fai was somewhat happier now but Kurogane could still tell the fake smiles from the real ones.
Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
Kurogane heard footsteps coming down the stairs and looked up to see the mage's unsmiling face.
"Ah, Kuro-rin, Good morning!" Fai said smiling.
Kurogane glared at him. Mainly looking at his face and the fake smile.
"'Morning and stop smiling." Kurogane said.
Fai flicked on the lights making Kurogane wince.
"What was…" Kurogane looked at the mage's eyes, "Have you been crying?"
"What me? Crying? No." Fai said, "Why do you ask?"
"Your eyes are all red and puffy." Kurogane accused.
"No their not silly Kuro-pyon." Fai laughed.
I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long
Kurogane crossed his arms and waited.
"What?" Fai asked.
"You're lying. Why were you crying?" Kurogane asked.
"I wasn't!" Kurogane had never heard the mage raise his voice before.
"Does it have anything to do with the dream you had last night?" Kurogane asked the mage.
The mage's smile turned to a frown slowly and he starred, wide-eyed at the ninja.
"You know about that?" Fai asked avoiding the ninja's gaze.
"I know you had a night mare I don't know what it was about." Kurogane said.
He's soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He's never enough
And still he's more than I can take
"Oh." Fai sighed remembering the dream.
"You want to talk about it?" Kurogane asked gently.
"No." Fai said wiping a tear that slipped from his eye.
Kurogane pulled away his arm and lifted the mage's head so the mage would have to look him in the eye. Another tear accidently slipped from his eye but Kurogane wiped it away with his hand. He hoped they wouldn't get flooded.
"You sure?" Kurogane aksed.
"No." Fai said his mask breaking and tears came from his eyes like rivers.
Kurogane picked up the mage and carried him into his room so the kids wouldn't worry about either of them.
Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
Fai didn't even wait for Kurogane to shut the door to start talking.
"Yuui… I killed him… you were mad at me for it… A-and Ashura-oi he was mad too… he tried to kill me... You and Syoaran and Sakura… and Monkona tried to stop him… but… I couldn't move… I just sat there… A-and y-you and and everyone…" Fai sobbed as Kurogane held him close to his chest.
"Ashura killed them but he didn't kill you!" Fai's teary blue eyes met the ninja's red eyes, "I killed you… I'm sorry!"
He's beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
His eyes are beautiful… Kurogane thought but shook it away.
Fai's hand was balled into a fist along with Kurogane's shirt and his head was laid on Kurogane's chest.
"It's ok Fai. It was only a dream." Kurogane soothed.
"You told me you hated me… when you were dying… those were your last words…" Kurogane's shirt was now soaked with tears.
"Fai…" Kurogane removed his hand from Kurogane's wrinkled shirt and intertwined their fingers, "I could never hate you."
Beautiful
(Beautiful disaster)
Beautiful disaster
"You're too beautiful to hate." Kurogane said before kissing his forehead.
Fai wrapped him in a tight hug, "Thank-you, Kurogane."
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