Tsubasa Songs Chapter 20: Animal I Have Become, a tsubasa chronicle fanfic

Disclaimer: I don't own Tsubasa or the characters as much as I would like to. *yawn* I don't own the song either.

Animal I have become

Three Days Grace

Requested by: ATLovesSweetsmmmCandy

I can't escape this hell
So many times i've tried
But i'm still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
Fai lay in bed next to Kurogane. Kurogane lay awake while he thought the mage was asleep beside him. He noticed Fai shivering and looked at the blonde. The blonde had slept the same way every night and he had never shivered before.

"Fai?" Kurogane asked.

"Hn?" Fai asked in a raspy voice.

"Are you alright?" Kurogane asked worriedly and place a hand on an almost feminine shoulder.

"Ne." Fai gasped Kurogane could have sworn that there was a hint of pain in his voice.

"Fai what's wrong?" Kurogane said.

He was worried the mage looked pale and un-Fai-like. His concerned worsened when the mage didn't reply.

Fai had his eyes screwed shut and was biting his lip so hard that it bled. Tears ran from his one golden eye. He wanted Kurogane to run as far as he could and take Syoaran and Sakura with him. He couldn't control it for much longer.

"Kuro… run." Fai said in a throaty voice.

Kurogane's eyes widened and next thing he knew Fai was over top of him pinning his hands above his head and holding him down on the bed by placing his knee on the ninja's stomach. Kurogane tried to pull away from Fai's surprisingly strong grip but it didn't help.

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
(This animal, this animal)
Kurogane looked up and met Fai's one golden eye.

"Fai." Kurogane said trying to stay calm.

"Fai's gone. So what if you can see the darkest side of me? No one will ever change the animal I have become." Fai said.

That wasn't Fai, it didn't even sound like him.

"Fai, this isn't the real you." Kurogane said trying to bring the old Fai back.

"No I told you Fai's gone!" Fai said.

Fai switched to holding Kurogane's wrists above his head with two hands to just one hand. He let his claws grow a few inches then made a shallow cut on Kurogane's throat. It was just deep enough to let a steady stream of blood flow out and stain the pillow.

Kurogane held back a pained noise. Fai sighed he wanted to make Kurogane scream in pain. But first he lapped up the blood leaking out from the cut he had already made.

Fai sat on the ninja's stomach and eyed his neck for a moment trying to think of the best place he could cut to make Kurogane scream without killing him.

Fai chose a spot next to his jaw and did the same thing he had did the first time.

Kurogane bit his lip in pain.

I can't escape myself
(I can't escape myself)
So many times i've lied
(So many times i've lied)
But there's still rage inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
Fai was getting bored of Kurogane not making a sound. The raven haired man had cuts covering his neck and not even a peep came out of him.

Fai made a deeper gash then the ones before where his neck met his chest and Kurogane finally screamed as Fai licked the blood away from the wound.

Fai sat up, satisfied, and wiped off some blood at the corner of his mouth with his finger. He licked the blood off his finger and looked at the ninja underneath him.

Kurogane was finding it hard to breathe with the numerous cuts on his neck. But somehow he wasn't suffocating even with the mage sitting on his stomach.

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
Kurogane looked at the vampire over him and glared at him when a insane smile grew on Fai's face.

"Knock it off!" Kurogane yelled and smacked him.

Fai looked at him in shock and unconsciously moved his hand up to touch where Fai had hit him.

"W-what?" Fai asked in surprise.

Kurogane glared in anger at him and Fai looked taken aback.

"Why are you glaring at me Kuro-Kuro?" the mage said his fake smile covering the surprise.

The second after Fai had said it he held the back of his head and closed his eyes tightly.

"Fai?!" Kurogane asked sitting upright and placing his hand on the mage's shoulder.

Somebody help me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
Somebody wake me from this nightmare
I can't escape this hell
Fai smiled wickedly at him, "We weren't done yet. Why did you get up?"

Fai grabbed his shoulder and dug his claws into it, ripping past the cloth and tearing through skin. Kurogane grimaced in pain and held back a growing scream.

"Fai! Stop!" Kurogane said and Fai looked at him in confusion.

The mage shouldn't be buried inside the vampire instincts too far maybe he could bring him back.

(This animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal)
"Kuro?" Fai asked.

"No!" Fai yelled in response to himself.

"What?" Fai asked.

"Fai stop this. You're in control that is your body." Kurogane said hoping that Fai would hear him.

Fai was fighting with his vampire instincts every part of him telling him to attack the man below him but something held him back.

"Kuro… help." Fai said.

Kurogane pulled the smaller man close to him and held him there tightly.

"Fai, this animal isn't you. You can't let it control you." Kurogane said as Fai's hand found the ninja's and squeezed it stopping the blood flow.

"I c-can't." Fai sobbed into the ninja's shirt.

"Yes you can, Fai." Kurogane said and the mage looked up at him.

Fai looked up and met his eyes. Then found something that hadn't been there before. Kurogane's neck was covered in scratches and dry blood.

"Did I do that to you?" Fai asked hoping the answer would be 'no' even though he knew he had done it anyway.

Kurogane sighed and tried to shake off the question.

"Kuro, did I do that to you?" Fai asked with a scared look on his face.

Kurogane shook his head, "No, Fai. You did not. Your instincts did though."

"I'm sorry!" Fai sobbed and his body shook; but who was he kidding? Kurogane would never forgive him.

"Ssshh, it wasn't your fault." Kurogane said while rubbing his back as if trying to soothe a child.

Kurogane's shirt was balled up in Fai's hands.

"Yes it is." Fai said.

Kurogane wasn't in any mood to argue.

"Well we'll deal with it in the morning." Kurogane said and slowly Fai stopped shaking and his eye returned to its normal color.

"Any better?" Kurogane asked quietly.

"Not yet hold on." Fai said he got up and walked to the bathroom.

Fai returned with a wrap of bandages in his hands.

"I'll feel better if I know you're ok." Fai said.

Kurogane let the mage wrap the bandages around his neck and shoulder without complaints. He was too tired to complain.

"Better now?" Kurogane asked.

Fai thought about this for a while.

"Yeah I guess." Fai shrugged.

Kurogane laid down on his back and pulled the mage onto the bed. He placed the blonde's head on his chest and wrapped an arm, protectively, around the smaller man's waist. Kurogane pulled the covers over both of them.

"How about now?" Kurogane asked.

"Yea." Fai yawned and closed his eyes.

Kurogane knew him better than to think that the mage had fallen asleep so quickly. It must have been close to three in the morning when his breathing evened out and he felt heavier. Kurogane chuckled lightly and yawned.

"Next time tell me so I can help you." Kurogane said.

"Good night Fai." He yawned.

*snore*

Kurogane: What the heck she's sleeping!

Fai: Be quiet she's had a long week.

Kurogane: Oh and just how do you know that?

Fai: She told me. She alway wrote something out that I'm supposed to say because she is tired.

'I'm sorry I haven't updated in a long time. It has been a long week for me and going back to school for the first full time in a week is killing me. I think I failed a french test today that I missed because I was absent on Friday. I promise I'll get to the requests as soon as I can and until then please just hold on with me as I said before I procastinate... ALOT. Thank you for the 282 hits and 83 views this month. I think I've got a cold to top things all off. It's like whip cream only not as yummy... I'm tried and completely out of it so if the story is a bit odd and off well just go with I'm tired, insane, and just plain wierd.

I WILL TRY TO UPDATE SOON!

Yours Truly,

Dusk'

Kurogane: She's not getting off that easily.

Fai: No she wanted to try and complete all the requests she got by Monday.

Kurogane: Review and Request!