Chapter 8

The calm after the storm

EPOV

I haven't talked to Bella in over a week. Quil came over yesterday and said she was doing okay, but that she was really sad. Maybe I overreacted a little when we spent the night together, but what was I supposed to feel? I am not a fool. I know she will never completely be over Jake, I guess I was just hoping there was room in her life for me too. I was kind of harsh on her though. I will talk to her I just need some more time to decide if I want to try to pursue what we may have or just chalk it up to the fact that we will never be anything more than friends, no matter how much I love her.

I took a shower and got dressed to go and run some errands. I was opening up my mechanic shop this week and I needed some last minute supplies. My phone rang as I was headed out the door and I picked it up to see that it was Bella. I didn't really want to talk to her, but what if something was wrong with Jake Jr.?

"Hello?"

"Embry" She sighed. She was not making this easy

"Hi Bella. What's up?"

"I miss you. I know you said you would call when you are ready, but I really miss you. Can we have dinner one night this week?"

"I don't know Bella. I want to, I just don't know."

"Please Em" That was all it took. I couldn't resist hearing Bella beg over the phone to see her. I did miss her, more than I could explain. I am just so worried about getting my heart broken.

"Okay Bella. What night?"

"What about tomorrow? I will have Billy come and take Jr. for the night and we can be alone to talk about us."

"Is there an us Bella?"

"I want there to be. That is what I wanted to talk to you about." My heart soared. She was considering an us. It still hurt that she thought it was Jake making love to her, but I was man enough to deal with it.

"Okay Bella. What time?"

"six"

"Okay see you then" She hung up the phone and I walked to my car to get ready for the day. I was still kind of confused about what she wanted to talk about, but my curiosity got the best of me. I loved this woman more than my own soul. I would be happy to have part of her heart than none of it at all.

BPOV

I had to call Embry. I know he said not to call him, but I missed him so much. Plus something happened last night that made me see what I was missing. Embry loves me and I love him. Jake was a great man, a great, great man. I loved him with my entire being, but I had to face the fact that he wasn't coming home. It is funny but he made me see that.

The day after we got back from Seattle I called Emily to tell her what happened. She was really empathetic, but said she could understand how Embry felt too. She told me to listen to what my heart was telling me. To sit and think about what I really wanted. Ask myself if I was ready to move on. I think I was, but I still wasn't totally sure.

Last night when I went to sleep I had the most amazing dream. It put things into perspective.

I was walking in a field that was not familiar to me and I saw a figure walking towards me. I recognized him as soon as he took his first step. I would know my Jacob anywhere. He reached me and took my hands in his.

Bella, don't you remember what my letter said? Didn't I ask you not to sacrifice your life for me? I have been gone for over three years now babe and it is time for you to re-open your heart. I meant it when I said I wanted you happy.

But Jake what about you?

Bella honey whenever you want me I will be inside of your heart and your dreams, but that is where you need to keep me. I can't be on the surface anymore. I was the luckiest man to have your heart. Let someone else know what that is like. Live baby please for me

Jake Jr. needs a man in his life that will raise him right too. Make sure he knows who I was of course, but don't let him grow up without a father figure.

I will love you forever, but it is time to move on. Love again Bella. Please. I love you

And with that he was gone. Then I turned around and there was Embry. It was then I realized what I had to do.

I woke up feeling refreshed and at ease. Maybe what I needed was that subconscious permission from Jake to move on I knew what I had to do. I had to keep Jake in my heart and dreams and give Embry and I a chance. We both deserved to be happy. So I decided to take the plunge and beg him if I had to. Luckily I didn't have to beg much and he agreed to come over.

The rest of the day and the next night moved really slow. I was making lasagna, Embry's favorite and Billy was on his way to get Jr. He was so big now. We talked a little about Jacob every day and he knew who his daddy was. He was talking much better and holding full conversations with everyone. He still couldn't say Embry, but he moved from Unca Eby to Uncle Emby. It was cute. Some of the things that came out of that child's mouth was amazing.

As soon as Billy was gone I went upstairs to get ready and looked in the mirror before going back downstairs.

"You can do this Bella" I said to myself in the mirror. "You deserve to be happy. Just lead with your heart"

I went downstairs to start the garlic bread when the doorbell rang.

"Come in"

"Bella what if it wasn't me" Embry said. "What if I was a burglar."

"Embry please. We live in LaPush, The worst that happens here is a leaf blows the wrong way in the wind."

He rolled his eyes at me and took of his jacket. "Here I brought a bottle of wine."

"Thank you"

I walked up to him and we awkwardly gave each other a hug and a kiss on the cheek. The memories of us being together this last year came flying back to me and I was in bliss. I was in love with Embry Call and I wanted a life with him. Now if he would only forgive me.

"Let's eat and then we'll talk, Okay?"

"Sure Bella"

We ate dinner in a comfortable silence. I was nervous about how this was going to go. What if he told me I hurt him too badly and he just wanted to be friends. I mean I kinda had an epiphany and I wanted to share it with him. I told Billy about my dream when he came to get Jr. and he seemed happy that I was moving on and not mourning over Jake anymore. Billy was amazing and he thought of Embry as a son. I cleared the table and Embry helped with the dishes. When we were done we went to the living room and sat on the couch.

"So Bella. What's up?"

"I'm not sure I really know how to start this"

"Please tell me you didn't invite me here just to tell me that we will never have a chance"

"No Em. I wouldn't do that. I had a dream last night that really gave me a wake up call."

"oh? And what is this wake up call?"

"Embry"

"What Bella. I am sorry if I am little on edge, I am just waiting for the hurt."

"I am sorry I hurt you so bad Embry. I never meant to"

"I know. Anyway about your dream"

"Well it was about Jake."

"And what does this have to do with me?"

"He told me to stop mourning him and move on. That I needed to be happy and that Jr. needed a father figure. That he would love me forever, but that I needed to put him in the back of my heart and open it up for someone else to love."

"Ok" was he really not getting this?

"Embry I want that someone to be you"

He sat there for a minute absorbing what I just said. I was starting to worry I made him go into shock.

"Really?"

"Yes, really. I love you Embry. I am ready to give you my heart if you still want it"

"Of course I still want it. I will always want you Bella"

I moved closer to him and placed a kiss on his lips. I could feel him smile as he kissed me. I really did feel happy for the first time in three years. Jake would always be mine, but now I knew I could love again.

"Em…..Billy is keeping Jr. tonight. Will you stay?" he gulped visibly at my question. I hoped he wouldn't mind if we stayed in the guest room. I wanted to sleep in Embry's arms, but there was no way I could do that in the bed that Jake and I shared.

"Yes I would love to stay."

"Ok. The guest room is all ready."

"Oh….ok" Oh gosh he thought I meant he was gonna stay in there himself. Silly man

"Em I am gonna stay with you. I just can't stay in our bed with you. I hope you understand that"

"I do"

"Thank you Embry"

"For what?"

"For believing in us."

We went upstairs to the guest room and as soon as we shut the door Embry's lips were on me. There wasn't one part of my face and neck he didn't kiss or nibble. I was in absolute heaven. He picked me up and brought me to the bed as he gently laid me down and laid over me, fully supporting his weight. He kissed down my neck and to my collarbone, biting and kissing all the way down. He pulled back a bit and looked at me. I nodded to him and he kissed me passionately on the lips. I moaned into his mouth as he parted my lips with his tongue.

I went to go and try to flip him so I could straddle him, but he stopped me.

"This is about you tonight Bella. Let me please you"

I couldn't say anything I was speechless. All I could manage was throwing my head back against the pillow as he devoured my neck with his lips. He moved from my neck to my collarbone as he started to unbutton my shirt and slide it off my shoulders. Once my shirt was off he reached around my back to unhook my bra and slid it down my shoulders. He pulled back to look at me and glanced at my breasts.

"You are so beautiful Bella"

He rolled one of my nipples in his fingers as he sucked on the other. He then moved to the other nipple grasping it in between his teeth as he played with the other one with his fingers.

"Ughhhhh"

He moved back up to my lips and kissed me so passionately I could have cum right then. His lips were so soft and warm. He moved back down my neck kissed each of my nipples and licked down my stomach to my waistband. He glanced up at me and I just nodded for him to go on.

He slid his fingers in my waistband and slowly inched my pants down till he was able to get them completely off. He had to have known how wet I was. My underwear was soaked.

"Bella you are so wet."

He nudged his nose along my slit and inhaled my scent.

"mmmmm Bella. I have to taste you"

I felt the warmth go right to my core and he slipped my panties off running a finger over my slit.

"EMBRY!" I screamed.

"That feel good baby? You like that?"

"Yes. Mmmmm……don't stop Em"

Before I knew it he had replaced his finger with his tongue and I was in ecstasy. I couldn't even concentrate on anything that wasn't Embry. He licked me from my clit all the way down and started fucking me with his tongue while he rubbed my clit with his thumb. He licked back up my slit and circled my clit with his tongue while he inserted two fingers inside of me hitting my g-spot with every thrust.

"Oh God Embry" He licked my clit a few more times and I came as he licked me dry. He moved back up my body and kissed me and I could taste myself on his lips. It was hot!

"Em…..let me touch you please"

"Nope. I told you this is about you."

He stood up and took off his pants and his boxers and laid on top of me kissing my neck. He moved his hand down between us and stroked my slit with his cock and moaned my name from the sensation.

"Bella you feel so good. I can wait to be inside of you"

"What are you waiting for them Embry. FUCK ME!"

His eyes shot open and he unsteadily lined his cock up with my opening and slid in slowly so he didn't hurt me. As soon as he felt that I was ready he thrusted his entire cock into me and we both gasped.

"God Bella you are so tight."

I matched his thrusts. Every time he pumped back into me he hit my clit and I sighed with the feeling of him.

"Turn around and get on your knees Bella. I wanna enter you from behind."

WOW! If I wasn't wet then I surely was now. I rolled over and got up on my knees so that my ass was hitting against his cock.

"Bella!" he screamed as I rubbed myself along his cock. He put his hands on my hips and thrust his cock into me from behind. It felt so good I didn't know if I would be able to handle much more of this. He sat us up so that he was entering me from a new angle and was hitting my g-spot with every thrust as he rubbed my clit with one hand and rolled my nipple with his other hand.

"Harder Embry. Holy Shit go deeper. I want to feel all of you."

With that he dug his fingers in my hips and pounded in and out of me. It was almost painful but it felt great. He was starting to pant harder and harder with every thrust he made and I came wrapping my arms around the back of his neck screaming his name.

He pushed me back towards the pillows and readjusted his grip on my hips and pounded me again.

"Bella I'm gonna cum baby"

"That's right. Cum for me. Let me hear you scream my name"

With that he thrusted inside of me twice and came.

"Bella….oh dear God Bella…UGHHHHH"

He rolled me over and kissed my forehead. "I love you"

"I love you too Embry"

We rolled on our sides and fell asleep as he spooned me. It was great!