Chapter 11

Choices

BPOV

After Jake and Jr. left I went back into the house. I forgot Embry was still here and knew we needed to talk. I was dreading this. I didn't want to break Embry's heart, but I couldn't be without Jacob. Jacob was my life and if he could ever forgive me I wanted to be with him. I walked in the kitchen and Embry was just standing there looking like a deer caught in the headlights.

"Embry."

"Bella don't. I already know what you are going to say. I knew as soon as I saw Jake standing outside."

"I'm sorry"

"Don't apologize please. I can't stand to hear you say I'm sorry"

"Embry I never meant to hurt you"

"Did you even ever love me Bella?"

"Of course. I still do. Part of me will always love you, but Jacob is my soul. If he forgives me I think we can make it work."

"If he forgives you? You didn't do anything wrong. We thought he was dead. I am not gonna lie to you, Bella. I am head over heels in love with you. That is not going to go away easily. I am not sure if Jake and I have a friendship anymore and I need some distance."

"I packed my stuff while you and Jake were talking with Jr. So I will leave you alone. I will be at my mother's if you need anything. You don't have to worry about me."

"Embry"

"Bella it is fine. I knew that if by some miracle this happened I would lose you."

"I love you Bella and maybe in time we can be friends again, but I cant do it now."

"I understand. I do love you Em."

"I know. Bye, Bella."

He walked out of the house and I lunged myself into the bathroom throwing up everything I ate that day. I felt awful. I was nauseous and the last few days I have been exhausted. I went to lay down trying to absorb all the drama from the day. Jacob was alive. I knew he wanted me to take time to decide, but there was no decision to be made. Jacob was my everything. I cried myself to sleep and woke up the next morning feel worse than yesterday.

EPOV

My mom was really trying to be supportive when I got to her house last night, but I really didn't want to talk about it. My heart had been torn out of my chest whether I was aware this would happen or not. Bella and Jr. had become my life. I know that Bella would always choose Jake over me, but I never imagined he would be alive. What's worse is I am sure he hated me now.

I got up and made breakfast. I had no plans on going into work today. I just wanted a day to sulk. I would come back from this, but my life would never be the same. I finished breakfast and took a shower. After I got dressed there was a knock at the door and I dreaded who would be on the other side. I opened it and of course it was who I thought it would be. Standing in front of me was a very pissed off Jake.

"Jake."

"We need to talk, Embry"

"Jake I don't know what there is to say. You're back home and you and Bella are gonna work things out."

"How about the fact that you didn't wait till I was dead more than a year to make the moves on her. What the fuck did you think you were doing kissing her at Jake Jr 's birthday party."

"Are you kidding me?"

"You were supposed to be my best friend, not put the moves on Bella."

I had enough of this shit. What did he want me to do. My heart was broken enough today.

"Jake I think we are done here. I cant do this right now."

"You cant do this? How do you think I felt coming home to find you "married" to my wife? Raising my son?"

"Well Jake if it makes you feel any better the first time we had sex she thought of you the whole time."

The next thing I knew Jake's fist was connecting with my face. I stumbled back a little but recovered quickly and punched him back. He didn't even move. He tried to punch me again but I blocked it and jabbed him the ribs. I don't think it even affected him. If this was how he wanted it to go down then this is how it would go down. Jake maybe a better fighter than me, but I was quicker.

"You are a real shit head, Jake! I did you a fucking favor! Do you have any idea what she went through when you supposedly died? The nights she stayed up crying, not eating. What was I supposed to do?"

"You were supposed to be her friend. You didn't see Quil trying to get in her pants"

"Is that all you think she is to me? I am in love with her. We were gonna start a family."

I guess that was all he needed to hear cause he lunged at me again and knocked me off the porch. I tried to get up but he kicked me in the ribs. I rolled over and grabbed his leg, bringing him to the ground. I punched him in the face a few times before he got his wits about him again. He recovered and managed to elbow me in the face. We punched each other back and forth until Quil came running out of his house yelling at us to stop. He grabbed Jake off of me as he was continuously punching my face. As Quil backed him up I got up and punched him straight in the nose hearing it crack as I made contact.

"You just broke my nose motherfucker!"

"Well you being alive broke my heart so I guess we are even. Get the fuck out of here Jake."

"I have one last thing to say to you. Stay the fuck away from Bella or I will kill you!"

"If she wants to see me nothing is going to stop me"

"Do you want me to kick your ass again Call? Stay away from Bella!"

"Fuck you!" I turned around and walked back into my house. I decided I needed to just chill so I drank a few beers and got drunk hoping it would numb the pain.

BPOV

I couldn't believe this. How could I have not realized that I was two weeks late? This was not what I needed now. I know Embry and I talked about having a baby eventually, but now? I had a test in the bathroom from last month cause I was late but then I got my period the day I bought the test. I peed on the stick and waited the three minutes and sure enough I was pregnant. SHIT!

JPOV

As far as I was concerned Embry could go to hell. He was no friend of mine.

I walked back to the house after I talked to Quil for a bit and Jake Jr. was awake.

"Hey buddy! Did you sleep ok?"

"Yep! I am hungry daddy"

"Ok squirt what do you want?"

"Uncle Embry always makes me pancakes. Do you know how to make pancakes?" My heart sank as he said Embry made him breakfast. I had so much time to catch up on.

"I can make pancakes. Want eggs too?"

"No! Yuck! I hate eggs"

"You hate eggs? Really?"

"Yep. I don't like peanut butter. Mommy said it can kill me if I eat it. I love ketchup and spaghetti is my favorite." Well good to know the kid is allergic to peanut butter. Bella could have told me that.

"Well maybe we can have spaghetti for dinner. I make killer meatballs."

"Daddy why would you feed me meatballs that will kill me?" I almost fell on the floor laughing. He looked so serious.

"It is just an expression buddy. It means they are great!"

"OH!"

He went to go play and I started breakfast. He was a great kid. He had good manners, he behaved and I just loved him to pieces. I really hoped Bella and I could work things out because I couldn't deal with just seeing him on the weekends.

"Breakfast is ready!"

"OK daddy!"

My dad wheeled out of his room just then and Jake forgot that breakfast was on the table and jumped on his lap.

"Whoa hey there Jr."

"Hi Grandpa Billy. Daddy make breakfast. He said later he would make killer meatballs, but don't worry grandpa they wont hurt us."

I chuckled as I shrugged at my dad.

"When are you dropping him off son?"

"Well I was gonna go and see if Bells wanted to go to the park for a little while. I know I told her I wanted her to think about her decision, but I just cant be away from her."

"I understand Jake. I am sure she doesn't want the time to think anyway. Is it wrong that I am mad at Embry and not at her?"

"Is that what happened to your face? You got into a fight with Embry?"

"Yeah"

"You hit Uncle Embry? Why daddy?"

"Um…..we had a fight Jake. He is fine"

"I want to see Uncle Embry now, Daddy"

"I don't think that is a good idea Jake."

"You hate him don't you?"

"No son. I don't hate him."

"Then call him. I want to see him."

"Why don't we go get mommy squirt?"

"You do hate him"

"Jake. Stop"

"I want mommy. She will let me see Uncle Embry."

"Jake buddy"

"I'll call him"

"good"

Shit that kid is too smart for his own good. I went outside and called Embry on my phone. This was painful. I had just gotten into a fight with him and now I had to call him and beg him to come over. FUCK!

"Hello?" his voice came on the line

"Embry"

"Jake?"

"yeah it's me"

"What do you want?"

"Jr. wants to see you. Can you come over?"

"You have got to be fucking kidding me."

"I cant see Bella but I can see Jr?"

"He heard me say that we fought and that I hit you and he wants to know you are ok. Will you please just come over?"

"For him. Don't you dare think for one minute this is for you Black."

"Whatever douche"

I hung up and told Jr. that Embry was on his way and then I called Bella and told her I would be there in a few minutes to pick her up. I really didn't want to be here to watch my son interact with Embry. I know I was acting like an ass but I just couldn't forgive him. Should I be mad at Bella? Hell yeah I should but I just cant. I love her too much.

I left to pick up Bella and found her on the floor of the kitchen crying. I couldn't imagine what she was crying about, but immediately figured it was Embry.

"Bells?"

"Oh Jacob. Hi"

"What's wrong honey?"

"You don't want to know"

"Of course I do."

"I want you to sit down"

Fuck this wasn't good. She decided to stay with Embry and I was done. She told me yesterday that she wanted to be with me. What could have happened?

"Jacob, I'm…..I'm…uh…..pregnant" I felt my stomach drop and thought I was going to throw up. How could this be happening?

"Jacob say something please"

"What do you want me to say Bella? Congratulations? Fucking Congratulations!"

"Jake. I know this is a lot, but please honey"

"Don't you honey me Bella. You are having Embry's baby. Am I just supposed to be ok with this?"

"Of course not. I am sure this is hard for you. Do you think I wanted to get pregnant? This was the last thing I wanted!"

"Embry said you were trying"

"You saw Embry? Is that why your face is beat up Jacob? Did you guys fight?"

"Yes Bella we fought. We wouldn't have if he didn't tell me that you thought of me the first time you fucked"

"Oh my God he told you that?"

"It's not true?" She didn't say anything and just stood there. Should I be flattered that she was thinking of me or pissed? I guess I was kinda both.

"You know I really don't want to do this anymore. Jake Jr. is waiting for you and I told him I was going to come get you, so come on."

How the hell was I gonna deal with this? Of course Embry would want to be part of the baby's life. Could I stay with Bella knowing this information? Now I was the one that needed time. I loved Bella more than life itself, but now. FUCK!

"You need to tell him tonight Bella."

"Jake"

"No it needs to be brought to the table. I need to know where you both stand with this before I decide what I want"

"Jake?"

"This changes some things Bella. I love you, but I don't know if I can do this knowing that you are pregnant."

"Jake please."

We pulled up to the house and ran inside to see Jake. I told Embry Bella needed to talk to him and he ran outside of course. This couldn't get worse.