Chapter 12
Haven't I had enough?
BPOV
"Bella?" Embry asked as he came outside to meet me
"Hey Em."
"Jake said you wanted to talk to me?" He asked distantly
"Um…..yeah"
"Ok you starting out like that can't be good. What is it now Bella? I know I haven't gotten all of my stuff out yet. I will get it this week. I am sure Jake wants to move his stuff back in"
"It's not about that Embry."
"Then what Bella? I don't have time for this."
I knew Embry was hurt by what happened the last couple days and I felt awful. I didn't want to tell him. I knew this would just complicate things even more. Jacob already told me he didn't know if we could be together now. Embry would want me to come back to him so we could raise this baby. Maybe I just needed some time to me to decide what I wanted once and for all and how to handle this mess. I didn't want to take Jake Jr. away from his dad. Maybe I could go see my mom for a few weeks and let Jacob bond with his son.
"This is so going to complicate things even worse Embry, but I don't know what else to do or even how to tell you this so I am just gonna come out with it. I'm pregnant"
Embry just stood there for a little while trying to absorb the information. He looked like he was gonna throw up.
"You're pregnant? How far along?"
"I don't know. I just took a home pregnancy test today because I wasn't feeling right and I noticed I was late. I have to make an appointment with the doctor."
"Wow."
"Is that all you are going to say is wow?"
"What else can I say. I am shocked right now. Yesterday I find out my best friend is alive, that my marriage to you was never really legal because Jake has been alive all this time, I then lost my wife and her child who I have raised as my own, and now I find out that you are pregnant. I think wow about sums it up. Are you going to keep it?"
"I can't believe you just asked me that. You know I don't believe in abortion. Of course I am going to keep it."
"And where do I fit into all of this Bella? Cause I will be damned if Jake is going to raise my kid like it is his."
"Embry I would never do that to you. Of course he would be yours. We would have joint custody and you could see him whenever you wanted."
"Gee thanks, I guess that is supposed to be enough."
"Well the way things are going right now it seems as if the same thing is going to happen with me and Jake"
"Why would you say that?"
"He doesn't know if he can be with me knowing I am pregnant with your child."
"Asshole"
"Embry"
"I need to talk to the two of you together if you can stand to be in the same room for a few minutes. This affects all of us."
I went back inside to ask Billy if Jr. could stay here so that Jake, Embry and I could talk about our situation. I already knew what I was going to do. It was just telling them.
We walked to the backyard of Billy's house and I sat down.
"Well?" Jake asked
"I'm going away for a little while" I explained
"The hell you are. You are not taking my son anywhere. I am just getting to know him!" Jake yelled
"If you would let me finish Jacob….I am going to my mother's for a few weeks and I was going to see if Jr. could stay with you so you could bond more."
"So that's it? You're gonna just run away from this?" Embry asked
"I am not running away. I am going to somewhere neutral to get some answers."
"Ok Bells so tell me this. When you said you loved me and you wanted to be with me was that just bullshit?" Jake asked looking away from me.
"Of course not Jacob. I do love you and I do want to be with you, but I love Embry too and I have to figure out what is best for my children and me."
"So there is still a chance you could decide you want to divorce me and be with him?"
"Jacob I am not going to answer that."
"Can Jr. stay with you for a few weeks?"
"What is a few? How do I know you are gonna come back at all."
"Because our son is here and I love him. Did you think I was abandoning him? Really after the last five years?"
"No. I just wanted to hear your answer."
"You know Jacob, I can take him with me if that would be easier"
"NO!" Jake screamed. "He can stay here Bells, I just don't want you to go."
"I don't either, but I need some time without interference from the two of you"
"You know what Bella? Have a nice trip and if you decide you want me in this baby's life let me know." Embry said as he into the house to say goodbye to Jr. and then went home.
"Come with me to the shed for a minute Bells" Jake requested
"Why the hell would I want to go out to that nasty ass shed?"
"I fixed it up yesterday and I am going to make it into a playhouse for Jake."
"Oh"
JPOV
I knew I had only just started working on the shed but I thought maybe if I could get Bella alone we could have a few private moments and I can remind her why she loves me so much. I know that is manipulating, but I will do whatever I have to do. I knew that we would work things out, whether she was pregnant or not. This woman was my life and Embry and I would just have to find a way to co-exist. All I needed was to show her what she would be missing.
"So Bells, what do you think?"
"Um…..it looks about the same Jacob."
"Gee thanks baby"
"So….um…..when do you think you are going to leave?"
"The day after tomorrow. I have to make the flight arrangements, call my mom and pack."
"Oh" I moved closer to her and caressed her face with the back of my hand.
"Jake….." She sighed
"What? I missed you. I haven't touched you in five years Bells."
"Jacob come on. I just told you I still love Embry and you still want to have sex?"
"No. I want to make love to you, baby. It is not just sex."
"That is not what I meant Jacob and you know it"
"Come on….remember how good it was? How much you liked it when I did this?" I pressed her against the wall and kissed the side of her neck as she moaned. She smelled and tasted heavenly. How I missed her. I couldn't let her not choose me. I had to be with her.
"Jacob. Stop"
"Why? You know you want me"
"You are not making this easy Jake"
"I'm not trying to Bells. I want you. I want to kiss you and hold you" I said to her as I got closer to her delectable ear. "Taste you" I whispered into her ear and she melted into me a bit.
"Jake…..please don't do this."
"Do what? I want you. I want to trace my finger down the length of your body and touch every part of you and lick my way back up. I wanna be inside of you, hearing you scream my name. If you choose Embry I won't ever know how it feels to be with you again" I know that was a low blow but I was running out of ammo. "Please Bells?" I whispered in her hair. "Let me please you"
She leaned back and looked at me for a second biting her lip in that adorable way when she is thinking of something. I didn't give her a chance to respond. I tightly held her against he wall and kissed her with everything I had. She parted her lips and I darted my tongue into her mouth to find hers.
"Mmmmmm, Bells. Just like I remembered." I think she was done fighting. I kissed her for a few more seconds and moved my lips to her jaw line. I snaked my tongue out and licked down her neck to her collarbone and sucked on the skin there. The next thing I did I wasn't even in control of. I placed my hands on both sides of her button up shirt and ripped it off of her, as the buttons scattered on the floor. I had remembered every inch of Bella, but today it was like seeing her over again for the first time. She was gorgeous.
"Beautiful" I whispered.
I reached around her back and unhooked her bra and slid it down her body as her breasts came jumping out. I ripped off my shirt and pressed my chest against hers. I didn't think I just acted. I bent down and grabbed her nipple in my mouth as I caressed her other breast in my hand.. She moaned again and I knew I had her. I hated that our first time after I came back was in this shed, but I had to think fast.
I snaked my hand down her side to her skirt and slipped my fingers inside her panties.
"God Bells. You are so wet. You feel so good baby" That made her groan even more. I circled her clit with my fingers and kissed my way down her body till I got to the top of her skirt. I ripped it off with her panties following soon after.
"Jake that was my favorite skirt."
"Sorry I just couldn't resist seeing your beautiful body naked before me. You are more gorgeous than I remember. I love you so much."
"I love you too Jacob."
I got on my knees and licked my way down to her slit and spread her legs so I could gain access to her clit. I couldn't believe the sight before when I looked up. There was Bella, completely naked, her hands in her hair and waiting for me to lick her.
"I cant wait to taste you."
"Then what are you waiting for Jake?"
That was all I needed. I sat down between her legs so that my back was against the wall and spread her lips with my fingers. I couldn't believe how wet she was. All I could think of was how sweet she tasted the last time we did this as I stuck my tongue out and licked her from the bottom of her slit to her clit and circle around making my way back down and up again repeatedly.
"Oh Fuck. Jacob!" She screamed as I inserted two fingers inside her. She was so warm. I licked her continuously still her legs started to shake. I grabbed her legs and pulled her down some so she was sitting directly on my face. I could stay like this forever. I sucked her clit as she came screaming my name so loud I am sure all of La Push heard her. I licked her dry and gave her a sweet kiss right on her lips and stood back up so I could kiss her other lips.
"See how good you taste baby?"
She reached down into my shorts and grabbed my cock. My head rolled back at the sensation of feeling her little hands grab me. I was already hard from eating her out, but it sure didn't hurt any feeling her stroke me. I kissed her passionately and pulled her head back by her hair and moved down to her neck.
"Bella that feels so good, but I want to be inside you."
I pushed my shorts the rest of the way down and stepped out of them. I lifted Bella so that she was against the wall and at the right height to take me in. I rubbed the head of my cock against her slit and then slipped inside her wet, tight pussy.
"Ugh, you are so tight."
"Jake…..faster Jake….faster"
I sped up thrusting in and out of her as she moaned and pulled my hair. I knew I wasn't gonna last long, but she was enjoying every inch of me. I placed her on the ground and turned her around so I could enter her from behind. I slipped back inside of her and pulled back out slowly. When I thought she wasn't expecting it I rammed my cock inside of her making her scream my name. I grabbed her hair and pulled her back and assaulted her neck as I continued pumping her.
"Oh Jake! I'm gonna cum baby."
"No! wait for me. I am so close Bells."
I could feel her clench her walls around my cock and I was done for. I grabbed her hips, thrust full into her and came just as she was screaming my name again.
"Jake that was incredible"
"See what you would missing if you didn't pick me"
She swatted at me "Jerk"
I gave her my shirt and we walked back to the house. Billy was smiling as he took in the sight of both of us.
"I see you two worked out your differences?" He chuckled. Bella blushed and grabbed Jake on her lap.
"Hey buddy listen to me for a second ok?"
"Sure mommy"
"Mommy is going to go see Grandma Renee for a few weeks and you are going to stay here with daddy and Grandpa Billy. Ok?"
"Why mommy?"
"I just need to go and spend some time with Grandma"
"Ok, but I am gonna be with daddy?"
"Yep squirt, just you and me!"
"OK!"
"Alright. Lets go home and we will see daddy tomorrow."
"Can you come get him in the morning so I can get some stuff done."
"Sure babe. I love you Bella"
"I love you too Jacob" I kissed her goodbye and hugged Jake.
"Love you buddy"
"Love you too daddy! See you tomorrow!"
EPOV
"Hi Ma!" I sulked as I walked through the door.
"Embry what's wrong?" My mom asked
"Well it looks like you are gonna be a grandma"
"WHAT?"
"Bella's pregnant"
"Ok….and what is she going to do now? Is she going to stay with you?"
"I don't know. She is leaving for Florida in a few days to go spend some time with her mother and decide what she wants. She may decide she doesn't want Jake or me"
"Ugh that girl makes me so mad. You never should have gotten together with her. She is nothing by trouble."
"THAT IS NOT TRUE MOTHER! I LOVE HER!'
"Embry Call don't you talk to me like that. You need to get over her and move on. When is she leaving for Florida?"
"The day after tomorrow"
"Is she staying at her house right now?"
"Yes mom why?"
"Just want to make sure she is not telling you she needs to decide but is staying with Jake."
"He is her husband mom."
"Whatever Embry. I am tired I am going to bed. I have some errands to run tomorrow so I will see you tomorrow night. Love you son!"
"Love you too mom."
She went upstairs and I crashed on the couch. I just want this to be over with either way.