Chapter five: an endless nightmare

It was a week after Emmett's transformation. Me and Emmett were good friends. But it wasn't just a friendship for me, it was more. But I guess Emmett didn't saw more. And I understood that. I changed him, I end his life. And I had to learn to live with that. But that doesn't stop a friendship.

I was thinking when I was going to tell him my story. My past. It was hard for me, because it was a very sensitive subject for me, but he deserved it to know. Emmett didn't show any impatience. He waited until I was ready, and that's another reason from the million that I loved him. But I guess it was time, because I didn't know if I could handle it if I waited any longer. I trusted him.

I sighed when I stood up and walked outside. Emmett and Edward were fighting, like always. They still didn't like each other. But it was kind of funny, to see them fighting. Okay, I have to admit, I loved it when Emmett got aggressive. He was so cute with his dimples.

'Go out of my head!' Emmett yelled as usual at Edward. Edward laughed but didn't say anything. He enjoyed to be in Emmett's head. Emmett took a step closer. 'If you don't shut up now then you can't talk anymore!'

Edward laughed now even harder. 'Please Emmett. It's not my fault that you always think about Rosalie!'

I froze and Emmett too. He didn't look at me. Edward knew that he was gone too far now.

'Well, er... but you're not the only male,' he tried. I swallowed, knowing that Emmett was furious now. I gasped when I saw Edward flying in the river.

'Can you now shut up?' Emmett screamed after him. My jaw fell open when I saw Edward. He was wet and dirty. He didn't look... happy. I couldn't resist myself from laughing. Emmett joined me. 'That dirt looks good on you!' he teased his brother.

'Wait, McCarty, I'm not done with you,' Edward pointed threatening at Emmett. 'Just wait,' and with that he punched into the house.

I was still laughing with Emmett. 'I always wanted someone who was stronger then him!' I chuckled. It was a long time ago that I laughed like this. Too long. I looked up at Emmett. This strange man, who I found in the woods, made me happy.

'Emmett?' I asked him.

He stopped with laughing. 'Yeah?'

'Eh, can we maybe go for a walk?' I asked him as sweet as I could.

'Sure,' I took his hand in mine while we walked towards the forest. We were used to walk hand in hand. A couple or not, we find it nice.

We walked quietly through the forest, we heard birds singing, and we heard the river flow. It was so peaceful that I thought that I was dreaming. But I snapped quickly out that thought, vampires couldn't dream.

We were now in a meadow. We were surrounding with flowers and trees. He sat down on the ground and slapped on the ground next to him, for me a sign to sit.

I shook my head. 'I like this dress, I don't want it to get dirty.'

He frowned. 'Tell me, are you really afraid that he is getting dirty or you just want a excuse so you can shop for a new dress?'

My jaw fell open. I heard him grinning. 'Well... er... no... just...' I sputtered. 'Oh just forget it!'

He laughed. 'Just sit down, it's okay. It's just a dress I mean. Look around, look where you are!' he spread his arms. 'It's so peaceful, look at the mountains, look at the flowers and the trees, look at the river!'

He was right. I had to respect and love the nature. I was always afraid of my clothes or my hair. But I had to enjoy the nature. But that doesn't mean that I wanted my dress to get dirty.

'I just don't want to get my dress dirty!' I defended myself.

He rolled his eyes. 'Do whatever you want. Sit on a rock or something. If need be sit on my lap!'

I thought of the last one. Why not? 'Okay!' I giggled when I saw his face while I sat on his lap. He didn't saw that coming.

'Er... okay,' he murmured. I laughed but then I realized that this was it. I had to tell him.

'Er, I think that you should know my past,' I bowed my head and looked at my hands. 'You deserve to know.'
'It's okay, if you're not ready for this, I can wait. As long as you're happy with it,' he whispered.

I smiled a little bit at him. 'No, you should know,' I took a deep breath before I started my story. I hoped that Emmett would still like me after this. I couldn't imagine losing him.
'It was 1933, I was rich, beautiful and vain. I came from a rich family. One day I met a guy, named Royce King the second,' I gritted my teeth when I spoke his name. Emmett squeezed me lightly in the hand. 'We talked and we fell in love. Well if you could call it "love",' I smirked at the word love. 'Two months later we were engaged,' I felt Emmett froze. But he said that I should keep going. 'Royce send me everyday roses, and as naive as I was, I was happy. One day I was by my best friend, Vera. Vera was married and she had a baby boy, named Henry,' I smiled while I looked at Emmett. 'You remind me of Henry,' he grinned with me. 'It was the first time in my life that I was really jealous at somebody. I always dreamed of having my own family. But I was so naive that I thought that I could be happy with Royce.
That night before I went home I saw Vera's husband kissing her. It was a kiss full of passion and love. Royce never kissed me like that, with so much love. But I pushed that thought from me. I was engaged with Royce, and we were going to be happy. It was dark when I walked home. I didn't call my father to pick me up, I was almost home. Until I saw them...' I shivered.

Emmett wrapped his arms around me. 'It's okay,' he whispered in my ear.
'It was Royce, with his friends. Drunk. "Rose!" I heard Royce call. "Here's my Rose!",' I sighed. I didn't wanted to go in details. 'I don't want to go in details, they raped and beat me, and left me on the cold street to die. It was an endless nightmare, I waited to die. But the death never came. Carlisle found me and changed me. After my painful transformation, Carlisle told me what I was. I hated everything, I could never be mother,' I said sadly. I didn't realize that Emmett was shaking like crazy. 'Em? Are you okay?' I asked him worried. He pushed me softly from his lap and stood up. I never saw him like that.

He walked towards a tree and punched at it angry. The tree fell down. 'Where are they?' he said furious through his teeth. 'If I'm done with them, they wished they never laid their eyes on you. I'm going to rip them in pieces. Making them beg. I'm going to let them scream in pain,' he snarled.

I stood up and touched his shoulder. 'I took care of that,' I reassured him. 'I killed them, I saved Royce as last. I was wearing a wedding dress that I stole for the occasion. Don't worry, I tortured him slowly to death.'

Emmett looked with wide eyes at me and smiled a bit. 'That's my girl,' he said while he hugged me.

'I tried to absorb my past, but I couldn't. It was just too hard for me. That asshole took everything from me, my humanity, my motherhood, my trust in mans, everything!' and suddenly I cried in his arms. Waiting for tears who never came. I finally told Emmett my story. I thought I would be strong enough but I didn't realize that I was so weak after what Royce did to me.

'I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you, to protect you,' Emmett said gentle to me. 'Those bastards didn't deserve to live, I wish I could kill them. I promise you Rose, I'm going to protect you. Never, and I mean, never, is this going to happen to you again,' I felt his fingers under my chin, force me to look in his beautiful eyes, who were still red. 'Never is somebody going to hurt you. I still can't believe it, that somebody can do that to an Angel,' he closed his eyes and swallowed.

His words calmed me down. He meant so much to me, I couldn't believe it. I couldn't stand it anymore to being part from him, he comforted me with his words, he held me on my place with his hugs.

'I'm not an Angel,' I buried my head in his chest. 'I am vain, selfish...'

'Stop,' Emmett interrupted me firmly. 'Don't talk about yourself like that, you're sweet, beautiful, nice, and very loyal. It's your past,' he stroked my hair. 'Believe me, you're an Angel. And for the hundredth time, I'm fine with this life,' he grinned.

I looked deep in his eyes. 'Really?' I asked him.

'Really. Did I ever lie to you?' Emmett smiled his incredible smile.

And with that I pressed my lips softly at his.