So Cold
Breaking Benjamin
Crowded streets are cleared away
One by one
Hollow heroes separate
As they run
You're so cold keep your
Hand in mine
Wise men wonder while
Strong men die
Show me how to end this all right now
Show me how defenseless you really are
Satisfied and empty inside
Well, that's all right, lets give this another try!
If you find your family
Don't you cry
In this land of make-believe
Dead and dry
You're so cold but you
Feel alive
Lay your hand on me one last time
Show me how to end this all right now
Show me defenseless you really are
Satisfied and empty inside
Well, that's alright, lets give this another try!
Show me how to end this all right now
Show me defenseless you really are
Satisfied and empty inside
Well, that's alright, lets give this another try!
It's alright
It's alright
It's alright
It's alright
It's alright
It's alright
It's alright
It's alright
It's alright
Harry watched with concealed horror as the death eaters terrorized a muggle village. Snape stopped the image, then rewound it, forcing Harry to view it over and over.
Crowded streets are cleared away
One by one
He watched as those who called themselves 'the resistance'—not strictly part of the order, but the foot soldiers of the thing—grew wild with nerves. He watched them flee, or surrender.
Hollow heroes separate
As they run
Snape broke the memory, and began to pull his hands from the boys' own. Harry had needed physical contact to transfer the memory, as no pensieve was present and he was not a very skilled occlumence.
You're so cold keep your
He wanted those frozen fingers to leave, to not touch his skin again. And yet…
Hand in mine
His hands tightened, keeping Snape's own hooked with his.
Wise men wonder while
Strong men die
What followed, he could not be held accountable for. Who knew that such a small gesture would result with those cold hands all over him? And who knew that he would love it, crave for it to happen again.
Show me how to end this all right now
He felt like giving up, giving in. why did he have to learn this all anyway? It's not like he gave a wit who won. He was only a toy bauble to be used and passed between both sides.
Show me how defenseless you really are
Snape could not keep his tongue from leaving Harry defenseless. Harry loved it, and hated it in the same breath. No one but this man saw him like this. No one but this man could render him so utterly raw.
Satisfied and empty inside
Sated hunger for touch and feeling, empty where it used to count so much. That's what he was now. That's what this war had made him.
Well, that's all right, lets give this another try!
It was now of little matter. Once something was lost, memory of the thing faded over time, and left you with only a memory of that loss, not the thing itself. It hurt less that way. And so he returned.
If you find your family
Snape was showing him a small girl, bent over the remains of her family and crying as a wand pointed threateningly at her from outside of the memory's vision.
Don't you cry
In this land of make-believe
It's not like this was real, anyway. Not to him.
Dead and dry
He had long since let himself go.
You're so cold but you
Such cold flesh on his.
Feel alive
Alive and moving against him, making him feel again.
Lay your hand on me one last time
"Once more. Please sir, just once more,"
Sometimes he hated how that man could make him beg.
Show me how to end this all right now
Why not ask Snape?
Show me how defenseless you really are
Why not let him see? The scars are evident on his flesh anyway. The man would love to see him powerless. He always did.
Satisfied and empty inside
This is me.
Well, that's alright, lets give this another try!
Uncaring. Thrown to the winds, just another fuck. Another screw up.
Show me how to end this all right now
Show me how defenseless you really are
Satisfied and empty inside
Well, that's alright, lets give this another try!
So that was how things went. Live on just for it and steal the bit of feeling from another's body. Savor the contempt and lust upon their face, the next minute, they're slowly dying.
A stray Avada Kedavra spell.
It's alright
One less man to burn in this hell.
It's alright
Kneeling by his fading side.
It's alright
Crying out 'its alright'
It's alright
Caring not, to be reassured
It's alright
Whispered soft,
It's alright
The man's last word.
It's alright
Crying, repeating,
It's alright
It goes unheard
It's alright
They both said
The same exact words.