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Summary: All couples have the dreaded "bump in the road". Even Lily and James. Originally from my story 'Kodak'.

Disclaimer: I don't own anything. If I did I would most certainly be not failing maths right now. JKR owns it all, the genius.

Chapter 11: In which she talks

She was sitting in the Heads dormitories. Her hair was out and falling behind her in the most beautiful way. James walked up slowly to the magenta couch and walked carefully around it. He sat down at the coffee table and coughed softly.

Lily's eyes shot up from her book and, upon seeing James, immediately returned to them.

"Lily, I want you to hear me out." He asked, leaning forward a bit.

"No, James, I won't." She replied, not looking up from her book.

"Come on, Lily!"

"No, James. How about you hear me out." She carefully folded down the corner of her page and closed the book. She placed it beside and sat up and looked James in the eye. "Do you know how I felt when I saw you kissing…her?"

"No,"

"No. Exactly. So don't even try to begin and empathise with me. You're all 'I can't live without Lily, what am I going to do without her?' but have you thought about what I'm feeling? No, you just focused on yourself and how much of a twat you are.

"What happened to your everlasting love for me, James? What was all that? Just words? 'Cause I know what I felt was more than words. We had something special, James. But of course you had to go and fuck it up, like always." James winced slightly when she swore, not used to the harsh word formed on her lips. He couldn't deny what she was saying though. She was a bright witch.

"Sorry," James whispered.

"That word couldn't mean less to a fucking hippopotamus, James. It's been thrown around so fucking much in the past month I don't even know what it means anymore. I thought you had changed, but clearly I was wrong. I thought that we were one of those couples. Another Frank and Alice. Do you know what I mean?"

"Yes,"

"People would say, 'Oh, so you're going to Lily and James'?' or 'Who are you hanging with?' 'Lily and James,' we were the couple James. We made it happen. We proved that people could overcome their pet hates and welcome them into their lives as a friend and something more. But you just threw it all fucking away."

"You know I would never do that, Lily! I spent years,

years, trying to get you to go out with me! Why would I throw it all away? Only a completely retard would do that,"

"Well, you did it so you must be a complete retard…way to insult yourself, Potter." Lily spat out his last name with venom, her eyes bright and her cheeks burning.

"Please Lily."
"No, Potter. Let me be angry with you. I haven't been angry at you for too long."
"Okay. Fine. But I'm not giving up. I don't deserve this. I didn't kiss Greengrass. Seriously, Lily, just think through that scenario. You were behind her and making faces at her and I was trying not to laugh. You saw me get angry. You saw me protest."

They were standing up now and glaring at each other fiercely. He could see Lily counting to 10 in her head as she attempted to remain calm. She closed her eyes slowly.
"You still let her kiss you." She whispered.
"I tried not too."
"Well, clearly you didn't try hard enough." Lily replied, snapping her eyes open.
"Fine."

James turned around and began walked into his room, shutting the door behind him. Lily mimicked the boy, but decided to slam the door shut. She turned around and leant against the wall and slowly slid down it. She held her head in her hands and promptly burst into tears. James opened the door quietly and sat down next to her. He pulled his knees up to his chest and wrapped his arms around his knees. Lily sat cross-legged with her hands folded neatly in her lap.

"James,"
"Lily,"
"I hate you so much right now." James winced slightly. He kissed the top of her lightly and buried his face in her hair.

"I know, babe, I know,"
"I hate you so much. You swore your love for me. For the past seven years, every day, at exactly the same time you would come up and tell me you love me. Without fail. I believed you."

"It's still true."

"I hope so."
Lily tilted her head upwards a little bit so that she was staring into James' eyes. He smiled softly at her and leant in slowly.

"Can I?" He asked. She nodded her head and closed the space between them. This was one heck of a kiss. They broke away, eyes shining.

"I still hate you."

"Good."

"But I don't if I can do this."
"Consult your pillow,"
"I will, don't worry. I'll consult all day tomorrow as well."
"You sure?"
"Night, James."
"I love you, Lily."
"I sure hope so…"
Lily got up and opened her door. James stood up and looked into her eyes. Tears were still spilling over and dripping slowly down her cheeks. He kissed her softly on her cheek and walked away. Lily watched him walk away and placed a hand to her wet cheek.

She walked over to her bed and flopped down on it. She heard a quiet mew coming from beside her and turned to see her kitten, Lemon, next to her.

"Well, what the fuck am I supposed to do now, Lems?"

A/N: Likey?
The next one will have the times and places etc. of when he tells her he loves her.
Cute!

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