Semi-AU. They're actors... but they still have their powers. Don't question me!

Akuroku yummy-ness. With some Rox/Hayner. Rated M for... certain reasons... Nothing very graphic, I don't know if this could even classify as a lime (I wouldn't know, I've never read one. Just lemonz) There's a bit of sexual language and... stuff.

'Shit. That can't be normal. As embarrassing as it sounds, I think I have to… jerk off,' Axel thought, turning on the shower. 'My body is pissed. I keep getting hard over Roxas, but I never relieve myself. I'm sexually deprived! Ever since I met Roxas, I can't get it up for anyone but him. I've tried sleeping with other people, but I couldn't do it.'

He sighed. He used to love sex. It was one of his favorite activities… After a moment, his thoughts migrated back to Roxas. He fantasized about what the blonde might have let him do to him if he hadn't had this problem.

'He looks like a twig, but flexible. He seems like he would be relatively easy to bend… I think he's an archer*, too… the way his little muscles rippled when he moaned…'

"Ah—!" Axel suddenly felt release and the pain was replaced with the mild ecstasy of orgasm. "There. Happy now?"

Deciding to put on regular, non-constricting jeans, he changed before heading to the fridge. He took the milk carton out and drank from it before noticing something on the couch. He raised an eyebrow as he put the milk away and wiped his mouth. "You're still here?"

Roxas flinched, blushing nervously. "I was worried… Are you okay? Was it my fault?"

"Only thing you did was look good. I can't really say it's your 'fault' for being cute."

The blonde smiled.

'Damn, he's adorable… He put his shirt back on. Pity.'

"Axel…?"

"Yeah?" had he spaced?

"I… never finished…"

"Huh?"

"Making tonight memorable."

'No, you're done. I doubt I'll ever forget the night guy-cramps** ruined any and all chances I had of sleeping with you,' he thought.

"I want… to finish…"

"Hm?"

"You told me to entertain you, but all I did was make you sick. I want to make it up to you…"

Axel sat on the couch again, holding out his arms a bit. "Well, come on, then."

Roxas straddled Axel's lap, gently taking the redhead's face in his hands and looking into bright green eyes. He sighed sensually as Axel's hands firmly grasped his waist.

"You're really cute."

"I like you."

"I know, baby."

Roxas blushed, his eyes half-lidded as the two males began kissing each other slowly. Axel's hands rubbed his sides until the boy moaned quietly into the kiss.

Axel pulled away to break the kiss, but Roxas leaned forward, begging for more. Axel moved back again, this time pecking Roxas' forehead to signal the blonde to stop trying to claim his lips. "Roxas…"

"No…" he rubbed his face against Axel's chest, hoping the redhead wouldn't try to push him away.

"Can you lift your arms for me? And arch your back a little," he cooed.

Roxas hesitated before leaning backwards slightly and lifting his arms. The hands that Axel had been rubbing his sides with began lifting the boy's shirt slowly.

Axel shuddered as his fingers traced the ribcage and abdomen of the small boy. He was so pure. New. The boy had never been touched sexually or violently. Axel let out a shaky sigh of arousal. It felt like he was unwrapping a present: wanting to get into it quickly, but knowing he had to be gentle in case it was something fragile.

His hands ran up over Roxas' armpits, which showed no signs of adolescence. Smooth, soft, dry skin which (from Roxas' shudders), was sensitive. The boy must have only recently started puberty.

"You have quite the body, Roxas…" he let the shirt fall to the floor and grinned. "Can you sit up on your knees for me? Just a little?"

"But we won't be level!"

"I'll be perfectly level with something I want."

Roxas gasped, breath catching as Axel's tongue fondled his nipple until he moaned, arching backwards as tears ran down his face. "No, Axel… stop… I'm going to… Don't!"

Axel stopped. "Are you ashamed? Afraid?"

"I don't like that…" he sniffled. "It's strange… I don't like it…"

"Sit down, then," Axel said, bored. 'Well, I can forget the foreplay. First time desensitization: failure. I scared him off.'

Roxas embraced him. "I'm sorry! Don't be mad at me! Don't leave me!"

'He really is cute…' Axel groaned, yearning for the boy to initiate some sort of sexual contact. "Roxas."

"Axel…?"

'I can't wait anymore! I need him now!'

He carried Roxas and dropped him onto his bed. The boy shrieked in surprise. "Axel! What are you doing?"

"You."

Roxas hadn't expected him to be so forward. (So? Axel's horny. He's only wanted to get into your pants for a year now.) "Axel!"

"Have I ever mentioned that this is my favorite kind of sex? Deflowering virgins is always fun…"

"Don't hurt me, Axel…" he sobbed.

Axel hushed him. "You're alright… I'm not going to hurt you."

"But I'm—"

"I know you're a virgin. I know how to not hurt you. I'll be as gentle as possible, okay?"

"I'm scared, Axel!" tears ran down his cheeks. "I'm so scared!"

"I know… shh… you're okay. You're safe. I won't hurt you."

Roxas sniffled. "P-promise?"

"I promise."

"You'll be gentle?"

"I'll be gentle."

Roxas snuggled against Axel's shirt. "…okay. I trust you."

"You're so cute," he nuzzled his face. "Daisuki." (Translation: "I like you.")

Roxas blushed. "Axel… suki… suki nanda…" (Translation: "Axel… I love… I love you…")

"Roxas, Roxas. Saying 'I love you' so soon! What would your mother think?"

"Axel!"

"I'm teasing you, Roxas. You're such an adorable little virgin."

He kissed the boy's neck. "Ah…" he sighed nervously.

"Are you ready?"

"No."

"How about now?"

"Be gentle."

"That's a yes, then?"

Roxas sighed. "Why do you of all people have to be my first time?"

"Because you like me and I want you. Logic."

"Just… get it over with…"

Axel started unbuttoning his own shirt, but Roxas took his hands, making the pyro look into to sapphire eyes of the boy.

"I—I'll do it…"

Axel smiled. "Alright."

Roxas' hands were shaking, and Axel's lips and mouth massaged his neck romantically to relax him. "Nn—Axel, cut it out… That's distracting…"

"You really don't want me to stop, do you?" Axel breathed where his mouth had been just a moment before.

"No… I'm just nervous."

"It's your first time. Just relax and let me work my magic."

The boy kissed his lips gently. "I love you…" he whispered quietly. "Axel…"

Axel hesitated, unsure how to reply. Did he love Roxas? Or was he simply hyper-focused in his lust? Roxas had been just out of his grasp for a year, so his desire had escalated to new heights. Was that love? He wondered… once he slept with Roxas, would he care about him anymore?

"Axel?" Roxas' eyes watered. "I'm sorry. I should think before I speak. Forgive me… don't go…"

"Roxas. After this… I can tell you how I feel," he said the only words he could piece together. "I'm sorry that I don't fully understand my own emotions… But I promise that I won't leave you. I'll stay with you as long as you want me around."

After a minute, Roxas replied. "Okay," he said. Either way, he was going to lose his virginity to Axel if he wanted to know if Axel loved him. It wasn't very fair if the redhead didn't love him, but Roxas clung to the hope that the older man would return his feelings. "I'm ready."

*archer: someone prone to bending backwards when they feel pleasure. It is very appealing to the eye (i.e. it looks sexy.). Axel enjoys this concept.
**guy-cramps: blueball, or just the pain of having frequent unrelieved arousals. Quite painful, similar to extreme menstral cramps, but for males. Axel has this problem because of his Roxas obsession.

I feel kinda bad for the kid at this point. Poor Roxy-kins.

Axel pretty much confessed to himself that he's a pedophile while he was taking off Roxas' shirt. He was so turned on by the fact that Roxas hadn't gone through puberty...