Okay, I broke my rule and I'm posting a chapter even though I haven't gotten any reviews.. come on people show a girl some love, or even tell me how much you hate me for the story, I don't care! Just tell me what you think! I need some feedback.. really! This chapter has some flashbacks in it, which will explain.. a little bit. But you'll have to wait for the next few chapters to learn more, and I won't post those till I get some reviews, come on people! I believe in you.. press that little button and give me some encouragement or hate, either way give it up! The songs are; "I'll be your lover too" and "Never think" by Robert Pattinson.

"And you'll look at me
with eyes that see
And melt into each other's arms
And so I come to be the one
who's always standing next to you

Reach out for me
So I can be the one
who's always reaching out for you
Yes I will, yes I will"

Lucas:

I used to have a life, a damn good one at that. Last summer, was it. I had it all. Brooke and I were together and happier than I ever thought possible, I had a growing relationship with my brother, I had Haley on my side, Peyton had slowly became a part of my life, and my mom and Keith had finally figured out what we'd all known all along, they we're in love. They got engaged a month before it all changed. I'd never seen my mom happier. I used to smile looking back on it all, but now I look around at what I've become, and what I have and no smile appears on my face. It's pathetic and I hate the person I've become, but its clear for all to see there's no changing.
I left the man's house who helped keep it all away and started my walk home just the way I liked it, I was numbed and wasn't aware of all the [Censored] wrong in this life of mine.

"Lucas!" The energetic sound of someones voice startled me and I turned around, some guy I used to be on the team with, and just when I thought my night was getting better. "Hey, Lucas, man.. it's been forever, how've you been?" He came up to me standing there staring, expecting a reply, I knew how to respond to what was expected. I'd gotten good at pretending, "Ah.. you know.. the same." I tried to smile a little, just wanting him to go away. "Yeah, yeah, I know all about that." He looked down, "I heard about your mom and Keith, man, I wanted to.. say something back then but I didn't know." That was all I needed, I was out of here, "It's cool.. Ah don't even worry about. Look, man, I need.. to go, I've got some.. places to be." He nodded a little, "Good seeing you." I'd said all I was able to in that short amount of time so I walked off.

Peyton hadn't left my mind this time around, I thought I had numbed myself enough to not be aware of much ofanything. But there she was stuck in my head, never leaving. In a perfect world I'd be there for her, holding her hand. But it wasn't, so I won't.

One year and thirty one days ago:

"How do I look?" I had glanced up from Brooke to look at my mom, it still surprised me sometimes to see that look in her eyes, I had never seen her look that happy. Brooke jumped up, thrilled, "KAREN! You look beautiful!" I shook my head a little and smiled, "You look great, mom." Her face lit up, "I hope so. Tonight's a very special night." Brooke had been so excited by that simple statement, "He's gonna propose, I just know it." I hoped that was true. They'd been waiting around too long for the right moment, putting their lives on hold. I really hoped things would all change tonight. A light tap on the door was her signal she smiled a nervous smile, Brooke leaned in and whispered something in her ear, and with that she gave a little wave to the both of us and she was off. Leaving me and Brooke, that moment was everything I could ask for.

Peyton:

I knew I was in a hospital before I'd even opened my eyes, the stiff sheets and uncomfortable bed, oh and the incessant beeping was a dead giveaway. I opened my eyes and the abundance of white burned them. That's when the pain started, my head felt as if hammers we're being smashed into it from all sides. A nurse walked in, her brightly colored uniform burning my eyes even farther. "Oh, your awake." She didn't smile, that's the first thing I noticed, "Now that you're awake the therapist is going to want to come up here and talk to you." She scribbled something onto the clipboard she was carrying and all I could think about was that my head felt like it was about to explode. "I need water." My raspy voice startled me, but she simply nodded her head and walked out of the room. I never did get the damn water. But I did get the visit from the therapist, she told me the news, that I was trapped in the psych ward for the next five days, but that was really just depending, it could of course be longer. "Can I have visitors?" She looked at me with sympathy in her eyes, I hated that damn look. "Not right now, no. You need to put full focus into getting better, everything else will fall into place."

Haley:

Brooke and Nathan we're both asleep in the chairs next to me. I wished I was. A woman in a white coat walked out of the doors nearest us, "The family of Peyton Sawyer?" I raised my hand a little, she walked over to us and sat down, "We haven't been able to get a hold of Miss Sawyer's father, do you have any idea how we could?" I didn't of course, none of us did. "No, he works on a boat.. he's off to sea a lot." She nodded her head, "Miss Sawyer will have to stay in the psychiatric ward for the next five days, possibly longer. She's going to be undergoing a series of mental health tests. This is not going to be an easy recovery." I wanted to cry for Peyton, I wanted to go back and fix it all for her. But we couldn't do that now. "Can we see her?" She shook her head slowly, "Not at this time, no. She needs to focussolely on her recovery." I nodded as if I understood why being surrounded by her friends would prevent her from recovering. "I'm Dr. Williams, if you have any questions, I'll try my best to provide you with an answer. Be sure to just let me know." She smiled and walked off. Just that simply.

Brooke:

Hearing your best friend is trapped in a psych ward and you can't see her, can't tell her you love her and promise to doeverything you can to help her get better, that's one of the hardest thing's you can hear. Trust me. I had heard those words spoken to me over an hour ago and I still couldn't comprehend the whole situation. I just wanted my PSawyer back. I wanted to know that everything was gonna work out for her, that we could just go back to last summer before things got so bad. But that wasn't happening so instead I wrapped my arms around Nathan and prayed for it all to go away. In the safety of his arms I felt as if maybe it all would, maybe I'd wake up and this will have all been a horrible nightmare. Maybe.

"Save your soul
Before you're too far gone
Before nothing can be done."