Gravitation non jouir.
Red to Black Berry
I'm a little behind but not too much, sorry for the wait.
Rynn-Rynn – Yeah, I really couldn't help myself on that one.
X.xMeiko-samax.X – A lot of people are pitying Yuki and this chapter is only going to increase that. 5 Cookies.
DarkMetalAngel of Destruction – Thank you, I did and you were right.
Karusu-hime – Yes, I agree, Shuichi IS kicking ass, he is going to do more of that in future. 15 Cookies.
GravitationInnocence – Loved the review! I totally agree. Yuki will be in this chapter. I'm not sure if I can comply. We will see how it goes, it's up in the air and on a whim at the moment.
Mickiressa – Undoubtedly so, we could see the change from red to black, or at least I hope so.
The Lone Wolfcub Gang – You will see where the relationship stands in this installment. 5 Cookies.
Bitbyboth – Thank you, I agree, Yuki did have it coming, though maybe not all of it.
Noonsam – I love getting reviews like this! Thank you and I did go back and try to fix a few of the mistakes you mention.
DarkInuyashaangel101 – Updating now.
Now this chapter goes to Karusu-hime who got 15 cookies in one chapter by answering both my questions. 5 cookies will be added on at the beginning of the next chapter.
So you know if you get 50 cookies before the story is up I'll do one favor for you. For example… two chapters back to back, an epilogue, a one shot, or maybe even a whole new story – it doesn't even necessarily have to be in Gravitation.
Reaching Out For a Red Berry
Past
"I'll tell you now, I am one, very, Black, Berry." All the girl could do was nod shakily. Shuichi's eyes swept over the crowd and the bed room eyes he had worked so hard to achieve those three weeks were prominent making every person they caught on, melt. Then he continued back inside. The crowd let out a shrill scream. They took up his name in chant a moment later, those who could still breathe, that is.
Present
As Shuichi walked up the side aisle he couldn't help but smile at the screams assaulting his person. He commenced up the stairs to the stage and after a nod from Hiro and Suguru they approached the spot light. 'He we go'
The red light brought his outfit into shocking relief and the ladies drewled. Black and green leather. The pants and shirt were black and were only held together by stiff ties at the sides and they left white skin clearly visible in its contrast. The over coat was green and flattered Shuichi with its high collar and it swept the floor trench style.
He raised a gloved hand and grasped the mic. He took a deep breath and opened his mouth, only to let it out and speak before laughing at the climactic let down.
"Hello! How are my favorite fans?" Insert screams. "So before we start off I have to know…" Dramatic pause, "What do you think of my hair?" That did it.
The room exploded into yells of 'I love you Shuichi!' and 'Oh my fucking God you're so hott!' This was too good. 'Let's see if I can get more out of them'
"Yeah? Well what about my clothes?" God he felt like his ears would pop. "I see…so, you like it?" He stopped…'I guess they've had enough'
"Well if you're sure…" 'Alright, that's it, I'm done.'
The screams dulled and he began to sing.
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
He drug the mic down and curled into himself before pointing to the audience.
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong and no one understands you
He closed his eyes and faked a pained look.
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room with the radio on turned up so loud so that no one hears you screaming?
He grasped his throat and turned his face sideways away from the crowd.
No you don't know what it's like when nothing feels alright
No you don't know what its like to be like me
He lifted his left arm in the air and pointed down at himself.
To be hurt
He brought his hand down to grasp at his chest.
To feel lost
He looked around confused.
To be left out in the dark
As he sang this line all light left the room to focus solely on Shuichi.
To be kicked, when you're down
You feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
He forced a tear and loved their reactions.
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
He threw both his arms up into the air to encompass all and the crowd screamed at the small pause.
Do you wanna be somebody else?
He pointed to some random person in the mass at his feet.
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
He drew back with a swing of the mic like he was separating himself from the people.
Are you desperate to find something more before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
He spat the question loathingly to the hands grasping at him.
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies,
While deep inside your bleeding
He gestured to the crowd like he was pleading them to understand.
No you don't know what its like,
When nothing feels alright
No you don't know what its like, to be like me
He pulled the mic from its stand.
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
H started to pace and prowl to the front of the stage.
To be kicked, when you're down
You feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
He was within reaching distance and they jumped to touch him.
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
He jumped.
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy, but I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
He sang to the crowd, in the crowd.
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
You feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
They sang with him and it all became part of the rhythm.
To be hurt
To be lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
You feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
He made his way back through the mob toward the stage.
Welcome to my life.
Shuichi's fans were pushing in on him from all sides.
Welcome to my life
He grasped at the polished wood and heaved himself over the edge to sing the last line.
Welcome to my life
The song faded away and the cheering didn't.
Eventually it lessened enough for him to speak again. "Now I have a treat for you. How many of you saw my interview?" More screaming. "I thought so. Now what would you say if I told you that one of you out their will get to see Adrienne Bane Bastian face to face tonight?" They sounded like they were about to suffocate from lack of oxygen they were yelling so loud.
"Okay…now what would you say if I told you all of you would get to meet her?" 'This is going to be good.' "Would you like that?" He didn't even really need to ask, but what the hell. 'At least Dri will get a laugh out of it.'
I can't feel my senses
The voice filled the giant speakers and the crowd became silent as they searched for the female singer.
I just feel the cold
'Dri your voice sounds beautiful in this song.'
All colors seem to fade away
Quite suddenly she was spotted by a girl who let off a scream that sounded suspiciously like 'Oh My God! It's Adrienne Bane Bastian!'
I can't reach my soul
She was walking straight up the center aisle.
I would stop running,
If knew there was a chance
Adrienne was wearing nothing but a jade corset and a black skirt that silted to the waist.
It tears me apart to, sacrifice it all,
But I'm forced to let go
Her clear soprano had a profound effect on people and he was curious to see how the audience took it.
Tell me I'm frozen but what can I do?
She paused a few times to shake a hand here or there and in the males' case hers was kissed reverently.
Can't tell the reasons I did it for you
When lies turn into truth
I sacrificed for you
Adrienne was half way up to the stage and Shuichi caught the glint of what appeared to be a black strawberry hanging around her neck. No…there were two.
You say that I'm frozen but what can I do?
She continued to journey through the crowd and she seemed to float on astral wings.
I can feel your sorrow
It was his turn. And he sang the first line of the third stanza to Dri who was now almost at the foot of the stage.
You won't forgive me,
But I know you'll be all right
Adrienne was smiling as she alighted to the spot light.
It tears me apart that you will never know,
But I have to let go
She had her back to the throng as she stalked up to me.
Tell me I'm frozen but what can I do?
Can't tell the reasons I did it for you
We embraced in front of the swarm and they gave a great cheer.
When lies turn into truth
I sacrificed for you
After the next line they would trade off and he hoped his ears could handle the joyful cries.
You say that I'm frozen but what can I do?
'He we go.'
Everything will slip way
She started off and passed it to him.
Shattered peaces will remain
He responded
When memories fade into emptiness
Shuichi looked directly into Dri's face as she finished the line and handed it off.
Only time will tell its tale
If it all has been in vain
'Dri you looked positively anguished!'
I can't feel my senses
I just feel the cold
It was in unison now and their voices created the perfect harmony.
Frozen...
Dri held out her hand to Shuichi.
But what can I do?
He grasped it.
Frozen...
He pulled her close until her chest pressed against his.
Tell me I'm frozen but what can I do?
Can't tell the reasons I did it for you
They sang solely for each other the audience had completely faded away.
When lies turn into truth
I sacrificed for you
But that was why it was so powerful.
You say that I'm frozen,
He knew that their images were on a close up screen in front of the stage, but he didn't care, Dri had got him through so much, so what if the pack of fans could see the love on his face. Dri was his pillar, petite as she was.
Frozen...
They turned together to face the crowd and they saw tears streaming down the faces of people who had been touched by the song. Touched by Dri, touched by him.
"Everyone give a cry to Shuichi for writing that wonderful song!" What Dri wants, Dri gets and again the room was filled with noise. 'It's got to be the accent'
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Ryuichi was a little confused. What did the songs mean? The lyrics he could pick apart fine but the meaning was not so clear. He wasn't concerned nor were the emotions untrue so he really couldn't find fault in it…but…he just couldn't pin it down. Why had the meaning behind Shuichi's songs changed? When had it changed?
Oh well. Maybe he could sing with Shuichi now, he let that Adrienne girl on stage with him, not that she wasn't incredible! But this might make Shuichi more open to the idea. He'd have to ask him.
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Yuki Eiri sat alone on the floor of his house. His mind raced in every direction but it all seemed to come back to one thing. Shuichi.
'He's changed. He doesn't want me anymore. He has Adrienne Bane Bastian now. Why would Shuichi want me?'
He shook his head.
'Adrienne is better than me. She doesn't push him away. She's affectionate. She shows that she loves him. Adrienne is beautiful and talented. She is kind and generous. She makes time for Shuichi. Shuichi deserves someone like her.'
He gave a shaky smile to nothing in particular.
'I'll just have to get used to the thoughts of Shuichi smiling at her. And kissing her. And caring for her. Used to Adrienne getting his love and devotion. Adrienne sharing his achievements and dreams. Used Shuichi giving her his thoughts and time and them singing together. Them talking together and walking together. I'll just have to get used to Adrienne having everything I once had. Shuichi's heart, Shuichi's Soul, Shuichi's life, Shuichi's attention. Shuichi's body.
Yuki paused. He could already imagine them, in her mansion in France, making love. He could feel their passion, how they clung to each other. Could taste their desire to just be with one another. Could see their first son.
The muffled thump didn't register in Eiri's mind; he was to busy envisioning the short, smiling, strawberry haired boy. In his arms his little sister whose hair was pink but rapidly darkening at the roots to become her mothers color. The carpet was stained but that didn't come to attention either as wet clear substance rolled down his cheeks.
Eiri lifted his hand to wipe it away and only smeared it red. Bloody red.
"Eiri? Eiri open the door. Eiri!" The pounding came from a few feet away but he couldn't hear it. No time had stopped and yet he still hurt.
His vision turned hazy and he distantly thought that sleep might be a good thing, might take away the pain. Still the only substantial thought was of the light cherry haired boy.
"What's your name?"
The child giggled and responded shyly, "Eiri Bastian Shindou."
Eiri reached out a hand to the little boy, and fell.
Well there. That's it. Try to bear with me. Try not to be mad at Shuichi either; it's not really his fault. Anyway the next chapter will be posted soon and I hope you stay with me to read it. The sixth chapter will blow your mind with its total 180 twist on one of the relationships.
The songs were Welcome to My Life - Simple Plan, and Frozen - Within Temptation. Within Temptation rocks!
So 5 cookies to anyone who can guess whose relationship is going to change. 5 more if you can tell me how it will change. Review please to tell me what you think of the songs and vote on the new band name or to not have it change.
Names for voting…
Flush
Artificial Tears
Garnet
Anrui (Curtsey of Karusu-hime it means silent tears)
Your fucked up authoress, Kuro Tenka.